Abandoned Lover [Future]

In Eugene's not so short years so far, he had kissed only two people.

It's not something to be proud of.To be honest, he didn't know if he liked this kind of interaction.

Because it meant something very different to him than a kiss should have.

——Open your mouth and give yourself, exchanging moist body temperature at a close distance.Such an action is so intimate in nature that it should mark the beginning and progress of love or lust.

For Eugene, however, kissing was more like an exercise in which he was forced to recognize situations time and time again.He closed his eyes, trying to feel the person in front of him, trying to burn him with his own warmth.But back and forth, he is always the only one who is unconscious.

When he opened his eyes, he saw either a confused blankness or a tame apology.Facing such gazes, he would feel that any of his expectations were inappropriate.

Because he had never responded, he thought maybe what he needed to respond to was fundamentally wrong.

...It is precisely because he believes so that when he gets a response for the first time, he will feel more fear than joy.

Xiao's lips and tongue are so gentle and strong, and he carefully traced his tongue, palate, and between his teeth in non-rough movements.His nose was full of the other's breath, and after the chaos they had just experienced, he could smell the obvious saltpeter and dust.Under Xiao's repeated and gentle demands, he felt that he was gradually unable to breathe.

He was never desired.

The base of his tongue was almost paralyzed, and he could only be plundered whatever he wanted, which made his kiss look so clumsy and green.The injured left ankle could not bear his weight perfectly, and his body leaning against the wall behind him slowly slipped a little.In the end, he could only close his eyes, raise his neck, frown, and endure the kiss in confusion.

His heart was beating so fast that it was painful for him.Eugene felt his greed and longing for the man in front of him almost in panic.

——If this is another illusion, what should he do?

—that was terrible.

——He didn't want to be disappointed anymore.But his stupid heart could not refuse the beginning of this kiss, nor could he face the end of this kiss.

In such an overwhelming fear, Eugene could only close his eyes tightly, and tightened his arms hugging Xiao's shoulders.

And at the moment when Xiao wanted to end the kiss, he even wanted to exert more strength on his hands, forcing the other party not to leave him.

...He didn't know if he could bear the reality of being rejected again.

However, in the next second, he felt Xiao gently rubbing the side of his nose with the tip of his nose.A very light kiss and breath fell on his lips and side face, full of intimacy and nostalgia.

Facing such an action, Eugene finally gathered up the courage to open his eyes after a few seconds.His eyelashes fluttered, and he didn't look into Xiao's eyes immediately.The cyborg finally left a kiss on his forehead, then lowered his head, propped his right hand against the wall, leaned his head against Eugene's shoulder, and breathed calmly.

Xiao opened the distance between the lower/half/body of the two, and the upper body did not touch each other.However, Eugene could feel the heartbeat of the other party almost breaking his chest.

Full of confusion, Eugene lowered his head and glanced at Xiao's body, his back froze immediately.

There was some very subtle embarrassment in Xiao's voice.He whispered: "Sorry, I'm still familiar with my body without the restriction."

... Eugene's mind went blank.

Nothing he saw, felt, or heard could make him rationally understand and believe.However, he couldn't ignore Xiao's natural transformation after crushing the chip, as if some real change had already taken place.

However, now that all his luck had failed, he no longer knew what to do.

Eugene covered his eyes and forehead with the back of his hand, and his chest heaved silently and violently.Xiao Ze raised his head, pulled the skirt of his clothes with his bloody right hand, and pulled the clothes over to cover the wound he had stabbed himself.After this, he straightened up and took a step back, giving Eugene room to breathe.

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting for so long."

When Xiao said this, his voice was as gentle as ever, but it had a thicker, apologetic undertone.

Such sentences poured into his ears, making Eugene want to retreat infinitely until he was swallowed by the wall behind him—because if what Xiao said was true, he had indeed been waiting for such a moment for too long.

Not wanting to lose his composure in front of Xiao even more, Eugene raised a hand to block between himself and Xiao, and said in a hoarse voice, "...I need a little space."

He turned and walked quickly to the bathroom, then quickly locked the door behind him.The boots on his feet were roughly kicked away by him, and he stepped into the shower room to turn on the shower, but because of his insanity, he was drenched all over his head.The warm water splashed on the clothes that hadn't been taken off, but Eugene didn't want to hide, but leaned against a glass barrier, and slowly slid down.

He raised his hands and covered his face.

——Today, more than ten years later, it seems that he finally got the reply letter that he sent with high hopes, but there was no news in the end.

However, the desire to "want to be loved" is itself the root of all his sins.

Is he really worth it?

Is this a foreshadowing for a more terrible loss?

He really wanted to live alone.In this way he will have neither fear nor disappointment.

But he also wanted Shaw to hold him.

Because he was hopelessly in love with this man.And he doesn't know how much time is left for this kind of time to be responded to.

... In the extremely chaotic mood, Eugene repeatedly wiped his already wet face with the palm of his hand.Standing outside the door, Xiao heard the mixed and suppressed sobs in the sound of water.But after a long time, the sound of water was still there, but he could no longer hear Eugene's voice.

Xiao frowned, put his hand on the door, and unlocked it silently.In the shower room in front of him, Eugene curled up in a corner, wondering if he was too tired, and had already passed out with his head down.In the steaming water vapor, the drenched clothes stuck to the opponent's body, outlining a clear outline.And the bandage on Eugene's outstretched ankle was completely wet, and it was a thin red that was bleeding.

