sigh no need

The author has something to say: the next one will be written as No.1. I feel that I have made a lot of mistakes when I write here. For example, it was published on April [-]st, and it is like changing the title of the work from Sighing for nothing to Sighing for nothing. , It’s like letting the heroine tirelessly wear and tear, there are many bugs, if you want to kill the heroine, you can get it, I really feel that some are not worthy of her family, and I worry about the mood of the heroine, for fear that she will return to her soul The night came to trouble me, so I shamelessly continued.

The days are getting more and more lonely, just like the blue sky without the company of clouds, my loneliness is only because there is one less him in my life, I think we will look for each other, keep looking for each other's breath, maybe one day we will stop Looking for, that's because we can't find each other's breath, or we no longer breathe...

I am back to the world I love the most, the world where I can only eat one tea egg with the pocket money I saved for a week.

"What date is it today?" After lying in the ICU for several months, my voice was hoarse due to endotracheal intubation, and I could barely hear what I was saying.

"April [-]st, Ya Mu."

April [-]st?April Fool's Day?What a ridiculous joke God made with me.

"Thank you for taking care of me for so long, Jian Qing."

"Where is this? I'm just contributing, and the school is paying for it."

Well, the cost of being in the ICU is expensive. I guess I will either marry the school after graduation, or work hard to pay back the money.

I’m still not used to this identity, I’m so unfamiliar in the mirror, but it seems to be me again, Xiaotian really put the anesthetic I invented in the swimming pool, just like what was said in the dream, but she died, I survived, I was lying in the hospital for more than three months. During these days, the school closed down the anesthesia experiment I invented, and all the instruments and medicines were destroyed. Maybe I made a mistake at the beginning.

Are those just dreams?

"Ah."

Everything is an empty sigh, and there is no need for a sigh.

My life suddenly lost its direction, and I could only wander around the campus every day, waiting for graduation.

This is the first time I saw Su Haimo, what I heard when the basketball hit my head.

"I'm sorry, are you alright?"

I didn't speak because my throat was sore, I just rubbed my head and waved my hands to show that I was fine.

"My name is Su Haimo."

Su Haimo?At that time, I thought he was a good girl with this name, he smiled smirkly, and he could introduce himself to the person who was smashed, and the smile of an elderly man really failed to move people's hearts.

"Hi, my name is..."

Shallow Qing Wan Han...

"My name is Zhuo Yamu."

"You don't look very well, let's go to the hospital for an examination."

"No, I'm fine."

That day I was in a daze on the basketball court, looking for the memory left by the boy in my dream, and I was hit on the head by Su Haimo's basketball. I am a student of N University, and he is a teacher of N University.

I just went to pay homage to Xiaotian yesterday, and there are still a few notebooks from my research left in the dormitory, as well as Xiaotian's empty bed, which weighs heavily on my heart. Seeing that it is summer, I will find a night with good weather , Burn them downstairs in the bedroom.

The fire was difficult to light, but it was difficult to extinguish once it was lit. I put the notes in the brazier page by page.

"Sister, can you lend me your fire?"

Didn't see your senior sister, am I sad?You confessed to setting off fireworks, borrowing fire from me, have you considered my feeling of being alone, I immediately resorted to my unique trick - Aunt Xue stared.

"Senior sister, is it okay?" I frightened my junior, but he still persisted in borrowing fire from me.

"Okay, you can do what you want." I still lent the fire to my junior in a 'generous' manner.

It's so funny, I was burning notes and past memories, my juniors were setting off fireworks and courting, and the girls were cheering on the windows of the dormitory.

"Will Qingqing marry me?" The junior knelt down on one knee downstairs in the dormitory and took out the ring.

It turned out to be a marriage proposal. The hostess poked her head out of the window and smiled shyly. The other girls and the little friends recruited by the schoolboy booed together and shouted, marry him, marry him. The hostess looked very happy I continued to add oil and fire to my small brazier.

"Marry him, marry him." More and more people booed, and the scene intensified.

The last page of the note is gone, it’s gone, my past efforts and hopes have been burned by me, how will I live in the future, once, there was a boy I loved who proposed to me, right?I have worn a ring that shines like this at night too, right?

"Marry him, marry him..." The voice stuck in my heart.

"Marry him!"

I straightened up and yelled, exhausting all my strength, and whispered in the flickering firelight, "Marry him, don't miss it if you fall in love." Akashi Seijuro, I thought silently in my heart your name.

what am i doingCan so few tears quench the fire in the brazier?Why should I wake up, why can't the dream continue?

"What are you doing?"

