Abandoned Lover [Future]

The crisis brought about by this transaction was finally solved quietly because of Xiao's appearance.

Although the passage on the lake had been blown up, after Xiao opened the other doors in the building, everyone finally found the passage from the underground to the shore from those rooms, and they were able to meet the people on standby.In order to avoid another conflict with the remaining weapons/equipment of the buyer, the Rift chose to evacuate immediately.

On the way back, Eugene and Shaw returned to their respective ships.On Xiao's side, technician Matthew resisted the discomfort and helped the biochemical man break the bent ulna back.During this operation, many people saw Xiao’s deeds from the video sent back from Miles——about how Xiao did all this, they wanted to ask but didn’t dare to ask, and Xiao glanced at them After that, he could only look away and continue to be busy treating the wounded in front of him.On Eugene's side, Miles is more concerned about the identity of the other party, and is asking Eugene's opinion.

"It's definitely not from the rebel army. The rebel army came out of the Sagrand army. They have been trained to use a very special gun posture. I have fought against that group of people before, and I still remember that action. So I only realized it when I saw it at the time, and told you not to touch that box." Eugene said so, his face looking very tired. "And I heard them say the word 'navigator' before. Generally speaking, people on land can only use aviation vocabulary when talking about starship positions, and those who can use nautical vocabulary are probably only people who are also star pirates. "

Miles fully agrees with Eugene's guess.Facing the blood that the opponent has laid down this time, it cannot be a new enmity, it can only be an old enmity.But if you really want to find out, you still have to wait for Basil's instructions after you go back.

The main ship of the Rift had already received the news. When the two ships docked, the ship doctors were already waiting in the berthing area with first aid facilities.An injury like Eugene's is barely considered a light wounded person. He can wait in line for the doctor's treatment, or he can go to the ship's doctor's room to find equipment to scan the wound and remove the shrapnel.While everyone was busy, Eugene subconsciously wanted to say leave me alone, but was stopped by Miles.Seeing that the other party insisted on helping him clean the wound, Eugene, who didn't want to leave any sequelae, nodded, and was supported by Miles to leave the crowd.

Before leaving, he subconsciously looked back into the crowd, but he couldn't see Xiao at a glance.

Unbeknownst to Eugene, Xiao was standing in the dead corner of his line of sight right behind him, and clearly saw this movement of looking back.

To Shaw, Eugene's concern for him always seemed natural and real.Up to now, it will make him feel more and more uncomfortable while being confused.

……

In the infirmary, Eugene pulled over a chair and sat down with his back facing the door.Miles knelt down in front of him and cut Eugene's bloodied boot with the knife.The upper wound was a piercing wound at first glance, but after scanning, Miles looked at the image displayed above carefully, and was simply amazed at Eugene's luck—the bullet hit the calcaneus, fibula and Achilles tendon The gap between them perfectly avoids the key points that will affect the walking function in the future.

Miles couldn't help but feel better because of this discovery. He reached out to fetch the medicine for debridement, and began to pick out the few shrapnel with tweezers little by little.His movements were very slow and careful, in order not to leave any secondary damage.In the middle of his work, he looked up at Eugene and found that the other party looked very absent-minded.

"Thinking about Xiao? Did you quarrel?" Thinking about Eugene's strange behavior last night, Miles couldn't help but say something.

Eugene didn't answer him directly: "...According to Basil's arrangement, he should be sent away in two days."

Miles sighed: "From the beginning, the word you used for this matter was 'should', not 'want'. Eugene, if you don't want to do this, why do you have to do it?" Force yourself?"

Eugene lowered his head and looked away.He keeps the silence so long Miles hardly expects him to answer.Therefore, when Eugene spoke again, Miles had missed the best time to interrupt the other party, and the gaze he passed to Eugene was not conveyed because the other party looked down at his hands.

"Then if I say that, I just want to send him away."

Eugene sounded exhausted.

"The decision was made long before I left Green Star."

"I can even guess that after this incident, Basil might want to suggest that he stay."

"But personally, I can't think of any good for me if he stays." Eugene finally raised his head and smiled at Miles with self-loathing: "I'm too selfish, I know .”

——No one knows the inside story of his decision.Nor would he understand his current mood.

