Gu Weinan's Military Academy Diary

"Why?" Chen Nuo said softly, his voice was unexpectedly stable, he seemed neither angry nor sad, just a little puzzled.This made Gu Weinan even more at a loss as if he had done something wrong in school and was interrogated by the instructor.

"Are you going to Xinjiang? Then we will have to separate." Gu Weinan secretly bit his lips, he was not very firm, he really hoped that Chen Nuo would say that he would not go.

Chen Nuo was stunned, and his expression became a little sad: "I was planning to go, but this happened quite suddenly, and I haven't figured out how to tell you, so I didn't tell you for the time being. Are you blaming me for this?"

"No, what am I blaming you for..." Gu Weinan shook his head vigorously until his tears almost fell: "I should say I'm sorry."

Chen Nuo looked at Gu Weinan's expression of holding back tears, and frowned slightly: "Ye Xun told you."

"Yes." Gu Weinan nodded honestly.

"Ye Xun asked you to break up with me?"

"I don't think his words are unreasonable. So I thought about it for a long time, and felt that we are really not suitable...not suitable to be together." Gu Weinan buried his head deeply, he didn't want to cry, but his voice was already trembling.

Chen Nuo didn't speak for a long time again, this silence made Gu Weinan feel suffocated.It wasn't until the rest of the noodles were cold that Chen Nuo asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"At the beginning... I was too impulsive. I thought love was too simple. I thought that as long as I liked it, I didn't think about other issues at all. But when we got along with each other, I realized that the gap between us is too big. You have a job, a Pursuit, I am so passionate about the military profession, not only have so many ideas, but also put into action for my own ideals. But I... I never wanted to be a soldier, and I never dreamed of going to a military academy. Before I came here , I am disgusted from the bottom of my heart. If I hadn’t met you at the school gate, I might have dropped out of school or become a deserter. Although I have persisted until now, I always force myself to do my best, but in fact, I am still the same, Doing homework that I don’t like to do every day, and being at a loss for myself every day. Thinking of these, I have no confidence in being with you.”

Gu Weinan was almost forcing himself to continue, "Chen Nuo, you said that there is such a big gap between me and you, how can I make you happy? Not to mention that it is of no help to you, even in ordinary chats, I can't chat with you , it is even more impossible for you to be encouraged and resonated spiritually... For example, if you are going to Xinjiang, according to my idea, I don't support it, and I don't want you to go at all. I want Ye Xun's ability, I will definitely be the first to stop you, and there will be many other ways for you to practice your ideas. You don’t have to go to aid Xinjiang. But I can’t do it... I can’t give you anything. In the end, I just like it Nothing..." He whispered, he sighed unconsciously, his head was still lowered, he didn't want Chen Nuo to see his red eye circles.Obviously I took the initiative to break up, but I did this first, what is the future!

As a result, Chen Nuozhen said softly to the other side: "Don't be sad. I didn't know that you didn't like being a soldier at all. I knew I wouldn't talk to you about studies and the army. The gaps you mentioned are indeed there. Are you tired?"

When Gu Weinan heard what Chen Nuo said, he almost didn't cry, his brows furrowed unconsciously, and after a while he said in a hoarse voice: "I'm not tired, but I really feel that I'm useless, and I'm not suitable to be with you at all. I just deserve to stand on one side from a distance, and everyone will be happy. In the end, I chased you out of control, and the toad wanted to eat swan meat..."

Hearing this, Chen Nuo laughed: "Oh, where do you think you are a toad?"

"I... have low consciousness and backward thinking, so I'm not good enough for you..." Gu Weinan bit his lip and said.

"Your consciousness is quite low. You don't want to be a soldier. You don't have a proactive mind. You don't have the spirit of sacrifice and dedication. You are young, you don't know how to fall in love, and you don't know me well. Maybe you know Ye Xun better than you Be stronger." Chen Nuo's voice was still very soft and calm.

But when Gu Weinan heard Chen Nuo say these words himself, he felt as if he was hit by someone with a sledgehammer, hitting the ground with a single hammer. The blow was extremely heavy, as if he was directly sentenced to death.Gu Weinan almost wanted to run away, feeling that he couldn't sit still for a moment. He knew that he would be despised by Chen Nuo, but he didn't expect that he would not be able to bear it at all.

Chen Nuo continued quietly: "Your worries also exist. If you are really with me, you may be under pressure because of some things, and I may also be affected because of differences. Since you bring it up, let's share it."

"Hmm..." Gu Weinan didn't have the courage to look up.

"...It's just that the time you proposed is a bit inappropriate."

"..." Gu Weinan raised his head in confusion.

