As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

We agreed not to mention this matter any more, and even the red corners of my eyes disappeared without a trace as if they understood my thoughts.We took some pictures, and I sent a few random pictures to Line.Afterwards, I went to have a meal after I left in [-]saka, took a leisurely rest for a while, and then went to Yasaka Shrine. It was already dark at this moment.

Entering through the vermilion front door, we first went to the pool to wash our hands.Immediately afterwards, we did not go to the main hall, but went to the dance hall first - the lantern lit the night, and the orange light was transparent and bright. We stood under the lantern, and the warm yellow light hung above our heads.

"It's so beautiful." I couldn't help but sigh with emotion, "Is this a place for celebrations?"

"It doesn't take long for the maikos to come from the ikebana," he said. "The moon viewing festival was held at the beginning of this month, and the autumn festival will soon be here."

"...Ah, there is still 'Seven Five Three' in November." I said with a smile, "It would be great if I can come to see the Gion Festival next year. I will be immersed in the joy of the festival throughout July. It is said that it is in front of the West Gate Building There will be three shrines assembled, it must be very spectacular."

The light of the lantern is dim and soft, like a layer of veil flickering under the night.

Dazai's eyelashes reflected a faint light.

He said, "Come next year."

I only hoped for one next year, and when he said that, I began to hope for countless next years.

With a smile on his face, Dazai glanced towards the southeast, and then asked for my opinion: "There are many other shrines near the main hall, do you want to visit them?"

"The Migozensha, which enshrines the Three Goddesses, is said to be very popular with women." I checked the information on the Internet before I came here, and I learned something about it. Absolutely."

"Although it is only said to be 'beauty', it is also said in the description that it is a divine water that can cleanse the soul and purify the dirty."

I thought to myself, this kind of statement is similar to the water in shrines all over the country.

"Then let's go and buy emas after we have seen them." I said.

Unexpectedly, just a few steps out, and before we completely left the area of ​​the main hall, it began to rain, so we had no choice but to run under the shelter.Fortunately, Kyoto has been highly commercialized under years of tourism culture, and there are also commercial streets nearby. However, there are a lot of tourists at night, and there are too many monks and few porridge. When we rushed to the grocery store, there was only a transparent umbrella left.

He held up the umbrella, which I was embarrassed to find was too crowded for two adults.

"Can I get a little closer?" Dazai's expression was still calm.

"I'm sorry." I also became more polite - it seemed that I was more natural.

Dazai looked around and reached out to catch the rainwater. The drizzle just now had grown a little bigger, but it wasn't disturbing. He didn't show any special interest, he just followed my arrangement, but this time he He took the initiative to ask me: "Would you like to visit other shrines?"

"Hmm..." I sniffed, and the cold air made me lean my neck back.

The temperature plummeted, and my hands, which were not very hot, were already starting to feel cold.

"It's cold in just a kimono." His eyes fell on my shoulders, "Go and change back."

"But I have to change clothes and leave the shrine..." I was suddenly a little reluctant, maybe I was hypocritical, I didn't expect that a light rain would kill most of our night tour plan.

I could only make a final struggle, took out the coins I had prepared a long time ago, spread them in the palm of my hand, and looked at him with a begging look: "Mr. okay?"

Dazai reached out and took the coin lying on my palm, and when his fingers picked up the coin, he left a trace of his warmth on my palm.

"Okay," he said, "but until then..."

He gave me the umbrella and the things in his hand, and took off his windbreaker coat and put it on me.

"Shouldn't you catch a cold this way?" He said with a smile.

We are close together, not too tight.On a cold rainy day, I felt his temperature through the distance of my sleeves.The more this vague contact, the more it makes my heart pound.

When I put on his clothes, will there be his breath on me?

Dazai handed the coins to the staff of the shrine. When he chose the ema, he asked me: "What style do you want? Ordinary or heart-shaped?"

I didn't dare to look him in the eyes, I was so scared.The heart-shaped ema is related to love, so I had to choose the ordinary ema.After getting the ema, I asked, "Where is Mr. Dazai?"

"Ah~" he said slowly, "I'm just like Yi Jun."

