Eros kisses Psyche

/ She is not my girlfriend, don't listen to other people in the ward guessing. .../

He typed a few lines, then deleted them hesitantly, and wrote again:

/She is my friend, I invited her to help, there is nothing between us.../

No, no, why does it feel like it's getting darker and darker...

Xu Bu rested on his forehead, completely at a loss as to what to do, so he could only delete a long paragraph and type it again:

/how can i have a girlfriend [lol] no time at all/

No, it's too deliberate, and it's stupid as hell.

He gave up and tossed the phone aside.He has nothing else to do today, but for the first time in a long time, he is not interested in going to work to make money. He has delivered a few takeaway orders, and he is not efficient and upset. , If you give a bad review, you will be busy in vain, so you have to call it a day.

This is so strange, obviously you have to hurry up to make money, but you don't even bother to open the WeChat group of the Almighty Man; someone seems to have heard about his mother's situation and sent a red envelope, but he declined, but he was unwilling to say more A few perfunctory words.The shrewdness and calculations in the past are all useless at the moment, but the person is not tired and relaxed, but has some abnormal anxiety and tension, but it seems to be soaked in warm water, obviously lazy everywhere.

Xu Budie nervously scrolled through Moments repeatedly, and from time to time clicked on the quiet information page - there was no red dot prompt, no reply, and the chat history with Cheng Zhu was still at two days ago.He sent a message to Mianmian in frustration:

/someone suspects that you are my girlfriend [doge] how should I explain [laugh cry]/

He didn't expect to pay attention to him, after all, this o'clock was when she came to visit. Generally speaking, he didn't want to think about it, and he wouldn't bother her at this time.It is quite difficult for a girl to live. Although she looks more glamorous than Xu Budie, she has actually been struggling in the mud for a long time. After being numb for so long, she even enjoys it. She begins to think that it is a kind of mud bath beauty. A new way of doing it—look at those noble ladies, don’t they also like to put this mud and that mud on their bodies, claiming to beautify the skin?What is the difference between me and them?

But she replied quickly this time:

/oh?Thank you for ordering a cup of milk tea [wink]/

/Now? /

/Who is making trouble with you, come or not? /

Xu Budie thought for a while, he had nothing else to do now, he was at the most idle stage in months, his body was so uncomfortable that even his bones creaked.After all, even during the exhibition a few days ago, he had to take care of the children at one time and help with sales promotion at another time, so he was busier than now.

Anyway, there is nothing left and right, so go and go, and he has no other friends to tell such secret thoughts, so he simply got up, bought a cup of milk tea and took it with him, he is also very familiar with the smooth taste - even sweet Add sweetness, full sugar milk cover jam cheese, add everything that can be added.

The woman was wearing tight short leather pants and her long bare legs, showing a maturity that did not match her actual age.Xu Bu walked through the resplendent and resplendent hall of KTV familiarly, and there were ambiguous sounds from many doors.The foreman recognized him, so he let him in after saying hello.

Sitting alone in a messy private room, Mian Mian was holding a thin neck of a beer bottle in one hand and a cigarette in the other, smiling at him half-drunk, with all sorts of flair, as if she had really met her man. Friends like that.

"What's the matter with you?"

Mianmian reached out to him, and Xu Budie handed over the milk tea, replacing the wine bottle in her hand.She plugged in the straw and took a long gulp, sighing contentedly. "That's right."

"how?"

"Milk tea is sweet. That's right. Beer is so bitter...how is it good to drink? Or, they are tired of sweetness all day long, come to me to remember the bitterness and sweetness, and experience life?"

On the marble tabletop, the green wine bottles were stacked so densely that there was no place to put the microphone. Mian Mian took out the microphone from the gap in the sofa seat and sang a sentimental love song.She often has to sing along in this line of work, and her voice is naturally very good, ambiguous and attractive.

