I am in love with myself

An Mu still had a plane in the afternoon, and there was only one morning. Jian Yixi cherished it very much, and didn't say anything disappointing, only happy.

It's just that when they walked under the ginkgo tree that had come out of the wall and looked at the tree full of dead branches, they couldn't help but feel a little sad when they remembered that An Mu had said that he would take her to see the golden autumn.

This seemed to be a metaphor for her relationship with An Mu. Back then, there were green branches at the end of spring, but now it was spring, but it was cold and cold, with dead branches and leaves.

Jian Yixi cheered up and smiled at An Mu.

"You promised to take me to see the ginkgo in autumn. You owe me another promise. I have to wait for you to repay it forever, otherwise I will suffer a lot."

An Mu picked up a dead leaf on the ground. The leaf that has passed the winter is very fragile, and it will shatter when pinched. Fascinatingly led her to the Yihexuan.

Yihexuan took the pawed guard cub to lie leisurely on the window sill basking in the sun, it's really a face, to be able to see it as soon as he came.

The two of them surrounded the cat, as if they were serving Lafayette's little promise, taking pictures and admiring the cat was a joy.

Before leaving, An Mu dragged Jian Yixi and took a group photo of the two of them and the cat.

An Mu sent the photo to Jian Yixi, with a sentence attached.

"Xiaozai's life is the deadline I agreed with you. Before I go back to school, if Xiaozai is still alive and kicking, I will honor the agreement. If not, the agreement will be void."

Jian Yixi was still happily admiring the group photo, but when she heard this, she raised her head in surprise.

"Why should our fate be entrusted to others?"

"The cub is no one else."

"Stop the cat? Is that the point?"

Jian Yixi frowned and pulled her over, walked straight to Xiao Zai, leaned over and pointed at Xiao Zai to An Mu.

"This person's eyes are so bad, she cursed you to die early and be reborn sooner, bite her!"

An Mu said speechlessly, "Can't we just hope that it will live a long life?"

"You treat me as a three-year-old? It's not easy to deceive a three-year-old now, right?"

An Mu wanted to break the contract, but Jian Yixi knew it all too well. Although she couldn't understand why An Mu said such unlucky words when he liked the cub so much, she understood that An Mu's ability to say such words meant that she had already I know in my heart, the cub probably...will not live long.

An Mu lowered his eyes, and there was a light shadow under the long eyelashes.

"This is my last concession. If you agree, you agree. If you don't agree, the agreement will be voided immediately."

Jian Yixi looked up at the red-painted porch roof. She wanted to imitate Mao Mao's weirdness and liven up the atmosphere, but after all, she was not Mao Mao, and she couldn't do Mao Mao's weirdness. Instead, it made the atmosphere even more sad.

"No wonder people say that the one who owes the debt is the grandpa, and the one who is owed is the grandson. You owe me and you are still so arrogant, and you are still reasonable for unilateral breach of contract?"

Sniffing, Jian Yixi, who wanted to laugh but didn't laugh, could only force herself not to cry.

"I don't agree, no matter what you say I won't agree."

"If you don't agree, you have to agree."

An Mu pursed her lips. She knew she shouldn't use such a despicable method, but this was already the gentlest way of refusing that she could think of.

The cub won't survive the twelfth lunar month. Even if everything goes well, Dad An will have to be treated for a year and a half. In addition to rest, it is unlikely that she will go back to school within two years. This is the most optimistic consideration. Maybe she will be in ten years. Cannot go back to school for 20 years.

An Mu said in a more emphatic tone, "Whether you agree or not, this is the way to go."

Jian Yixi also emphasized her tone: "Then I don't care if you agree or not. Anyway, I will wait for you. If you don't come after graduation, I will go to France to find you and fulfill the agreement in France."

"An Mu, can you be reasonable? Who is willful? You say you break the contract, you break the contract. You don't respect my opinion at all, and now you call me willful?

Anyway, I don't agree, the agreement is the agreement, you can postpone it in case of force majeure, but you can't break the agreement!

All in all, all in all, I still say that sentence, even if you say it to break the sky, say it a thousand times or ten thousand times!I won't agree either! "

An Mu said, "Don't get excited."

Jian Yixi's eye circles were red with smoke, and tears were hanging in her eyes, as if she was silently accusing her of breaking her word and never giving up.

No, no, she has never messed up, so where did she start and end?

An Mu's mind was in a mess. When she saw Jian Yixi's stubborn and sad eyes, her mind was in a mess. She couldn't think of any tricks or tricks. She didn't want to plot against Jian Yixi, nor did she want to continue this meaningless argument. , After all, time and distance can change everything, so why bother talking.

But she absolutely can't say that she agrees with Jian Yixi to wait for her, she can't let Jian Yixi be bound by the agreement.

The trip to the Forbidden City finally broke up unhappy.

Jian Yixi sent her to the airport with strong energy, and once again watched her slender figure walk towards the boarding gate, but she no longer had the peaceful mood she had at the beginning.

When she sent An Mu away, at least she knew that An Mu would definitely come back after the new year. Whether she was taking a leave of absence or going to school, she would always see her.

But now, she doesn't know when the goodbye will be.

In particular, An Mu did not promise to keep his promise until the end.

Waiting is not terrible, what is terrible is wishful waiting.

If her waiting was just irritability and stress in An Mu's view, then what's the point of her persistence?Just to impress yourself?

Poor and ironic.

Even if you want to move yourself, you should do it without increasing An Mu's psychological burden. Otherwise, it's selfish, and no matter how you use love to beautify it, it will be in vain.

