Do not love me

"Don't torture yourself, Qianshang Weiai... I'll give you a seat, come back with me."

It's not an auditory hallucination, Yui Ai Asakami is very sure that he clearly heard the Japanese pronunciation of that passage translated into Chinese.

Give her a place?It means to continue to save her.

"Tezuka...I'm fine, really fine..." There's no need for relief, you don't need to take risks to save yourself who doesn't want to do it.I wanted to say that, but there was no room for the words to come out of my mouth.

"Don't be brave, Qianshang Weiai. I said that I will give you a place, and you won't have to work hard. Come with me, get out of here. I will take care of you." Go to a place that no one knows, and you won't be found for a while. He will take good care of her and the child in her belly.Even... the time is really short, so short that you can only wait until the child is born safely.Tezuka was lucky to be able to make this decision.

Or maybe one day he will regret it, at least it is much better than worrying about her life in fear.So what is a little bit of regret?

Yes, really nothing.Compared to leaving her alone, this matter is probably just a tiny speck of dust.The naked eye can't see a tiny bit even with the best effort.

But... "Where can I go?" Can the position you give really accommodate me?The distant world of Tokyo is already far away from me, and I can't reach it no matter what tools I use.There will always be a little bit of difference.

Tezuka's heart trembled because of her slight inferiority complex, hesitation, and her words that finally loosened a little.It was because I was too reckless, because I didn't think about it so much, and just let my temper go.Show her more doubts and fears now.

Lowering his eyes slightly, Tezuka let go of the heaviness of following closely behind him.Seriously looking at her holding on to the doorknob, her belly was already protruding: "Go to Karuizawa? It's quiet there. It's very suitable for you." A place where he can always have an excuse to go, that's all he can do .It's really humble to want to protect her like this.

Karuizawa?She knew where the legendary beautiful place was.Just never had the chance to go.If it suits me... I can't help but raise my head and look directly into Tezuka Kiyoaki's eyes.His eyes were full of refusal, how could she have the courage to refuse with such eyes?

Biting her lower lip hard, Qianshang Weiai was full of questions.

It is undeniable that her heart is saying: go, there may be another beginning, a quiet beginning.I don't know why my heart keeps telling me this.Too hard and too tired, I no longer have the bargaining chip to be strong. In front of Tezuka, she can't pretend to be the strong one. She is so tired and doesn't want to be strong anymore. She wants to find a place to rely on. Next, even if it is only for a short while.

The time is very short, and the time for Qianshang Weiai to think about it is very short.It was so short that it seemed that only a few hours had passed.She glanced at Tezuka's luggage in my hand, and nodded mysteriously: "Well, I'll go." She didn't know the reason for agreeing to go.I don't want to explore, and I am afraid that everything will change from simple to complicated once I delve into it.

As if he breathed a sigh of relief, Tezuka let go of his tightly clenched hands.The dense sweat on the forehead also disappeared without a trace because of the sudden silence.

"Tezuka-kun, come in and sit down." Pulling the doorknob, Asakami Yui made way for Tezuka to enter.

Nodding, a consensus has been reached and Tezuka didn't say anything more, he accepted Yui Asakami's invitation, and walked into the humble house that he left in the morning.

"Are we... are we going to leave now?" Asakami Yui couldn't help asking as he put the water poured for Tezuka on the small table.If she really wanted to leave now, she shouldn't have time to say goodbye to the Sanada family, right?And Mrs. Fujiwara, how can someone who treats her so well just leave like this?

Maybe it's too emotional, or maybe it's because I'm really too indecisive and always thinking about things.Noticing Tezuka's eyes looking towards him, Yui Asakami lowered his head in embarrassment.Sure enough, I thought too much.

"It doesn't matter, if I have to leave now, I'll pack up..."

"You finish your business first. I'll wait for you." Seeing the reluctance in her eyes, Tezuka thoughtfully suggested.Although the time is not long, there will still be a little nostalgia, right?

How could Tezuka not see through such a troubled expression?Obviously, all expressions and thoughts are hidden on the face.

"Ah, I see." I didn't know what Tezuka was thinking, anyway, I was willing to accept what he had already said.He hurriedly responded and lowered his head, drinking tea in a low voice.The unusually quiet atmosphere made both of them hold their faces in embarrassment.The two awkward people obviously had a lot to say to each other, but neither of them spoke first.

What to say?Open your mouth and ask... How did she spend these days without him?Or are you talking about the future?

There are so many things that I really can't say after meeting.Lifting his head secretly from under the cup, what Tezuka saw was still her face that seemed to be thinking about something.Since when did his thoughts of Tezuka Kunimitsu be transformed by her thoughts?Those are not important anymore, the important thing is that he is like a demon, as long as he can look at her side face freely at this time, he is already happy.I don't care about other things, and I can't control them and don't want to explore them.Afraid that the last self will be dripping with scars.I am also afraid that I will not have the courage to face the next thing.Things that I know very well... but I don't want to confirm it until I die.As long as it's like this, it's good to see her well.It's like getting the whole world.Tezuka Kunimitsu has really become incredible.Smiling lazily, he laughed at his complicated thoughts from head to toe.Then he sneered at his cowardice and dared not confirm it.That's it, enough.Tezuka Kunimitsu.The person in front of you is not your happiness or your ultimate belonging.At most... for now, it's just a sympathy.

