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While sorting out the meeting materials, Xu Xiaotian wondered what Tan Zhe's words meant, why did he push himself to a dead end?Didn't Dad push him over here?

Or...was the coming out really too impulsive?There is no room for parents.Xu Xiaotian stretched on the seat, the pain in his arms and ribs came again, he frowned, he didn't know how his mother was doing now, he didn't dare to just call and ask his mother, he was afraid that it would irritate him again She will get heavier.

Xu Xiaotian stood up and walked into Tan Zhe's office. Tan Zhe was eating an egg tart. Seeing him coming in, he handed one over: "Do you want to eat?"

"...No." Xu Xiaotian has no appetite, and he has no habit of eating during working hours, "Manager Tan, I want to ask for a few days off after Boss Xiao's session is finished."

"Go home to see your mother?" Tan Zhe stuffed the egg tart into his mouth, licked his fingers and looked at him.

"Ah."

"A few days."

"Uh, maybe..." Xu Xiaotian calculated in his heart, he would stay at home for two days, but he would need three or four days on the road, and it would take a week. As an intern employee, he didn't know if he would take a week off. It will scare Tan Zhe.

"Three days." Tan Zhe said vaguely.

"Three days? Three days is not enough for me to go back and forth..."

"airplane."

"No money."

"Find a way to report it to you. You can go to the finance department to borrow money first, and I will report it to you when you come back."

Xu Xiaotian didn't speak, logically speaking he should thank Tan Zhe for being so humane to him with tears in his eyes, but reason told him that this is not the treatment an intern would get.

"What's wrong?" Seeing that he didn't respond, Tan Zhe asked.

"I want to know," Xu Xiaotian hesitated, "Why?"

"what why."

"Do you do this to every employee?"

"Bullshit," Tan Zhe stood up, closed the blinds, closed the office door, turned around and smiled at Xu Xiaotian, and leaned against him, "Why do you think it is?"

Xu Xiaotian looked at Tan Zhe who was about to stick to him, and was horrified instantly. He took a step back and found that there was a file cabinet behind him. He could only try to stick himself on the file cabinet, hating that he was not as thin as a mobile phone film like Chen Zhiyu : "Manager Tan... I just don't know why I asked you..."

Tan Zhe laughed, and took another step forward. Xu Xiaotian discovered that there was a very inconspicuous dimple on the left side of Tan Zhe's face...but he soon felt that it was very inappropriate for him to calmly digress in the face of this situation. It should be done, so he took a step sideways, and when he was about to dodge, Tan Zhe's words made him freeze on the spot.

"Dive into you." Tan Zhe looked at him with his hands on the file cabinet, and the words came out of his mouth with a smile.

Xu Xiaotian felt that his hair was standing on end, and his roots were shouting, fuck it!What a fucking world, what a fucking world!

"...Dive?" Xu Xiao was almost out of breath. He couldn't see the smile on Tan Zhe's face, but he still struggled to say, "Then just fire me."

"Yo," Tan Zhe raised his eyebrows, stared at him for a long time, and suddenly laughed, "You really..."

Seeing the playful smile on his face, Xu Xiaotian understood immediately: "Fuck you and play with me!"

Tan Zhe returned to the back of his desk with a happy smile, supported the desk with his hands and smiled for a long time before watching him slowly open his mouth: "You are quite like me before."

Xu Xiaotian didn't bother to listen to what he said, and sat down on the sofa, thinking about whether he had a pitiful face like a good woman who was molested just now.

"Some things, if you don't ask, I will definitely not tell you," Tan Zhe sat down and crossed his hands on his chest, "But if you ask, it doesn't matter if I tell you, I like to do things on the bright side .”

"Ah."

"80.00% of what I do is based on my feelings, and it's the same with employing people. If you treat me well, I want to keep you and treat you better. Just remember," Tan Zhe said slowly, "Where are you? God, when you are sitting in my seat, I don't have to worry about whether the marketing department can cooperate with the work..."

"I'm still an intern... I'm still more than 8000 miles away from your seat..." Xu Xiaotian didn't know what Tan Zhe meant.

"Not long after, the hotel's vice president in charge of marketing will leave next year."

Xu Xiaotian raised his head to look at Tan Zhe, understood what he meant, and his heart twitched violently. Isn't it too confident for Tan Zhe to say this clearly now?

"Don't worry about anything else, just do it well. I just want to remind you that feelings are feelings, and work is work. You can ask for leave to deal with your affairs, but as long as you are sitting in the office, you'd better think about it. Focusing on your work, doing the market, if you don't get results, everything is fart," Tan Zhe lit a cigarette, "Do you understand?"

"Maybe you have to think about it to understand..."

"Think about it, go to the finance department to borrow money tomorrow, you will go back after Xiao Weize's meeting is over, and then come back to me quickly, you will start to worship next week."

"Mobai is not just running insurance..."

"Do you think there is any essential difference between being in the hotel market and running insurance?"

Tan Zhe watched Xu Xiaotian leave the office thoughtfully, smiled, and stretched his legs under the desk.

Xu Xiaotian's reaction just now reminded him of himself back then, very similar...but there is still a fundamental difference, right? At least he never said "then just fire me", maybe this is why he felt sorry for him. Xu Xiaotian always has a reason to look forward to it.

Xu Xiaotian basically controlled his emotions according to Tan Zhe's request all afternoon. When he was working, he tried not to think about things that upset him and made him lose his mind. time to meet...