——He wanted Xiao to stay more than anyone else, but he also wanted Xiao to leave more than anyone else.

However, facing his answer, Miles just raised his right hand to his forehead, and then turned his head away as if he couldn't bear to watch.

For a moment Eugene didn't understand the meaning of his action.After a few breaths, he seemed to finally come to his senses, and slowly looked behind him.

Xiao stood at the door.

The biochemical man's face was still stained with dust, and now he was looking at him quietly.

Eugene's heart tightened in an instant.Facing Xiao at this time, a feeling close to panic made him almost open his mouth, explaining to the other party that it was not like that, his original intention was not like that

However, he opened his mouth, but in the end no sound came out.

Opposite him, Xiao has been waiting patiently.As if Eugene would gladly accept a poor explanation if he could offer him one.

... But no matter how much he waits, he will never wait.

After realizing this, Xiao smiled at Eugene.

It was a self-deprecating, self-deprecating smile.

"Sorry, I'm here to get the bandages." He raised his still bloody left arm, as if to show that he didn't mean to eavesdrop.Then he walked step by step to the locker beside him, picked up a bottle of liquid medicine for cleaning the wound, and a roll of bandages.

Before he left, he looked at Eugene again.

He looked at the person who had torn him to pieces tens of seconds ago.

"It's all right," he said. "I probably guessed that too."

"But shall we have a good talk, Eugene?"

"It's about me after all."

"I will wait for you in the room. You can tell me your decision in front of me."

Xiao pronounced every word clearly and vigorously, and added an emphatic accent to the word "in person".

When he realized the hatred that might be hidden in this sentence, Eugene unexpectedly found that he would feel a distinct pain, like the pain after being misunderstood.

However, Eugene would not understand that for Xiao, this was just a mockery of himself.

At this moment, Xiao felt that his situation was extremely ironic.

…When he came here, he really just wanted to get a roll of bandages to cover the unsightly wounds and exposed bones on his hands.

He didn't want to be dismissed by Eugene for such an inhuman and unnatural place on his body.

However, such behavior was originally meaningless.

After all, his humans had already decided not to want him.

It has nothing to do with what he can and wants to do

In the reality that he can't control, he has long been abandoned.

……

In Eugene's room, the lights were half on.

The dim light, which is obviously warm and can make people gradually feel tired, still can't ease the depressive atmosphere between the two of them at this time.

Shaw sat at the table and Eugene leaned against the wall by the door.They looked at each other, maybe they couldn't understand each other, why things came to this situation.

They were strangers to each other a few months ago.They unfold their lives toward each other, as if they are receiving an unexpected gift from each other.

But now, the shelf life of this gift has long expired. One of them wants to pluck out the memories that are about to rot, while the other is still holding the gorgeous box, as if he wants to rot what the other party gave him. in the arms.

Because that's all the man has.

— Shaw looked at Eugene.As if knowing that the other person would be difficult to talk to, he took it upon himself to start the conversation.

"I want to make sure one last time, you want to send me away, don't you?"

As he said this, his voice had improved by half compared to before.

Eugene lowered his head to the table in front of Xiao, and nodded after a moment of silence.

"...Where are you going to send it?"

Eugene finally spoke: "A town on the border of Sagrand."

"Why did you choose there?"

Xiao's tone was exceptionally calm.Eugene, however, would rather he cursed and yelled at himself and vented his displeasure; he didn't like the dry wounds of the present conversation like a blunt knife.

Taking a deep breath, Eugene sorted out the answer: "The people over there will not know your identity. In addition, there are many reformers in Sagrand, even if they find out that you are not human, you should not suffer anything. Discrimination and censure."

After a brief silence, Eugene heard the other party say:

"...you are very thoughtful. Thank you."

To Eugene's ears, such a sentence was no different from straightforward irony.He raised his head towards the cyborg, wanting to ask Xiao to speak the sentence he wanted to say directly.And as if sensing Eugene's mood at this moment, Xiao looked him in the eyes and said the next sentence.

"But Eugene, I want you to hear what I'm thinking before making up your mind for me."

There was no sarcasm in Xiao's eyes, only a kind of calmness after being cornered, desperate.