Tezuka, who was beaten to death and didn't want to admit his feelings, lowered his head and took a sip of tea, and decided not to look at her awkwardly.Don't even try to think about what she's thinking and don't want to see any of her thoughts clearly right now.

It's not that he didn't notice Tezuka's gaze cast on him, but Asakami Yui felt it.There was inexplicable confusion and confusion in his eyes.Just decided to ignore it.Now that even she herself is in a mess, how can she have the precious time to pay attention to his confusion.Tangled with the long hair that fell down in frustration, Qiangami Weiyan just couldn't figure it out, so the person who desperately wanted a shoulder to rely on would be himself?It's agreed, don't bother others, and be quiet by yourself, taking care of the child you insist on giving birth without trouble.But... what did she do?How could it be so easy and ignorant to accept other people's charity?

Is it true that I am so tired that I have lost my sanity?Actually... Back to the origin again?Hope... now there is only hope.Hope is off to a good start.

It's just hopeless.

Gently exhaling... Qianshang Weiyan blushed instantly when she woke up from the fugue.She actually left Tezuka alone, thinking about something else.

Blushing, she pulled the corner of her mouth at Tezuka in embarrassment.It is undeniable that Tezuka's face turned to look at himself because he heard the movement is really charming.I don't know what kind of sweet liquid mixed with sourness spread in Qianshang Wei's heart.As a result, her heartbeat accelerated abnormally.Forcibly suppressing the violent heartbeat, Asakami Yui coughed dryly and said nonsense.For example, something about tennis that has nothing to do with me.

When talking about tennis with Tezuka, Yui Asakami always saw a faint light in the cold boy's eyes.Tennis...that clean and pure world really suits him.And is the existence of myself... the opposite of him?maybe?Maybe that's the case... Otherwise, God wouldn't let them meet in such a miserable way.

A day seems to be too long to pass.It took just one day to cut off all the emotions in the past two months.Mrs. Fujiwara...Ai Sanada, and the uncle who always has a dark face but always does kind things...I cut off everything with them in one day.When Tezuka and Tezuka left Kanagawa, Yui Asakami didn't say goodbye to any of them in person, but just like the last time she left Tokyo, she sent a text message to Uncle Sanada to tell.It's not clear what Genichiro Sanada would think, but Yui Asakami knew with certainty that he would not blame himself.To Mr. Zhentian, she is just a passerby.Every time, she could see such a warning from his black and white eyes.Maybe it was because of his own situation that moved him to feel compassion, otherwise, I'm afraid they are still two strangers now.

Standing in front of the platform that was about to leave, Qian Shangwei let out a long breath, and the moment she turned around, she was already smiling.That kind of smile, Tezuka had seen a long time ago.It's so indifferent... Even though he cares so much, he always pretends to have no emotion at all.

My heart... hurts slightly.

Because of that brave smiling face, my heart is slightly astringent.Tezuka bit his lower lip.He stood quietly and waited for her to walk towards him.At this moment, since he has an inexplicable idea that she will always belong to him.He is like a stone statue standing forever in place waiting for his lover to return.

Hehe... Really stupid.

Can't help but slander in the bottom of my heart.Self like an idiot.Stupid.

"Tezuka-kun, shall we go?"

When Yui Asakami walked up to Tezuka, Tezuka didn't seem to have recovered from somewhere.

Tezuka came back to his senses when he heard the voice ringing in his ears. He stared at Yui Asakami for a long time inexplicably, as if he had a lot to say, and it seemed that there was something suppressed in his chest that could not be released for a long time. .

The whole world stands still.

Yui Asakami could almost hear Tezuka breathing in his ear clearly.It was a bit hurried, but when I regained my composure and listened carefully, it was the usual panting sound.

It took a long time... His pleasant voice echoed in my ears.

"Tezuka. Call me Tezuka."

A very short sentence, so short that it is difficult to understand.It was hard to see and guess what he was thinking.

As if wanting to get an explanation, Yui Asakami suspiciously caught up with Tezuka who turned around and left after speaking.

"I don't like it when you call me by honorific titles."

Before he had time to ask, Kunimitsu Tezuka, who noticed her approaching, spoke first.Short explanation.

Answered all queries.

Qian Shangwei was stunned for a while, really not sure, the awkward sentence just now was not said by the gorgeous young master Atobe every day, but the cold boy who I have known for the longest time, but the most elusive Tezuka Kunimitsu?

Is it the sound of the wind blowing? Just now, the last second, it must be an illusion.

Tell yourself that.Qianshang Weiyan once again quickened his pace and chased after him.The self-conceited illusion was shattered because Tezuka suddenly turned around and snatched the small luggage from her hand.

"I'll help you mention it." He said this with such a serious and obviously embarrassing red face.

Such Tezuka Kunimitsu... made Yui Asakami smile slightly.It was not as hard to accept as expected, and Tezuka gave him help.She can always accept it with peace of mind.

is it good?Such a thought...hopefully so.