Do not love me

Tezuka was holding her when she left the Fujiwara house because of a serious foot injury.For some unknown reason, she just naturally leaned into the warm embrace that she was so familiar with.After trying to find out the reason, she lost her head, but the only conclusion she came to was that his shoulder was familiar, while Sanada's was so unfamiliar that she had never touched it.In this case, of course she would rather choose the one she is familiar with.

"Tezuka...Thank you for remembering me." She thought that everyone in Tokyo had forgotten herself.It turned out that was not the case, Tezuka Kunimitsu, this man with little relationship still remembered her.

I'm really glad.Getting to know Tezuka, perhaps, was the only thing she did right in her life.

Often think so.However, sometimes it feels like it shouldn't be.Because Tezuka is always busy with her affairs.The only thing she did right was to evacuate her original life, her original identity as Yui Asakami, and evacuate those days when Tezuka helped her.

Low whispers, the familiar heat and the familiar scent of jasmine tea... lingering around the nasal cavity.This time it's real, not memories.

Involuntarily, he tightened his arms around her.

Admit it, Tezuka Kunimitsu.Whether he likes the woman in his arms or not, he has never let go of his heart.

"What is Tezuka-kun looking for me for? He seems very anxious..."

Always like this, always silent.She was always alone asking questions.

However, it seems that I really miss such days.Involuntarily raised the corners of his mouth again.Qiangami Weiai doesn't know why.Obviously her feet are still so painful, and obviously this is not a sweet picture of lovers reunited, but she is inexplicably happy.It's as happy as looking forward to the arrival of a child every day.

What is the matter with her?Tell her that he is just worried that she is not good, that she is sad, so... is he stimulated to come to see her at this time?

So what now?Now you see it yourself, don't you?I also got the answer, she was really having a bad time.What should I do now?

If it failed, he couldn't help but let her know that she was bad.

So tell her that he wants to take her back, is it okay to go back to the original point?Go back to her own position, no matter how hard that position is in the future, and how unforgivable she is, he wants her to go back.Because only then can she get good care.

Is it a little nosy?

Excess is excess.He accepts his fate.Who told me to overflow with sympathy?

Yes, sympathy.not something else?As for the vague love, the love that will tie down your dreams will not appear in yourself.

"Still not answering? Is Tezuka-kun angry...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to leave without saying goodbye..." Like that time, she tightened her arms around his neck and buried her head in his warm The pit of his neck apologized softly.

I know it's inappropriate for me to do this, but just this once, okay?I really want to be willful once.I really want to get warm again.

"Tomorrow... come back with me. Back to Tokyo."

I finally spoke.But... it is the most difficult thing.

In a word, interrupted the warmth she had been trying to get.

Stiffly twitching the corners of her mouth... She kept smiling: "But... there is no place for me in that place." It was she who personally destroyed her place.I personally tore up the results of years of hard work.How can I qualify now...

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In the dark night, no one spoke anymore, and Sanada, who was walking in front, hugged Chiai Sanada who was still sleeping, and let the murmur suddenly stop as if he didn't feel it.She forgot, she spoke in a very low voice, in a voice that Sanada couldn't hear at all.Of course she didn't feel it anymore... It was because of this that she felt so cold...

As if sensing her Sother's body, Tezuka tightened his hands again.Stop her body that was gradually moving away from him even tighter.

The long-lost warmth made her lose her mind.After a while, she was very tired.fell asleep.Let Tezuka's pleasant smell rush into his nostrils.I have to admit that Tezuka always has hypnotics to make her sleep peacefully.Every time, she would give herself completely to him without any defense.

Finally arrived at the small villa where Wei Ai lives.

After putting the two sleeping people on the bed, Tezuka began to take a good look at the already messy room.As Chiai Sanada said, the room is beautiful but broken.

"It's dangerous here."

Nodding, Tezuka agreed with Sanada's point of view.If she hadn't been working part-time in the supermarket, she would have suffered more serious injuries if she was at home today.

"Sanada, can you help me take care of her?" There is no one to trust.There is only this Genichiro Sanada who doesn't have much intersection but is surprisingly similar to himself.

After hearing Tezuka's words, Sanada frowned slightly.

What does it mean to help him?And... She refused, right?Tezuka's proposal.

In such a quiet night, how could he not hear what they said...

"The room should be repaired..." The answer was irrelevant, Sanada did not answer Tezuka's words clearly, but bent down and began to clean up the mess all over the floor.

"Thank you..." The understanding Tezuka raised his glasses and started to get busy.

One night, Sanada and Tezuka spent a whole night tidying up the room, and even repaired some broken walls.

