Reborn the tamed beast

Before rebirth, Gu Shen was eight years old.

Before being reborn, Gu Shen was just a very ordinary child. In the orphanage, because he had a bad relationship with other children, he was obviously excluded.But the exclusion in the orphanage didn't have a big impact on Gu Shen's heart.Children of different ages are squatting on the ground and playing with mud. Who excludes whom and influences whom?

Later, Gu Shen's eyes were infected, and when everyone felt that Gu Shen's future was hopeless, that person appeared.

That day, Gu Shen had just washed his face and didn't comb his hair. He hadn't bathed for a long time because he was afraid that the infection would get worse. A fly was buzzing on his head, and there was a wound on his knee, which was slightly bloodshot.

His eyes were sore from the wind, with tears in them, looking dirty and sickly.

Gu Shen, who was so embarrassed, met that man at that time.

The man was wearing a simple white shirt, his skin was so white that it could reflect the sun, and he looked into the distance calmly, only showing heartache when he saw other children playing around.

The man's eyebrows are very beautiful, Gu Shen was thinking at that time, even if he let himself die, he would not be willing to let this man frown.

Gu Shen stared blankly at the man, facing the sun, just like looking at the rising sun every day, and couldn't bear to look away.

The man seemed to feel that someone was watching him, turned his head with a smile, and smiled at Gu Shen.

Gu Shen felt severe pain in his eyes, and couldn't help but burst into tears, as if stimulated by the sun, he couldn't open his eyes anymore.

He likes this man.Gu Shen thought so.But then she thought that this man would definitely not adopt her.

Such a sick body, even the dean dislikes it, and there are problems with the eyes, so the appearance of crying like this must make people feel sick.

Gu Shen's ears were buzzing, as if there were countless thunderbolts, when he opened his eyes again, he saw the clean man who looked like a god, bent over, and opened his hands towards him.

Hug gesture.

Gu Shen couldn't hear what the man said, but only vaguely saw the man say 'go home'.

Seeing the dean beside him talking, Gu Shen looked at him with disgust, as if he was afraid that Gu Ziming would regret it, he stretched out his arms to hug Gu Ziming, and let Gu Ziming hug him, and then clamped his legs The man's waist, tears flowed down the man's body like rain.

He was afraid that the man would feel sick to him, because even Gu Shen could smell the rancid smell from his body.

He just cried, crying silently. His eyes were so painful that he couldn't open them due to irritation. Later, he couldn't help the sound, and gradually choked up, still softly, but the sound was like Like the sound of a drum, it hit Gu Ziming's heart one after another.

Gu Shen felt the man's warm hand stroking his back, comforting him patiently.

Gu Shen thought, if this man is his own, that would be fine.

That intense, exclusive, dependent love.

Undoubtedly, the man chose to adopt himself. When he came out of the orphanage, Gu Shen lay in the hospital for half a month. During that half month, a nurse helped to take care of him. The man seemed very busy, and he could only come to see him at night. , Calling his name over and over again.

Gu Shen.

A gentleman is cautious and independent, cautious and meticulous.

Having the same surname as a man seems to witness the bond between them that is stronger than blood.

Gu Shen is not good at communication, and so is Gu Ziming, most of them are silent, you look at me, I look at you, without saying a word.Gu Shen still felt that his chest was slowly being filled, a feeling of fullness - this was the first time he felt satisfied since he was born.

Gu Ziming always touched his hair very gently, which prompted Gu Shen to take a bath every day, especially his hair, which was washed very frequently.

Gu Shen knew that his hair was very soft, but when Gu Ziming touched it, sometimes he wished that it could be softer, so that Gu Ziming could feel more comfortable and more comfortable.

Don't abandon him.

Within two days, Gu Shen's eyes underwent surgery, and then they were wrapped in thick gauze, and Gu Ziming could no longer be seen in a short time.

At that time, Gu Ziming would gently hold his hand and comfort him gently.

Gu Shen felt uneasy. He was afraid that Gu Ziming would send him back to the orphanage one day. This kind of situation was very common. A child who shared a bunk with him was adopted twice and was sent back both times.

Gu Shen can only make himself a little more obedient, a little more obedient.

Even if his eyes were covered with gauze, he didn't ask others to help him. He groped his way to the bathroom and washed his hair by himself. The hair that made Gu Ziming so attached to him needed to be softer. don't go.

Later, for some unknown reason, Gu Ziming once lost his temper in his ward, and reprimanded the nurse who took care of him in a soft but severe voice.

Gu Shen couldn't hear clearly, but he could understand. The man blamed the nurse for not staying by Gu Shen's bed and taking care of him all the time.

The man saw a bruise on Gu Shen's back, which was caused by hitting the sink while taking a shower last night.Such a child who has temporarily lost his light is struggling to explore the world by himself.

Gu Ziming was so angry that he couldn't maintain his demeanor, so he dismissed the irresponsible nurse and brought his own nanny to take care of Gu Shen.

Gu Ziming rubbed the ointment on his hand to warm it up, and wiped it on Gu Shen's back finely. Seeing that the wound on his knee had been wrapped in gauze, he lifted it up to have a look, applied iodine, and sat on the edge of the hospital bed, silent. Silent.

Two weeks later, Gu Shen was discharged from the hospital.

At that time, Gu Shen was just an ordinary child, he had never seen anything, it can be said that his world view was established in that orphanage, and when he arrived at Gu Ziming's home, everything was not applicable.