Chen Nuo pushed away the bowl in front of him, smiled lightly and said, "I haven't finished eating noodles, and if I eat cold ones, my stomach will hurt."

"..." Gu Weinan was stunned, and then tears came down, and he quickly raised his sleeve to wipe it away.

Chen Nuo stood up, lifted the backpack at Gu Weinan's feet, and said with a smile: "Why are you crying about this? You're already an adult. If you don't eat, I'll take you to the bus. Didn't you buy a return ticket?"

Gu Weinan hurriedly said: "Don't bother, I can go to the station by myself."

"Then I'll call a taxi for you. You don't know this place well, and you will be hacked."

At the rental office next to the airport, Chen Nuo stopped a taxi and negotiated a good price, then greeted Gu Weinan to get on the taxi, and then he seemed a little dazed.When Gu Weinan got into the car, the driver reminded him to help close the door, Chen Nuo smiled again: "Wei Nan, goodbye." Then he turned his back and walked away without stopping for a moment.

The car started, and quickly left Chen Nuo's tall and straight figure far behind. Gu Weinan knew that he might have lost the most precious thing in his life.

When he lowered his head, he saw that the "Tian Tian" given to him by Chen Nuo was still in the pocket of his backpack. He took it out mechanically, recalling the scene when he just met Chen Nuo tonight, and finally couldn't restrain himself at all.Fearing that the driver in front would see him, he held the fan of "Tian Tian", bent down and began to cry silently, crying like a little boy lost.

Gu Weinan's sense of helplessness at the moment is so profound, he really wants to run back and tell Chen Nuo that no matter what, he will depend on him.In fact, no matter how superficial and childish Chen Nuo thinks he is, how selfish and ridiculous, or how he looks like a stumbling block, he is still the same as when he was chasing him back then, as long as he can be with him, he is very satisfied.

But he can't.He can no longer just pursue Chen Nuo regardless of what he likes.Even if he catches up, he is not worthy of Chen Nuo!He really has no way to change the many facts in front of him: no way to make himself in his twenties, no way to make himself have enough experience to understand him, no way to make himself as full of military career as Chen Nuo Passionate, let alone the ability to support or help Chen Nuo every time he makes a decision.

Because he has nothing but youth and impulsiveness.

When he arrived at the long-distance bus station, Gu Weinan's tears were dried up, he rubbed his face vigorously, went into the waiting hall, and called Ye Xun. "Hello, Team Ye?" When the phone was connected, Gu Weinan's voice was already calm.

"Oh, it's Xiao Gu! Is there anything you can do for me so late?" Ye Xun's voice was still very polite.

"Nothing else," Gu Weinan said quietly, "I just want to tell you that I just broke up with Chen Nuo."

"Ah? Why did you divide?" Ye Xun looked surprised, "Chen Nuo told you so quickly that he decided to go to Xinjiang? You didn't persuade him."

"It's just that we broke up. I thought about it. After two years of separation, we really can't talk about it." Gu Weinan didn't want to talk to him.

"Oh..." Ye Xun didn't ask too much, "Then what's your purpose in telling me?"

"I don't mean anything. Team Ye, don't you care about Chen Nuo? I think you'd like to know." Gu Weinan said.

"Hehe, how can I gossip like that. After all, this kind of thing is still a private matter between you..."

"Captain Ye, you have also been to aid Xinjiang, you must know the leaders there?" Gu Weinan suddenly interrupted him and asked.

Ye Xun was vague: "It's okay, we met face to face. What's the matter with Xiao Gu?"

"Hehe, it's okay." Gu Weinan laughed dryly, "I think, Captain Ye, you must be able to say hello to the other side and let Chen Nuo avoid some dangerous missions. We both broke up. Chen Nuo is alone now, you It must be more convenient to care about."

Ye Xun said sincerely: "It's needless to say. Xiao Gu, what you said is out of line! You don't need to mention it, I will find someone to take care of Chen Nuo. Don't worry, I will go there myself if I can't."

"Well, thank you Team Ye." Gu Weinan said firmly, "I don't even have the ability to care about Chen Nuo, but you are so capable, I have nothing to worry about."

Ye Xun was very enthusiastic: "You're welcome, just come to me if you need anything."

"Well, Team Ye, I won't disturb your rest."

"Okay, goodbye. If you need anything, you must come to me." Ye Xun said again.

Gu Weinan hung up the phone, thinking to himself, I hope I don't have to look for you again, Team Ye.

In the terminal building of the airport, Chen Nuo also dialed Ye Xun's phone number: "I've thought about it, you can arrange it. I only have one request, to go to the place where Xiao Xiaotian fought."