As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

I started to record everything in a notebook, and within three days, the thickness of the notebook increased linearly.But that doesn't reassure me, it just reminds me that I've forgotten more.

In the mobile phone address book, I made detailed notes for each contact in case of emergency. These two things really took a lot of my energy.

A few days ago, a comment tower was built under my blog.

That is a topic about the theory of parallel worlds. What you are experiencing now, every choice you face may lead to a new parallel world. The future is not static.

They gave a classic movie as an example. For example, a person went to the future and knew a certain event A in the future. However, after returning to the past, one of his actions affected the future, so that the future event A he knew would not happened, then the future where event A happened and the future where event A did not happen are two completely different parallel futures.

"That is to say, it is not safe to see the world even ten years later." I said, "you have to consider the possibility of tragedy."

Considering the possibility of BADEND, I then did a small thing. I made a new notebook and wrote down some simple dishes and common sense of life that I know, including some cures for hangovers. A home remedy, in case someone starts living without a pattern after I suddenly disappear from their life.

In the past few days, I have used various names to ask Dazai to help me beat eggs, or do some simple handwork. I found that he is actually very talented in cooking, and he is also a fast learner. Some simple recipes must be He can do it by himself without me.

"Being able to make a dish like Vitality Stewed Chicken doesn't sound easy...you have some cooking skills, right?"

After finishing all this, I stuffed the book into the cabinet under the TV.

……

He is still very busy today. I think about it. It has been almost a week since we started living together. We seem to have done a lot of things this week, but it seems that we have done nothing.

For example, I know that when this person eats, he has a bad habit of being unpretentious at best, and worrisome at worst. His insensitivity to food is manifested in various ways, such as whether he touches it with his bare hands several times or it is still hot. Yes, the temperature is not suitable for food that is directly touched by hands.I really don't know what it is that sometimes pretends to be in his clever head, maybe it's not entirely extraordinary wisdom, maybe there are some strange unworldly parts left in the place.

"Crab~crab~"

He didn't know where to get a packaged crab meat gift box, happily took two crab claws in his hands and put them on top of his head.

"It's not good to play with food."

I raised my hand to save the two poor crab claws from his hands, but he dodged it with a flexible circle.

"Actually." He said mysteriously, "I'm having an encrypted call with the crab god."

"Then what did you say?" I watched him circle the kitchen with his crab claws on his head, and I asked him, "For example, can you eat more fresh and delicious crabs?"

He seemed to be tired of playing, put two frozen crab claws in my hand, and said: "Bless us to eat delicious crabs every day."

He said "we"—a delightful way of saying it.

We ate hot pot that night. The hot clear soup still smelled like green vegetables after boiling. The crab legs were boiled in our hands. After dinner, he was going to go out again.

During this week, I have adapted to our life where we have little time to spend together, but loss is still an emotion that cannot be escaped.

Except for dinner and breakfast every day, we hardly see each other.

By the way, also count the time to sleep.

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It stands to reason that a child who looks like a primary school student should not go out late at night. Generally, when someone sees this scene, they will think that there is some difficulty at home, and then let a child appear in a fast food restaurant near midnight.

"Why do they look at me like that?" Jin Jian tore open the package of French fries and poured them into the plate.

The well-mannered young man who met him pushed McCoy’s iced cola over and said, “Because many people’s morals are stronger than they think in their hearts. It’s obvious that they bump into minors outside in the middle of the night. When people who are not related by blood are together, the moral heart that usually doesn’t come out comes to the surface.”

"I know." Jin Jian said the shocking sentence, and he narrowed his red eyes: "For example, I think you are a weirdo with the taste of 'Zhengtai'..."

"It's amazing, Mr. Fusangshen also dabbles in fashionable words." Dazai clapped his hands, as if sincerely expressing emotion at Imaiken's vocabulary.He didn't feel offended at all, and he said flatly: "However, staying up late is against the biological nature of your body. One of the bounden duties of a child is to 'sleep comfortably'. Um... don't use Look at me like this, so let’s cut the long story short and get to the point.”

He reached out and made a "please" gesture.

By the way, it was Imaiken who initiated this conversation, not him.

Imai spread ketchup evenly on the paper on the plate, and he asked, "Have you visited the 'shop'?"

"I've looked for it." Dazai said, "The 'store' that can fulfill wishes is run by a powerful, omniscient, and dimensional witch who can travel through time and space."

Imaime ate the chewed French fries, and he looked at the smiling young man in front of him.

"You didn't find it," he concluded, "otherwise you wouldn't be taking me to a fast food restaurant to eat junk food with me now, when I should be sleeping."

Dazai didn't speak, Imaken took it as his acquiescence.

The latter's red eyes were dotted with a deep dark light, which became deeper under Dazai's silent attitude——

"Why can't you see the 'shop'?" He lowered one hand and questioned - Dazai knew that his hand was already on the main body.

"If you don't have a wish, or someone who has the inevitable possibility, you can't see that store."

Jin Jian's eyes were burning: "——to you, isn't Ai worth a wish?"