One of us writes, and the other takes something to hold an umbrella, and after everything is written, we go to hang up the ema.What I wrote was "I hope Mr. Dazai's wish will come true", which is a simple and tacky blessing.I secretly covered the content with my hands, and Dazai did the same. In the end, neither of us saw the wish written by the other.

I went to a nearby rental shop and returned the kimono. I also took off the head flower, put down the original coiled hair, and changed back to my own clothes.We had planned to go for a leisurely stroll along the Kamogawa River, and we also had a hot spring bath under the gradually decreasing temperature and gradually violent rain. We simply went back to the hotel to take a hot bath and rest early.

……

……

Although we have a two-person room, it is actually a large room that can accommodate three to four people.We made the bed in advance - of course we slept on both sides of the guest room, with a partition door in the middle and an aisle in the outside, and I slept on the side that could directly enter the yard.

I drank hot tea and said, "Suddenly I feel like I have returned to the world."

"When I was at the shrine, Yi Jun's hands were very cold." He said naturally while tidying up his things.

...Did Mr. Dazai ever touch my hand?

He took the initiative to explain: "When I took the coin, I touched Yi Jun's hand, didn't I?"

I held the cup with both hands, and covered half of my face with the wide mouth of the cup, letting the hot air cover my expression.

"I'm only wearing a single kimono, so there's nothing I can do...Fortunately, Mr. Dazai lent me the clothes."

"After all, it's Yi Jun's long-awaited trip—if you miss it because of illness, you will be very sad, right?" He said, "It's been a while since I've eaten, and I feel a little hungry again. I didn't expect physical strength It consumes so much..."

Dazai stretched exaggeratedly, making a lazy sound, his shirt was half-lifted up by his movement, I happened to see his slightly exposed side waist from this angle, I quickly shifted my sight, and then I felt a bit like this Without a posture of 300 taels of silver, he began to answer his words.

"Almost three hours have passed." I looked at Zhong and calculated in my heart, "Additionally, I was walking all the way, and finally encountered an unlucky rain. I always feel physically and mentally exhausted."

The voice of the black-haired young man was like clear water in a pool, but it was tainted with human warmth when someone scooped up a handful——

"It's a happy day, isn't it?"

My heart is swaying, falling into this Wang Qingquan, infiltrating, filling——

"Ah."

Dazai put the water-stained windbreaker upside down on the Japanese-style low chair, and he opened the door. The sound of rainwater that was originally separated by a layer suddenly became clear, and the leaves in the lush and verdant courtyard were crooked by the rainwater. Just like that.

"It's still raining." He sighed without any emotion.

"It seems that tonight can only be spent in the hotel." I was worried that he would be bored, so I quickly said: "The facilities in the hotel are also very rich, including game consoles, capsule machines, and billiards. A small commercial street, we can go there and have a look."

"Well—that's not bad."

The young man stared at the rain scene. Although he answered my words, I still had a feeling that I couldn't describe.

I always feel that Mr. Dazai is a bit different recently.

Thinking about it carefully, the usual laughter and gag gestures seem to be more restrained, and the frequency of jokes and frivolous tones has been greatly reduced. The most "dramatic" part of Osamu Dazai's appearance is in my opinion. The front is heavily slashed.

Except for the body and face that seduced me deeply, as if made by God, the heart he showed in front of me was more like an ordinary young man.

——A "ordinary" young man who is too smart to feel the changes of the four seasons and the impermanence of life and death in the one-way line of life, suffering from no way ahead and hesitating, finally standing on the road.

But I definitely don't mean that the usual Mr. Dazai is his external disguise.

There are two kinds of him, and I was lucky enough to get a glimpse of the second kind of him—that kind of bleakness and loneliness is like a thorn in the world, deeply rooted in his soul.

Now I see it.

"Mr. Dazai."

I speak out to interrupt his loneliness that is about to merge with the rain scene. I don't have the strength to pull out the thorns that are rooted in his body, so I will treat myself as warm water that can soften him a little bit. good.

"Huh?" His voice was almost drowned out by the sound of rain.

If this person is left alone, will he be taken away by some monster that came out of the rain and go to Huangquan Biliangzaka?

