[Twilight] Bright sunshine

I never knew wet weather could put me in such a bad mood, getting out of bed with bruises that looked scarier than the dark clouds overhead.Walking downstairs barefoot in a daze, I tell myself it's over, it's just a broken relationship, I dumped a vampire, just three days ago.I have no doubt that Caius wanted to cut off my hand, so that now my wrist is injured and the bandage cannot be removed. Maybe he wanted to break my legs and kill me directly. Carry it to the Volturi.

If he is Caius, I have reason to believe that he can do anything, and many times he has no such good qualities as friendliness and kindness.

When he was human, I would believe that he still has humanity, but unfortunately he is not even human, I really dare not expect anything.

Because of Alice's prophecy, the Cullen family all used a kind of white lie to deceive me. They thought that if I didn't accept Caius' love, I would face death in the end.

"That ending was brutal, Claire," Edward told me.

But they didn't really say anything, because I knew it three nights ago, I heard Rosalie's voice, and she said that if they told the truth, I would die.

Killed by Caius?

I walked to the middle of the stairs without looking sideways, staring blankly at the front, the out-of-focus sight made me even more unable to concentrate, and almost fell down.

The Karen family still intentionally concealed the cruelest ending. I only know that they might end all this with their own death because of their refusal.

And now I'd better not have any accidents, which would stimulate Caius' fragile nerves. If I dare to hurt him, he will be very happy, because he can finally break down as a matter of course, and rush directly to bite me.I moved slowly and walked into the kitchen. I saw my dark blue cupboard and white refrigerator. The green outside the window was so strong that I couldn't breathe.

I feel like I'm on the verge of falling apart too, and it's not as easy as it seems to dump someone you love so much.When he decided to leave him, his whole body was hollowed out, and the bright colors were lost wherever he could see, damn lovelorn.

Love, for me, is undoubtedly the best gift from this world to human beings.Caius must not know that the moment I knew I fell in love with him, the kind of touch from the deepest part of my life was enough to make me pay all the best prices in exchange.This kind of emotion is so pure and cannot be stained. I am not a vampire, but I know that my paranoid and frozen soul is more rigorous and rigid than a vampire.When I fell in love, I couldn't turn back, and I couldn't get myself out safely. The first and only love in my life.

Even if he knew he had been deceived, the result was no different.I've already emptied everything, it's like a gamble, I have lost so much that I have no strength to recover, and there is absolutely no chance to recover my losses in the future.

Hiss, I couldn't help frowning, my hands were sore from picking up the hot water bottle, so I had to put it down immediately.I started to unpack the outer packaging of the tea, which was sent by a Chinese believer, and the bottom layer was white rice paper.Speaking of which, I have not really contacted believers from all over the world for a long time, and many of my living habits have stagnated since I met Caius.

I started rinsing the china cup, the water accidentally wetted the bandage, I watched indifferently.He didn't want to roll up his sleeves at all, because the bruises underneath became dark purple and black with time, and the pale skin just gave this color a terrifying effect, which looked like flesh necrosis.

The tea leaves were floating in the white quilt, I silently poured out the first cup of tea, this simple action made my shoulders ache.In fact, the day after that night was the hardest. I didn't go to school, and went straight home and lay down on the bed.I felt extremely weak, both physically and mentally, and this weakness was made worse by too much sleep.Caius’s anger turned into worry. I didn’t want to face him, and fell asleep with the blanket pulled over my head. He forced me to eat. In fact, he really hates human food. Maybe it’s because my appearance is really horrible.

Half asleep, my eyes opened a slit and I saw him through my lashes.It was as if the world lost its original light, and he returned to the darkness again.

There was a lifeless expression, an indifferent to extremely sinister aura.

I want him to get out, get out of my life, and stop torturing me.

This kind of anger has accumulated little by little since knowing his deception, turning into an overwhelming pain.

He thought I was making a fuss, disliked his poor technique, and almost killed me.

The vampire and human sex | love is undoubtedly dancing with death, he seems not sure how many wounds he left on my body, even if his self-control has been strong to a certain level.

It's a despicable feeling, and his tolerance for my waywardness comes from his guilt for hurting me, even if it's just the last madness I plan on getting us over.

I leaned against the kitchen sink in a daze for a while, then slowly opened the kitchen door, and then slowly sat on the ground, holding a cup of warm tea and looking at the forest outside the door, the white mist enveloped Fox town.

