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All the meeting people in the office dispersed, but Tan Zhe did not leave, sitting on the sofa with his legs crossed and shaking gently.Xu Rui looked at him, and it took a long time before he said: "This Xu Xiaotian, is the one you said you were good at Miaozi?"

"Ah."

"You've been here for less than a month, and you dare to leave early during a meeting in my office?" Xu Rui seemed a little dissatisfied, and tapped a few times on the desktop with a pen.

After Tan Zhe said this, a smile appeared on his expressionless face: "What's the matter, can't you leave early because of something urgent?"

"It's a matter of attitude!"

"This is a matter of your attitude," Tan Zhe stretched his waist and stood up, "Mr. Xu, you are the boss of this hotel, not Xu Xiaotian's boss. It seems normal for him to leave in a hurry. The boss who chatters is the one with a sick mind, and you should be on guard against that kind of sycophant."

"Since the day I met you, you haven't talked properly. If you hurt a sentence, it's considered preferential treatment for me." Xu Rui was a little upset, but suppressed it, "Just protect your shortcomings, and all your marketing departments will follow you." A virtue."

"Xu Xiaotian is still young, give him some time." Tan Zhe took a cigar from Xu Rui's table and lit it.

"Second you?"

"No, two people like me can't stay in the same office," Tan Zhe smiled, "He knows how to behave better than me, I said, give me some time."

"Okay, just go with it," Xu Rui waved his hand, "Tell me about the project next month..."

"Just do what you want."

"Don't you say you have reservations?"

"I'll keep it," Tan Zhe turned and walked towards the door, "I'll make a plan next Monday, and I'll see if there are any changes that need to be changed and actually implemented."

"You mean to say one thing and do another, the plan is for me to see, right?"

"Ah."

Tan Zhe went back to the office, checked the time, picked up the phone and dialed Xu Xiaotian's number, this kid is so fucking unreasonable, he didn't grasp such a good opportunity to perform.

"Have you finished your urgent matter!" Tan Zhe shouted when he heard Xu Xiaotian's voice.

"...It's over."

"Show me the office on time this afternoon, I want to talk to you!"

Xu Xiaotian hung up the phone with a feeling of numbness in his back. Tan Zhe must be upset that he left early in the morning. He was a little worried. He had been intern for less than a month, and things happened one after another. Tan Zhe just took care of himself , it's time to get angry...

But he was a little hesitant to ask him to go to the hotel in the afternoon.

Luo Xuan said he was going down to pick up the courier, but when he went upstairs, he had nothing in his hand, and his face was very bad. When he came back, he sat in front of the computer, pointing aimlessly on the screen with the mouse.

"What's the matter?" Xu Xiaotian squeezed onto the chair, sat with his arms around him, reached out to shake his hand, and found it was cold.

"Huh?" Luo Xuan looked back at him as if he just came to his senses.

"Didn't you say go down and get the courier? Why did you come up empty-handed?"

"what."

Xu Xiaotian was a little at a loss when facing Luo Xuan, who seemed to be out of his body, and asked what to say, but the answer was one or two words that was a bit dazed.

"What happened?" Xu Xiaotian hugged Luo Xuan tightly, and asked softly in his ear, "I'm worried about you like this, don't scare me."

"It's okay," Luo Xuan replied suddenly and clearly, raising his hand and touching his face, "I received a delivery that made me feel a little depressing, I'll tell you after I figure it out."

Luo Xuan obviously didn't want to say anything, Xu Xiaotian was silent for a while, and didn't intend to ask anymore, just watched Luo Xuan continue to click on the screen for a long time, Luo Xuan moved, Ask him: "You don't go to work in the afternoon?"

"The manager called me just now and asked me to arrive on time in the afternoon." Xu Xiaotian replied listlessly.

"Then go, and then go to the hospital after work to have a look... I'll accompany you." Luo Xuan leaned his head back on his shoulder.

