As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

Three days later, I heard that the disappearance case had been solved.The neighbor next to me also came back safe and sound. After he came back, he was the same as usual, nesting in that small world, eating the same half-price bento as me, and living a boring life day after day. life.

When I learned that the case was solved, I felt a very dirty sense of loss.

That is to say, I probably will never see that gentleman again.

I didn't expect this secret love to end without a problem faster than I imagined.

"Actually, I have long been prepared to die alone." I said this, as if I was convincing myself.

You see, it makes sense too—who's going to marry me?

On the way home from get off work, I counted the change on my body and found that I had accumulated a lot by accident.

"Do you want to reward yourself?"

I thought, when I stepped into the convenience store, I chose fried chicken nuggets that I would never buy normally.The fried chicken nuggets at the convenience store were pre-made, and they were reheated in the microwave for me when I checked out. Today, instead of buying a bento, I bought onigiri.The reason is that I have already eaten high-calorie fried chicken nuggets, so let's control the staple food a little, because I don't want to gain weight yet.

I didn't drink any beer either.

"Even if it's a promotion, I don't want it."

Going down the stone brick road of the street, stepping on the two-color floor tiles, and walking through two traffic light intersections, the shadows of the trees above my head are reflecting light, and I walked a long way through the shadows and light spots.There was a bell ringing on the door, and I looked up to see that it was a coffee shop.

I like coffee very much.It's just that I don't have much money, and I spend unlimited refills in Internet cafes on weekdays.

At this moment, a brisk thought swirls and jumps into my mind - go and have a cup, anyway, I bought fried chicken nuggets, and a cup of coffee is nothing.

I found one reason after another for myself, all used to convince myself to do an unimportant thing.

As a result, I pushed open the door—

The clerk's footsteps are light, and his face is full of spring breeze, showing the virtues of the service staff to the fullest.

"welcome--"

Let me tell you that when people leave society for a while, they will be at a loss for other people's smiles.When I am treated with tenderness, it makes me feel unnatural.

"Hi. Please give me an American..."

"Do you need anything else? There are also recommendations for matching desserts."

I shook my head.

Ah, dessert.

Desserts are amazing. "Whether you eat desserts or not" is a kind of yardstick that can classify people in my heart.It just so happens that I'm the type who doesn't eat desserts. Although everyone always has a stereotype of "girls love desserts and are cute", if you don't eat desserts, don't you deserve to be called cute?

So extreme, this mundane stereotype is so scary.

"So-so-this case is much more troublesome than expected, well, I recommend giving up directly. By the way, Miss, you are also very beautiful today. In front of your radiant smile, even the most beautiful The flowers are all eclipsed, do you really not consider dying in love with me?"

"Mr. Dazai, compared to this, your credit has increased——"

……Um?

If my ears are not faulty, the male voice that I heard just now was as frivolous as a leaf blown into the sky, combined with the female voice that answered him——

I raised my body slightly from the seat, but I didn't dare to make too much movement to disturb the other party, so I stuck at a delicate height and secretly cast my gaze. The one in the front seat was Mr. Dazai.

... Is he such a person?

When he met me, he was completely business-like. Although he was not indifferent, he was so humble and polite that it made people feel alienated.At this moment, my mouth is full of amazing words of love. Even if I can't see the expression, just imagining that face and praising the opposite sex with an emotional voice is very amazing.

Wait, so what am I?Am I being treated differently?

It's not normal, isn't it normal?

Is this my problem?

Ah, yes, it's my problem--

When I turned my gaze to the waitress again, I figured it out.

The pure, beautiful, retro-dressed waiter girl not only has a pleasant appearance, but also has an extremely sweet voice.If you ask me, I am a man, and I will smile at such a woman.

Yes, logically speaking, this is correct.

Unfortunately, human beings are not creatures that strictly follow logic to implement emotions.Even if I can understand the reasons intellectually, I find it difficult to accept emotionally.

The bottom of my heart seemed to be soaked in water, it was sour and astringent, and the bottom seemed to be pierced with small holes. Every time the liquid flowed out, it flowed down from the holes to water every nerve in my body.

It turned out that my crush did not die at the moment when the case was solved.

is dead here.

After pouring the bitterness of Americano coffee into the throat, it climbed all the way down.

At this time, I couldn't tell whether it was the pain in my heart itself, or it was soaked by the smell of Americano coffee.

I took a few more sips and it felt like I was drinking plain water.

So he picked up his bag and ran to the Internet cafe.

After returning to the Internet cafe, I immediately took out my dinner from my bag.

"It's still hot." I touched the box of fried chicken, removed the plastic cover on the top, and took a piece into my mouth.

The result was not the crunchy batter I imagined, but a moist texture, like roux pulled out of water.

"It's so unpalatable..."

I'm so sorry, I'm overspending today.

Be it coffee or fried chicken, they are all extravagant consumption than usual. I thought I would get a little more happiness than usual, but now it has become a way to torture me.

I knew I shouldn't drink any coffee today.

There is also fried chicken, which should not be bought.

I carefully chewed the already softened batter in my mouth, and my tongue touched the hard chicken inside.

So unpalatable.

I really want to cry.

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Write a cool article for yourself.I was too lazy to think about the name, so I gave up.