Xu Budie had no choice but to move to sit on the sofa. After walking a few steps, there was a crisp sound under his feet. When he looked down, he realized that he had stepped on a piece of glass bottle. When he hurriedly lifted his foot, he kicked a bigger piece and rolled to the corner far away. inside.A puddle of wine sticks to the ground, indicating that a bottle of beer should have been smashed here.

He walked around the messy fragments of wine bottles, moved to a relatively clean place and sat down, subconsciously took a sip of the beer in his hand.

"Drink whatever you want!" Mianmian, who was holding a mic, said proudly in the interlude, his voice was distorted and amplified by the microphone: "Anyway, I paid for it."

"Who bought it? There's so much ostentation." Xu Budie asked casually. There was a luxurious fruit plate on the table as a gift, and he picked a piece and threw it into his mouth.He knew that all this was not normal - obviously such a large box and so many drinks meant that many people came before, and the messy appearance of the cups and plates seemed to break up on the way.It stands to reason that this is a good time for Mianmian to do business. She took advantage of this time to sit on her thighs, sing a few more songs, charge more tips, and choose a partner for the night. This is the usual routine.

"Do you still remember that idiot Xiaokai I mentioned to you?" She said coldly, her face full of disdain.

"Remember, is that dad a director or a minister? Don't you like you very much?"

"Let me tell you, today is very fun." Mianmian slid over the soft leather surface of the sofa like a snake, took his arm and said affectionately, "He is going to get married, and his minister father arranged it, and the right family is right. "

"Why, I can't bear you to come to your bachelor party?" Xu Budie pretended to be relaxed and joked.

"If that's the case, he still has a conscience." Mian Mian snorted coldly, "But his father arranged for a high-class lady, he was afraid of messing up, so he brought a group of people over to my place to make a grand rehearsal proposal, saying it was just a practice , asked me to play the bride."

Her hand swung down violently.

"My old lady has a temper too! I didn't show my face on the spot, but as soon as he knelt down, I rejected him. I told him that he was not worthy of me at all. He was frustrated, lazy and stupid. The only useful thing was His father said everything he wanted to say. His expression at that time was wonderful! Haha! I should have recorded it!"

Xu Budie looked at her in surprise.He thought Mianmian was the one who was more compromised; if this matter were viewed on a larger scale, it would be nothing more than a role-playing.She's been through a lot. "You're not hurt, are you?"

"No, he got angry and smashed a wine bottle. He didn't dare to hit me, but hit the ground." She said dismissively, "Is what I said wrong? What I said is the truth, he came to propose to me Drill, if I let his fiancée know, do you think he can still get married? When the time comes, the words spoken by the ladies and ladies will be a thousand times, ten thousand times worse than mine! I am doing him a favor, let him Be mentally prepared! Don't think that everyone is our princess, coaxing this group of dicks all day long, even pretending to have an orgasm for him, but giving him that short thing can do it, and thinking that he is the chosen one, with great skills OK!"

Xu Budie looked at him with wide eyes, couldn't hold back, and laughed out loud.

Mian Mian also laughed, the milk tea choked her throat, and coughed badly; Xu Budie hurriedly gave her the napkin, and the two of them fell to one side, the eye sockets were red when they laughed, and the bright things inside were under the dim light. out of sight.

She laughed enough, all the grievances just disappeared, she also took a bottle of beer and toasted Xu Budie, and asked with a smile: "Okay, let's talk about you, who said I was your girlfriend? So a lot of vinegar Smell, I could smell it through the screen, but it scared you."

"That ah..." Now it was Xiao Xu's turn to be embarrassed, he swallowed a big gulp of beer, before he could figure out how to explain it, the countless women who read men had narrowed their eyes, raised their fingers, and said directly: " I see, it's that Teacher Cheng again."

Xu Bu took a sip of beer and stuck it in his throat: "Cough cough cough cough cough cough cough..." Now it was his turn to turn red all over his face.

Mian Mian's expression was very calm, as if she wasn't too surprised: "Why, did you confess your love to someone?"

"That's... not..."

