[Twilight] Bright sunshine

Everything seemed to settle, as if we hadn't been deceiving, and he wasn't a murderer.He might still be called Rick Doyle, and he's my new classmate.

We have never been in love, all beautiful encounters are as simple as the plot of the movie, and the end is the end.If I really dare to believe that... Caius will definitely kill me.

My tears bought myself some time, and he allowed me to think about graduation, which, in Edward's words, was the limit of what he could bear.He is a cruel lover, even if he wants to suffer, he will pull me to suffer together, and he will never let me leave happily to live my own single life.

We returned to a dangerous and delicate balance. I didn't sit in his car or talk to him, and lived a normal life unique to human beings with a paralyzed face.He still follows me, and he has been like this since the day he came to school, being my deskmate, and helping me with my homework when I sleep for no reason, it is as simple as a breath for him.In the middle of the night, they would come to my room to watch me sleep, or bring me a lot of music.

I stuffed those CDs in the bookcase with Jason's.Many times I would look at those CDs among the books and silently stare for a while.

The bruises on his body were slowly fading, fading away with the dull days and cold rain.I found that I seemed to be getting more and more tired. I couldn't explain what it was like, but I was very tired, but I didn't think there was any major problem with my physical condition. At least I didn't reduce the amount of food for three meals.Overeating without depression, or overeating in pain.

It may be that the pressure is too great, and the state of going to bed early and waking up late and taking naps often is within the range I can tolerate.

I've talked to Carlisle before, about vampire love.

"There is nothing that affects our emotions more than love. It is a gift. We are almost frozen over time. Whether it is age or personality, no amount of years can change us." Carlyle When he said it, tenderness and nostalgia existed at the same time, and his eyes were full of incredible happiness. "But when I met the destined person, I clearly found that beautiful feeling at that moment, which changed me. I found myself becoming more mature, powerful, and sleeping like a stone in my heart. I thought those things would never be The feelings that cannot be revived, like a bolt of lightning, shattered all my rigid shells, and they all woke up one after another, and even bloomed brilliant flowers."

"Esme." I put the name in my mouth, a precious name.

"Yes, Esme." Carlisle repeated softly, Esme was his flower.

"Esme." He stroked the name again in admiration, "I love her, nothing can change this fact, but this unchangeable fact can change my whole being. This is the second time, and it may be the only A growth, a change, a metamorphosis. She changed me, let me know the true meaning of life, and when she fell in love with me, I thanked God again. For a vampire, love is the only thing he can encounter in eternity. to the best of things.”

Carlisle looked down at his hands, which were hands that had saved countless people. "I love my job, and I have countless hobbies, but these things are insignificant in front of eternity. You can be enthusiastic in 100 years, and you will take it for granted in 200 years. You may feel boring after 500 years. 1000 in 1 Years later, you will feel that if you can die, you are grateful to God. But if Esme can always be by my side, then I can go on fearlessly in any situation, even if it takes a long and terrifying time, it will not be able to defeat me. "

This is their love.With my shallow and ignorant life experience, I can hardly imagine how precious it is.

Maybe human beings can't understand their love at all. Even if you are experiencing love, you can't really understand the difference between your love and a vampire's love.

"Maybe you can change him, if you've made up your mind." Carlisle looked at me suddenly, his eyes were peaceful, without prejudice and sadness. "You can make him more tolerant, you can make him less bloodthirsty, and you can make him understand the best things in this world. Because one day, long time will take away all the feelings, hobbies and emotions of a vampire. And many aspects of his fierce personality, he will turn to stone because of exhaustion. And love is the only thing that time cannot take away. If you get the love of a vampire, it means that you become the center of the vampire's world. You are His only support point, as long as you exist, he exists."

"I thought you'd have more fun." I rubbed my temples wearily, the emotion sounding horribly devoted.

"Even if I spend ten years playing chess, and another ten years doing puzzles, these entertainment facilities will end in eternity one day, and any entertainment method will be the same." Carlisle said with a smile. He actually looks very optimistic. At least his mood seems to be much more mature than that of Caius.

I suddenly became curious about a question that I seemed to be confused about. "Do you know...how old is Caius?"

"Nineteen." Carlisle replied calmly.

I looked at him silently, and Carlisle's smile remained unchanged. He didn't seem to think there was anything wrong with this answer.

"Well, he is a 19-year-old teenager who knows the three masters of the Renaissance. It is said that he did a lot of things in BC, such as helping people construct some monumental buildings."

Moreover, he looks like a slave leader who traveled from a slave society, and his brain structure cannot be educated by modern people.

"He and Aro, Marcus established the Volturi, and also established the original legal system in our world." Carlisle thought for a while before saying slowly.

That sounds excellent, though I don't know why Carlyle would popularize this history with me.

"And this set of laws has a history of 500 years."