Jian Yixi closed her eyes, wiped away the disobedient wet marks on the corners of her eyes, and suddenly took two steps and shouted at An Mu: "An Mu! I still have something to say, you come out first!"

An Mu paused, hesitated for a while, and finally squeezed out of the line, walked up to her and stood still.

Jian Yixi looked at her with drooping eyes. She didn't know when, she had to lower her eyes to look at An Mu. An Mu seemed to be more and more different from her memory, not just her height.

In my memory, An Mu was fearless, strong and reliable, and dared to speak up when encountering injustice. It didn't matter whether you were the director or the principal, An Mu was fearless. As long as An Mu was around, it seemed like the sky would fall without fear.

But now An Mu has become weak and slender, with such a thin wrist, such a slender figure, and even his long hair is as soft as a cloud. Although he is still strong and reliable, he is no longer fearless. For example, An Mu Mu was afraid of Jian's family, and An Mu was afraid of eating Black Forest cake.

These tiny things changed Jian Yixi's cognition like a thread, allowing her to understand An Mu more deeply, and no longer just look at the appearance.

An Mu was still the same An Mu, but he was no longer the same An Mu.

In the past, An Mu sheltered her from the wind and rain, but now An Mu made her want to embrace her for protection.

Even though she was still very weak and didn't have enough ability to protect An Mu, she would work hard to make herself stronger and protect her to the best of her ability.

At least, she won't let herself be the one who hurt An Mu.

Jian Yixi stared at An Mu intently, her beautiful half-closed eyes filled with mist. She wanted to take another look, one more look, but she knew she had no time.

"You... Kiss me once, and I will promise not to wait for you if I kiss me once."

An Mu opened his eyes slightly, his eyelashes trembling slightly: "You said... what?"

Jian Yixi sniffed, trying hard to control the tears from falling down, the corners of her lips curled up, her hair floated to the side of her face, she smiled in a trance and beautifully.

"Are you hard of hearing at such a young age? I said kiss me once, just once, as long as you kiss me, I will...not wait for you."

As if she was afraid that An Mu would kiss her forehead to perfuse her, Jian Yixi raised her lips and pointed her lips. Her eyes were full of mist, she was smiling, but full of heart-rending desolation.

An Mu hesitated for a moment, then asked again in disbelief, "Are you serious?"

It doesn't matter whether it's true or not, anyway, An Mu doesn't know when he will come back after this trip. It would be great if he could let Jian Yixi let go with a kiss. no harm.

An Mu glanced left and right. Although there were many people in the terminal hall, they were walking in a hurry, and those who were sitting and waiting lowered their heads to play with their phones or chat with friends. No one paid attention to them.

An Mu withdrew her gaze and curled her fingers slightly. She has always acted decisively, and this time was no exception. She made up her mind in just a second. She raised her head and lightly touched Jian Yixi's lips without any unnecessary movements. Just one click, superficially touched the water, and immediately withdrew.

"Okay, I've kissed you, remember to keep your promise."

Jian Yixi pursed her lips, her pink lips turned slightly white, the moment she let go, the blood flowed back, and contrary to her pale face, her lips were extraordinarily delicate and charming, as if the flash of kisses were dyed red Like touching her lips.

The kiss was so fast that it was like an illusion, and she was almost not sure if it was really a kiss.

Why so stingy?How about a second more kiss?Can't you be a little more generous to her?

Jian Yixi's soft and white face twisted for a while, obviously wanting to laugh, but the smile was uglier than crying, the smoky red eyes steamed with sad tears, and said with a sob: "What should I do? Below 10 A kiss in seconds doesn't count, have you forgotten the rules you made yourself?"

An Mu couldn't bear to see her pear blossom with rain, so she lowered her gaze.

"I set it to be no more than 10 seconds, and that has been invalidated. You can't go back on your word."

"I don't want to break my word. I won't be like you. I always say that others are children, but in the end I willfully contradict my promise. I just think... Forget it."

Before An Mu could realize what "forget it" meant, the back of his waist was suddenly grabbed, the back of his head was also held, his face was covered by a dark shadow, and his lips were suddenly blocked.

"Hmm! Put... um... open!"

— are you crazy?so many people!Are you not afraid of being photographed? !

Even if it's just an ordinary person, it's still very noticeable to openly kiss in this crowded airport, especially if the two are of the same sex with good looks.

An Mu didn't dare to push back too much, for fear that it would attract more attention, but Jian Yixi pushed her in, as if she wanted to swallow her up in one bite, let her be with him forever, and make her no longer able to be indifferent to her .

An Mu's rejecting hand gradually stopped, and the corners of his lips tasted the taste of salty tears, as if spreading from the depths of Jian Yixi's soul, salty with bitterness, bitter with unspeakable sadness.

Avoiding the Jian family, getting into the university of her dreams, and taking a long detour, she thought that she could finally be happy in this life, but she didn't expect that the one who hurt me in the end... turned out to be me.

I'm sorry, Jane Yixi...

i can't love you...

sorry……

The author has something to say: This chapter was originally intended to be used yesterday to thank Qianshui for adding updates, but it was temporarily changed to today's update...

because……

When I wrote 2500 yesterday, my dad suddenly told me that I was sent to the community as a volunteer to assist the census...

I am a party member and I am proud!Where do you need to move~!

Of course, the most important thing is that I am a well-known squat in the community...

Everyone thinks I'm lazy...

But I'm not, I'm not, I'm so busy!Busier than social animals, there is no rest day 365 days a year, o(╥﹏╥)o

My thanks and more can only be pushed back

ps. Originally this month, I planned to prepare a new article on the third day, but it turned out...

Alas, don’t talk anymore, if you talk too much, you will cry QAQ