I am in love with myself

An Mu turned on the car key without saying a word, and drove straight to the suburbs.

From the beginning to the end, Jian Yixi didn't say a word, An Mu didn't speak, she didn't speak, and she didn't ask, as if she had no regrets no matter where An Mu took her.

An Mu drove all the way to the edge of the field. The large rapeseed flowers here belonged to her grandma's house. When she was a child, An Mu liked to go back to her grandma's house because her grandma, aunts and uncles loved her very much, and her little friends accompanied her in the rapeseed. Tian crazy play.

This season is a good time for rapeseed flowers to bloom. Looking around, the warm sun hangs high in the sky, and the radiant light shines on the golden rapeseed flowers. When the wind blows through the flowers, it seems that you can still hear the laughter of childhood.

An Mu got out of the car, went to the edge of the field alone, found a fairly clean stone and sat down. He let the wind blow his long curly hair and looked at the golden eyes. You don't need to take a deep breath, the faint fragrance will permeate your lungs .

Jian Yixi followed her until she sat down and then got out of the car, and stood beside her, the red skirt was fluttering in the wind, not like flames, but like a phoenix flower swaying in the wind, slim and graceful, Zhuo Yan Not bad.

An Mu finally spoke.

"That's it, stop messing around."

Jian Yixi froze, raised her hand to brush away the fluttering hair in front of her face, the corners of her lips curled into a smile, but her eyes were barren.

"and then?"

"I...I really can't love you, except for this, I can promise you everything else."

"It will be all right?"

Jian Yixi laughed suddenly, the laughter concealed the desolation in her eyes.

"Okay, then you can be my x partner, don't talk about love, just talk about x."

"You know it's impossible."

"Didn't you say it? You can do anything but love me."

An Mu lowered her eyes, her temples were throbbing so badly, but she didn't want to rub her. She had already shown weakness enough, and she didn't want to make herself look weaker.

"Except that I can't give you love, and I can't violate the bottom line of morality and law, everything else is fine."

"So sleeping with me is immoral? Or is it against the law?"

"you know what I mean."

"I don't understand, even I may not be able to fully understand myself, so what is it?"

An Mu couldn't adapt to such an aggressive Jian Yixi. She closed her eyelids, her long eyelashes trembling slightly from the wind.

"It's immoral to have sex with you without loving you."

"Immoral...hehe...so you brought me here just to tell me that you can't love me, and that even we go to bed is immoral? Do you think I'm not uncomfortable enough? You came here to make things worse ?”

"I don't know! Why should I know what you mean?! Don't say that you are me, you know me best. If you really know me, you won't suspect that I am lying to you! I have never lied to you from the beginning to the end , I really want to get married! Really! Do you understand?!"

Jian Yixi, who had always been warm and warm, suddenly yelled like that, with tears in her angry eyes, as red as if they had been burned, pitiful and terrible, revealing a heart-wrenching desolation.

"Jian Yixi, can you stop forcing me?"

"Am I forcing you?"

Jian Yixi held her forehead with one hand, chuckled, trying not to let the tears flow down.

"Aren't you the one who hijacked me here? Why did I force you instead? You were the one who broke the contract without authorization, and now you are the one who spurted people with blood. You... can you stop bullying me like this? Can you tell me?" reason?"

This bleak accusation made An Mu feel very uncomfortable.

Although she didn't feel that she was wrong, she still softened her voice.

"Okay, I take that back. You didn't force me. I wanted to bring you here myself. As long as it doesn't violate morality and the law, I can agree to whatever conditions you ask."

Jian Yixi turned her head and rubbed the corners of her eyes, then turned back again, her expression became cold.

"Since you want to talk about morality, let's talk about it. You interrupted my license halfway, and now you are destroying my marriage. This is what you call morality? It's better to demolish ten temples than destroy one marriage. This principle You don't understand either?"

"Jian Yixi! You..."

Jian Yixi cut her neck and interrupted: "I don't want to debate any more. I think I have made it very clear that I really want to get married. Isn't this what you think of happiness? If you destroy the happiness you think, then You have to pay me back the happiness I think, if you can’t do it, don’t say it.”

An Mu expected that Jian Yixi would negotiate terms with her, otherwise why would she make such a big mess?

An Mu closed his eyes, it was a losing game, why bother to struggle?Since she came here to stop it, isn't she planning for the worst?

"You sit down."

"sit down!"

Jian Yixi didn't ask any more questions, and obediently kept her body low, picked up a cement brick as a cushion, and sat next to An Mu.

An Mu didn't look at her, nor at the beautiful rapeseed field, but looked down at the black ground with gravel mixed with mud under his feet.

"You won, I admit defeat, I can promise you anything, but I also have a condition, you must end this matter without hurting your parents."

Before she finished speaking, her shoulders sank, Jian Yixi tilted her head on the pillow, raised her hand and grasped the golden rapeseed flower in front of her eyes, and said something inappropriate.