God knows what he thinks, he loves me and I love him, and then he makes me live forever, happy ending.

What a stupid ending.He never seemed to be able to understand that when love is based on unscrupulous deceit, it is simply trampling the feeling.

He can save me because he loves me, and he can kill me because he loves me. There is no mercy, no understanding. He doesn't even give me a little room to make a decision. He doesn't even think we are equal.If I want to be with him, I almost don't need to think about it in the future, I will be tortured to death by him.He will make all the decisions for me, block me, and continue to be brutal in the name of loving me.

I can bear him for a year or two, but the vampire's time is eternal. This kind of madness accompanied by love will torture me forever, until the end of the world.shudder……

I remained expressionless for a while, then continued to take a sip of tea.

Ha, the tea tastes good.

I forced myself to eat a bowl of porridge, languishing, and staggered out again.I went to find my schoolbag, and washed my face in cold water again. God knows how scary it is to see that pale face in the mirror.It will take a while to get myself back together, at least to look normal, I'm decadent like a refugee.

There are still things that have not been resolved, Bella's matter, I have not forgotten the scene when Bella saw Edward pushing the car.Do you want to... change Bella?

This is such a difficult problem that I really want to smash the mirror.

I opened the door and went out, turned around accidentally, and saw Caius standing on the stairs looking at me.The shadow under his eyes is getting worse, his eyes are cold and sharp.

I've been ignoring him for three days, even though he's by my side all the time.

His patience is surprisingly good, so good that I feel weird.

Alice was waiting for me at the door. It was Jasper's car. Recently, Jasper's self-control has become much stronger. He doesn't have to worry about losing control and breaking the steering wheel because I'm in his car.

Even so, he seemed a little hostile towards me.I probably know that he hates my ignorance, and he thinks that I should hurry up and agree to change, so as not to drag Alice down.

I sat in the back seat with Alice, the windows all open, and my hair tied up.Alice held me in her arms like a fragile baby, and I heard Jasper's voice with my eyes closed.

"I smell war," he said.

Alice hissed immediately, "Jas."

"We should be prepared, Caius may lose control."

I opened my eyes immediately, and put my face against Alice's thin shoulders, and the cold made me wake up.

"No, I didn't see it." The blankness in Alice's eyes became more and more intense, and then she pondered a little sadly, as if she couldn't understand something.Her expression was very strange, and then she gradually became frightened. I was too close to her, and I saw every change of her expression so clearly, and she became very serious again, but the blank panic had not completely left her. "Claire's future is gone."

I sat up straight and looked at her suspiciously.

Alice looked at me, as if she didn't see me, she muttered to herself, "Unbelievable, you disappeared, Claire."

Jasper turned her head and stared at me vigilantly, as if I had suddenly turned into a monster, ready to eat Alice at any moment.We had already entered the campus, and the moment Jasper stopped the car, he opened the door and rushed out. He probably still couldn't stand the smell of me.Alice led me down hurriedly, and I saw Caius' Ferrari just stopped, and he kept following us.

In the past few days, he has been cautious to me to the point of being frightening, and endured me ignoring and avoiding him. He must have no concept of breaking up in his heart.

Alice pulled me to find Edward, Jasper returned behind Alice with his hands behind his back, and the few of us walked quickly to the corridor.Edward didn't look much better than I did, sullen and tense, the book crumbling to pieces in his hands.

"What's the matter, Alice, when did you not see it?" He glanced at me worriedly, then said strangely, and then asked himself in a schizophrenic manner, "This morning? So can others see it?" ? Yes, the biology class teacher will fall at the door of the classroom because the insole is broken later. It's unprecedented, and your ability has never been out of control like this. Claire, what do you think?"

"Very good." I replied without energy, so haggard that I couldn't see what was good.

"You are driving yourself crazy, Caius has decided to transform you, and no one can stop him." Edward's eyes were full of frustration and pain, his voice was mixed with heavy breathing, and it sounded as weak as an injured person . "And now Alice loses your future, it sounds like an invitation to death. He is very dangerous, and his heart..." Edward pursed his lips a little twisted, "It's all about your passion, and Crazy possessive. You let him have a night in heaven, and then sent him straight to hell. And, by the way, destroy my room."

"I'll give you all of Jason's collection. I'm sorry, Edward. I didn't know it would develop like that." If I knew Caius' power would be so violent, I wouldn't dare to seduce him if I killed him.