"Are you ashamed without you?!" She dug out a cigarette from her kun bag and smoked it, "He cared about you that day, and I knew he was plotting something wrong. Could it be that the thousand-year-old tree blossomed and he confessed his love to you? "

"...That's not the case either."

"Nothing, why are you nervous? That's it?" Mianmian was dissatisfied, and sneered, "Maybe she's just a hygienist, gossiping, and feels that the successors of socialism shouldn't be abused by a girl who has lost her footing like me. The other day I saw him chatting with the gossip aunt in your mother's ward, what else can I say, it must be my bad words. He is a teacher, his moral standards are higher, maybe he is afraid that I will get too close to you , brought his son to the ground. Is this worth your fuss?"

Xu Budie faltered: "...It's not like that," he blushed completely, and he didn't know if it was Jiu Zhuang who was cowardly or self-defeating, "We...did it before."

"..." Mianmian suddenly turned her head and stared at him fiercely.The atmosphere was weird for a while.

Mianmian: "... Huh?"

She pinched the man's wrist, pulled it over and looked around carefully, her eyes were dangerous: "You were forced into the bow by that guy's bully?"

"...No!...Don't...don't talk nonsense." He explained in a low voice, and unconsciously excused Cheng Zhu, "I took the initiative...I was in a bad mood that day, so...casually...take the initiative... ...I didn't expect either..."

"I knew that guy wasn't a good bird, I told you earlier, there is no such thing as a straight man of steel!" Mianmian became angry instead, "How dare he think you have a girlfriend? Why don't you think he's old? What about the baby? You look like a dog! You are also a teacher! Does he know that you are the oldest student of his! Once you are released to the Ministry of Education naked, he will not be able to eat and walk around!"

"...Calm down," Xu Budie didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I said it was me...Don't say that, he doesn't know anything."

"I'm also a ghost who believed your words, Xu Budie, you swallowed what you said before! Why don't you like people, why don't you want to cause trouble for others! What's your brain? Are you fucked?" She Shoved him, "I advise you to be calm and calm. I have seen you a lot. I thought I had met true love once I slept. The word love was created to lie to you!"

"Why are you so excited... I didn't suffer any disadvantages, and I shouldn't suffer any disadvantages." Xu Budie said guiltily, "Besides, it's the same sentence, what do I have to worry about? I also Don't you think you've met true love? It's just... just sleeping once, so there's no need to be nervous. He didn't take it seriously, and it doesn't matter what he should do when he wakes up." He said at the end, It seems to be talking to Mianmian, but it also seems to be talking to myself, and then opened a bottle of beer and poured it down.

"He didn't take it seriously, and you didn't take it seriously. How did you two play house and help each other and have a friendly relationship? Did you collect money?"

After the continuous questioning, she took a deep breath. Obviously, she was also very angry today. When she encountered the pre-rehearsal proposal that treated her like an idiot, the object was still a guy she had a crush on. Maybe something sprouted in her heart The part you shouldn't think about.She looked at Xu Budie's expression, wondering if she really overreacted because of her emotions, and slowed down her tone: "Then why did he ask your girlfriend?"

Xu Budie paused: "...I don't know."

"You know. That means he's not as serious as you said." Mianmian looked at him, "Then what do you think?"

"Me? You saw it too. I was in a bad mood that day, so I really wanted to vent. He was by the side again...the kind who cared a lot, you know?...He also came over to take care of me when I took a shower. It was logical Land..." He intentionally downplayed the matter without paying any attention, "At that time, I also thought in my mind that I would not suffer from this matter, anyway, I have a good impression of him, and now I really Ask for money. Like my mother, who knows how many times I will be admitted to the ICU? I also have to plan for the future." He glanced at Mianmian, "Why, didn't you persuade me to develop with him before? He lacks people , I'm short of money, perfect."

"You couldn't figure it out then, but now you can figure it out?"

