I am in love with myself

An Mu had already contacted the school in advance, and the procedures went smoothly. Jian Yixi still had classes, so when she returned home after work, An Mu rested in her room.

Jian Yixi didn't bother her. She washed her hands and cooked meals that An Mu loved.

An Mu got up before the meal was ready, and went downstairs yawning after washing up. He was obviously a little depressed. It wasn't that he didn't wake up due to jet lag, but that he was tired from not being able to take a good rest for a long time.

He seemed to be in good spirits at the airport, but he looked like this when he got home.

Jian Yixi didn't know whether to be happy or sad. She was happy that An Mu could relax so much in front of her, but sad that An Mu was so tired.

Jian Yixi had mixed flavors, and brought out the food, hoping that An Mu would eat it.

"There's only soup left, let's eat first."

Put the rice in front of An Mu, pass the chopsticks over, put a piece of fish-flavored eggplant sticks in the bowl for An Mu, An Mu likes to eat it.

"Okay, you can eat quickly, I'm not Lafayette."

Jian Yixi responded, but still kept sending chopsticks to An Mu's bowl. Watching An Mu eat the food she cooked in one bite, Jian Yixi suddenly stopped holding the food, picked up her own bowl and put it straight to her mouth Pick it up.

An Mu frowned and glanced at her, a little dumbfounded.

"What are you doing, eating rice without vegetables?"

She reached out and took off Jian Yixi's arm. Jian Yixi's eyes were drooping, and the tip of her nose was red. Even if she didn't raise her eyes, she could tell that the little girl was crying.

"Why are you crying so well?"

An Mu took out a tissue and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Jian Yixi was trying to resist not wanting her to see it, but she couldn't take it anymore, she grabbed her hand and pressed it to her forehead, tearing like beans, and smashed it all over the table.

This is not an exaggeration, Jian Yi buried her head low, tears fell from her eyes, didn't they just splash on the dining table?

An Mu sighed helplessly, blaming herself for not being sober when she woke up, and forgetting that the more she persuaded, the more she cried. At this time, she should comfort silently. She can vent her emotions, and she can express herself faster calm emotions.

An Mu didn't say any more. He patted her head across the table and began to think seriously about why she was crying?

Is it because I haven't seen you for a long time and I miss you too much?

Or is it because her suspension of school means that Jian Yixi's first love is completely broken?

Or is it sad about the upcoming parting?

Or... all of them.

Jian Yixi cried for a while and finally stopped gradually, only intermittent sobbing remained.

She wiped her tears with the tissue in An Mu's hand, and looked up at An Mu.

"If you do this again, I will leave school and go to France to find you!"

This inexplicable speech made An Mu dumbfounded.

"What is this and that? What's wrong with me?"

With tears in her black pupils, Jian Yixi reached out and touched her thin cheek, then rolled up her sleeve and squeezed her wrist.

"Look for yourself. It's only been over a month. How thin have you become? I wanted to say it at the airport. When the wind blew, I thought you were going to be blown away by the wind."

An Mu followed her gaze and looked at her wrist. In all fairness, she really didn't see anything. After all, it was her body, which she looked at every day.

"Look at your exaggeration. You may be really thin if you are thin. If you suddenly get busy, everyone will lose weight. This is normal."

"I don't care what's normal or not. If you keep losing weight like this, I'll drop out of school too. See if I dare!"

An Mu smiled and shook his head: "Are you your mother? You threaten me with your studies?"

These words are just a joke. Normally, Jian Yixi would definitely tease her back, but today Jian Yixi has a serious face, her red nose from crying, and pitifully red eye sockets can't hide her seriousness.

"You are not my mother, you are my girlfriend, and I have the right and obligation to protect you."

"What rights and obligations? Suspending school for such a trivial matter is called love brain, which is a manifestation of selfishness, willfulness and irrationality."

Jian Yixi said firmly: "No, I'm not a love brain! Theory must always be connected with reality, and you can't draw conclusions just from the surface.

There are two situations for taking a break for a girlfriend.

One is to satisfy one's own selfish desires, such as being reluctant to leave and just wanting to be together. This kind of love brain is not advocated.

And one is to protect the person you love deeply, and to make the person you love healthy. This kind is not a love brain, but a sincere heart.

Is it a willful and selfish love brain?Or the bravery to guard true love?Just replace the parties to tell the difference.

Suppose, my mother is too busy to eat and her health is deteriorating. She doesn’t listen to what I say. I leave school to supervise her and help her reduce the burden. Can you say that I am a mother?

Similarly, if you are disobedient and don't take good care of yourself, I can also take a break from school to supervise you, and I can help you work and help you reduce work pressure. I am not a love brain. "

Jian Yixi took An Mu's hand again, and gently pressed it against her heart. Although it was at the dining table, with a dull incandescent lamp above her head, no flowers, music, or ambiguous candlelight, it wasn't romantic at all, but it didn't hinder Jane in the slightest. Yixi's sincerity.

"Last time you left in a hurry, I didn't have time to say anything. I had prepared a lot of things to tell you, but when I saw you, I suddenly didn't know what to say.

Do you want to complain about me, I don’t know what to say and you have said so much?

That's because you don't know how much I wanted to say. I probably kept talking non-stop for three days and three nights.

In fact, it doesn’t matter if you say more or less, there is only one central idea, no matter whether you are going to France, England, or wherever you go, our agreement will always count. Two years of dating, now I will count it as half a year for you. A year and a half away, I'll wait for you to come back and continue.

Don't say that I am naive, let alone say that you want to break the contract.

If you want to break the contract, then I... I can't do anything to you, I will never force you, at worst, I will become the next Chen Han.