"It's all pop music." Edward couldn't help complaining, "There's also a lot of country music. You insist on training me to be a vulgar three-legged cat music taster."

"Vulgar?" I looked at him a little angrily, "You are simply prejudiced. Excellent music has no distinction between categories and national boundaries. You should change your old-fashioned thinking."

"Are you sure you want to discuss music at such a tense moment?" Jasper said coldly. To him, Edward and I were nothing special.

"Then go ahead and discuss your damn future, you love him, Claire." Edward tried hard not to show his hideous face, the word love in his mouth almost became a monster that cannibalized people. "Then you plan to leave him, I can understand, because you don't have the confidence to be with him forever."

"Why?" Jasper wasn't really curious, he just felt the need to collect some information about me.

Alice took his arm, trying to make Jasper less aggressive.

"Break up if you don't get along. This is not a normal love process." I hate talking about this kind of topic, and the overly intense emotions make me feel uncomfortable again. Be prone to fluctuating emotions.It seems that the sequelae of a broken relationship are really serious, even the body seems to be sick.

"Break up with a vampire who loves you? I have to admit, you have a very stupid bravery." Jasper stared ahead, his steps were steady, his expression tense.It feels like he's back in the army and he's in charge of taking out his enemies.

I hope I'm not his enemy, I'm confused again, inexplicably tired, losing strength at such a speed that no amount of sleep can make up for it.I heard my own sad voice, "Because I've run out of options, I can't think of any perfect ending."

One that could make the story go forever and represent a happy ending.

I have tried my best to plan, but there is no chance of success.

"Go and talk to Caius, Claire, maybe you can change him." Edward stopped in his tracks as soon as he finished speaking, and he began to freeze himself, looking more ruthless than ever.

"Should I convince him to become a vegetarian? He doesn't care about any human life, and I can't tolerate it. Edward, this is my bottom line. As a human being, I can't shake my belief, even love can't change it." I followed and stopped , all stopped moving forward.No one made a sound. In the silence, only my words were as harsh as a broken cup on the ground.

Caius stood in front of us, coming around the corner from the front corridor.He heard what I was saying clearly, and I couldn't tell what kind of storm he was in, because he seemed indifferent, and his brows and eyes began to soften as he stared at me.His eyes were abnormally dark, reminding me of the night without any stars and moonlight.

I think back to the Volturi, when I was scared of him.I feel that it is impossible for me to fall in love with this kind of man in my whole life. I am afraid that I will not know myself until the end. What I am afraid of is the future that will die at any time, or I will still fall in love with him.

And now, everything I feared has come true.

I said to Edward in my heart, don't follow me.He froze for a moment, hesitated for a few seconds, and then stood still and let me walk over.

I could feel Caius finally taking a brief break from those raging dark torrents as I walked away from Edward and the others and walked slowly towards him.He seems so eager for me to keep approaching him, hoping that I can treat him as the only way, and don't leave when I step on it.

I let him stay in hell for three days, maybe more because I was deliberately revenge for his deception.So as soon as he woke up and returned to his senses, he didn't hesitate to kick him away, and it was best to continue to lose his memory.

I really want to tell him that not only is he being driven crazy by me, but I'm about to be driven crazy by him too.

He seemed to be eager to take two steps forward and grabbed my arm. I flinched, and he immediately relaxed his strength, so light that it was almost like air.The bruises on my body that didn't go away quickly were scary, and I think he was intimidated by his own strength.And I look very distracted, maybe the hospital is the place I should go if I can.

I suddenly wanted to say something to him.

Caius, you go back, we will only torture each other when we are together.

Caius, this love is wrong, why should you suffer this wrong forever.

I am only a human being, but you are a hunter who reaps life.

I am in pain...

Really...

This kind of inner monologue that is too tragic, I dare not speak, I even hope that no one will hear it, it is too weak and incompetent.I am afraid that when I speak, I will cry.

"Are you angry that I lied to you?" Caius held my wrist, he stared at the bandages on it, then he pulled up my sleeve and stroked the bruise on my wrist.He looked very uncomfortable, sliding his cold fingertips along the different shades of color. "But this is my favorite plan, Claire. You won't be human forever, so don't reject me for those fragile lives. Yes, I don't care about those things, I only care about you."

When he said this, it was so soft, and his expression was close to holy, making it impossible to blame him for his cruelty.

