sigh no need

The night will not be filled with any color, and it may be colorful, but we can't see it clearly. When we see it clearly, it is also the distance between face to face.You will appear by my side to help me when I am in trouble, Zheng, is it you?I hesitated to put my hand on his hand, and when I reached the distance between my face and my face, I realized, well, your fingers are too soft, not as strong as yours.

"Thank you."

I let go of that hand, Akashi-san, if you hadn't picked me up in the alley, I wouldn't have cared about you somehow, if you hadn't picked me up outside the swimming pool, I wouldn't have fallen in love with you in a daze You, if you hadn't held my hand in the dark night, if you hadn't...

I will not fall in love with you either, my heart will no longer be beating uncontrollably, only intoxicated in the pain of waking up.

I heard that the stars in the telescope look like a piece of cake, and occasionally they are fried. I seem to smell the smell of scallion pancakes. I didn’t push forward and slowly fell behind. It’s because I fell behind, or I chose a different path. Sitting in the cold night, looking at the stars, the night sky in the city will only be struggling with spots, while the sky in the mountains is free and easy and transparent, densely scattered with bright spots. Beads all over the sky are about to fall at any time.

Looking at the sky, forgetting the sky.

A few hours later, a faint red light overflowed from the top of the mountain in the distance. The hot red light burned the whole mountain, and a light pierced through the cracks in the mountains. At the beginning of every day, it is my favorite Color, burn my soul with my favorite you.

"Asakyo Wanhan loves Akashi Seijuro."

"Zoya Mu loves Akashi Seijuro."

I can't shout, but I admit that no matter who I am, you live in my heart, who can tell me how to dig out my heart, I really want to see you inside.

After returning to school, I went to a place, this swimming pool, only Xiaotian came to give anesthesia, if I drown here, will I still go to your place, I invaded myself underwater again and again, sinking Go to the bottom, close your eyes, and wait for your arrival...

"Qianqing, you look so beautiful when you smile like this." Your voice echoed in my ears.

"Uh, cough cough cough."

Is it because I am too timid, or is it that I am not brave enough to love you, and I always instinctively save myself when my anger is not enough. I smile like this so beautiful?But I am crying now, Zheng, without you, how would I laugh, I slapped the water vigorously, splashed the water, tired, I just lay quietly on the water, relaxed everything, my life took another turn, I can laugh, I can laugh, laugh and forget the past, no one told me that words are blunt things that can cut me from time to time, now the only thing left is to dream, Akashi Seijuro, you are my dream Is it a fictional person?No wonder it's perfect.

Time is still going, love, why not go.

I graduated successfully this summer, yes, I graduated with no achievements. Everyone on campus has different moods, but I am still red, which represents static red. Jian Qing said that she was very reluctant to stay here Come down, I'm very happy, this is the most important decision in my life, she just chose it so easily, but what about me?Still don't know how to choose.

I learned from the school that it is a pharmaceutical company in Tokyo that has been funding my research and providing my hospitalization expenses. No wonder, the ghost believes that the school will generously contribute money and efforts. I asked the principal if I would return the hospitalization expenses to that company. In a company, the principal just shook his head, smiled, and told me that the other party wanted me to work for them regardless of academic qualifications, if I wanted to?

"Just like that?"

I couldn't believe it was so simple. I failed a drug test and had an accident, and they would offer such a favorable condition.

"Well, that's all." The principal's smile was thought-provoking.

He gave me the contact information of the other party and told me that they were waiting for me at any time.

When I left the principal's office, those words have been hanging in my heart. I am not a child anymore. I have graduated with no achievements in the country. It is difficult to find a decent job. Now a big company proposes generous conditions. I... ..why not go, the thought instantly changed to, should I go?

Trying to find other jobs, I was unemployed for several months, feeling like I didn't want to see anyone, until I received the first red bomb in my life, I didn't expect Jian Qing to get married so early, married The boss of her company, it was already autumn on the day of the ceremony, Jian Qing was wearing a red cheongsam, she felt a little weird, she said that she likes Chinese weddings very much, they are busy and lively, and she begged her husband for a long time before agreeing to hold this wedding Yes, accepting the relatives, snatching the relatives, next, worshiping the world first, worshiping the high hall twice, and worshiping three times...why the next one is not three worships, but husband and wife worship, where is the person who worships me, am I here? It's time to let go of you.