I put down my cup, walked to his side, and slightly closed the door in front of the courtyard, saying solemnly, "Shall we go to the hot spring? Sweep away the coldness from our body, and then go to the mini commercial street to buy delicious snacks. By the way, there is also a gashapon machine, I saw that there is a limited style that Imaken wants, do you want to see who is luckier and get a rare limited edition?"

——Don't let go of every single cent of today, and fill it up with insignificant 'happiness'.

"Is Yijun going to compete with me?" he said.

"It's also okay……"

"However, my luck in this aspect is quite—quite good." His smug expression gradually surfaced, "There must be something to add to the competition, right?"

"Speaking of which, I still owe Mr. Dazai a favor... No, I still owe Mr. Dazai a condition." I said, "Let's bet on the same thing this time! The loser must promise the winner something within his ability .”

"Yi Jun, if you lose, you owe me twice."

"We have the same chance of winning or losing purely by luck."

Besides... If I win, can't Mr. Dazai promise me something?

"Then go to the hot spring first, can we meet in the rest area in half an hour?"

I nodded, "No problem."

We packed up our things and went to get our toiletries and bathrobes.Men's yukatas are dark blue with light-colored vine patterns embroidered on them.The women's one is light pink, with small round flowers printed on it, which looks younger and more energetic.

Before entering the separate gate for men and women, I asked curiously: "Mr. Dazai, don't you take off the bandage?"

"This one?" He raised his wrist and opened the front of the head a little. "Since you have to take off your clothes after entering, the bandages must also be removed. Is Yi Jun curious?"

"I've never seen what Mr. Dazai looks like under the bandages...and won't it take a lot of time to wrap the bandages every day?"

Speaking of which, I'm actually more curious about why he was wearing a bandage.

"Practice makes perfect, right?" He smiled, "Then see you in half an hour."

"Well, see you later."

First go to the bathing place to clean the body, the aroma of the shower gel seems to be some kind of floral fragrance prepared.The moment I touched the hot water, the cold air brought in from the outside was finally completely dispelled. After washing the body, I went to the hot spring pool to enjoy the relaxation brought by the hot spring. Today's fatigue was swept away in the pool null.

Everything was perfect at first, but when I came out, I accidentally slipped and hit the rockery on the outside of my thigh.I forgot the time when I soaked in the hot spring, so I almost got out of it by pinch, so I forgot about this little episode, and hurriedly changed into a yukata and went to meet Dazai.

When I saw him, he had already bought two cups of coffee, handed one of them to me, and asked, "What do you want to eat?"

"I want to eat ramen or yakisoba... Where's Mr. Dazai?"

He took a sip of coffee: "Let's fry noodles."

The single portion of chow mein sold was much larger than I imagined, and Dazai said that he was not that hungry and could not finish a whole portion.We hit it off immediately, so we asked the boss for another empty box, and divided the oversized chow mein into two portions.The chow mein is super spicy, so I bought some fruit candies in bulk from the store next to it.

Dazai really can't take spicy food very much, he said while eating: "It's really spicy——Yi Jun, don't you think it's spicy?"

At the moment, I am pouring down coffee, and I still stick out my tongue to feel the cold air after drinking.

"……so spicy!"

Perhaps because of the shower, the bandage he had put back on under his neck was a little loose.The part of the neck above the Adam's apple turned reddish under the action of the chili pepper, and even the roots of the ears were forced to be dyed pink.

His plate was already empty. This person obviously can't eat spicy food, so why did he eat so fast? !Dazai stuck out his tongue and fanned the wind with his hands, trying to overcome the unbearable heat.

Seeing his appearance, I also stopped eating, and unwrapped the wrapper of the fruit candy I just bought and handed it to him.

"Take some candy," I said, "it might make you feel better."

"Well--"

As a result, he stuck out his tongue, as if asking me to feed him.

I had no choice but to pinch the candy wrapper tightly to prevent my hand from accidentally touching his tongue and sending the round candy into his mouth.

What he ate was a light green candy flavored with honeydew melon, and I asked, "Is it better?"

Dazai chewed the candy, then licked his lips——

"So sweet."

"That's good."

In fact, I don't need him to answer, I also know that this kind of cheap candy in bulk must be very cloying, but fortunately, it can relieve some spicy, which achieves my purpose of buying it.

I also speeded up and devoured my fried noodles, and then we went to the whole row of gashapon machines.