Human life is not worth a penny in his eyes, and he never hides this idea.

I tried to withdraw my hand, and Caius hugged me tightly in the next second, and he said in my ear: "I caught a few clowns, dirty criminals." His tone was a little smug, It's a little childish to show off.

The criminal—my first thought was that he had Bella.

His body trembled, and he immediately wanted to reach out and strangle him to death, and then felt that the number was wrong, and it was impossible for Bella to be a few.

His strong arms went around my armpits, and my legs felt empty, and Edward yelled, "Don't do anything you regret, Caius."

He had already hugged me and disappeared into the corridor like a hurricane. Fortunately, there was no one in the classroom after class.

We rushed into the forest, the leaves, branches and moss flowed rapidly, and there was no human habitation in the dark depths of the forest.The damp rotting leaves and dark green ferns make this place look even more desolate.He finally stopped, and the overnight rainwater accumulated in the cracks of the leaves, falling from time to time.Dmitri wore a gray cloak, he wore a hood, and his bright red eyes cast a murderous look in the shadows.

Alec is also dressed in the same way, except that the color of his cloak is black.Leaning against a big tree surrounded by three or four people, he stretched out his hands, and the mist of death diffused from his palms.

Two men fell beside another tree in a strange and twisted posture. They all looked very thin, with pale skin and deep red eyes. They were vampires.Alec's abilities trapped them.

Caius put me down, and he looked at the two immobile vampires with a haughty attitude.He walked over steadily, with a look of nostalgia and sarcasm on his face.

"Dear Stephen and... Vladmir." Caius came to the two emaciated vampires, the mist retreated, and finally Alec took them back.

Dmitry came to me, he gave me a friendly smile, and then looked at Caius in silence.

"We haven't seen each other for a long time. It seems that the days of exile are not bad, at least the dirty criminal thoughts in your hearts have not been wiped out." Caius looked down at them from a height, and his cold smile made him look particularly dissatisfied kindness.

"Hey, I heard that you hang out with some human beings. Of course I have to come and take a look. It would be our honor to see your weak side." The black-haired vampire looked at Caius with hatred, He laughed grimly, and suddenly turned his eyes to look at me, the dangerous and vicious emotion in his eyes was so obvious.

Dmitri stood in front of me, muttering softly, "Romania."

It was Romania, a group of murderous and crazy vampires, Caius had said before.It seems that he did not lie, he looked very cruel.

"Look at digging out your eyes." Caius kicked over and stepped on the black-haired vampire's chest. I heard a cracking sound, and then the vampire howled in pain.

I was wrong, the most vicious one was actually Caius.

Caius was still there whispering to them, "If you continue to run away and hide in the rat hole, I don't bother to bother you. As a waste loser who witnessed the glorious rise of the Volturi, don't you think Is this the only value you have left?"

"The Volturi will eventually perish. Sooner or later, you will suffer the consequences yourself, or you will be overthrown by a greater force." Another grey-blond haired vampire laughed shrilly, indescribably miserable.

Caius was not irritated by them at all, he even stared at them with a pitiful expression. "That's all." He muttered to himself in disappointment, a little aggrieved that he actually grabbed these things.

Then he turned his head and asked, "Is there another one? The informer."

"He tried to escape, I killed him." Alec reported without any emotion.

"A nigga named Laurent, he wanted to join the Volturi, so he leaked your identity to the Romanian remnants. The guy thought that after Romania caught you, he could pretend to be the finder and tell us , use this as a contribution to join our team." Dmitry whispered to me, and he sneered disdainfully, "You are really stupid, you are really dangerous, Claire."

"They hate Caius?" It looked like they still hated Caius, and I noticed that the two vampires had a strange attachment to me, a fanatical killing intent.

Dmitry did not answer, he spread his hands to express that he was unclear or unable to speak.

"Did you tell Aro?" Caius casually pointed out his index finger, Alec nodded, and then the fog surrounded the place again.

"capital punishment."

I heard this sentence. When he said it, the ending sound had a strange sticky feeling, as if he was talking sweet words to the god of death.My eyes were already covered by his hand when these words sounded, and he was standing behind me with one arm around my waist.Putting his face against the skin of my neck, he said to me softly: "Don't look." His tone was so light that he was afraid of waking up a beautiful dream.

Only then did I realize that my whole body was stiff, and I heard his slight breathing, followed by the sound of flames burning.