Lunch was very boring, Luo Xuan basically didn't speak, and would be distracted in the middle of the meal, just staring blankly with the food in his mouth, and didn't bring it to his mouth. Xu Xiaotian knocked his chopsticks seven or eight times, and he was able to finish the meal The meal was finished indiscriminately.

Xu Xiaotian is not much better, the matter of his mother being hospitalized, the words left behind by his father before leaving after making a fuss, Luo Xuan who is not in the mood, Tan Zhe who is waiting for him at the hotel... He sighed, maybe these things have not been dealt with , he should be a wisp of little soul floating in the sky.

Although it felt awkward for the two of them to stay so relatively silent, but it was almost time to go to work when they left Luo Xuan's house. He put his arms around Luo Xuan, and suddenly felt a little reluctant to leave: "I don't want to leave, it's so fucking annoying."

"That's promising." Luo Xuan smiled and patted him on the back.

"Are you going to pick me up this afternoon?"

"Ah."

"Where are you waiting for me? In the lobby?"

"Why don't you go to the marketing department, under the guise of work."

"No, if our manager is in a good mood and treats you to dinner, our night will be ruined."

"I'll wait for you at the back door," Luo Xuan pushed him with a smile, "Let's go."

Seeing Xu Xiaotian hurriedly disappear at the stairs, Luo Xuan sighed, leaned against the door, and took out the bank card and note in his pocket.He knew the words on the note, it was too familiar, it was my mother's words.

Don't send us any more money, we don't need your money.

Luo Xuan closed the door, sat on the sofa, held the bank card in his hand, looked at it upside down, seemed to put the card in his mouth unconsciously, then bit the edge of the card, exerted some strength in his hand, and the card slowly bent It became U-shaped, and finally broke into two halves with a snap.

The cut made a cut on Luo Xuan's lips, and blood slowly seeped out.He didn't seem to feel it, until the blood flowed into his mouth along the corner of his mouth, he bit his lip, took some ice cubes from the refrigerator, grabbed them in his hand, and stuck them on his lips.

How much money is in the card, he doesn't know, how much money he has sent home is already beyond count, since he was able to earn money, Luo Xuan has been sending money home on a monthly basis, the number ranges from hundreds of thousands to tens of thousands , He sent more when he earned more, and sent less when he earned less, but it never stopped.

He still stubbornly believes that he is not wrong, falling in love with a man is also love, and there is nothing wrong with love.

But he also knows clearly that he and his parents have hurt each other with love for many years, and now there is no way to go back.He can only stubbornly express his ideas in this way. For a few years, he only thinks about making money and then sending money.

But now, with the card in his hand that stored all the money he sent home over the past few years and that short note, all his sustenance was shattered.

Luo Xuan hasn't shed a single tear since the accident. He doesn't need that kind of weak thing, even though he also has untouchable soft wounds in his heart.

But now, when he didn't realize it, tears slipped down quietly, dripping on the note in front of him, blurring the familiar and ruthless handwriting on it.

Luo Xuan stared blankly on the sofa for a while, wiped away the tears on his face, and threw the note and card into the trash can.He took out his mobile phone and called his aunt. No one else knew his number and address. He wanted to ask why his aunt suddenly told his family after keeping it secret for so many years.

"Xiaoxuan." My aunt called out when she heard his voice.

"Gu, did you give my mother my phone address?" Luo Xuan asked directly without going around the corner.

"Has your mother looked for you?"

"Didn't find me, put the money I sent in the card and sent it back to me."

"...Ah," Auntie seemed a little surprised, "Didn't you say anything else?"

Luo Xuan's aunt's tone made Luo Xuan suspicious, and he frowned: "I didn't say anything, what's wrong?"

"Ah...it's nothing," my aunt hesitated a bit, then said quickly after a pause, "You can take the money after it's sent back to you, your family is not short of money, you can use it when you need it... "

"Guy," Luo Xuan interrupted her, "What happened to my family?"

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, Luo Xuan's heart tightened, he stood up and chased after him: "You know me better than my mother, don't lie to me."