"Because if you told me from the beginning that you would send me away after leaving Green Star, then I would not choose to go with you."

... Such a speech was not within Eugene's expectation, and what Eugene couldn't accept the most was the meaning derived from this sentence.

So he looked at Xiao: "Are you serious?"

Xiao smiled at him.This smile carried Xiao's usual gentleness and unprecedented determination.

"Yes, Eugene. Compared to this result, I would rather have been destroyed."

These words made Eugene's chest hurt so much that he was almost shivering - all his sacrifices seemed to be meaningless the moment he said these words.

——It’s not like that, Xiao just doesn’t understand it yet.I did nothing wrong.Everything I have done has not been let down.

Thinking of this, Eugene began to try to explain to Xiao as if to convince Xiao and himself.He even had an unconscious smile on his face to cover up his wavering smile: "...But your feeling like this is only temporary. Didn't you say that you want to see more of this world? Besides staying with me Outside of your side, there are many things in this world worth your while..."

He was almost begging Shaw to take back the sentence before that.Because he truly believed that Xiao could obtain some kind of happiness because of freedom, he bet his life for it.

——So even if that kind of happiness has nothing to do with him, he still made such a decision.

"...Eugene, that's your point of view, not mine." Xiao interrupted him bluntly. "You may have forgotten that before I met you, I had nothing and I didn't know what I wanted."

"I do want to see the world, but there is a prerequisite, that is, you are by my side."

"Only when I'm by your side will I feel special." Xiao took a deep breath silently, "Obviously I can't do anything for you, but you gave me everything. When I find out At that time, I couldn't imagine living with anyone other than you."

There was no tenderness in the tone of this sentence, and Xiao was just stating a fact that he could not change.However, the emotion hidden behind this sentence is so strong that Eugene still feels confused even though he is in pain: "You don't need..."

"Eugene, you brought me to this ship with hope and then with the discovery that I'm nothing. I've been waiting for you to share your thoughts about your life with me and you haven't told me anything."

Under Eugene's gaze, Xiao took out a photo full of fold marks and bloodstains from his pocket.

On the photo is No. 6's expressionless, stern face.

Facing such a development, Eugene subconsciously wanted to take a step back, only to realize that there was a wall behind him.

"If you still love someone else, I can always wait for you. Just like saving you today, if you give me a little more time, I will try to do everything."

Xiao still wanted to keep smiling, but his lips began to tremble slightly.

"...I just want to be by your side, but you have already decided not to want me, haven't you?"

After such a rhetorical question, he still couldn't wait for Eugene's denial.

The feelings that Xiao firmly suppressed in his heart finally corroded his chest, and at this moment it reached the critical point of collapse.A desperate smile was drawn on Xiao's face, and he looked at his beloved, cruel lover.

"If that's the case, why did you treat me so well at the beginning? Is it because you pity me? Or is it because you promised me that you couldn't abandon me?"

The choked voice finally leaked out, and Xiao questioned the human being in front of him.

"I obviously can't leave you anymore, why do you have to abandon me?"

……

That was the first time Eugene saw Xiao's tears.

Heartbroken, Eugene showed a smile while slowly adjusting his breathing.

"Xiao, you can't give me what I want."

"In the beginning, you were the one who reminded me over and over that you would never fall in love with me. What else could I do?"

Eugene smiled self-deprecatingly.

"I gave you everything I thought I could give you. I gave you my life. Even if you don't need these things, I don't think I really did anything wrong. Now, I want I may be selfish for making plans for myself, but I never owe you anything."

Facing Eugene's unrelenting eyes, the cyborg stood up involuntarily, and stretched out his hand to Eugene.

"I just don't want to lie to you, but I don't have a choice." Xiao's voice trembled violently: "Do you think I don't want to be a human being? I want to love you too. I have no choice, Eugene, don't give up because I can't Controlled things leave me..."

Eugene didn't move.

In front of Eugene, Xiao almost knelt down.He bent down, begging Eugene with both hands, the humbleness in his eyes was so obvious, as if he had sunk into the dust.

"Even if I can't love you like a human being, I will try my best to get closer in that direction, can't I? I will try to give you happiness, can't you give me a chance? Try it, Eugene, you don't Try it, don't just give up on me..."