Which means Caius is at least [-] years old... that sounds really ancient.

"And before the law was enforced, Caius lived with his companions in Volterra."

I nodded in agreement with Carlisle's words. During the time in Volterra, I knew that it was Caius' lair, and the buildings there were all antiques.

"If I remember correctly, he should have controlled the city of Volterra for 3000 years." Carlisle hesitated for a while, and then said: "Of course, some history still cannot know the exact time, but this is probably I know the earliest time they existed."

In other words, that guy is at least three thousand years old. I couldn't help but take a deep breath. I had to imagine what three thousand years old was.

Damn - old enough to be my ancestor!

China 3000 years ago was still Xia, Shang and Zhou. How could he look so three thousand years old... so wise and steady?Even if the age is fixed, it is fixed too thoroughly.Even 3000 years can't change him. Where does my confidence come from? Just relying on love can make him kind and mature, and even make him a little more tolerant. In his eyes, Carlisle is still a pervert.

"He's still young, Claire," said Carlisle, sincerely.

"Looks like it." If he's referring specifically to appearance, I won't deny it, it's just too young.No wonder his brain is so stubborn, he's just a super oldie.

"And you've got him alive again, and he's completely shaken off the tired heaviness of those hours, which makes him look more like a newborn."

It sounds like he'll have more energy to mess around with, which isn't good news at all.

"Are you okay?" Carlisle asked suddenly worried.

I was in a trance for a while, and nodded strangely, "It's okay." Except for sleeping a little longer, I don't think there is anything wrong with me recently.

Carlisle still looked at me with concern, "You look a little tired."

"Maybe spring is coming, so spring sleepiness is early." I yawned and said nonchalantly.

"Really?" Carlisle still looked a little worried. He probably got an occupational disease of being too cautious because he had been a doctor for too long.

"I'm fine." I said firmly.

Later, I met Jasper and Alice again. Maybe it was because I looked really bad, and I was depressed and lifeless under the inexplicable pressure.When I chatted with them about vampire love, Jasper didn't walk away.

They looked at each other affectionately. If this kind of staring is not interrupted, I believe they can watch it for a century without getting tired of it.

"You are my hope." As if involuntarily, Jasper showed a bright smile, his voice full of irrepressible gratitude.

Alice stared at Jasper with such deep eyes, she also said softly: "It is my destiny to meet you, and I know that no one can change this fact."

It's really sweet, no one can deny that they are really a match made in heaven.

And then Emmett, Ross is his angel, that's what he told me.

gift.hope.destiny.Angel.

That sounds like the source of all the vampire light, their love affair.

But I always feel that Caius is going crazy because he is in love with me. He doesn't seem to think this is a gift or a hope, it's more like a tortured hell.

I made him miserable, no doubt about it.

Even if he changes me, he can't be happy, even if his love for me remains the same.

As long as I don't identify with him, this man will suffer forever.

When I woke up in the middle of the night and looked at the ceiling stupidly, I suddenly felt like I had lost my memory, and I was so dazed that I couldn't find any goals.The sound of rain came muffled from outside the window, and I didn't quite know where my life would go if I were to shed my human identity at this moment.University is not necessary, work is useless, I don't have to work hard for life, and I don't have hobbies and dreams that can support me to go on forever. Living is like dying-this is the result of vampires getting old.

Their appearance will not change, but their spirit will wither.

A cold hand caressed my face, and Caius leaned closer to me. The darkness covered all the light, and I couldn't see his expression.He moved very carefully, not daring to leave any bruises on my body.

"You don't need to be in such pain." His voice was extremely low, a little distant in the vague sound of rain.

I looked at him puzzled, although I couldn't see his face clearly, I could only vaguely see his dark outline and some shadows of scattered hair.

"I don't care if you kill me, I can even tell you [-] ways to use human power to kill a vampire who loves you willingly." He had a kind of easy smile, as if he said It's about going on a date with me, not how to commit suicide.

I thought I was still in a dream, his breath surrounded me, and I couldn't help trembling, because I couldn't imagine how he died.

"Is this scary? But if you didn't do it, then I can't guarantee that I won't resist. The simplest thing is flame. I have the most flammable substance in my body. This substance can make my body movement more flexible. As long as it encounters a fire, it will automatically ignite, and it will not stop until I turn into a pile of ashes." He helped me pull up the quilt while talking, stretched his fingers into the quilt, found my hand, and intertwined my fingers.

We are so close, breathing intertwined, alternating hot and cold.

"When I turn into a pile of white ashes, you can get rid of me, a demon who is destined to haunt you forever." He spoke seductively, calmly and coldly.

"Don't be kidding, Caius." I finally came to my senses and said to him incredulously.