I know those two vampires were burned to death, and Caius wouldn't let me see that, but he didn't let me go either, he didn't seem to have the heart to let me go.

When there was no sound of flames, the silent forest fell silent.Caius said slowly: "That is my enemy, Claire. You are too tempting to them, because their partner died in the war with us. So kill you to destroy my plan What a wonderful outcome for this group of rebels. If you die, then my heart will be like those two guys, only hatred for the person who killed you. I will go crazy Take revenge on the enemy who took your life, and then... I will not be able to live in the world without you."

I was suffocated, and in the darkness, his voice seemed to hit my heart directly.

"If I die, you can still live. And if you die, then no one can keep my life. This is the biggest difference between the love between humans and vampires."

He spoke very flatly, and rubbed my arteries easily, my pulse was speeding up, as if my heart was beating nervously because of his words.

"Territory, Enemy, Justice, Honor, Blood—this is my life." He didn't let go of my eyes, so I couldn't see his expression, only the growing cruelty in his voice.

"I can't change, the weak are crawling under my feet. My genes and instincts are telling me that I crave blood. This is undoubted common sense. Why should I love human life like that pervert in Carlisle? That's for me Doesn't make any sense, even when I was human, I was king and everyone had to get down on their knees and kiss my toes."

Old Antique, I suddenly wanted to laugh, but found that I couldn't.

"If I knew from the beginning that you would be my life, then I would not scare you. You drove me crazy, you made me start to fear when I see human veins now, fear because of murdering one more insignificant person , and make you disgusted. But just imagining the blood of animals makes me sick, and I will never agree with Carlisle's idea, it is impossible."

It seemed to deprive him of the inherent arrogance in his body and break his noble head.

I reached out and covered the back of his hand that shaded my eyes, and I found myself weeping, tears that had lost all warmth and turned cold as they flowed from between his fingers.

"You make me fearful. I've never been so weak. But you make me strong. I'll hold on to the Volturi seat of power, because I must be strong enough to protect you. Even Even the burning desire for blood can't hurt the despair of losing you, and I will not accept such absurd things as you wanting to leave me, even if it is by any means."

His love is not pure at all, without the spirit of sacrifice and devotion, but full of fanaticism that deceives and destroys the dark prison.

"Okay, Claire, don't torture me anymore, you have achieved your goal, you make my life worse than death."

He said helplessly and weakly that it was not easy for him, so he would not let me have the opportunity to open my eyes and see him at this moment.

I was tired again, very, very tired, and it reminded me of my struggles in a hospital bed in a previous life.I fell back quietly on Caius' chest, his hand still over my eyes, and my face was already turned up, to the sky.

Then I said calmly: "I used to think this way. When I met him, I suddenly found that this world is really wonderful. I will thank this world for giving me the greatest kindness. It allows me to meet what I want. The person I love. No matter how dark and hopeless my life is, whether my life will end in the next moment, his existence will become my sunshine."

But what you brought me was the longest night.

"I will always love and protect him and there will be no lies between us."

But your lies exist all the time.

"We understand each other and respect each other."

But you don't need to understand and respect me, you just need to imprison me.

"When he is next to me, I feel like it's a miracle, he's going to be my angel."

But even if you have two wings, you are still a devil, which is not so much a miracle as a disaster.

"He is my only love and my happiness."

But it hurts me to meet you...

"I have died." I said in a trembling voice, and the fingers covering the back of his hand trembled too.

Caius couldn't help tightening my grip, he quickly refuted me, "Impossible."

"Do you know how long I have struggled? Do you know how long that so-called meaningless human being in your eyes has struggled to survive in the hospital bed?"

Do you know how long I struggled to stay alive?

Caius' breathing stopped, as if he had died suddenly.

"Everyone gave up, but I didn't give up." I told myself not to give up, my life hadn't started yet, I lost my family, but I still had friendship and love to look forward to.

"I want to live, I want to stand in the sun in a healthy way, I love this world." So I put in all the effort I can, even if the doctor tells me that there is no hope, I can't give up.

"That's not meaningless, my life is not meaningless." I will meet people I love, people who love me, and I pray they will be with me.

"Caius, I am in pain."

Everything I love means nothing to you.

You make me love so painfully.

The author has something to say: Bella's pregnancy time is probably more than 25 days, probably.Then she seemed to notice the abnormality two weeks later, I don't know if I remembered correctly.