Abandoned Lover [Future]

Eugene's eyes were pure white.

He didn't know where he was, so he could only walk forward subconsciously.

However, such an absolute color made him lose his sense of direction and distance. When he couldn't see anything or light and shadow, he couldn't judge whether he was really moving.The white around him seemed to be gradually tightening him closer, like an invisible wall, squeezing his breathing space.

He was forced to run forward.

However, he couldn't see the end of the color in front of him, and he didn't know where he came from.No matter how hard he tried, he seemed to be dragged backwards by this invisible maze.In the end, his lung lobes and trachea seemed to be on fire, but the unchanging vision was repeated frame by frame, making every step he took a torture.

"Click".

"Click".

——The moment he finally wanted to stop, he saw a small crack appear on the white in front of him.A few steps away, it seemed that someone was chiseling with a sharp object from the outside, trying to penetrate this weird cage.And from that narrow gap, he could see a blue, cloud-studded sky.

He almost walked over quickly, reaching out to widen the crack.However, the moment before he took a step, he seemed to have thought of something and turned around.

...Behind Eugene, Number 6 stood silently.

No. 6 was wearing a familiar black uniform. Although the environment around him was quiet and windless, his clothes flapped slowly from side to side.

Eugene looked at him as if looking at all that he had in the past.

There was no emotional ups and downs in the pair of black eyes of the other party, they just met Eugene's eyes quietly.At this time, this kind of look seemed to be a kind of questioning and scrutiny, which brought the latter heart-pounding guilt and pain.

Eugene came in front of the other party and raised his head slightly.

"...I'm sorry, Number 6."

As Eugene said so, he looked at No. 6 carefully.

For more than ten years, he had thought of this person countless times on different or similar days and nights.

He gave a sour smile.

"I want to move on."

He tried to lighten his tone, but his voice trembled a little.

"I don't want to leave you behind."

"……please forgive me."

He stretched out his hand, trying to touch No. 6's face, but he couldn't touch any tangible outline.This kind of recognition made his eye sockets heat up in an instant. He suppressed the tears, and while slowly withdrawing his hand, he forced himself to remember the scene in front of him.

After all, he hadn't been able to say goodbye to No. 6 properly.

"I will be your pair from now on. My name is No. 6."

"I will protect you."

Sixteen-year-old Six held out his hand to him, trying to give him a stiff smile.

"I can get hurt, you can't."

"I don't know what to do if you cry."

No. 6 frowned, and helped him bandage the wound on his leg a little roughly.

"If you want me to."

"You are my pair. I want to make you happy."

Number 20, 6, bent down and kissed him lightly on the cheek.

"I'll go with you."

"I can't leave you alone."

The 22-year-old No. 6 packed his bags without hesitation, held his hand tightly, and accompanied him back to Green Star, where he had been away for many years.

On the 6th, he took a lot of pictures of him. Number 6 imitated his expression in the photo. "It's fine when you smile." Number 6 said, "I can't learn to smile like this."

And at the end of his 24th birthday, Number 6 put his head down and wiped away his tears with his fingers.

"Does it hurt you, Eugene?

"If I'm doing something wrong, tell me and I'll fix it."

"Seeing you cry, I feel a little strange now."

Number 6 looked at his hands and finally hugged him.

That was all he could recall, the last hug between them.

...Eugene looked at number six.

He looked at the man he had loved deeply.

"sorry."

He allowed himself to smile and apologize to Number Six.

"I'm going to move on."

"Thank you for being by my side."

Then he turned around and walked towards the gap where he could see the scenery step by step.

—“Look at me one last time, Eugene.”

Such sentences rang in his ears, and Eugene seemed to see the smile No. 6 left for him at the end.

Eugene turned his head hastily, but there was no sign of No. 6 behind him.

……

Artificial sunlight shone into Eugene's room through the window, and finally fell on the profile of his face.

Eugene raised his hand and covered his eyes.

"...Don't look at me." His voice was hoarse.

"I'm not reading." Xiao sat at the end of his bed, his eyes calmly resting on the pages in his hands, as if he would never finish reading it.

In this unreal scene, Eugene let himself go, silently wiping his eyelashes repeatedly.

And Xiao didn't ask any questions.

When the angle of the sun was slightly deflected, Xiao finally spoke.

"If you get up now, you can still catch up with today's special meal in the restaurant." Xiao's voice was natural, without any trace of inquiry or scruples. "Would you like to go and see it with me?"

Eugene was silent for a while, then nodded.

……

Eugene was still unsure how to deal with Shaw, and the upheaval they had experienced between them.However, Xiao didn't seem to be in a hurry to ask him for an answer, he just walked in front of him quietly.

Even so, Eugene still felt the good mood from the other party.All the details that could reflect such a mood were hidden by Xiao, except for the extremely small arc at the corner of the other party's mouth that never disappeared.

After coming to the restaurant to pick up the meal, the two sat down facing each other.While lowering his head to cut the duck confit on the plate, Eugene asked subconsciously: "...Is there anything that makes you happy?"