Gu Ziming's demeanor and elegance affect Gu Shen all the time.

Because he was afraid that he would abandon him, Gu Shen tried to curry favor with Gu Ziming cautiously and almost humblely, but the arrogance in Gu Shen's bones did not allow him to be too humble. From the perspective of outsiders, he was just a silent and indifferent child.

who knows?Gu Shen is so dependent on Gu Ziming in his heart, hoping that Gu Ziming will pay attention to him all the time.

Gu Shen grew up slowly.Eight years old, it's already late for school, probably in the second grade.Gu Ziming was unwilling to send Gu Shen to school, thinking that he could go to elementary school at home.Mathematics, English, and art are all taught by other teachers. As for Chinese, it is naturally taught by Gu Ziming himself.

Gu Shen's deepest impression of elementary school was formed during Gu Ziming's lectures at eight or nine o'clock in the evening.

Gu Ziming would tell him Chu Ci and Han Fu, Tang Poetry and Song Ci in a hoarse voice, and tell him, "A man is as determined as iron, try your hands, and heal the cracks in the sky." 'Teach him to recite "Chen Qing Biao" and "Teacher's Biao", and his throat will often choke when he is deeply in love.

Gu Shen's heart here seems to be bound by some thin thread, leaving thin strangle marks, every time it beats, there is a sharp pain.

He looked up at Gu Ziming's beautifully shaped Adam's apple, and felt an urge to kiss it fiercely. (Work: Did you finally get your wish when you grow up? Haha)

Suddenly I felt something was wrong.

That feeling, he named it 'obsession'.

Gu Shen, who went to junior high school, is no longer sticking to Gu Ziming. Gu Ziming is very busy and usually takes a long time to go home. This day is Gu Ziming's birthday. Gu Shen discussed with the nanny and plans to Ask Gu Shen to cook dinner for Gu Ziming.

But I don't know why, although I have been studying for several days, what Gu Shen is doing is still a mess.

When they were in the orphanage, they had a boiled egg every morning. This was Gu Shen’s favorite food. If it's greasy, let it go. If it's simple, steak is also a good choice.It's just that eating such indigestible meat at night will put a lot of burden on Gu Ziming's stomach.

After much deliberation, the noodles nourish the stomach, and Gu Shen decided to cook noodles for Gu Ziming.

But the final effect of the noodles didn't look very good, half raw on the top and sticky on the bottom.

Gu Shen hid the uncooked part underneath, filled a large bowl for Gu Ziming, wrapped egg shells, and put eggs on it.It also looks decent.

Gu Shen didn't tell Gu Ziming that he did it, he just thought it was enough to let this person eat it.

When Gu Ziming came back at night, he first took a look at Gu Shen's bowl of half-cooked noodles, then at the mushy noodles in his own bowl, almost severely criticized the nanny, and didn't eat a single bite. They go to other restaurants.

Such a clumsy approach, Gu Ziming must know that it was not done by the nanny.But Gu Ziming criticized him, and those words were like slaps in the face, slapping Gu Shen's heart one by one.

A harrowing first experience.

Since then, there has been a small crack between Gu Shen and Gu Ziming, the crack is not big, it is the beginning of everything.

It's just that the bigger intervals came after high school.

Maybe it was because of puberty lag, Gu Shen was extremely irritable during the college entrance examination, and wanted to apply for the Conservatory of Music, but Gu Ziming wanted to study finance by himself.At that time, affected by the financial crisis, the financial turmoil had not yet become an upsurge. Gu Ziming was optimistic about this field, and he wanted to let Gu Shen apply for a serious university of finance and economics.

Gu Shen in his previous life would not resist Gu Ziming, he was afraid that Gu Ziming would abandon him, so he could only bear with it, never resist, and absolutely obey.Gu Shen just swallowed all his reluctance, and said lightly, "Okay, father."

Actually, it's not good at all, Gu Ziming.

After graduating from graduate school, Gu Shen started to work. His salary was not low at the beginning, but it gradually increased, and the pressure became more and more day by day.Under the heavy pressure, Gu Shen became more irritable and impetuous, and couldn't find anyone to vent his dissatisfaction on. The day before he committed suicide, he called Gu Ziming and said that he couldn't stand the environment here.

He only hoped that Gu Ziming could comfort him, as long as he said a word, he could persevere.

Gu Ziming said, "You have to learn to be patient, Gu Shen."

On the day Gu Shen committed suicide, Gu Ziming saw the photos of the scene.

There was blood all over the bathtub, and I could smell blood just by looking at the photos.Gu Ziming looked at the almost hideous scar on Gu Shen's wrist, it was so deep and red, and he felt that his wrist also began to ache.

Gu Shen didn't leave a suicide note, but it was written on his computer.

I'm very tired, Gu Ziming.

Not 'Father', not 'Daddy', just you, Gu Ziming.

When will you be able to understand me - can you look me in the eye?

I am not your tool, not your tool to show off and hype.I am not your son.

I am Gu Shen.

What Gu Shen didn't know was Gu Ziming's past life.

On the first night after Gu Shen committed suicide, Gu Ziming lay on the bed and took two boxes of sleeping pills, with an extremely strong desire to commit suicide.

He was lying on the bed in Gu Shen's apartment, smelling the smell on Gu Shen's pillow, and fell asleep forever.

It's better to die together than to live.

Not as happy as life and death.

Only then did they continue to entangle the second world.