As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

[Diary 19: Untitled

The lovable Lord God has descended, the air on both sides of him is split from the middle like Moses dividing the sea, his glow is like the sunshine, if you try to reach out your fingers and try to touch it, you will be burned to ashes by his luster, even The soul was also burned. 】

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I didn't know what my expression had become, so I quickly checked my smile through the projection in the white porcelain quilt to see if my smile was stiff and out of control. Fortunately, I have always grasped the arc of my smile, and no one will find that my inner turmoil is like a landslide. , the rolling boulder slanted down.

"Good afternoon, Mr. Dazai." I greeted him first, "As you can see, I am chatting with this girl."

Considering that the topic involves irreconcilable conflicts among minors, in order to take care of Xuecun's mood, I only use the word "chat" as a prevarication.

As a result, Aino Yukimura is a girl who does not play cards according to common sense.

Although she had a timid look on her face, she said something incredible——

"It's a very serious topic, related to the physical and mental health of minors. Miss Weiliang and I are having a serious and detailed discussion on this matter."

Dazai's gaze became deep and immeasurable in an instant, but he narrowed his eyes in the next second, turning into a friendly smiling face.

"This is a matter of great importance. If minors are involved, it is related to the next generation of Japan. In terms of its seriousness, it can be equated with the future of our country." His tone was brisk, as if to raise the topic The person who suddenly rose up did not look like him, "It seems that I should avoid it for a while?"

"..." I cast my eyes on Xuecun for help.

You are the party involved, and it is up to you to decide whether to allow a third party to intervene in the conversation.

"No, one more person is more strength." Xuecun is really complicated. It is clear that ten minutes ago, when we first met, she was still cautious about strangers, and she was unhappy and uncomfortable when talking about campus bullying incidents. A small amount of timidity.

But just now, after she unilaterally questioned me constantly, she turned into a strong face, and now she expresses firm words with a seemingly gentle posture. I thought she would respond to the sudden insertion of a third party. Feeling unhappy, it seems that I am being smart.

... Man is a creature that can switch between multiple faces at once, and I fully understand it.

She in turn convinced me: "With the entry point of a male perspective, we can also get different gains."

I can't laugh or cry - do I look like I want Dazai to leave?

Dazai, on the other hand, looked helpless as he was ordered to face danger.

"Can I sit next to you?"

"Of course." I moved in.

"I'm Dazai." He introduced himself simply, "If my memory is correct, Miliang is the screen name of BLOG, right? That is to say, are you two netizens? Or have you exchanged real names with each other? ?”

"Yukimura is an alumnus of Mako." I said, "It's just her habit to call me by my screen name."

After searching our bodies naked, Xuecun's eyes solemnly said:

"Let's introduce myself again. I am an ordinary second-year student in Haichang High School. My name is Yukimura Aino. I am currently having unnecessary conflicts with my classmates, which has caused my campus life to be unhappy. The cause of the conflicts is I fell in love with a very popular figure in the school, and because of this, I was regarded as a thorn in the side of some girls." She sighed, "...But, I don't think I did anything wrong, I didn't slander her like they did. I used despicable means to seduce classmate Kise, and I didn't ambush him on the way after school full of scheming."

"I don't understand, obviously everyone—I mean those girls who are at odds with me, obviously like Kise-san, right? Why don't you fight for it? Why don't you say what you want? Instead, use the support alliance. Protect him with a distorted posture, force everyone to keep a certain distance from him, and no one can exceed the line drawn by them."

"why?"

As soon as the boy she likes was mentioned, Xuecun's voice gained confidence, and her anger rolled down like a snowball, until the last syllable landed, it was already a giant meteorite full of her anger.

But I stared at the cup, trying to peek at Dazai's expression from the projection of the cup.

Xuecun’s words woke me up. Isn’t there an example of the same development trend around me?

What is Mr. Dazai like?

He must be admired by many women, he is a man wearing thousands of lights of love, right?Just based on my imagination, I think there might be some women who would shout extreme love words like "I can die for you immediately" and "Please go to hell with me". Can the love of death really reach his heart?

What kind of mood does it feel to listen to such mad words of love like a curse?

Everyone's love is definitely not equal, and everyone wants to occupy a superior position by virtue of the unswerving love in their hearts.