"I thought that's why she asked me for your number and address..." Auntie's voice trembled slightly, with a hint of crying, "Xiaoxuan, Auntie told you, you need to calm down..."

"You said."

"Your dad found out that there was a tumor in his stomach last year... He refused to operate anyway. He had been controlling it all the time... But it was a bit uncomfortable during this time..."

Luo Xuan couldn't hear what Auntie said after that, he held on to the table to keep himself from falling down, his eyes were pitch black, he couldn't see anything, and his ears were buzzing.

"I want to go back..." Luo Xuan said softly, his voice was so erratic that he couldn't hear it clearly, "I want to go back..."

Xu Xiaotian rushed into the marketing department and before he had time to sit down, he was called into the office by Tan Zhe, who immediately scolded him: "Do you still want to do it? This bird report will be held every two months, and you will directly face Xu Xiaotian. The chance to communicate is only once in two months, you give me an early leave? Do you fucking think this is your school!"

"Manager Tan..." Xu Xiaotian knew that Tan Zhe would get angry at himself for this matter, but he didn't want to defend himself. This matter was his own fault. He lowered his head and sat on the chair, "This matter...is my fault."

"No...it's over if it's not right? How many times have I pissed off in front of Mr. Xu, saying that I got a good kid from the marketing department, but you ended up talking to me about your shit and didn't listen to what Mr. Xu had to say? Leave early for me..." Tan Zhe even forgot to smoke while lighting the cigarette, and threw the cigarette in the ashtray to burn slowly.

"Manager Tan," Xu Xiaotian felt so uncomfortable listening to Tan Zhe's words, and he got a good kid. The hairs on Xu Xiaotian's arms stood up when he heard it, "Can you put it another way..."

"I'll trade you." Tan Zhe paused, as if he wanted to laugh, "You made me have to explain to him for a long time today."

"I was wrong, I was really in a hurry." Xu Xiaotian looked helpless.

"What's the matter with you? You've been wrong all morning." Tan Zhe's tone slowly eased, he took a puff of the almost burnt cigarette and pinched it out.

Xu Xiaotian didn't want to lose this job, his father's words had declared his current destiny, if he lost this job, he would lose his source of income, he had to work hard.But now how can he work with peace of mind in such a state of desperation?

He looked at Tan Zhe, speechless for a long time.

"Why are you looking at me?" Tan Zhe took a cigarette butt from the ashtray, and flicked it towards Xu Xiaotian's face, "You even mentioned your sexual orientation, what else can't you say? You don't look like this If you don’t tell me, I’ll never mess with you again, I don’t have that much time to spare.”

Xu Xiaotian pinched his own leg and went all out. He didn't know what kind of person Tan Zhe was, but he could only gamble, hoping that part of what he showed was true.

Xu Xiaotian pinched his legs, counted one, two, and three in his heart, then raised his head, and said all the things of the past two days in one breath, without any pause in the middle, and without giving Tan Zhe a chance to intervene.

After finishing speaking, he seemed to have unloaded a heavy burden and felt relaxed for a while. He leaned back and looked at Tan Zhe provocatively: "That's all, I want to do it well, and I will do it well, but This is where I am right now..."

Tan Zhe looked at him with his hands on the table, and it took a long time before he said: "You are too impulsive."

"Why are you impulsive?"

"Are you coming out to prove something to Director Luo, childish."

Xu Xiaotian was a little annoyed, Tan Zhe's tone seemed to have seen through his feelings, he thought of that beautiful woman and her invincible meteorite cake, and immediately pushed back: "People who have never really given their feelings, don't do this casually." kind of summary.”

"Ouch," Tan Zhe was stunned, and laughed after a while, "How do you know that I haven't given any affection."

"Speaking like an old man in his seventies and eighties." Xu Xiaotian muttered in a low voice.

"Desperate for love, I have done it before." Tan Zhe leaned back in the chair, put his legs on the table, looked at Xu Xiaotian, "Young man, you will understand in the future, you have pushed yourself to a dead end. "