As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

The morning sun shines through the curtains and flows on the carpet like spun yarn.I sat motionless on the bed, and no one could see that my thoughts had been taken out, and I looked like I was in a daze.

Only I know how much information was integrated between my half-dream and half-awake.

I remembered something.

About my name, where I come from, who I am.It doesn't seem to matter so much now, I'm not as obsessed with my personality and authenticity as I was before - I'm aware of the fact that I'm human, and I still have the right to love others .

But, why did I gradually forget my past after coming to this world?

Dazai was lying on the bed, but he didn't fall asleep, he must have woken up before me.Seeing me getting up from the bed suddenly, I didn't say a word for a long time, as if worried about my condition, I stretched out my hand and tugged at the corner of my clothes.

"Yi Jun, can you tell me why you want to go to the cemetery?"

It was only then that I remembered that my lover was a sensitive and delicate young man who often fell into restlessness.

Dazai had already got up from the bed, he moved to my side, leaned on the bed with one hand and approached me, his warm palm was on my forehead, I realized that my forehead had leaked out sweat.

"After all, even I would be surprised to hear 'cemetery' or something when I woke up." He said, "Yi Jun has been dreaming just now, right?"

"It's not accurate to say it's a dream... I don't know how to explain it is the most reasonable."

"Well, because Yi Jun looks very confused now." Dazai seemed to have anticipated my situation in the fog, and the corners of his lips curled up, showing an incomparably bright smile, "I should have some clues."

"Eh?"

Dazai greeted my doubts with a smile: "It's not impossible for me to tell Yi Jun~ But..."

His hidden unfinished words must have dug a round hole for me.

I am very familiar with Dazai's expression of digging a hole and waiting for me to jump in.Seeing his beaming and triumphant appearance, for some reason, I actually wanted to do the opposite and tease him back.

Then, of course, just do what you say——!

I directly arched my knees, propped my body up, then pushed his shoulders and fell back, directly pressing the Dazai Maomao who was bargaining with me on the bed.

"Ehhh?! Yijun—what are you going to do!" Dazai put on the appearance of a good woman, and looked at me in "horrified".

Now, I support myself on my legs and knees, and Dazai is obediently lying on the bed.

Looking at his watery eyes, and his "cute expression, which is obviously pretended to be surprised", I felt strange emotions in my heart... how should I put it, it was quite refreshing.

Occasionally let me take advantage of it.

"Mr. Dazai, tell me the answer?"

"Ha... I lost to you. I never thought that Yi Jun would be so bold." Even so, there was no expression of resignation or reluctance on his face. "Where is that cautious, reserved and ignorant Yi Jun going?" gone?"

I propped it up with my hands, watched him from top to bottom, and dug out my own thoughts to show him:

"Probably because I have gradually gained courage after being 'trained' by Mr. Dazai over and over again. What's more, Mr. Dazai did not refuse my confession... We have come to this point with great difficulty. If we still dare not express our feelings Emotion, I am afraid to touch your words..." I thought that I could speak out my love with my head held high, but when I said this, I was still caused by my shy nature. And lowered his voice--

"Then how can I let Dazai-san know 'I like my lover very much'..."

The young man lying under me gently brushed the drooping hair to the back of my shoulders, then used his broad palms to run up my neck, and finally covered my cheeks.His intimate touch almost felt like an electric shock. I instinctively wanted to turn my head, but he stretched out his other hand—both hands stroked my cheek.

His slender fingers just touched my earlobe—

"Yijun, your ears are red. You can't be ashamed when you say such beautiful love words." With a smile on the corner of his eyes, the young man said softly: "...I didn't expect that even the level of love words, Yijun is better than me .”

"I wouldn't say these things to others...Really, Mr. Dazai has completely moved the topic away."

Being watched by him so affectionately, I almost forgot that I was going to do business.

Dazai finally stopped teasing me, he withdrew his movements, and played with curling the end of my hair with his fingers instead.

He said, "Let's start with the cemetery. Which cemetery is Yi Jun going to?"

I held my chin in one hand and looked up at the lamp by the bed.

"There is a church in the back, a small hill in front, facing the sea of ​​Yokohama..." I described to Dazai the appearance of the cemetery I saw ten years later, "Sorry, I only know these features."

After listening carefully, he told me: "I probably know where it is."

"Can you take me there, please?" I quickly leaned over and asked him.

After hearing my question, Dazai looked at me without squinting, then tilted his head to show doubts.At the moment, he is still wearing pajamas, with his loose hair casually laid down, and the laziness in the morning has not completely dissipated.

"Satisfying the small request of a lover is of course not a problem, but..." Dazai stretched out a hand to cover his lips, his eyes full of worry: "Can you tell me the reason why you want to go to the cemetery? How did Yi Jun know this?" What about the characteristics of the cemetery?"