"……I tried."

Eugene cut him off.

"I tried, that's why I say that."

Facing Xiao at his feet, Eugene showed a bleak smile.

"12 years ago, when I made my first wish, my wish was to let the person I loved at that time gain affection."

"That man was by my side for 12 years. He was my best friend, brother, family."

"I originally thought that as long as he was by my side, as long as he could accompany me, it would be enough."

"But I'm too greedy, Xiao."

"I would feel more and more alone. I would feel less and less enough."

"I would hope that when I really fall in love with someone, he can respond to me without reservation."

"So in the end I killed him for my greed."

——In the past that Eugene doesn't want to mention, there are sins he committed that can never be redeemed and cannot be forgiven.

On the Rift, besides him and Gao Ge, many people didn't know that Number 6, who was quiet and expressionless back then, actually had an extreme emotional disorder.

Sixes cannot empathize with anyone.

After Gao Ge handed Eugene to No. 6, No. 6, who couldn't understand feelings but could understand responsibility, regarded Eugene as his pair as an object that must be protected and obeyed.

It seems that in order to make up for No. 6's lack of emotion, No. 6 has a self-healing ability far beyond ordinary people.And the habit he has developed is to use his own flesh and blood as a barrier to protect the boy's integrity when Eugene is in crisis.

It's just that every time he defended without asking for anything in return, Eugene, who was already a teenager at that time, gradually had hallucinations.

- Number 6 will do everything that promises itself. Number 6 is always looking at himself.Sixes will give themselves everything they have if they ask for it.

Such unreserved giving made Eugene, who was extremely insecure at that time, fall in love with his protector uncontrollably.

And No. 6, who never refused Eugene, even if he couldn't understand it at all, would kiss and hug Eugene under his request.It's just that in such a distorted relationship, even if you stick close to No. 6 face to face, you can't make Eugene ignore the deep loneliness.

He didn't want to look at No. 6 with a confused and blank expression again and again, silently asking for whatever he wanted.

He wants to be truly loved.

For such a completely selfish reason, he brought No. 6 to the Green Star, and before the fight, he made a wish for the other party to gain affection.

...Only five years later, the one who really made this wish for the legacy was No. 6 himself.

Earlier in the accident, Six had gone to the Society's lab without telling him.

Eugene didn't expect that when No. 6 made a wish, the inheritance not only gave No. 6 feelings, but also took away No. 6's self-healing ability.

However, No. 6 failed to get rid of the habit of defending Eugene with his body in one day.

At the end of the day, Number 6 smiled at him, the softest smile Eugene could have imagined.

That was the only genuine smile in No. 6's life.

——On the day No. 6 got his affection, Eugene lost No. 6 forever.

……

"...I know myself too well."

Eugene's lips quivered.He raised his hand and covered his eyes, as if to block the tears that were about to overflow his eyes.

"After he left, I swore I would never fall in love with anyone again."

"I never thought you would appear by my side."

"If you ask me why I have done so much for you, it is because no one has ever approached me like you."

—Nobody ever needed me like you, listened to me, looked at me, hugged me, kissed me.

——When I am by your side, I will feel that I am no longer alone.

"I just don't want to repeat the mistakes of the past."

"I don't want to face this lover who can't respond to me, and experience the pain at that time again."

"So, is it my fault to fall in love with you?"

Eugene removed his palm.His brows were furrowed, and the golden eyes looking at Xiao were full of helplessness and despair.Tears were all over his handsome face, which made people extremely heartbroken.

However, facing such Eugene, Xiao's mind was almost blank.

……

—Eugene, in love with him.

—his humans loved him.

After realizing this, in his chest, that false heart began to jump for joy, wanting to beat violently.However, the stubborn prohibition started to take effect, trying to forcibly suppress this impulse.

However, at present, Xiao does not allow such a thing to happen.

The biochemical man closed his eyes, raised his right hand, and pressed it firmly against his chest.

He looked inside himself.See your components and programs in action.

Then in the next second, realizing the restriction of what he wanted to do, it worked like crazy.

Xiao's field of vision was covered with blood-red warnings, and his limbs began to become numb, more so than last time, and he almost lost the strength to stand up.