At dawn, the two of them were exhausted and fell asleep on the sofa in the living room.

Dragging the badly injured leg, Qiangami Weiai walked to the living room with difficulty, holding two thin blankets in her hands.What was originally a mess is now clean.Such a gap reminded her that the two people on the sofa must be very tired.

Carefully covering Sanada with the quilt, he turned and walked towards Tezuka on the other side.

Getting closer to Tezuka's side, she felt more and more that the boy in front of her was in the beautiful picture.Rather than the real existence in her life.So far away... Stretching out her hand, her fingertips gently scraped Tezuka's fat-like snow muscle.There is temperature... that means it is real and within reach.There is such a little joy...

What are you thinking about?

He couldn't help but sneer in self-deprecating contempt.The cranky self really doesn't look like Yui Ai Qiangami at all.

She gritted her teeth and turned her eyes away, not to look at her jealous face that was so perfect that she was born as a woman in the morning light.Carefully pulled the corner of the quilt to warm his tired body.

After finishing everything that Lei Feng should do, Qiangami Yui did not turn around and leave as expected, pretending nothing happened, but sat down beside Tezuka.Leaning her five-month-old body with no figure to speak of, Tezuka's good-looking sleeping face was seen.This face... really has a magical power that people can't forget.Every corner of the water chestnut, and the lines that he would wrinkle when he frowned... She seemed to remember them all clearly.

Obviously not that familiar.But why does she remember so clearly?As if they were still a deeply in love couple yesterday, their minds were full of information about the person they liked.

Like a ghost, Qiangami Weiai stretched out his long-awaited hand, and carefully took off the transparent glasses he was wearing.I have always wanted to know, what kind of person would the cold boy who was sleeping soundly in front of him be without the constraints of glasses?Lovely?Shaking his head, Asakami Yui couldn't imagine Tezuka Kunimitsu like that.Gentle?Yes, that's right, without those annoying restraints, Tezuka's face is warm.

"Obviously beautiful eyes. Why do you have to cover them up?" Asakami muttered in bewilderment.Tezuka's peach blossom eyes were more beautiful than anyone's eyes she had ever seen.

Whispering, it was rare for her to be too nervous to forget that it is impossible for a sleeping person to let others see their eyes.Obviously, now, the pair of winking eyes that I have been in close contact with are awake because of being harassed.

Jumping up in bewilderment, Asakami Yui blushed in embarrassment and did not dare to look at Tezuka Kunimitsu who looked at him with some inexplicable and probing meaning.

"That... I didn't know you were awake..." Stuttering his tongue, Qianshang Weiai was so embarrassed that he wanted to dig a hole in the ground.But Tezuka didn't seem to mind, his pretty brown eyes drooped and fell on her hands that were so frightened that she forgot to return the glasses.

"Ah, I'm sorry." Noticing Tezuka's gaze, Asakami Yui put his glasses on both hands knowingly.

Tezuka groaned lightly, didn't say anything, reached out to take the glasses strap she offered and put it on.For a while, the Minister Tezuka who couldn't help but be afraid was restored.

"Your feet..." It seemed that he didn't care about the sneak attack just now, Tezuka still kept his own dead face, and asked in a low voice, pointing at her calf wrapped in gauze.

"It's nothing, it doesn't hurt anymore."

She shook her head again and again, afraid that Tezuka would see through her disguise and deny it.

Seeing her panicked denial, Tezuka didn't say a word, not a word.The atmosphere was also momentarily frozen.become strange.

"Not going back...is this happiness for you?"

It was silent for a long time... When Yui Asakami thought that he was in the freezer, Tezuka suddenly spoke.

Unexpectedly, Tezuka would speak first, Asakami Yui was stunned for half a second before remembering to answer his question in a daze.

Happiness... No matter how good a life like this is, it can't be considered happiness, right?How can she be so happy?How can something that has been missing for more than ten years be said to exist?The only luck is that there is still a child.If we have to define it in terms of happiness, then she who has a child now is considered happier than the shallow and only love she used to be.

"Well, I'm very happy."

Always involuntarily stroking her slightly protruding belly with her hands.Like, that thing in there represents everything about her.

Asakami's only...has changed.

This is Tezuka's cognition.Tezuka was shocked to see the indifferent girl from the past caressing her stomach in such a gentle way with eyes.Or maybe...it's because I never really understood this girl.

Yes, he really didn't understand the unmarried and pregnant girl in front of him.

Well, she said she was happy, so there is no reason for him, a superfluous person, to not bother to refute, isn't there?Whether it is life or death, good or bad, has nothing to do with me, and I don't need to care so much...

Lowering his hands, Tezuka sighed in resignation.