I changed a lot of change at the machine just now, plus the change I bought today, enough for us to transfer a lot of times.

In front of Kamen Rider's gashapon machine, the two of us are guessing who will draw first.

"As expected, I won~" Dazai rolled up his sleeves, and I handed him the change. After losing three times in a row, I had no choice but to look at Dazai's smug smile and wait for him to draw the gashapon first.

Unexpectedly, he won the most difficult one in the first round—that is, the one that Jian Jian was nagging at my ear every day.

"As I said, I'm very lucky in this respect." Dazai confidently held the pendant in his hand and shook it, "In this way, Yi Jun owes me two demands."

I didn't have a chance before I exerted my strength. I really never expected it.

But the change has been changed, and it is not my style to return empty-handed, so we started to attack other gashapon machines.I fell in love with a gashapon in the shape of a domestic pet, so I squatted down to take it out. When I opened the box, there was a little white rabbit.

Dazai bent down and looked at the rabbit in my palm, he said, "Is there only one?"

I looked at him in bewilderment, "I only smoked once, Mr. Dazai, do you want it?" I handed him the pendant, and he lifted it up to look at it and returned it to me.

Then he flipped a coin and said, "Does Yi Jun know about the rumor that 'a rabbit is too lonely and will die'? It has been used and consumed repeatedly in various works all the time, and there are even different opinions on the source."

"But, the rabbit won't really just die like this." I saw him take apart the gashapon, but it was a pity that it was not a rabbit, but a kitten.

"Yeah. Actually, it won't be, but it's hard to say." He picked up the kitten pendant dejectedly, "It's a cat..."

Seeing his dissatisfied look, I asked, "Don't you like it?"

"I thought I would draw a rabbit." Dazai put the kitten into the egg, "It seems that my luck tonight is over."

"If you have two rabbits, you won't be lonely." I wanted to comfort him, so I began to make nonsense: "Can a kitten be a rabbit's partner, too? A kitten is also very good."

He said, "It's clearly not the same kind?"

I said: "It's not the same kind, but you can relieve the loneliness of the other party."

Seemingly satisfied with the answer, he took the change back and put the kitten he had drawn into my hand.

"Then, give the kitten to Yi Jun too."

Dazai's bright eyes seemed to have something I couldn't understand, so I had no choice but to put the kitten he gave me and my rabbit in a bag.

"Going back now?" I said, "It's about time."

"Let's go, let's go~"

On the way back, I was splitting the remaining candy with him.A child in front ran over on a rampage and was bumped by Dazai. As a result, the child sat on the ground with his buttocks. The little girl's instinct was fighting against her self-esteem, but I saw that her tears were already spinning, and she was about to cry up.

"This is really..." Dazai sighed, knelt down and asked him, "Can you still stand up?"

I also leaned down and looked at the child.

"Hmm..." the kid said childishly.

"Well, let's do a magic trick for you!"

Dazai slapped his knee exaggeratedly, put the fruit candy I just gave him in his hand, and then spread out his two hands one by one, but they were all empty.

Seeing this scene, the little girl's tears stopped abruptly.

The next second, Dazai clenched his fist again, and this time he let go, and the candy appeared on his right hand.

The little girl was already clapping happily——

"Amazing!"

"Okay, okay~ Stretch out your hand—"

He put the candy in the child's hand and told her: "You are also amazing, you didn't cry. Remember to look ahead when you walk in the future, you know?"

It was also the first time I saw his coaxing tone for the child.

The child nodded happily——

"Ok!"

When the child was gone, I also felt my heart was filled after witnessing this scene.

"Mr. Dazai, you are very gentle." We continued to go back towards the room, and I said, "I will be a patient and good father in the future."

"Hmm——Yi Jun said a certain line, isn't this the plot that often appears in TV dramas? After helping the child, people will definitely say, 'I will be a good father or mother in the future'——"

"It's really..." After his reminder, I also think he is right: "But my emotion is the truth from the bottom of my heart."

"Ok~Ok~"

After returning to the room, we chatted briefly for a while, and seeing that it was almost time, we went to sleep in our respective beds.

In the middle of the night, I turned over and wanted to drink water. As soon as I got up from the bed, I felt a swelling pain on the outside of my thigh.