"I figured it out. This trip made me completely figured it out." Xu Budie exhaled, he curled up, the soles of his shoes kicked on the table in front of him, and the wine bottle was shaken so precariously by him.His current posture was something Cheng Zhu had never seen before, his relaxed body softened into a puddle of mud, melting into the messy, greasy and dim sofa, and resolutely supporting his bony skeleton from it.That skeleton was smoking and drinking, like all young philistines, blending into the colorful neon lights of nightclubs, without any sense of disobedience, "Those principles can't be turned into money...to be a A good guy is worthless. It’s rare that this guy bites the hook straight, and it’s a pity that I push it. You know? It’s funny when I tell you, you know what the first thing he asked me to do after I slept with him?” He Without restrictions, he suddenly opened up the topic, becoming self-destructive and full of malice.

Mianmian turned her head away, frowning: "What disgusting thing, go away, I don't want to listen."

"What are you thinking? You don't understand the purity of our teacher Cheng. He took me to see a psychiatrist. I'm upset that I smashed a sculpture worth hundreds of thousands, and then just slept with him. He treated me as a If something is wrong with my mind, I don't want to lose money." Xu Budie said cruelly with the corners of his mouth curled up almost as if venting, belittling all of this: "He doesn't know anything... These art people are really deceitful .”

"Why are you smashing it? It looks so uncomfortable?"

"Because that thing looks ugly and weird, just like my mother. But they made it beautiful. In fact, it's not that beautiful at all. It's full of abscesses, decay, and the smell of rotting flesh. Treat ugliness as beauty... On that, ugliness and beauty exist side by side. But they can't see it, including the creators, but keep emphasizing the 'beautiful' part...I can't get rid of it. I can't get rid of it ... But I have no position to blame, it is my mother after all, can mother not be beautiful? Mother is the embodiment of beauty. So I can do nothing, except to be a standard 'good person'." He paused, The effects of the alcohol slowly build up. "I would also like to escape from this thing's grip...I would also like an easier, more normal life...Am I wrong?...I don't know. But what can I do? I Can't really do anything to her... I can't even turn around and run away like everyone else. I can only think about it, but it's already ugly just thinking about it, and the ugly part is like myself, I look at it like I'm looking at my own reflection in the water."

"So I smashed it... smack, it's not very hard, it is said to be made of wax. This kind of thing is not worth mentioning at all, it has no meaning at all, it's just made by idlers with other people's pain Playthings for people to play with...”

Yes, that's it... I clearly decided then: I decided to never touch sculpture again.It shouldn't have given me that glimmer of hope, and ignited unrealistic fantasies.

He jumped up and stood staggeringly on the sofa, the soft leather was dented, and with unsteady force he staggered into the wine bottle on the table, triggering a domino-like effect and rolling everywhere.

"You're the only fucking sick!" He yelled at a void in the air, his voice was not loud but his throat hurt, "You obviously don't have anything—"

As if responding to him, suddenly the phone vibrated violently at this moment, and the notification sound followed the red dots and floated over many messages with difficulty, overflowing upwards involuntarily like the bubbles when beer is poured into a glass.

/Takeaway delivered, all eaten [like] Chef's craftsmanship/

It was a message from Cheng Zhu, with a photo attached; in the photo, Lele, Jiang Nian, and Jing Jianian are all around a bunch of his remote food delivery, holding disposable chopsticks and making various poses for the camera, Cheng Zhu The face holding the mobile phone is also squeezed to the far left, widened and distorted by the lens, as if looking at him through a fragile, round bubble, and everyone is hazy wrapped in a soft shell.

They are as beautiful as a precarious suspension bridge, barely maintaining a passage connecting one end to the other; or a light shining through the gap, making people imagine it is firmly held in the palm of the hand.

Xu Budie froze in place.The bubbles at the bottom of the picture continued to float up with difficulty, probably because of the signal from the box, the circle took a long time.

/miss you/

/Lele said/

The firecrackers he had accumulated so far were extinguished by a basin of water, and suddenly died down in the middle.