"is it beautiful?"

An Mu's mind was in a mess. She didn't know if she would regret it if she made the promise without thinking it through. She only knew that it was extremely ridiculous that she would not be able to control her own destiny after reliving her life.

In her previous life, she was destroyed by Jane's family, but she didn't expect that it was another self who hindered her in this life.

Although life is more than love, love is a very important part of life. It is always a pity to have no control over it.

An Mu didn't have the heart to return to her. She had already made such a big concession, so what else did she want?Feeling unhappy and asking her to flatter her?Sorry, can't do it.

An Mu ignored Jian Yixi, and Jian Yixi didn't ask any more questions, and said to himself, "Isn't it beautiful? But no matter how beautiful it is, unless I can walk through this ditch, I will always catch it." If you don’t see this beauty, you can only watch it from a distance.”

"Have you finished? When you're done..."

"The month of your birth is the most beautiful April day, and it is also the season when the rape blossoms are in full bloom.

Do you know why I was in such a hurry to get married?Because yesterday was your birthday.

Do you know why I know it's your birthday but I don't help you celebrate it?

Of course it's not because the newlyweds are busy, but because you are Jian Yixi, not An Mu, that birthday doesn't mean much to you, you have forgotten it, right? "

When Jian Yixi reminded her like this, An Mu remembered that it was indeed her birthday. Early in the morning, An's father and An's mother sent a blessing red envelope. At that time, she was only concerned about Jian Yixi's nonsense, so she forgot it after clicking it. .

Jian Yixi rested on her shoulder, chattering endlessly as if being dazzled by joy.

"Although it doesn't mean anything to you, it does to me.

No matter you are An Mu or Jian Yixi, no matter who you are, to me, you are you, the person I love. Although we can't be together, I at least hope that my wedding is related to you.

So, I rushed to get married on your birthday, so that I can think about you openly every year on our wedding anniversary. "

An Mu listened numbly. Such an affectionate confession, instead of being moved by her ears at this moment, was extremely ironic.

An Mu said: "I've already promised to be with you, so don't talk about what you have and what you don't have. I don't want to hear it. The most urgent thing now is to clean up the mess."

An Mu got up and wanted to leave, but Jian Yixi hugged her arm tightly without looking up.

"Don't move, An Mu please, don't move, I'll just say it this time, I swear I'll say it just once in my life, can you let me finish? I promise to solve your worries perfectly, just listen to me Finish it."

Although she didn't quite believe her assurance, An Mu stopped getting up.

She is really ridiculous, obviously she is the one being persecuted, why can't she bear to hear Jian Yixi's sobbing voice?

Jian Yixi lowered her head. From An Mu's angle, she could only see her long eyelashes drooping, her pink lips pursed, and the lips trembled for a moment before opening again.

"Do you know why I didn't take my mobile phone today? In fact, I put my mobile phone in my bag at the wedding yesterday and never moved it again.

I am very afraid, I am afraid that you will come to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and I am afraid that you will not come, I am afraid that you will watch me receive the certificate without doing anything, and I am also afraid that you will ignore me if you do not come.

If I hold a mobile phone, I will definitely not be able to resist calling you. If I don’t hold a mobile phone, at least I can control myself.

I love you An Mu, you are the one I love the most in this life, I think that death will not change. "

It's these ridiculous "forever" and "death will not change". What An Mu dislikes hearing the most is these childish promises.

"Are you finished?"

An Mu's tone was not kind, and Jian Yixi was not stupid, so how could he not hear it.

"If you don't want to hear it, I won't talk about it. Then let's change it. You come and tell me. I promise to leave immediately after listening."

An Mu was worried about her adoptive parents, and said impatiently, "What are you talking about?"

"Tell me... in your last life, what happened in your last life? How did you die? You said you had a car accident, was it a pure accident or something?"

——If you didn’t ask at the beginning, ask now?Don't even look at what time it is!

An Mu frowned and said, "It's not an important matter. I'll tell you slowly later."

"Say it now, and leave as soon as you finish speaking!"

Jian Yixi was very persistent, grabbing her arm and refusing to let go.

An Mu suppressed his emotions, instead of arguing with her, it's better to finish the matter quickly.

She briefly narrated the events of her previous life, from how she was taken back by Jane's family, how she was bullied by Jian Yihu, how miserable she was, how her adoptive parents died, how Mao Mao died, and what happened to herself in the end Tragic death, all important events were clicked.

"That's about it. The other details are trivial. There's nothing special to say. Okay, I'm done talking, let's go."

An Mu stood up, but was held back by Jian Yixi again.

Jian Yixi raised her face, her dark eyes were soaked in tears, reflecting the blue sky and white clouds like the still water of Tianshan Mountain, so beautiful that people couldn't turn their eyes away, her slender eyelashes trembled, trembled, trembled, and her red eyes seemed to be Tears will roll down in the next second, but they are always in the eyes.

