Do not love me

Karuizawa is a very beautiful place.It was also very quiet, Tezuka was right.

He really took good care of her.He made the best arrangements.Very good villa, very good environment, there is a big tennis court in the backyard of the villa.If I remember correctly, this villa is a special training base for them to practice tennis.

"Is it okay? Just a place...?" During the holidays, there should be time for students to come to this place to practice, right?

"It's okay. Go in." Knowing what she was hesitating about, Tezuka took the lead and walked into the villa with the open door.

This is a place usually used for special training, and now I have no plans to train, so I brought her here.He also often comes here to see them.Or even stay.

Cleaning a house of thousands of square meters is really a waste of time. Fortunately, the training room is not too messy since I usually come here.Just need to clean up their respective rooms.Asakami Yui was pregnant, so she had to hand over all the heavy work to Tezuka. She only needed to wipe the dust off the ground.Even so, Tezuka still couldn't help looking back at her often.It seemed that she was afraid that she would be hurt a little bit.

It is easy to say what you are worried about, and it is true that Tezuka turned around and saw Yui Asakami, a woman who didn't know the danger, pulling a stool and trying to climb up the window to clean the window.

"Shallow up."

Just when he wanted to stop Tezuka's words, Yui Asakami's foot slipped and he tended to fall.

"Be careful." Before he had time to think, Tezuka jumped off the balcony, and Feiya seemed to catch her body a second before she fell.

The moment he saw her about to fall, Tezuka's heartbeat seemed to stop.He couldn't even catch his breath.Tezuka finally felt her body temperature firmly in his arms, and only then did he hear his heart revived from the dead in a violent movement.

He let out a long breath, but luckily nothing happened.Fortunately... fortunately.It's really lucky.

"How is it? Are you injured?" Tezuka asked in a soft voice, hugging the trembling girl.The words that were meant to be reprimanded turned into gentle worries inexplicably.

Shaking her head, Qianshang Weiyan blushed for her foolish behavior.She remembered that Tezuka told her not to work too hard, and handed over all the hard work to him.It was because I was too self-willed, and I still did these superfluous things even though I had caused him a lot of trouble.

"I'm sorry, I'm too headstrong." She pouted, looking up at Tezuka's profile with aggrieved eyes.She offered to apologize.Hope it's not too serious after the apology.

Hearing her compromising voice, Tezuka trembled slightly and wrapped his arms around hers, then tightened his grip a little more.It turned out that he was like this and didn't want to go to her?It turns out that worrying is also because of caring.So, he should care deeply about her?Because, I am really worried, very worried.Afraid of losing her.

"Too careless. Don't do it again." Restored the majesty of the minister, he ordered in a stern voice.My heart, there is no longer that kind of endurance.

"Well, I'll make you dinner." She nodded in agreement, doing what she could.

"Yeah." Tezuka nodded.Glad she said something about making dinner for 'him'.This is deceptive.

Let go of his hand, he let go of her, and watched her walk into the kitchen before recovering and continuing to do what she was doing.

Thinking about it a little bit... Illusion again and again... seems to make the gap in a certain part of the heart bigger.There are some emotions that seem to break through a certain obstacle to vent.

Some sighed resignedly.If there is really no way to suppress a certain inexplicable emotion, can he let it go?I don't want to lie to myself at all.Always, every time.He is clearly aware of his own feelings but still cowardly pretends.Pretending is a tiring thing.He was exhausted and had no strength to cope.

After a busy day, Tezuka finally finished tidying up the room of the two of them when it was getting dark.When she went downstairs, she happened to see Yui Ai Qiangami who had already prepared dinner and was about to bring it to the table, busy.

"Tezuka, the time is just right. Let's eat?" Looking up, he saw Tezuka Kunimitsu walking towards him, and Yui Asakami greeted him with a smile.

What she prepared was the only Chinese dish she knew how to cook.Fortunately, on the way here today, Tezuka reminded her to go to the supermarket first, and bought a lot of vegetables.She should have done this a long time ago, and she never once formally thanked Tezuka for helping her so much.It must be very humiliating.It's just that Tezuka never said it.

It’s so inconvenient to cook so many dishes?

Looking at Yui Asakami who was busy preparing to eat, Tezuka couldn't help frowning.Don't you know how to take a good rest with your stomach full?

"What's wrong? Tezuka, do you like Chinese food? I'm sorry, I can only..."

Yui Asakami, who thought it was Tezuka who didn't like what he made and frowned, had to change from joy to worry.What if Tezuka really didn't like what she made?

"No, it's pretty good."

Unable to bear seeing her disappointed look, Tezuka pursed his lips and shook his head to deny what she meant.In order to prove that what he said was true, he picked up the pair of chopsticks lying flat on his table and picked up a dish closest to him and ate it.

Maybe, even Tezuka himself didn't realize it at this time?His stern face was originally convincing without any proof.The superfluous actions... made Qianshang Weiai even more confused and worried.