The aunt in charge of the dormitory suddenly appeared, kicked the empty firecrackers away, pointed at the junior and yelled at the junior, what was not environmentally friendly, did not rest late at night, set off fireworks at night, scared her old man, etc. The junior apologized repeatedly and promised to buy it. Fruit as an apology.

I looked at it stupidly from the side, it's so good, no matter what, the junior is with the person he likes.

"Hey, that brazier over there hasn't put out the fire yet."

"Ah, I'm sorry, Auntie, I'll turn it off right away."

The next day, Jian Qing told me that someone was looking for me downstairs, and when I went downstairs, I found Su Haimo holding a fruit basket there.

"You look better." He started.

"Well, it's actually nothing."

"You seem to have a story."

He pointed at my faint pain, "But I'm not a storyteller."

We were walking on campus, he asked me a lot about me, I said nothing, he also asked Jian Qing for my mobile phone number, he would text me and call me every day, and occasionally asked me out When eating, I just answered him that I was in class and studying.

When the years are green, you can say that you have someone you like and reject others, but now you are looking at someone who is going to be three, and you don't even bother to find an excuse.

How long does it take for a glass of water to cool down, and how long does it take for a relationship to fade?

"Hey, Yamu, do you think Su Haimo likes you?"

I'm still not used to Shiraishi Jianqing's half-baked Mandarin. She is my first Japanese teacher, an international student from Japan, and I owe it to her in that dream.

"Jian Qing, his name is not Su Haimo, his name is Su Haimo, silently."

"Okay, okay, whether it's Mo or Mo, look at you, I just said a word wrong, you are so excited, are you interested in others?"

"I am the most interesting to you."

After a long time, I no longer dare to wear a white dress, go to the rooftop, drink matcha, sit under a tree, ride a bus, swing on a swing, or go to an amusement park alone. Dare to sing, dare not fall asleep with a pillow.

I spent a whole day doing all of these that day. I stood in the Ferris wheel with a white suspender skirt and pulled a balloon to accompany me. I wrote on the glass with my bare hands in the swaying air: Akashi Seijuro, you must always be there Together, they sang songs for three hours until their throats exploded, and then poured thick matcha on their dry throats, and fell asleep hugging the pillow tiredly.

I keep sleeping and dreaming, but why is there no you in my dream.

There is only one thing I didn't do, the roof of the school building is locked, I can't go up, I think at least let me have some regrets, otherwise I'm afraid I will forget that I once loved you.

When the summer is hot, if you don't take a shower every day, you will feel rotten and smelly. I rummaged through the luggage at hand, sorted out the things I needed for camping, and despised Shiraishi Jianqing's oversized suitcase.

"Jian Qing, you just stay on the mountain for one night, you want to move the whole dormitory?"

"Hey, Ya Mu, a change of clothes, toiletries, sneakers, mosquito repellent, snacks, what can you hold in that backpack?"

"It sounds reasonable, so I'll rely on you."

The school bus was driving with rattle, Jian Qing patted her cheeks, last night she pulled me to talk excitedly all night, planning what to do, now sleepy, a little bit on my shoulder She leaned back, but my shoulders were too low, her neck was crooked to the limit, and she sat up straight again. In the end, he leaned heavily and fell asleep.

I still listen to the song and look out the window, is my head so heavy on your shoulder?Akashi, don't you even say you're tired?Why didn't you wake me up at that time? If our memory stopped at that time, we wouldn't feel sad now.

squeak---

The bus came to a sudden stop, and Jian Qing and I stuck our heads on the backs of the seats in front of us.

"Oh, it hurts to death, what happened."

I rubbed Jian Qing's head, "I don't know what's wrong, why did it stop suddenly."

The driver yelled, "There is a pig blocking the way ahead, I will beat it right away."

The school bus finally arrived at the foot of the mountain, and the rest had to be walked up. Jian Qing yelled whether she regretted selling the medicine. In the end, the two of us worked together to carry her oversized luggage up the mountain.

"Ah, so many mosquitoes, Ya Mu, haven't you been bitten?"

"Well, yes, you don't get bitten by mosquitoes, don't you?"

"No effect."

I knew this would be the result, "Then put on the long clothes and trousers."

At night, I went to the observatory on the mountain with my classmates to watch the stars. I can only go out when the lights are dark. The mountain road is not easy to walk, so Jian Qing didn’t come together, and she is also in a deep sleep state now, so I had to follow the team. Behind, I wanted to be lazy after climbing halfway, but I was afraid of falling behind. I followed like a satellite from afar.

"let me help you."

In the dark night, a hand stretched out to me, vaguely, is it you?

Akashi Seijuro?