Dazai was as well-behaved as a cat that could let me rua, I couldn't help but reached out and poked his cheek.

Too thin, there is no meat, basically the cheekbones are just touched.

Seeing that my disappointed expression was written all over my face, Dazai immediately protested dissatisfied: "It's obvious that I was the one who was taken advantage of?"

"Ahem..." I turned my face away, "Let's continue talking about the cemetery, no, about the cemetery. Didn't I go to Tokyo some time ago? By chance, I saw the world ten years later. Just a few minutes."

"Ten years later? Let me guess, Yijun was sent directly to the cemetery, right? Or before a certain tombstone."

Dazai was not surprised when he heard "the world ten years later", he continued, "And Yi Jun met the 'Dazai Osamu' ten years later, right?"

"Yes." I frowned and recalled the scene at that time, "Mr. Dazai was not surprised when he saw me ten years later."

"Anyway, that person is also 'Dazai Osamu'. By the way, what will happen to me ten years from now? Am I still so handsome?"

"It's a bit different from now. After all, it's been ten years, and there is a smoother and restrained sense of maturity..." After finishing speaking, I looked at the young man with raised brows and shining eyes, feeling inexplicably confused. A supernatural emotion rolled into my heart, "It turns out that Mr. Dazai will become like this in ten years' time."

Dazai's voice was like melted chocolate, but what he cared about was another fact: "Where is Yi Jun ten years from now?"

After he reminded me like this, I realized that Dazai ten years later hadn't said anything about me.

"I don't know. Dazai-san ten years later didn't mention me at all."

Dazai pulled out a meaningful smile, and continued to ask: "What was the scene when you met me ten years later?"

"I opened my eyes and found myself in front of a tombstone, and then Mr. Dazai appeared... The tombstone was covered with dust, it seemed that it was rarely cleaned, and the surrounding area was also covered with weeds."

"Do you still remember the name Yijun on the tombstone?"

When he asked this question, for some reason, I felt that my heart missed the beat. When I tried my best to dig out the name on the tombstone from my mind, my eyes seemed to be covered by clouds. I stretched out my hand to clear the fog in front of me. It wasn't until I felt my brain hurt that I finally found the answer from the deepest part of my memory——

"I...ori..." I murmured subconsciously.

The young man sighed softly in the silent room, and he whispered, "Is it Yizhi...it really is 'Izhi'."

The wall of memory collapsed suddenly, and the scene in front of me brightened, and my voice gradually became more confident from being uncertain, "Iori is my name, Mr. Dazai."

While I was speaking, he had moved his body backwards with his elbows, and successfully lifted himself up from under me. After knowing that I had the answer, Dazai sent a blessed smile——

"Hmm," he said, "Congratulations on remembering your name, Miss Iori."

"Wait—" I put my hands on his shoulders, and I almost wanted to shake them vigorously. Did this man secretly read the script? How could he know everything?

"Why does Dazai-san act like he already knew?"

Obviously, as the person involved, I only just found out? !

"That's a long story. But I'm hungry now, and I don't have any strength at all... What should I do..." He tilted his body and began to play tricks, "Okay—hungry—ah—"

"Then let's go eat first." I got off him, went to the sofa next to me and hugged my clothes to change, when I looked back at him, Dazai was still lying on the bed.So I picked up his clothes and threw them on him.

"Get up, Dazai-san."

He closed his eyes tightly and shouted, "I don't want to get up!"

"How do you eat if you don't get up?" Facing Mr. Dazai, who is capricious, I also used my housekeeping skills to be tough, walked up to him and sat down beside him like a child, and lifted his quilt.

Watching him lazily spread himself out into big characters, the longing part of my heart seemed to be satisfied.The ordinary daily life I experienced with my sweetheart, the bits and pieces in life, are exactly the unquenchable light I long for.

Just as I was immersed in happiness, Dazai suddenly got up from the bed like a carp, and I was taken aback for a while.

He clenched his fist with one hand and tapped the palm of the other hand. Because of the jump just now, the hair on the back was turned to the front. In short, it was very funny.

"Yi Jun, today is a working day!"

His words were like an extremely precise alarm clock, sounding an omen.The next second his cell phone rang suddenly, Dazai closed his eyes and touched his cell phone with disgust on his face, then turned on the screen, showing the caller ID to me——

"It's Mr. Kunikida." I read out, "If you want to work, there is no other way. Mr. Dazai can tell me the location of the cemetery, and I can go alone."

"Wait, wait, wait..." He said several words in a row, "Yi Jun, didn't I convey my intention at all?! That's it! You answer the phone for me, and then I can be fair and honest. Skip work!"

"But it's not good to skip work..." When I met Dazai's affectionate eyes, I almost lost my principles, "In case Mr. Kunikida has something urgent..."