"I don't think it's a joke, my dear Claire, what you're doing now is no different, killing me at once or slowly torturing me to death, which always sounds crueler. You're torturing yourself Torture me, you live in darkness and I can't see the light." Caius raised his head, not knowing where to look, I saw his gloomy eyes were extremely fierce. "You keep yourself weak, maybe you can commit suicide in front of me before graduation, is this your strategy?"

I have no idea where his conspiracy theory comes from, he thinks I'm trying to kill myself?

Caius grabbed my hand and tightened suddenly, his face became grim, "Maybe I shouldn't give you hope, the ghost knows that your human identity is so fragile that I want to go crazy."

I tried to pull my hand back. I was afraid that he would not be able to control my strength and break my bones. Caius' mood seemed to be getting more and more fluctuating. He tried to restrain himself, although he didn't seem to be successful.But this meaningless action was misinterpreted by him again, and he held on tighter, as if someone wanted to take away his important things from him.

"Cairus." I called him feebly. Do I really look that bad?As bad as a terminal depression patient? "I'm just a little tired, I'll be fine in a few days."

"Are you going to be okay?" His tone twisted strangely, sounding rather disapproving.

This suspicious and terminally ill guy, I blinked sleepily, very listless, it seems that I should pay attention to my overall health, at least not to make others look like I am lifeless.I was silent for a while, which was more like a daze, and finally I sighed and asked: "I heard that you are three thousand years old." The correct statement should be, at least three thousand years old.I really don't have the courage to seriously verify with Carlisle, I am worried that he is actually [-] years old.I never thought that the first man who pursued me would be so much older than me—maybe I am not as old as the fraction he put on the end?

Caius obviously paused, and then he asked indifferently, "You care about these things? It's just irrelevant."

I very much doubt whether he really doesn't seem to care that much, "You've lived so long, haven't you met something more important than love?"

"If love refers to you..." He sneered and said very persistently, "I'm very sure that even in the future, I will never meet someone more important than you."

"Your life is really boring." I complained angrily, how did vampires develop such a weird outlook on life?And not only Caius, basically the vampire couples I know love first.This feeling binds them more deeply than anything else.

"So you're pitying me?" he said grimly.

There is nothing in you that seems to require others to pity you, but there is a lot of hatred.

I wanted to turn around uncomfortably, but he let go of my hand immediately, and I curled myself up, very tired, Carlisle may have read it right, this feeling of being too tired to hold on may really be abnormal.

"Cairus, I'm a vegetarian." Like Carlyle, this was a line I couldn't cross.

I was too tired to continue arguing with him, and I wanted to sleep forever.I told myself so be it, happy ending, who knows?

Maybe... maybe we'll have a lot of time.Maybe I could become his angel or a boon or something, and in the slightest hope, I could get his approval, or I could change him...at least make him understand that life isn't mean.

The moment I closed my eyes, I heard the trembling voice of Caius, who said, "As you wish."

Carlisle is a pervert, and I am also a pervert, no wonder he looks so patient that he is about to violently kill someone.

I can't empathize with his pain at all, and I feel even more disgusted when he kills.

Before I fell asleep, I quickly added, "Let's talk about it after graduation." It will be at least a year before I graduate, and I am very worried that he will not be able to resist biting me when I fall asleep.

It's a pity that I didn't hear his promise, because a wave of dizziness swept over me. This feeling made it difficult for me to breathe, mixed with some inexplicable sadness.Caius noticed my unusualness sensitively, "Claire?"

The darkness took away my sight, and I couldn't hear anything anymore.

Only the sound of my own breathing came from an unknown place in the body, vibrating.

It was as if something... suddenly appeared inside me, and the sound of his heartbeat was with me.

But I was powerless to search, and even normal breathing became a heavy burden.Very tired, so tired that the internal organs are about to burst into pain.

Caius quickly hugged me, my appearance made him furious, and I heard my weak pleading.

"Go to Carlisle..." The fragmented voice, I couldn't understand whether it was clearly expressed.I don't want to convert now, even if I'm sick, I haven't dealt with everything, haven't said goodbye to Charlie, haven't finished high school... I have too many things left to do, I don't want to be a vampire.

"Please." I was almost silent.

Then there was a loud noise, Caius seemed to kick something, and in a blink of an eye it was flowing at lightning speed.

With the last of my strength I reached out and grabbed his shirt, my fingers touching his heart.Long hours take away all of a vampire's emotions, hobbies, and many aspects of his intense personality, and he turns to stone from exhaustion.Only love will remain.

Then can I expect that one day you will get tired of all the cruel games and nature and turn around to see me.You can be more forgiving for me - you will be my sunshine.

"You'd better be safe, Claire."

I heard his painful threat, "Otherwise I will take back your human vacation, let alone a year, I won't wait for a second."

The author has something to say: To be honest, Cavin is really not something I can write if I want to.Facing the keyboard all afternoon may not have a word... Covering your face, it seems useless to say these things.

crawl away...