Even at this time, An Mu still couldn't bear to see her like this.

——Obviously I was the one who was forced, why did I still soften my heart?

An Mu spurned such a self, and turned his eyes forcefully.

"I've said everything that should be said and should not be said, why are you still waiting?"

Jian Yixi didn't reply, and traced the corners of her eyes and brows with her fingers. An Mu frowned and hid, but then thought that it was meaningless to hide for a while, but it seemed hypocritical, so she stopped hiding.

How could Jian Yixi fail to see her resistance?But she didn't say anything, stretched out her slightly curled fingers, and traced her outline again, slipping to the corner of her lips as if nothing.

An Mu was ready to be touched or even kissed, but the fingertips trembled for a long time, but in the end they didn't press down, let alone kiss her.

"I'm very happy that you took me away from the Civil Affairs Bureau."

—You are happy, I am not happy.

"You promised to be with me, and I am also very happy."

——Of course you are happy, you have made such a big mess, don’t you just want me to compromise?

--what?

"Can you promise me one last thing?"

——No, don’t push yourself too far.

"Can you say that you love me? I know it's false. I just want to hear it once."

An Mu turned his eyes and glanced at her, then stood up decisively.

"I don't have time to be with you here. Hurry up and go back! Hurry up and settle this matter! You must not make your parents feel bad, do you hear me?"

"Just say one word, three words, just three words! An Mu."

An Mu ignored her and turned towards the car.

Jian Yixi also stood up, still asking: "Can't we really say it? Can we just say it as a joke?"

An Mu opened the door and sat in the driver's seat without looking back.

The moment the door was closed, Jian Yixi's murmur was vaguely heard.

"Is it really not possible? Just once? You are really... unfeeling and petty..."

An Mu narrowed her beautiful eyes slightly and suppressed her anger. If she hadn't cultivated well, she really couldn't help but explode.

——There was such a big mess, and she still had the nerve to act like a baby before she settled it with her?

Although that coquettish voice was pitifully not coquettish, An Mu couldn't listen to it at all at the moment. She just felt irritated, indescribably irritated.

drop!drop!

She honked the horn twice, urging her to hurry up.

It took a long time before Jian Yixi came over, and handed An Mu a sprig of light yellow rapeseed flowers.

Out of the corner of An Mu's eyes, she saw her muddy high-heeled shoes. They obviously didn't step on the side of the road. The side of the road was not so wet. An Mu's shoes were fine. She obviously walked around a ditch.

——Knowing that she is eager to solve the problem, she still has the mind to go around the ditch to pick some rapeseed flowers?

An Mu coldly pushed away her hand offering flowers, made a sharp turn of the steering wheel, and headed straight for the city.

"Go to the Civil Affairs Bureau first."

Jian Yixi held the flower in her hands, and put it on the front of the car after a long time.

An Mu was upset. The more he looked at the flower, the more unpleasant it became. He really wanted to throw it out.

"Why are you still going to the Civil Affairs Bureau now? Wang Yanqing is not stupid, he must have left, even if he didn't, why don't you just call him and ask him to leave?"

"He won't leave, and I can't remember his mobile phone number."

"Call Mom."

"Isn't that revealing?"

An Mu frowned and said, "How are you going to solve it?"

Jian Yixi didn't answer, until she got off the car at the Civil Affairs Bureau, Jian Yixi turned around and gave her a vain smile through the car window.

"Thank you for sending me off, don't wait for me, I will go back with Wang Yanqing after getting the certificate."

Get a certificate?

An Mu didn't believe that she would actually get the certificate.

She would say that, probably vomiting.

An Mu glanced at the solitary rape flower in front of the car.

Jian Yixi is not the kind of person who would vomit at her for a flower.

What is that for?

For the "I love you" that I refused to say before?

After driving this way, An Mu's anger has been temporarily suppressed. She is not Jian Yixi, so she will not be confused. Now is not the time to get angry, the most important thing is to solve this mess as soon as possible.

"When you solve the matter perfectly, I will say those three words."

This line is inexplicably familiar, like the quotations of a scumbag, but she is the one who is forced.

"I've already made concessions like this, so don't be self-willed, go in and call Wang Yanqing, let's settle the matter together."

If she had known this would be the result, she should have stopped Jian Yixi from the very beginning.

Jian Yixi stared at her intently, and slowly shook her head, her soft white face was like a mask with a smile on it, she seemed to be smiling, but she couldn't feel any emotion.

"Why don't you understand, An Mu?"

"I don't love you anymore, I'm just unwilling to persist for so long."

"Not reconciled?"

"Yes, I am not reconciled to you abandoning me so cruelly back then. I am obviously so good, but now I finally let you bow my head. I am very satisfied. The game is over."

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