Chen Han came out, you know that?She was sentenced to three months in prison, and almost no one knew about it except us.

After she came out, she contacted me, asked me a few strange questions, and then said that she no longer loves you, and blessed us.

Although that is what she said, Chen Han looked very sad. I believe she still loves you, and she will never forget it in this life.

I think, maybe I can become friends with Chen Han, our vision is so similar, we must have a lot of common hobbies, we may never fall in love with other people in this life, so it’s okay to be a companion in loneliness. "

Jian Yixi's eyes are black and shiny, maybe because she just cried, they are as soft as if they have just been fished out of the water, there is a little bit of starlight in the bottom of the eyes, clean and pure, such beautiful eyes, absolutely can't be right If you look at each other for a few seconds, you can't help but indulge in it.

Fortunately, Jian Yixi was An Mu himself. An Mu was naturally immune to him, but he was still attracted by those eyes that fell from the galaxy, and he looked at each other for a long time before turning away.

"Only children talk about 'forever'. Mature adults don't make promises easily. Even if they promise, they won't promise for such a long time. People still have to be realistic."

Jian Yixi chuckled lightly with downcast eyes, the smile was quite bright, but it didn't enter into the starry eyes at all.

"I knew you would say that. Even though I am two months older than you, you always treat me like a child. Believe it or not, this is not a court, and you are not a judge. Evidence makes you believe, and time will tell."

The firmer Jian Yixi spoke, the deeper An Mu's heart sank.

This is really... what to be afraid of.

The second brother said that Jian Yixi took the risk to cooperate with the kidnapping because of her. Although she had guessed at first, when the second brother really said it, she was shocked.

Is Jian Yixi crazy?Doing such a dangerous thing just to make her feel at ease? !

Jian Yixi has confessed so many times and kissed her for so many days. Of course she knows that Jian Yixi likes her, but she knows that she doesn't have a deep understanding of this relationship. Strictly speaking, she even keeps They all regarded the agreement as a child's game and did not take it seriously.

She forced herself to cooperate with Jian Yihu in acting. She thought her emotions were controllable, but when she rushed to Weicheng and rushed to the hospital, seeing Jian Yixi's haggard appearance and hearing the dangerous process, she never There is no way to control myself.

She finally realized that this would not work, Jian Yixi was more serious than she thought, whether it was the Jinfang Road incident or this kidnapping incident, Jian Yixi's starting point was for her.

The Jinfang Road incident was to get her praise, and this time it was to reassure her completely.

An Mu always thought that she was not afraid of Jane's family at all, or that she was not. She just rejected them physically, but she never realized it.

The complete destruction of the Jane's family made her relaxed from the inside out. This was the first time in her previous life until this life that she felt relaxed from the heart. She finally realized that she had been living under the shadow of the Jane's family all along. Unaffected, but never truly freed.

Jian Yixi helped her get rid of the Jane's family, but put another layer of shackles on her.

Jian Yixi is her, she is Jian Yixi, even if they are separated into two people now, in her heart, Jian Yixi is still herself, how can she fall in love with herself?

The more serious Jian Yixi was, the more she could no longer treat her casually. She didn't know how to make Jian Yixi give up, so she could only start by keeping a distance. Dad An's illness helped her make a decision.

No matter how strong the feelings are, they can't stand the test of time and distance, especially unrequited love without response.

Maybe Jian Yixi will never forget her for the rest of her life, but at least her non-response can make Jian Yixi give up and choose someone else.

The meal was silent and depressing, Jian Yixi tried hard to look cheerful, kept laughing and talking, from school to Maomao and then to adoptive parents, what came to mind and what to say, finally talked about the Yihexuan in the Forbidden City cub.

Jian Yixi said that after she left, she went to the Forbidden City by herself, looked at the cub, and saw the legendary Oboi, whose face was full of fried hair, really cute and vivid.

Jian Yixi took out her phone and showed An Mu the photos. Sure enough, there were many more photos of Cubs and Aobai.

Jian Yixi said: "When we are together in the future, we will raise a cat. We will raise it from its birth, and raise it for the rest of its life. After raising it, we will raise its children, and after raising its children, we will raise its children's children." .”

For a lifetime...for a lifetime...

An Mu didn't like this word, but she couldn't refute Jian Yixi anymore. After all, what she said was not impossible. A cat's lifespan is limited, and its lifetime is only a fraction of a human's lifespan.

cat lifespan...

An Mu counted the days, and found that the cub had less than a year to live. This year in his previous life, the cub died in the cold winter months.

No matter how much she was reborn, she couldn't change Xiao Zai's death. Fortunately, Xiao Zai died peacefully.

She can't change others, at least she hopes to change herself, no matter what she used to be or what she is now, she hopes that she can be happy instead of jumping from one tragedy to another.

"I'm going to see cats in the Forbidden City tomorrow morning, will you accompany me?"

Although it was three and a half years earlier, it was time to cut off the fetters of the past and present, otherwise, the fetters would become stumbling blocks.

Jian Yixi still has classes, it's rare that An Mu actually approved her to ask for leave, and now Jian Yixi doesn't deny that she is in love, Le Diandian asked for leave, got up early in the morning to make breakfast, packed her backpack, what Handkerchiefs, wet tissues, kettles and charging treasures, everything she might need, she stuffed them in.

The author has something to say: The big hole that Xiao Xingzi said... must be filled~

From now until the end, the main thing to fill in is how An Mu fell in love with Jian Yixi's hole~

As for the original An Mu and Chen Han mentioned by Li Xiao... they are not in the main text but in the extra episode, maybe the extra episode may be big~