Jian Qing asked me secretly, she found that something was wrong after I woke up, I always seemed to have things in my heart that I wanted to pick up but couldn’t pick up, and couldn’t put down, and I didn’t have time to compliment her for her improved Chinese skills, so I just told her , that feeling, a feeling that will only appear once in this life.

A person breathes less of your air, if one day I think of your temperature, I won't feel sad...

Another rainy season is ushered in, I have learned to resist the thunder in bed, without your arms, I can do it myself, pretending to be free and easy, now my body is not wrapped in your smell, I want to get drunk, I don’t think about anything, I drank the alcoholic liquid bottle after bottle, got confused, had a headache, and fell into unconscious fragments. I drank it after I regained consciousness, and then fragmented again... Glass wine bottles fell from the coffee table, broken and green all over the ground , I seem to smell the smell of leaves, and that kiss...

"What did you call me?"

"Zheng, I call you Zheng."

"Sign..."

The next day when I woke up in the afternoon, I had a terrible headache, hehe, this is not me, not the me you like, you will not allow me to do this, if you really do not allow it, come and tell me, you will still You won't tell me that everything will be up to you in the future, sober up, tidy up the house, and clean up the glass shards on the floor.

I decided to live on the ground, and I will be more practical.

I found a job, and during the days when I worked in a coffee shop, I learned to smile, show my six teeth, and even the most fake smile, Zheng, I also understand that this may be something you don't want to see.

I'm about to rebel, so don't you care?

Recently I've been thinking, should I let go of you and start a new life? I tried to answer Su Haimo's calls, accept his invitation to dinner, and occasionally chat with him on the phone, but I always felt unspeakable.

Su Haimo was sick and asked me to take care of him. I bought some fruits and vegetables and went to him. It was nothing serious. I had gastritis. I cooked white porridge. He was full of praise and kept saying it was delicious, but he only ate half a bowl Just put it aside, there will be no one like you who will ridicule me that the rice I cook is ready to eat, and then eat it all.

I didn't know he wasn't you, he was just a friend.

That day, I went to see a movie alone. The strange thing is that I bought two movie tickets, two cups of Coke, and two buckets of popcorn. It brought us into the role of the movie. At first, we fell in love very smoothly. Later, I wondered if I chose the wrong movie. In the end, the heroine still died sadly.

The people around me were so touched that I cried, and I smiled stupidly. It is said that this movie will continue to be filmed next year. If the female pig’s feet are dead, why should I make a film? With rebirth, the director laughed, with aliens, the screenwriter laughed, and with ghosts, I laughed.

I'm going to forget about you, haven't I?

I was still depressed, and I was still working hard to live until the day when I received a call from Su Haimo, it was a day in winter.

"Are you looking for me for something important?" I put down the phone and rushed to the place I made an appointment with him, the school gate.

"kindness."

He smiled, and I followed him to his new house, which had just been renovated with three bedrooms and two halls.

"You are in such a hurry to bring me here?"

"Ya Mu, will you marry me?" He knelt down on one knee and held the ring in front of me.

"I..." This incident came too suddenly. Su Haimo, who is in excellent condition in all aspects, will be very happy if a girl marries him.

"Now that the house is ready, the only thing left is a hostess, and you are the most suitable person."

"I..."

In your life, I only give you one chance to choose. The proposal is like this. I have already made the once-in-a-lifetime choice. Don't give me a second choice.

"I am married."

"What are you talking about? You're married, why don't I know."

"In my heart, I'm already married. Even if I'm not married, I can't be with you."

"You stop joking."

"Is this a joke in your eyes?" Oh, if my most sincere feelings are a joke in his eyes, I can only laugh at him.

I left his house silently, I finally learned to refuse, finally learned to say no, Zheng, did you see that?ah?

If no one acknowledges the memory between me and you, then I will wait by myself.

In the deepest winter, the cold wind hits my bones, and the coldness of the wind evokes the pain of my 'death', making the past slowly evaporate like mist. Although the miss is sad, it is the most touching memory. Have you said that, I have died once, and I still don't understand some things.

Then I chose to work in Tokyo, not to repay my kindness, nor to escape from Su Haimo. I thought about my life carefully, and took every step in the future. Now I am at least calm.

I like a person, and reading the same words several times has another meaning.

I still can't forget you.

Soon, be happy.

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I paid homage to Uncle Mary, loved Aunt Mary, drank three thousand blood, and loved Xiao Baiwen ever since.