Xiao hurried over, turned off the shower, then bent down, and easily hugged Eugene in his arms.Even after being drenched in warm water, Eugene's body temperature was still astonishingly hot, as if he was having a fever.

Perhaps it was for this reason that Eugene still didn't respond to his actions.As if he didn't mind that his clothes were getting wet, Xiao turned to kneel down on one knee, let Eugene lean on his lap and arms, and then brushed the other's forehead hair - a sign of high fever. Red faintly revealed from under the opponent's skin, Eugene's eyebrows were slightly raised, and he looked very tired even in his sleep.

A well-defined face, sharp eyebrows, broad shoulders, and a refined physique produced by rigorous training.This is obviously a handsome adult man, but Xiao can see a slight grievance from the other's frowning brows and slightly drooping lips.

Amid the sour warmth in his chest, Xiao felt that he was still looking at a boy.

He really wants to take care of him.

……

When Eugene opened his eyes again, he felt that his cheeks and neck were burning hot, but his whole body was unbelievably clean and dry.

The eyelids and head are heavy.He tried his best to turn his neck, and found that the clothes had been replaced with new ones, and the bandages on his feet seemed to have been replaced as well, not as wet and loose as he remembered.

In the dim light, Xiao sat on the edge of his bed with his back facing him, near his knees, as if flipping through a paper book.From this angle, you can see the side face of the cyborg without any blemishes.

At this moment, the distance between him and Xiao was so perfect that Eugene was stunned.If Xiao got too close to him, he would find it hard to breathe.And if it is too far away, he will feel cold.

...it's always been like this.What a terrifying ability the portrait has, it can take all his concerns into account.

As if realizing he was awake, the cyborg turned to the right, looking at him.

That was what Eugene had seen once in Xiao's eyes, as if looking at his lover.However, compared to the last time, there is more tranquility in the eyes at this time, and the obvious emotions are restrained, like a summer evening, with the sea still warm from the sun.

Facing such a pair of eyes, Eugene felt the sudden tears in his eyes in perplexity.He frowned and blinked, letting the slight moisture disappear quickly, and then said "thank you" to Xiao.

Shaw smiled at him.The cyborg's body had already returned to its usual clean and tidy appearance, the newly changed clothes covered the wound on his chest, and the long light golden hair hanging down was like soft satin, softly reflecting the light.He closed the book on his lap and held out his right hand to Eugene.

The light-colored slender fingers touched Eugene's still fixed right hand, and gently pinched the opponent's tiger's mouth.

"Sleep. I'm right here."

The velvet-like sound, the touch and body temperature transmitted from the hands.In the sleepy and warm atmosphere, Eugene blinked slowly.

—he didn't want to think any more.

—he just wanted to temporarily immerse himself in this beautiful dream that he probably didn't deserve.

Thinking of this, Eugene closed his eyes and let himself fall into a deep sleep again.

……

Xiao watched his human slowly fall asleep, then looked away, and continued to open the book on his lap.

He was reading the only paper book in Eugene's room.Strange to say, he had no memory of Eugene bringing such a thing from the Green Star.

It was a battered, poor collection of love poems.

Now that he can finally understand this word, Xiao is full of real interest and curiosity about how others describe such feelings.

The poet's words lack metaphorical descriptions and analogies, and are straightforward to the point of astonishment, as if he is about to pull his heart out of his chest impatiently, and swear loyalty to the object he confides to.However, when Xiao should read with a critical attitude, he unconsciously brings in the shadow of a person at the end of each line.

This kind of behavior made Xiao himself feel funny; after breaking through the restriction, Xiao keenly realized that the emotions he could feel had really broadened a lot, and even the way of thinking had subtly changed.It's as if his long-buried self is slowly being released, although he doesn't know where this "self" comes from.

He was supposed to be an ordinary biochemical talent who was created less than a year ago.

This kind of self-awareness and self-doubt is the first time for Xiao.After thinking for a moment, Xiao shook his head slightly, and continued to turn the pages of the book.

After turning to a certain page, the movement of his hands stopped.

—In that page of the book, there was a crushed red rose.

The stems of the roses were trimmed to fit inside the book, and the sap from the petals stained the pages with slightly shriveled marks.

After being dazed, Xiao suddenly remembered that this might be the book of poetry that Miles had read on the Red Squirrel.

He also understood the origin of this rose.

——Even when he decided to send himself away, Eugene still brought this book to Miles, so that he could carefully store the flower he sent.

At that time, what kind of mood did Eugene have in order to keep his cheap gift?

And when he was unconscious, had Eugene silently said goodbye to himself repeatedly?

... He looked at Eugene who was sleeping soundly.

The man doesn't say anything.This person has already given himself what he can give, including a sincere heart.

Xiao's eye sockets were suddenly sore, and his eyes almost melted when he looked at Eugene.

On the page with the rose, the poet wrote:

—I love you hopelessly*.

——Like looking for the stars in the daytime, like a man imprisoned on the ground looking up at the sky.

——This is not the fate I chose, I sealed it, but it never ends.

—I love you hopelessly.

The author has something to say:

*All the poor quality poems in this collection are made up by me, dbq.

In the future, the update time will be at 6:3 p.m. China time every day; I have run out of manuscripts, this is my 11:[-] a.m., and I will try to make a daily update every day after I get off work at [-]:[-] p.m., but due to physical reasons, it may I will ask for leave/reduce the frequency of updates as appropriate, let me know first.

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