"hiss……"

I dragged myself to drink some water to moisten my throat. I wanted to turn on the light, but I was afraid that it would be too bright and wake up Dazai.The bathroom is also on his side of the partition, but my mobile phone is also charging on his side, as long as I go there, it will definitely wake him up.

I finally came up with a bad idea, because the door connecting to the outside is on my side, I gently opened the door, and illuminated by the moonlight in the courtyard.

I sat on the tatami mat, curled up the leg that was feeling the pain, loosened the yukata a little, and found a big bruise on the outside of my thigh.I just remembered that I hit a rockery in the hot spring a few hours ago. I didn't feel anything at the time, but now I started to feel pain after a big piece of green.

Pressing the wound lightly with my hand, I took another breath of cool air.

"Yi Jun?"

The youth's voice sounded from behind.

Dazai was still awake.

He didn't turn on the light, but walked to my side. The moonlight shone on the tatami, and I could see his face clearly.

I quickly pulled the loose hem of the bathrobe tight, and said embarrassedly: "Sorry... did I wake you up?"

"I've always been a light sleeper," he said. "What's wrong?"

I didn't want him to worry, "I accidentally bumped my leg when I came out of the hot spring...it's not a big deal. I'm going to rest now."

"Is there a bruise?"

"……A little."

"Wait a mininute."

He went to the bathroom and scalded a hot towel with hot water for me, "Hot compress for a while before going to sleep, and then apply medicine during the day."

"Mr. Dazai, turn around a little bit."

I tore off the hem of the bathrobe, tied the hot towel loosely on the bruised thigh, then closed the bathrobe again, and told him: "It's fine."

I held on to the sliding door while he leaned against the door frame.Looking at the bright moon in the sky at the same time, the moonlight has no temperature, it is just like a lighting object hanging high in the night, the wind blows, the small trees in the courtyard rustle for a while, and then stop still.

What I saw was not the bright moon in the sky, but the afterimage of the moon reflected in the young man's eyes.

As if bathing enough in the moonlight, Dazai's melodious voice resounded from the light——

"When Yi Jun just bathed in the moonlight, it seemed that he would be picked up by the people on the moon at any time, or that he was going to take advantage of the moonlight and be robbed by the night wind—"

He blinked, and the moon shadow in his pupils immediately shattered.

He said: "—like disappearing forever in this darkness."

Under the projection of the night and moonlight, his beautiful facial features are clearly visible, and a shadow is cast under the bridge of his nose.The kite-colored pupils seemed to be unable to see even a single bit of moonlight, as if they were a black stone that would never shine.

I felt this fragile loneliness at close range again, and the thorn came out again. He opened his teeth and claws, and turned into a bigger monster when the moonlight was just right.

At this moment, I just want to reject this loneliness.

I don't want to lie to myself anymore, and I don't intend to leave everything to time.

"Mr. Dazai." My voice was trembling, I knew it very well, but I still wanted to say——

All that deliberation, that perfectly planned confession, that calculated look you want to put on your best face—to hell with it all.

"I'm not Kaguya Hime, I won't be picked up by the people on the moon."

How can I have the beauty and talent of Kaguya Hime, let alone leave a famous legend.

I am just an extremely ordinary woman who can be seen everywhere and admires you, just like the thousands of passers-by who pass you by in every story, an inconspicuous character.

"I have someone I like here," I said, "so I'm not leaving."

The courage accumulated for a long time like gravel has been cast into a sand castle that will collapse at any time. I stared at the small, simple sand city in my heart and pushed hard——

"I like you, Dazai-san."

—even if it may be hopeless love.

The author has something to say:

I finally confessed.

Today is a two-in-one addition.

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感谢在2020-09-1222:09:45~2020-09-1323:46:36期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: a lonely lemon essence, one that can set the world;

Thanks to the little angel who cast the landmine: Wang Buliuxing cures dysmenorrhea, stop playing games, canine girl saves the world, He Lai Resonance, Mi Jia, Immortal Yuan 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：鹤yu十四62瓶；浅川满40瓶；Qqma20瓶；以意伊、人间理想10瓶；夏夕5瓶；长夜昭昭、boon1瓶；

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