Before I could finish speaking, Dazai nimbly ran down from the bed, pressed the dial button, and handed the phone to me.

However, what came from the other end of the phone was not Mr. Kunikida's roar as I thought, but an uncertain inquiry——

"Mr. Dazai?"

"Is it Dunjun?" I subconsciously replied.

Atsushi Nakajima exclaimed: "It's me... Wait, wait? Mr. Dazai has become a girl?!"

"Calm down, brat. No matter how you hear it, it's not Dazai, right? This voice..." This time it was Kunikida's voice.

"This is Inai." I identified myself, "Mr. Dazai is with me now."

"Eh——?! Is it Ms. Inai?!" Atsushi Nakajima's wailing became even harsher, and I hurriedly pushed the phone aside to protect my ears.

"Yes."

The boy on the opposite side seemed to be still digesting the information in my words, and it took a long time before he replied: "Actually, there is nothing... big... just... today is a working day... no, there is nothing to disturb, sorry to see you later!"

Atsushi Nakajima ended the conversation with lightning speed.

I:"……"

Dazai had already run back to the bed, clutching his stomach and laughing loudly.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha--"

I belatedly remembered that it was said to be working time, but it was actually only around nine o'clock.Why was I answering Dazai's call? This already caused Atsushi to have many associations. After trying to understand the reason why Nakajima Atsushi hung up the phone in such a hurry, I felt very complicated.

...Although we are indeed... dating... right?

Although I am dull, I am not a fool.I knew how much I would be misunderstood. Seeing Dazai's innocent look with downcast eyes, I suddenly felt very wronged.After all, the progress of the relationship is not a rocket ride. We still have a lot of work to do. So far everything between us has come through step by step.

Thanks to this call, it has now become "everyone thinks you're on the fifth floor" when I'm actually on the first floor.

When everyone thinks that you are cooking raw rice and cooked rice, the plug of the rice cooker is actually not plugged in. What kind of mood is this?

I rushed over, raised the pillow and pressed it on him, then hammered it twice as if venting: "Mr. Dazai, you really did it on purpose!"

"Hahahahahahahaha—!" Dazai, who was pressed tightly by my pillow, was out of breath laughing, "Because Yi Jun thought! I am Dazai!"

I held up the pillow so as not to really crush this hard-won cat, and made a stern, "you better give me a reasonable explanation" expression.

Wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes, he said, "No one can imagine that Osamu Dazai will have this day, right?"

"——Just like an ordinary person, having a complete relationship, having a caring bento who will worry about him catching a cold in cold water, and will make delicious food for him, and will change change with him at the cashier regardless of face , will look at his lover wholeheartedly and full of love." His tone was as calm as that of a patient who has long been accustomed to loneliness, and at the end of the sentence, there was a faint trembling like a leaf being driven by the wind— —

"That Osamu Dazai actually has such a lover."

……no.

As early as in the middle of his speech, I could no longer hold my face. The pillow that I had just used as the murder weapon had been thrown far under the bed by me.There was a layer of fragile light floating in his iris eyes, as if he suspected that everything in front of him was just a fictional reality.

Instead of carefully asking his permission, I bent down and buried my face in his chest.

Because we are lovers, if every touch is as blunt as going through a formality, then our distance will not be shortened at all.

"Yi Jun?"

Mr. Dazai didn't chase me away, I quietly listened to his breathing.

For Mr. Dazai, he must have received a lot of "love" from the opposite sex.Maybe there is no difference between my love and theirs. My love is not something different. The reason why my love really shines is naturally Mr. Dazai.

"It's not like that." I muffled in his chest and said, "Whether I take 99 steps or [-] steps, as long as Mr. Dazai doesn't take the last step, nothing will change. It's because Mr. Dazai chose me, I chose my feelings, and only the love that was responded to became a different existence from others."

——The person whose dreams come true is obviously me.

"Choose me, obviously Mr. Dazai suffered a lot... There are many lovers who are better than me..." After thinking about it, I became depressed, and I was at a loss for words, and finally spit out two words: "Stupid .”

"Yi Jun is the idiot." He followed suit and poked my cheek.

I looked at him resentfully.

With a smile on the corner of the young man's lips, he said again: "Because it is still in the probationary period, so the next thing must be approved by Yi Jun."

"what?"

"...I want everyone to know that Yi Jun is my lover, is that okay?"

"……Fool."

This kind of thing, just say it if you want to say it.

"Yi Jun~ So did you agree?"

"--Fool!"

How could I disagree.

The author has something to say:

This Ai is just too inflated.

Osamu Dazai, a young expert in crooked buildings.

Xiao Yi, a tenth-level love talker.

Imagine how crooked the whole building would be if two people like this helped their children with their homework!

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感谢在2020-09-2622:45:54~2020-09-2721:39:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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