It's just that when it was time to get off work, the emotions he had been holding back all afternoon suddenly exploded. He rushed down to the locker room, changed his clothes in almost two minutes, and then continued to rush towards the back door of the hotel.

When running through the parking lot, he almost bumped into Mr. Xu's car. Mr. Xu stared at him in the car, but he didn't care so much. He called Mr. Xu to get off work and continued running.

It wasn't until he saw Luo Xuan's figure leaning on the railing of the green belt that he felt relieved.

"Great escape?" Luo Xuan smiled when he saw him, and handed him a bottle of drink.

"I'm afraid you're waiting impatiently, and I'm afraid you're not waiting..." Xu Xiaotian wanted to reach out to touch Luo Xuan's face, but felt that it was not good for the public to do this, so he raised his hand and hesitated for a while, then squeezed Luo Xuan's shoulder pinch.

"Just right, I just waited for 5 minutes."

The two walked slowly along the street without any purpose, and Xu Xiaotian didn't ask Luo Xuan where he wanted to go, thinking that as long as the two of them stayed together, it was enough, as for the location, it really didn't matter.

He had actually been waiting for Luo Xuan to tell him about the courier, but Luo Xuan just chatted with him casually, never mentioning the courier, as if that incident had never happened, Xu Xiaotian looked at him In this way, no matter how unbearable it is in my heart, I can only hold back and don't ask.

Luo Xuan walked all the way to a small cafe on the side of Binjiang Road, and then said to go in and have a seat.The two sat by the window, Luo Xuan's eyes fell on the river outside the window, Xu Xiaotian stared at Luo Xuan intently with his chin on his hands, he always felt that there was something different about Luo Xuan, but what, he couldn't say .

Luo Xuan's expression was normal when he spoke, no different from what he usually saw, but it gave him a strange feeling. He thought about it for a long time, and suddenly felt a little uneasy. If he didn't make a mistake, this feeling was...a sense of alienation.

He suddenly felt that Luo Xuan was sitting where he could touch him as soon as he raised his hand, but he felt that even holding Luo Xuan in his arms could not make him feel at ease.

"Do you feel afraid?" Xu Xiaotian held Luo Xuan's hand on the table and asked softly.

"afraid of what?"

"Fear of losing something."

"Ah, I'm afraid," Luo Xuan held him back and smiled, "I... have actually lost a lot."

Xu Xiaotian was silent, Luo Xuan's hand was cold, he shook it hard, trying to warm him up with his own temperature.Luo Xuan lay down on the table, resting his head on his hand: "What are you afraid of losing?"

"What do you say?"

"Me?"

"Well, it's obvious."

"do you have anything else?"

"...You mean," Xu Xiaotian looked into Luo Xuan's eyes, "Parents?"

"Yeah, are you afraid, losing your parents, losing their expectations for you, losing their love for you..." Luo Xuan said softly, his voice was a little erratic, and his hands trembled slightly.

"Scared." Xu Xiaotian replied honestly, he was indeed afraid, when he thought of the current state of his parents, his heart would ache for no reason.

"Me too..." Luo Xuan smiled and sat up straight, "I'm afraid you're like me."

"Like you? How are you doing?" Xu Xiaotian blurted out the words, and immediately regretted it after it was finished. I'm so stupid. Don't you know what happened to Luo Xuan...

Luo Xuan didn't care about his words, and laughed: "Ah, you said the wrong thing."

This smile made Xu Xiaotian very distressed, he didn't know why Luo Xuan could always smile at such a time, how much helplessness was behind this kind of smile, he might never realize it in his life.

"I didn't do it on purpose." Xu Xiaotian was a little downcast.

"I know, but I said that these things are not because of you. I will bear the decisions I make myself. Don't take these things on your back. Some things can be carried alone."

Luo Xuan took Xu Xiaotian's hand and stroked it lightly on his palm. He wondered if Xu Xiaotian could understand what he was saying.Regardless of whether I had that incident or not, I have already made a decision, and I will persist in the road ahead no matter how difficult it is.

But Xu Xiaotian was different, he came out of the closet, and the trouble with his family was all because of himself, to prove to himself that he would not be like what he was back then, to give himself an answer...

How do you understand, what am I afraid of, what I am afraid of is that you lose like me, and then one day I look back and find that I have lost too much for me, the more you do, the more I am afraid... I am afraid that this will lost you...

"What's wrong?" Xu Xiaotian looked at Luo Xuan who had been staring at the table in a daze.

"I can't bear you." Luo Xuan raised his head, tears glistening in his eyes.

Xu Xiaotian panicked all of a sudden, he didn't care about other customers in the cafe, he stood up and sat next to Luo Xuan, hugging him: "What's wrong with you? I'm right here, I'm right here... just look at I."

"One day you will..."

"What will it be?" Xu Xiaotian suddenly raised his voice, "What will I do? I won't. I'm here. You can't shake it off even if you want to. What's wrong with you?"

"I'm in a mess, you don't understand." Luo Xuan leaned on his shoulder, and there was no strength in his voice.

"What do you need me to know? If you don't want to say, maybe I really can't understand everything..." Xu Xiaotian lowered his head and kissed Luo Xuan's lips lightly, "But whether I understand it or not, I won't be here again left."

"Give yourself some time."

"what?"

"Think about what you have done, in the end... why, and whether it is worth it."