It was only after the question came out that he belatedly realized how slow such a speech was.He frowned and looked at Xiao, and wanted to add an explanation, but Xiao had already opened his mouth.

"Yes." Xiao looked back at him with gentle eyes, without any hurt or embarrassment: "I'm wondering if today counts as the first day we really became lovers."

Eugene was caught off guard when he heard this word, and immediately squeezed the knife and fork in his hand forcefully.

"I haven't..." Eugene didn't know what to say next.

"I know you may need more time, so I'm just thinking." Xiao's voice was as calm as ever: "But after yesterday, I don't think we have any reason to leave each other."

Eugene could not fundamentally deny this.

As if understanding Eugene's hesitation, Xiao continued: "...Do you still want me to stay by your side?"

Eugene lowered his eyes, moved his knife and fork unnaturally, and then nodded very slightly.

"We can start slowly. It's also the first time I fall in love with someone on my own will, Eugene. Neither of us has a perfect answer." Xiao held Eugene's hand that was still holding the fork across the table, A reassuring smile appeared. "But that's okay."

"Even if it's fake, we fell in love once. Now that we've rehearsed, this time will only be much better than the last one. You can trust me."

Eugene finally raised his head: “…I’ve never heard you say so many things at once.”

Seeing that he was in the mood to make fun of himself, Xiao finally withdrew his hand in relief: "I'm a lover-type cyborg, Eugene, expressing may be my nature." Saying this, Xiao's eyes dimmed slightly, But he still kept smiling: "It's just that there are some things that I didn't have the right to say before."

"Please don't think I'm talking too much now." Xiao Xiao ended the topic with a smile, not wanting to make Eugene feel that he was too eager.However, the faint bitterness in Xiao's smile at this time allowed Youjin to still see the shadow of the biochemical man who was walking on thin ice before.

This leftover fragment will make Eugene feel that what happened is more real.And he wasn't the only one who had struggled during the period of pain he felt - Eugene also had a weird, companionable comfort in the face of this realization.

The two didn't say much after that.In the comfortable silence, Eugene began to thank Xiao for being able to slowly pull him forward.Just relying on his own words, he is not sure when he will be able to gather the courage to start anew with Xiao.

It was after they finished their meal and walked out of the restaurant that Xiao, who was walking in front of Eugene, stopped suddenly.

"What's the matter?" Eugene was a little absent-minded, and bumped into Xiao's back lightly.

Xiao didn't turn around to look at him, but stretched out his hand the moment the two touched each other, and led Eugene forward.

"...I miss you walking by my side." Xiao whispered.After Eugene was pulled closer by him, Xiao hesitated for a moment, and finally let go of his hand.

The two began to walk side by side, towards the atrium of the residential area.Lu Xiao asked him: "Why do you always like to walk behind when there are only two of us?"

Eugene smiled: "When you first came, you always liked to run around when you went out, didn't you. That's why I got used to watching from behind, in case you accidentally got lost."

A rare look of embarrassment appeared on Xiao's face: "How long ago did that happen."

"Not long. Really think about it, it's only been a few months." Eugene shook his head slightly: "Time flies too fast."

After saying this, Eugene looked down at his feet, then raised his left hand towards Xiao.

"……hand."

"What?" Xiao didn't respond for a moment.

"Give me your hand. From just now, you want to hold hands, right?" Eugene turned to look at him, smiled slightly, his expression still looked a little tired.

And it does.

With a little disbelief, Xiao held Eugene's hand in his own.

"I thought you……"

"...I've never been too good at rejecting you, Xiao." Eugene withdrew his gaze and looked in front of himself. "But I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing."

"I don't have the courage to take the initiative anymore. But if you have something you want, I will try my best to satisfy you."

"Sorry, that's all I can do now."

Eugene sniffed and looked at Xiao again.There is a kind of heartbreaking helplessness in his expression, but the corner of his mouth is raised very gently.

Xiao's Adam's apple went up and down, and he pulled Eugene into his arms with the hands he held.

"You can also ask me." Xiao's voice was hoarse, "Don't you have anything you want?"

"...Yes." Eugene smiled on his shoulder, and it took two seconds before he gave an answer. "It's nice like this."

After hearing these words, Xiao tightened his arms even more, and buried his head into Eugene's side neck.

"If I become too greedy, or if you no longer need me, you can tell me directly." Eugene murmured, as if rehearsing a possible ending for himself, but still let Xiao hug him tightly with.

"No...you can be more greedy, you can trust me..." Before he knew it, Xiao's voice had become nasal.Eugene's words were so generous and selfless, which made him feel unspeakably sad while being touched.

——This is the human being he cherishes.A human being who is so gentle that he always puts others before himself.

——He obviously deserves the best things in this world, but he dare not ask for anything.

In silence, Eugene raised his hand and patted Xiao's back lightly.

The author has something to say:

Every time I read the ah ah ah in the comment area, I always feel that I did something wrong...

I'm essentially just writing about two gentle people in love... eh

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