And Qianshang Weiai kept looking down at the slightly swollen belly, as if everything in the outside world had nothing to do with her.

Time has proved time and time again that she is ruthless.So ruthless that people can't catch a little bit of tail.Always pass in silence.

It was almost noon when we returned to Sanada's house.After eating the lunch prepared by the Sanada family, Tezuka proposed to go back to Tokyo.So after lunch, he and Azusa Sanada came to the nearby station.

Originally, there were very few opportunities for the two to meet each other, but Sanada Azusa finally found the time to spend with Tezuka as she wished, but was disintegrated in the earthquake.Azusa Sanada, who was not in a good mood, looked at her fiancé's gloomy face with great gloom.I don't know if it's because of the unhappiness we got along with this time that made him unhappy or something else, but Azusa Sanada was keenly aware of Tezuka's low pressure.Although she was very dissatisfied with his request to leave so early, she didn't have the courage to lose her temper in front of Tezuka.Can only let him go.

"Sanada, go back." Unaccustomed to the many girls around him, Tezuka said when he was not far from the station.

Still such a distant name.

Frowning, Azusa Sanada stopped and stared at Tezuka for a long time.In the end, she finally let go of her pride with a sigh of compromise.Facing a man like Tezuka Kunimitsu, she was always on the weak side.

Someone said that the one who loves more deeply will hurt more deeply.

There is nothing wrong with this sentence.

Forget it, I was the one who wanted to say that I didn't want any love at the beginning.Sanada Xiao Azusa, who had no choice but to compromise, nodded and turned around to return the same way.

The love that goes deep to the bone marrow is dismissed so easily...it really hurts.But who can be blamed?It was because I thought highly of myself that I would not fall in love with anyone, so I met him carelessly.It's my own fault and I can't blame Tezuka at all.It's just... I hate how humble I am.Begging for everything is as if begging.

I didn't care about the emotion that Sanada Kozusa became different and the emotion that didn't match the agreement.Tezuka's hand holding the small luggage bag tightened countless times.

Walking on the platform, turning around, wanting to ruthlessly step on the train to leave the place where the person who always disturbs his thoughts exists, but he is always hesitant.My mind is full of her thin face, the dimples raised because of a forced smile, and the way she lowered her head and muttered to herself as if she was very happy.

Are you really happy?

A child without a father, an unwed mother without a husband, how can such a combination be happy?

Idiot, Asakami only loves this idiot.Unhappy or unhappy, is it really that difficult to admit it?Is it really difficult to go back to the origin? Is it really more difficult than two lives?

Can you stop being so self-righteous and think that other people will really believe that they are happy because of a lie?

There is really no way.There is really no way to leave her alone in this strange place, there is really no way to keep her from being by his side.There is really no way to go through the time of worry and fear again.It was hard to get through these difficult two months.

Don't care, don't want to, don't care anymore.What kind of inexplicable factors.He doesn't care anymore.I just want to take her away immediately and return to my own wings.Whether it's the legendary liking, or selfishness to prevent his tennis practice from being affected, he has decided to pack that woman who is so stupid that she can't figure it out but pretends to be smart, and bring it back into his sight.

Turning around, he ran to the firmly remembered position with his vague memory.

Sweat profusely, obviously in the cold winter, but the sweat fell drop by drop like light rain without hesitation.Wet the palms that were swaying along the running again and again.

The cold wind whistled in my ears.The head-on blow messed up her messy hair.

Get up and close the window.Asakami Yui stared out the window for a while... A few minutes ago, she received a call from Sanada Chiai, that cute little girl.It was just to tell her the good news that the Uncle Bingshan who she imagined would be her little uncle's rival in love had left at this time.

Feeling inexplicably depressed.Maybe it's the weather?This kind of winter always brings people a bad mood.

I don't want to admit at all that I was sad because the boy really let go and said that he would no longer help her.

Self-deprecatingly raised the corners of his mouth, Asakami decided not to think about this question any more.You should find something to disturb this thought.Dragging his inconvenient injured leg, Asakami Yuai was going to go to the upstairs room to read a book.

But at this moment, the doorbell rang without hallucinations.

The person who will come to her... She really can't think of anyone else besides Sanada Chiai.But he was on the phone with that little girl a few minutes ago, wasn't he?

Suspiciously limping back to the door, he stretched out his hand and opened the door.

Broken brown hair, transparent glasses, familiar eyes that are so sharp that Qiangami Weiai dare not look more at times... The frozen sweat drips from the broken hair.This person... the only person Qiangami could never have imagined in his dreams... actually appeared.

"Tezuka..."

"Don't torture yourself, Qianshang Weiai... I'll give you a seat, come back with me."