However, Xiao gritted his teeth and persisted.

—I don't allow it.

--I do not accept.

—I want to answer him.

—I must answer him.

When his eyes opened again, all of Xiao's irises had been filled with dazzling platinum.

He moved his right hand away from his chest and moved it stiffly to Eugene's side.

He untied a dagger from Eugene's weapon belt.

That's a relic left behind by number 6.

Eugene had used it to cut his veins seven years ago.At this moment, Xiao raised his hand, pointed the tip of the dagger at his chest, and stabbed it down violently.

The biochemical man's body trembled violently, the dual effects of pain and restraint made his body almost paralyzed.However, he still continued his actions, expanding the wound surface.

In the next moment, he threw the dagger to the ground. Xiao panted violently, and inserted the fingers of his right hand into his chest.

Under Eugene's unbelievable eyes, Xiao vigorously pushed away the flesh and blood covering his machine core.A gap appeared in the metal core through his previous actions, and Xiao's fingers were heading towards this point.After the tiny electric sparks flashed, Xiao took out his trembling hand.

Between his index finger and middle finger, there was the chip that was still stained with fresh blood, which had been restricted by him.

At the same time, fragments of many memories flooded Xiao's mind.

——The scenery from the top of the White Tower.

—the starships that filled his field of vision.

—children laughing at him.

——Extending to the boundless dark galaxy.

and someone's deep voice.

——"He must learn to love humans."

——"Only when He falls in love with human beings will He have the weakness to be controlled."

——"If you create something that cannot be destroyed but can bring about destruction, at least try to put it in a suitable box."

This voice gradually faded away, Xiao adjusted his breathing in the severe pain, and gradually calmed down the frantic flickering light in his eyes.

He exerted a slight force on the fingers that were still holding the chip, and the small piece of metal was broken into pieces.The moment the debris fell to the ground, Xiao pulled Eugene's left hand with his bloody right hand, and pressed it against his chest that was still heaving up and down.

Under Eugene's palm, Xiao's heart was beating wildly.

"...It's not because of the pain." Xiao tried to smile at Eugene, "It's because, I'm really, really happy."

Before Eugene could react, Xiao pushed him against the wall and kissed him forcefully.

Eugene's eyes were open.He looked at Xiao's closed eyes, feeling the other's heart beating faster and faster, his body temperature getting hotter and hotter, and between the touch of lips and teeth, the turbulent emotions that could no longer be contained.

At the moment when his reason was burning hot, Eugene's heart shrank with fear.However, Xiao did not allow him to reject him, and was melting Eugene's last defense with gentle but strong movements.

Tears suddenly overflowed from the eyes.Eugene hastily closed his eyes, and then climbed onto Xiao's shoulders with trembling hands.

He was still extremely confused.But at this moment, he seemed to be really loved by Xiao.

This feeling seemed to penetrate the dark, warm sunlight.His almost frozen limbs could not refuse such warmth, and could only embrace his sun at the risk of being burned out.

The author has something to say:

It cost me my life to write.

Because I want to send it out before the agreed six o'clock, I don't have a sense of obsession with the atmosphere. When the full text is finished, I may go back and fix it.After knowing Eugene's past, if you go back and look at Eugene's previous psychological activities and the description of No. 6, you will probably have a very different feeling.

Although No. 6 is Eugene's first love, Xiao will be Eugene's first real lover.As each other's salvation, I hope everyone can always support them.

In the following plot, it will mainly talk about how Xiao healed Eugene's pain (ie: watching two people start a fairy love), and answer the question that was not answered before-does No. 6 have anything to do with Xiao?What happened seven years ago?How should Xiao face the identity of his inheritance?How will the two of them be together?

After all, this is the article I have been planning for seven years. If you read the end, you will really be pleasantly surprised.

Above, if you like this chapter, please give me a long comment, or help me push the article, hee hee :)

There is also a bad news: because my body can't hold it anymore, the next update will be this Thursday (10/15).

爱你们！感谢在2020-10-1108:13:35~2020-10-1117:23:08期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the shallow water bomb: 1 Xinyi;

Thanks to the little angels of irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Mingyue Zhaozhao; 2 bottles of Buzi; thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!