Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Cloudy on Saturday 24 October

Maybe I want to reminisce too much about every detail of that day, I wish I could write down every word I said, every action I made, every look in his eyes with Lu Bei that day.Even if you write a thousand words or ten thousand words, you will not feel tired.

That was the happiest time I had grown up.

I will never forget that it was June [-]th.My first day with him.The first day I broke up with him.

The whole process of opening the room was extremely smooth. The uncle of the hotel looked at Lu Bei's ID card very naturally, and then quickly registered us.

But I also noticed that Lu Bei opened a standard twin room with two single beds.

And I stood by the side, nervous and excited, thinking wildly in my mind, how could the uncle think that the two men would come to open a room in the middle of the night, and they would be lovers.

We are different from ordinary people of the same sex. We are a couple.

It is this kind of inexplicable little thing that is not worth mentioning, but it makes me have a different kind of pride and happiness.

Lu Bei, who had shared rooms with others countless times, was very indifferent. He could see the excitement in my eyebrows and said, "It's just staying in a hotel, why are you so excited?"

I was embarrassed to answer, so I just said, "What's the matter?"

After entering the room, I stood by the table and saw Lu Bei throwing the odds and ends on the table as if he had entered the house very naturally. He turned to me and asked, "You wash first and I wash first?"

I scratched the corner of the table, embarrassed: "You go first."

Lu Bei smiled and said, "Then you prepare, I will wash first."

I nodded awkwardly, thinking that heaven and man are at war, what did Lu Bei tell me to prepare?Is it well washed?

I didn't know what he was thinking at the time, so I stopped him suddenly, and without thinking about it, I asked, "Let's sleep in separate beds later?"

Lu Bei was taken aback for a moment, and smiled furiously, leaning against the door of the bathroom with his arms folded: "What's the matter? Go change to a big bed room now?"

He teased: "Usually I don't see that you are so hungry, don't give me any illness."

I was taken aback, took a step back in embarrassment, sat on the bed far from the bathroom, lowered my eyes and didn't know how to answer the frivolous words.

Lu Bei washed it very quickly, finished it in ten minutes, and came out steaming.He rubbed his short hair with a towel, revealing his muscular upper body and abdominal muscles, and the lower body was simply surrounded by a bath towel.

He was very meticulous: "You go. I adjusted the water temperature just right, you can just wash it."

"……it is good."

I usually talk a lot, but on that night, as if someone had tapped the dumb acupoint, I could only utter simple syllables.

Reddened by the heat wave on his body, I walked barefoot into the water vapor filled with Lu Bei's body temperature.

After closing the door, I saw that the toilet mirror was scratched to pieces by water marks, and I became nervous again, not knowing how to deal with myself.After all, everything happened so fast that I was too slow to react.

I turned on the nozzle, let the hot water prepared by Lu Bei wash my torso to my heart's content, and washed the key parts roughly, and then sat on the toilet for the next half an hour to do the psychological construction of breaking.

When I walked out, I thought about it. My four-pack abs had only vaguely formed, but they were not ready to show off to Lu Bei, so I put on short sleeves and walked to the bed in a rustling manner.

But I saw Lu Bei sitting at the table with a serious face, his hair was dry long ago, and he was tapping the piece of paper I put on the table with his fingertips.

He asked me, "What do you mean?"

I poked my head over to look, and it was my medical report.

"It's nothing," I pretended to be relaxed, "I want to tell you, I'm not sick."

He frowned: "Why do you carry this kind of thing with you?"

"Just let you rest assured."

Lu Bei fell silent.

It may be that this approach made him feel heavy, so I hurriedly said: "I have no other intentions, and I'm not afraid of any problems with you, I just want to let you not feel disgusted..."

"okay."

Before I could finish my sentence, he interrupted me.

I have never seen Lu Bei like this.

He got up, rummaged through his pants, took out a cigarette, lit it, and then said slowly: "You..."

Seeing that the situation was developing in a bad way, I hurried forward and took the piece of paper away: "I really don't mean anything else, even if I did something wrong, okay?"

Lu Bei held the inspection report tightly and did not let go. He suddenly asked, "How long do you think you can stay with me?"

I said, "How long is the time."

He sighed: "You are, you really like me."

I didn't let go, I was about to take the paper away, and responded to him firmly: "Yeah."

"Tsk," he thought for a while before saying, "people like us," he paused, and changed his words, "people like me don't really talk about long-term or not long-term."

I froze with my hands.

He said: "No matter how much everyone loves to death, not all of them end up getting married, getting married, having babies, and breaking up."

I let go, sat on the bed opposite him, and said, "Isn't it just that you can't get married? Isn't it just a piece of paper, is it important?"

He said: "It's an identity, it proves who you two are, isn't it important?"

He gradually exerted strength in his hands and crumpled the medical report into a ball.Then he looked straight at me, swallowing clouds and mist, choking me to tears.

I said, "It doesn't matter to me. I swear to you, as long as you want me, I will never leave you in my life."

Lu Bei smiled, a little tired, he shook his head: "You are too young, you don't understand."

He sighed: "Maybe I shouldn't be ignoring you, your life is still long, you should find a little girl, and it will be easier in the future."

I was stunned, leaned forward, and eagerly called his name: "Lu Bei, I didn't do this on a whim or because of passion, I'm different from your ex-boyfriends."

He took another breath, looked at me with a half-smile, and said, "We haven't known each other for long, so you don't need to rush to show your loyalty."

"no!"

I raised my voice: "No! Actually, I have known you for a long time!"

Lu Bei tilted his head, a little surprised.

Having reached this point, I simply flirted: "I still know... Shen Jing."

The moment I blurted out this name, I regretted it, because when I saw Lu Bei, who was still full of ease just now, his face turned gray all of a sudden.He was like a deflated balloon. These two words broke through all his external maturity and self-preservation, and turned into a sharp knife and pierced straight into his heart.

"I have worked so hard to like you, and I have come to this point, Lu Bei, my feelings for you are not necessarily less than your feelings for him." I repeated weakly: "I swear, I swear. I only need you Give me a chance, I can accompany you for a long time."

I got up and half knelt in front of his knees: "I can be like your dog, loyal, dedicated, and never leave you. As long as..."

As long as you are willing to.

Lu Bei didn't answer, and smoked hard.

I could clearly see that his eyes were red.

There was no more conversation in the room, and after waiting for a long time, I asked, "Then, for him, have you thought about the future?"

Lu Bei pursed his lips and closed his eyes for a long time.

I asked again: "Then do you love him?"

He finally said: "You are not talking nonsense."

I finally asked, "Then will you fall in love with me?"

He stopped talking.

After being silent for a long time, when the smoke burned out, he said vaguely: "I haven't thought about others."