between men and women

seventh post

Our school Motobu High School is a very strange existence.It belongs to the focus, but there are also people who spend money on it.This high school girl is said to have spent money to get in. She didn't go to the headquarters of our school in junior high school. She was said to be a famous figure in junior high school, a bit like a big sister.

I don't like girls, so I naturally refused.She looked at me for a long time then and said, "You'll regret it."

After school two days later, I went to the bicycle shed to look for Jia Qinghe, and saw a group of people beating a man.

My first reaction was to rush forward, subconsciously telling me that that person must be Jia Qinghe.Sure enough, it was him. When I arrived, he had already resisted for a while, but he was still beaten with two fists and four hands.

In the end, after I rushed forward, I was no match for him with four punches, and I was still beaten badly.Finally they were tired and left. Before leaving, they spat and cursed: "I don't know how to flatter you."

After they were all gone, I silently helped Jia Qinghe up, and saw that both tires of my bicycle were punctured.Jia Qinghe muttered: "Well, I couldn't stop them." I lowered my head and said sorry to him in a muffled voice, I was the one who got you in trouble.His face was bruised and purple, and he pulled the corners of his mouth and told me it was okay, as long as you treat me to shredded radish pancakes.

The two of us were eating shredded radish pancakes at the door with the corners of our mouths turning blue. It was really painful and joyful. We didn’t know if it was hot or painful, but we could only hiss and gasp anyway.However, my heart was warm at that time, and I pursed my lips and secretly smiled, as if something different was growing in my heart.

In the second half of the third semester of junior high school, everyone started talking about the school they wanted to take the exam.I didn't think too much about it. After graduating from high school, I have set the goal of taking the Chinese Department of F University since I was in junior high school. Although my grades are not top-notch, I know my own strength. Disaster.There are not a few students who are admitted to F University in the high school of our school.

Jia Qinghe also said that he would be admitted to the high school of the school, and told me happily that it would be even better if he could be in the same class at that time.I nodded excitedly and said, "Yeah."

But my dad objected at that juncture.My dad's unit was considered to be of high efficiency at the time, and it belonged to a certain system. Since that year, the system has entrusted a vocational school to recruit and train a group of students, who will be assigned to the system after graduation.

All the employees in the system expressed great interest for a while, and then asked their children to apply for the school.

My dad was also very excited and said, "Chen Jia, just go to this school, and the salary will be very good after you come out."

I refused, and wanted to take the high school entrance examination, but even my mother actually supported me to take the entrance examination to this school this time.She said: "Stupid child, even if you want to enter this system after you come out of university, you can't get into it. If you get in, you will be your father's superior unit in the future!"

Silently, I went to secretly sign up for the direct entrance exam of the high school in the headquarters, then found Jia Qinghe, and told him to call me on the day of the direct entrance exam, and the two of us went to the exam together.

But before the exam, I did a very stupid thing.

Later, I kept thinking that this incident was a turning point in my life. Maybe I lost some happiness after I deviated from the track, such as the college career that I still yearned for many years later, but after all I got more.Because of my deviated life track, Peng Zhiran was brought to my side.

eighth post

Perhaps it is the end of junior high school career, fourteen or fifteen-year-old boys and girls realize that they have stood at the first bifurcation in their lives, and many things that they dare not say or do before will be suppressed under that specific emotion. Excited.Obviously, at the end of the second half of the third year of junior high school, more girls came to confess to me.Some are more reserved, some are more unrestrained, but without exception, I answer with the three words "sorry".

There is a special girl named Yan, really, I don’t remember her appearance or her last name, I only remember the outline of her name, she came to confess to me.After I said I'm sorry, she didn't leave sadly like the others, but she breathed a sigh of relief, then patted me on the shoulder and said, "It's okay, it's okay, I know the probability of you liking me is not high. But I like you, life is so unpredictable, if we want to part ways and never see each other again, wouldn’t it be a pity that I didn’t even say I like you. It’s fine now, I’ve confessed, and I’m thinking about it I have no regrets." After speaking, he turned and left freely.

At that moment, I was a little dazed, thinking that this might be Ah Q’s self-comforting mentality, but one night at the door of the bicycle shed, when I saw a girl from our class confessing to Jia Qinghe, I suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable, and then I thought of her words.

At that moment, her words were circling in my mind, I have no regrets, yes, even if I confessed it was not accepted, I have no regrets, life is so unpredictable, but I have never even said that I like you... I didn't even realize when the girl who confessed to Jia Qinghe left, I just stood there in a daze, turning over and over the words, until Jia Qinghe came to pat me on the shoulder.

I turned to look at him, my mind blank.Although I have always been very clear that he treats me as a normal good friend, but I also know that I am not just a friend to him.However, at that moment, my sanity seemed to disappear suddenly.I blurted out: "Jia Qinghe, I like you."

He was stunned, maybe he didn't realize the meaning of what I said, and smiled: "Nonsense, why don't we be buddies."

I said another sentence: "It's not that kind of liking, it's the way that girl likes you just now."

He just stood there stupidly, staring at me.

Many years later, when I go to Baidu Tieba, when I see those who said they like a crooked person and a straight one, and then they are rejected by the straight one, I will think of the picture when I said I liked it to Jia Qinghe.That picture was deeply engraved in my mind, and later when I fell in love with Peng Zhiran hopelessly, it popped up again and again from the depths of my memory, stopping my impulse again and again.

ninth post

The price I paid for what I said was that Jia Qinghe ignored me again.

But people at that time were very simple, and he never mentioned this matter to anyone.Unlike now, all rumors spread extremely fast.

The day before the direct entrance exam, I told my mother that I was going to take the exam. My mother called my dad on the spot. My dad was silent on the phone for a while, and finally said: "If you pass the direct entrance exam, let You go. But if you don’t pass the exam, give me a peace and go to that vocational school.”

But during those days, I had severe insomnia because I kept thinking about the matter with Jia Qinghe. It was not easy to fall asleep at night. He closed his eyes in a daze.As a result, I woke up at 10:30 the next day, and I probably finished the first test.

I asked my mother blankly why you didn't wake me up.My mother said she barked, barked twice.She was silent for a while and then said, there is another classmate of yours who called you downstairs before eight o'clock in the morning, and you didn't respond after calling a few times, so he left.

I sat silently on the bed for a long time and finally cried.Somehow, this seemed to be a hint that I was doomed not to have any chance with Jia Qinghe.

I admit that I am superstitious, I really thought so at the time.

Then I volunteered to fill in that vocational school, and I was very pleased that the vocational school was in the outer suburbs.That was the only one on my volunteer list, and I didn't give myself any way out.I told myself, if there is no result, don't see you again.

A few years later, I once saw Jia Qinghe in a supermarket near my mother's house. He was probably in college at that time, and it was probably his girlfriend who was holding his hand.I passed by him, his eyes swept over me without recognition, and then passed me like a passerby.

In fact, this is the way between people. When the distance is far away, the relationship will fade away. Even if it was so good in the past, it will only become a passerby in the end.I know this truth very well, so I never want to leave Peng Zhiran too far.

Husband Husband, within ten feet is the husband.