I don't like to see Tezuka try to be strong in order to cater to himself.Asakami Yui gritted her teeth, stretched out her hand to hold Tezuka's hand, blocking his further movement.

"Don't force yourself if you don't like it. I'll make eel rice for you..."

Doing so much is just to make him happy.If none of this is to his liking, then it's all right to give up all of it.

The big hand wrapped in Asakami's warm palm suddenly stopped any of his movements.It wasn't because she said to make it again, it wasn't because she accidentally said to make his favorite food, but the temperature of her palm...was so hot that it burned his palm.He even completely forgot about the next step.

Grip back.

He didn't know why he was crazy.Just when she was about to pull out her hand and get up to go to the kitchen, she firmly held her hand back.

"Tezuka-kun..."

Yui Asakami turned her head in surprise, and looked at the extremely serious Tezuka Kunimitsu.He was also looking at himself, without any particular emotion.It's just that the eyes are more struggling than before.

What are you hesitating about?What are you struggling with?

Asakami Yui bit her lip, hesitating whether to try to pull out her hand forcefully.Also thinking at the same time, what is the meaning of Tezuka's eyes that are clearly looking at her but seem to be looking at a place so far away that she can't touch?

"You, don't go. It's fine, it's fine."

nice... eh?But obviously looking at his expression is not good...

"Tezuka-kun...it doesn't matter, I really don't like it..."

"Don't call me Tezuka-kun, forget, Tezuka-kun. Forget that what you call in your heart is only sympathy. It's not what you think, not just because of sympathy. I don't have sympathy for you, but I just don't want to see you working hard. Although not I know the reason, but don't think it's sympathy for you, don't accommodate me like this, and don't thank me in this way."

Such a long passage made Asakami Weiai turn pale.

It turned out that my accommodating and thanking me were nothing, so it was like this.Should have thought of it a long time ago, the ignorant self still blindly...

But what did his words... mean?

"Tezuka, I... thank you... Although you don't want me to thank you, I still want to say this to you. Thank you very much. I don't think it's enough to make up for you with a thousand words of thanks Help me. So, please let me speak out?... I'm so scared, actually I'm afraid that you won't show up again. I'm afraid that one day you will suddenly say that I'm a burden, that you won't save me .So I ran away, so I...sorry for making you worry..."

Already sobbing, unable to speak.If it's been in my heart for a long time, I still can't speak when I get here.

If it's hypocritical... It really doesn't suit her.

Delighted, heartbroken.Pain and happiness.I am glad that she said that she was afraid that he would not want her, and I am heartbroken that she can see it so clearly.Even... a barren future is thoroughly envisioned.

What should we do?There was no way to let go of it like this.There is no way to deceive myself and tell myself that I just sympathize with her situation.

If you don't want to... just leave it like this?Just do as you want...don't let go of your hands, and don't lie to yourself that it's just sympathy.There are other emotions.And that emotion that was so strange that he didn't want to touch it was the legendary love...

It doesn't matter, just admit an emotion.Very simple, isn't it?

"Why are you afraid? Why are you afraid that I will think you are a burden? For people who have nothing to do with you... Forget it, forget it, leave it, leave it, right? Why are you sad?" If you are sad, does it mean that you Same... in love?

The continuous questioning came from the corners of Tezuka's tightly pursed lips.

He decided not to run away anymore.Trying to figure out his own and her feelings.Or maybe...she was always in love with the guy who hurt her to the point of bruising...

When thinking of this, Tezuka twitched his mouth in a self-deprecating way, very subtly.It's hard to notice.He was laughing at his stupidity, how could it be so rational and calm to withdraw the heart he had given when he knew that she was still in love with that person?

maybe?

He who is indifferent... Maybe he will do that?

Why be sad?Qiangami Weiyan never thought about this question.Because, this question is very dangerous...

The sudden force on Tezuka's hand forced her to look into his eyes again.This time, he didn't give her a chance to escape, and looked straight into her foggy eyes.No matter how difficult it was, he tried to see the slightest bit in her eyes.

It's just, unfortunately... Her eyes were blurry.make it difficult to see clearly.

There is no decadence nor give up.He stood up, and the tall figure wrapped her whole without doing anything.

Faintly depressed.

He was too tall, and she had to struggle to look up every time.This time and the same.However, the moment she raised her head was already shrouded in shadow.

hazy...

The only thing that can be heard is the indifferent but extremely serious voice that is taken for granted.

"Asakami, the child's father... I'll do it." At that time...in the hospital, she said that, right?

……

Or is it just sympathy?I never realized that I was so pitiful.

His eyes were lowered, and his long bangs covered his entire eyes.She couldn't answer the question and didn't want to answer it...

"Tezuka, you can eat. I'll send food to the neighbor..."

At this time, she was very grateful for Japan's Dali.Saying no more, pushing Tezuka away, Yui Asakami decided to continue running away...