There is only one possibility, which can keep everyone in the same camp before the hero in their hearts, and no one will cross the threshold.

——That is, the person they love is far away, and this love is destined to have no end, just like a heart made of wax misses the sun, and a mayfly falls in love with an impossible tomorrow.

But Xuecun’s classmate is Icarus, she wants to pursue the sun, even if no one is optimistic about her, and everyone wants to stop her, she will also fly her wings to the sky.

So she was squeezed out, even if she embraced her love and shouted loudly, no one was willing to listen to her heartfelt voice.

I see through the contradictions.

I was not good at choosing words and making sentences, so I chose to remain silent.Another reason is that I want to know what Mr. Dazai thinks about this obsession with deformities.

This is also my little selfishness.

At this moment, I had completely forgotten how Yukimura-san almost stood up and shouted "Miss Wei Liang will understand me".

"...No matter what era a young girl's love is put in, it is a topic that is not boring and full of sacredness." He leaned on his cheek with one hand, his eyes wandered into the distance, and Xuecun followed his line of sight, and finally landed on the waitress. As expected, Dazai's next words were——

"Please give me an iced coffee, please."

Xuecun: "..."

I want to laugh a little bit.This slightly childish way of going his own way is also the charm of Mr. Dazai (except for his face).

"So, putting aside my impartial and objective perspective as a third party, let me first mention my views as a man."

I like his gentle and distinct voice like a spring flowing gently, even if he speaks in this voice, I will still feel like a fairy music to my ears.

"That boy named 'Kose' is so pitiful."

"...Huh? Huh?" Compared to the silence, Xuecun's reaction could be called extreme, "What do you mean? Sir, you mean that I like him, is he very pitiful?"

She's basically the "if you say yes then I'll cry right now" look.

"No, I mean he was liked by all of you, he is really pitiful." His words did not sound any better than Yukimura's expectations, and without giving Yukimura a chance to make trouble, Dazai continued: "I always think that people should Keep going on the road of human beings, and never be praised as a god or something. This is the original happiness of human beings. What you are doing is to put the child in the position of "will only be given to everyone." In the position of equal and loving gods, I didn't even ask him if he wanted to."

"In other words, you are obliterating the possibility of his relationship."

"Let's not mention whether the child has any plans to fall in love. At this age, even if he doesn't fall in love with the law, at least he still has the ability to be attracted to the opposite sex?" He said with a smile, "I also started from this age Come here, let’s make a reasonable guess.”

"Girls are willing to keep their own way, put their feelings on the shelf, and set up rules so that everyone can only express love within the scope of the rules. This is simply unreasonable. In other words, this is nothing more than self-satisfaction. .”

"Whether it's the so-called guardianship or not wanting to disturb him, at best it's a spiritual compensation for not being able to get what you want—'I did this, it's right for everyone who likes her, for Kise-san It’s true to say’, but it’s downright self-satisfying.”

"It's nothing more than thinking that if you do this, you won't get hurt."

His fingertips struck the wall of the porcelain cup, making a crisp sound——

"Did anyone ask what the kid meant?"

"Has he ever thought about... becoming a god?"

The author has something to say:

Having said all that, I think Kise just wants to play basketball.

This chapter completely frees myself. If there is anything in this article that disagrees with the author’s opinion, you must be right, just don’t hit me (cover your face

I saw that the comments were saying that Zai would not express his view of love to others. Let me explain here. I also replied in the comments, so I will move it.

Well, in fact, compared with the display of the concept of love, it is more simply a disapproval of the behavior of "sending others to the altar regardless of others' wishes".

This echoes Wu Yishi's previous confession to Jae that he is a saint.

It's just that from Xuecun's point of view, it must be understood that Zai doesn't agree with their extreme view of love.

The only one who understood other meanings in the words was Mu Yishi.

In the end, Wu Yishi originally wanted to take the opportunity to hear Zai's views on relationships, but unfortunately, Zai's angle was tricky, as if he was talking about the concept of love, but in fact he was talking about something else, so her calculations fell through.

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感谢在2020-07-2711:43:49~2020-07-2721:22:43期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 Karamazov;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 30 bottles of sycamore leaves; 20 bottles of Hejiu;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!