His aggressive attitude is the appearance, and there is also an edge hidden under the child's body as the weapon itself.Even if he hasn't been out of the sheath for a long time, the murderous aura engraved on the blade is still unabated.

Dazai didn't mean to confront him tit for tat, his smile was slightly restrained, in order not to irritate the other party.In order to have a harmonious conversation, he put his hands on the table to show that he was not hostile. After seeing his movements, Imai also let go of the hand that was holding the main body.

It's just that his eyes mean "let me hear what you have to say".

Dazai raised the corners of his lips, and strange emotions flowed from his heart, like the moderate temperature tide in summer, wrapping around the blood vessels and lungs, leaving residual heat in them after the tide ebbed, making him feel that the temperature of breathing has increased.

He said cryptically: "If you had asked me this question earlier, my answer would have been 'you're right'."

Before the tense atmosphere was about to return again, the young man shrugged his shoulders, his voice was as light as a bird, and he said: "Look, the things you don't want to lose will leave you one day. I hold this Prepare to meet all possible futures—with this kind of pessimistic psychological foundation for the parting that will come at any time in the future, I will be able to restrain this painful pursuit when that day does come.”

On this point, he and his lover have a lot of sympathy.

"Now... I may not be able to express it bluntly, ah, yes, it is the courtship sentence that must be used in human courtship concepts since ancient times. After all, who stipulated that this sentence must be said? He said, "Leave aside these nasty, formal things. I really, sincerely hope that this kind of happiness worthy of my pursuit can last for a long time."

When Jin Jian heard the word 'court', his eyelids twitched slightly.

Dazai didn't seem to notice his stiff expression.

He continued: "If there is someone next to me in the future, this is the only option I can think about." After he finished speaking, he himself smiled brightly again, and the way he showed his smile again made Imken stiff The expression is also unlocked.

"I will not let her disappear from my life," Dazai said.

"—that's my wish."

There was only two or three seconds of silence in the air.

Imai seemed to be convinced by him, but soon he realized that the problem was back to the original place.

"...Your intentions sound very good. But how do you explain that the store didn't show up in front of you?"

"After several days of searching, I figured it out." He said, "It's 'necessity'. Maybe the store judged that I still need some other puzzles. Only when the conditions are met, it will appear in front of me."

Jin Jian took a sip of ice-cola and asked him, "Did you find it?"

"Found it," he said. "A surefire solution."

A complete solution that would neither allow the book that does not belong to this world to appear, nor disappear.

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I tossed and turned after going to bed today, and finally couldn't fall asleep anyway, staring at the patterns on the pillow in a daze.After a while, I realized that it was past eleven o'clock, and if nothing unexpected happened, Dazai would be back soon.I got up and drank some water, and under the light I noticed that my nails were split and irregularly jagged.

"That's not okay." I remembered that Dazai always liked to drill into my arms, and my nails would scratch him.

So I started to search for nail clippers, but I couldn’t find anything, so I put on my coat and went downstairs to the 24-hour convenience store to buy nail clippers. Unexpectedly, when I opened the door, the door was unlocked.

"... Mr. Dazai?" I asked tentatively while taking off my clothes after entering the door.

The young man was actually in the living room. He was sitting next to the TV, the cabinet under the TV was open, and my booklet full of words was spread out on his lap. He read it plausibly, "So... ...So the trick to making delicious thick egg yakiniku is... Ah, Yi Jun, you're back? Is it cold outside? What's the matter with going out so late?"

I didn't expect him to find the brochure that I just started working for a few days. I should find a more suitable place to keep it.

careless...

"I went to buy nail clippers." I confessed, "Look, I split my nails, and it would be bad if I hurt you."

Dazai walked towards me, he held mine with his own hand, then lowered his head——

Kiss it with your lips.

"Wait—" I was shocked by his unprepared behavior, but because my nails were still very close to him, I dared not pull my hand back.

His upper lip rubbed against the uneven jaggedness of a snapped nail.

"You can't move." Dazai laughed heartlessly, "The nails will cut me, can Yijun bear it?"

After speaking, he gently wrapped his lips around my front fingertips.The temperature of my fingers was swept away by the cold lips, and my heart swayed accordingly. I wished I could lie down in this lonely boat immediately, and let the waves lift me into the clouds.

When he looked up, I tried my best to pretend that I wasn't provoked by him at all.

He smiled slightly.

I said, "...Mr. Dazai, don't you want to take a bath and rest, it's already late."

"Well, I'll go later, but before that—" He raised his head, and then held up the pamphlet full of words in his hand.

"Isn't Yijun going to tell me why I wrote this?"

The author has something to say:

The main text is expected to be completed next week.

Then there are all kinds of future talks and special episodes!

However, the content of the post-mortem talk and extra episodes is not yet fully thought out (except for the brand-new plot that has to explain some sub-lines that are not fully written in the main text).

How much you write depends on your mood and whether there are touching stalks and plots.

——————————————————————————————————————————————感谢在2020-10-1021:42:11~2020-10-1121:41:33期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: He Lai Resonance 1;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!