Do not love me

It turns out that we never had a chance to do it again.

Inseparable shackles keep us far apart.

It was my fault

I never knew I could love so deeply

Never knew love could hurt you so deeply.

Are you happy to leave me?

I know I shouldn't ask

Knowing that you don't belong to me forever

Stupid but still want to know.

Heartache, it turned out to be nothing more than that, it was just broken into small pieces.

Sorry,

You said you don't want me to say sorry

but i still want to say

Sorry, I Love You.

Even if I know the ending, I will still love you.

Countless tears, I have cried several times, I remember obviously forgetting the taste of tears.who is it?Who let her try the salty taste of tears again.

Funny how no culprit could be found.

So, who is she crying for, who is she crying for?Like a fool, pretending to be melancholy for no reason, crying for someone unknown.I thought it was just a long, painful dream.

Woke up in a dream, only to find out.Everything is in the past, everything is real.The self who cannot return to the past has been defiled.

The spring water spread, and the endless spring water poured in, breathing pain, blood lingering in the throat.Thankfully, she caught the warm driftwood with her flailing hands as she nearly drowned.

Tezuka Kunimitsu, her lifeline.

He grasped the warmth even tighter and harder.She knew she was addicted.It's like being addicted to his smell, his temperature.There is no way to let go, and I don't want to let go.The heat that the too cold self finally possessed was actually him.I really want to laugh at myself.But she lost her strength.No strength to laugh.

"Thank you..." The person who had already fallen into his arms before he knew it whispered softly.

Tezuka heard it, very clearly.But you can't say "it doesn't matter, no thanks".In that case, he is not qualified to say it. If it wasn't for him and his hesitation, nothing would happen to her, right?

Lowering the corner of his eyes, he saw her hand on his lap.Not slender, but so small, so soft.There was a desire to wrap it in the palm of his hand, he slowly stretched out his hand, he took her hand and held it gently, using the temperature of his big palm to warm the icy catkin.

In a half-dream and half-awake, she suddenly felt a pair of thick and warm big hands wrapping her icy coldness. The sudden warmth reassured her, and she didn't want to reject it. She separated her fingertips and clasped them tightly with that strange but warm big hand. She wanted to get His affirmation.

The fingers of the two hands that were tightly intertwined were tightly clenched, as if they had been entangled for a lifetime.Anyone can take it apart.

Heart, beating wildly.Because of the close contact with her.Tezuka pursed his lips and his eyes were extremely firm.

"It will be fine." Sensing her uneasiness, he whispered softly in her ear.The tone is firm.

She firmly believed his words, but... "What should I do?" What should I do next?She was so confused and scared...

His head, which was shaken by anxiety, slid from his shoulders to his chest, and hot tears soaked his chest through the thin fabric.

The tall and straight figure froze for a moment, because of her sentence 'What should I do? 'And those hot tears, no, the tears that were originally hot had already become cold the moment they fell.

He has no way to help her make a decision, and he has no position to speak without hindering his own conclusion.

There was another silence, no one spoke, and her breathing sounded as if she had really fallen asleep.

At the end of the station, she automatically woke up, and automatically pulled out the hand that was entangled with him, got out of the car with the flow of people, and then walked forward, that place he didn't know.

Putting away his already empty hand, Tezuka stared at the bleak figure in a daze.Her figure gradually became ethereal in the wind, and she eagerly stretched out her hand to search for it, but it was empty, and what she grasped was only air.The lines on the palm were clear and bright, like the cage he wove for himself, tightly imprisoning himself, unable to breathe.

Suddenly, I thought I had lost the air I could breathe.

Shaking his head and laughing, random thoughts always popped into his mind without warning.I don't like this muddy feeling.Shaking off the inexplicable suffocation, Tezuka raised his head again, but the figure was no longer visible.Only the light blue skirt was left swaying in the wind.

Did not catch up.He thoughtfully knew that she needed to calm down at this time.

This is also good, they can both give each other time to sort out their thoughts.Although, his confusion appeared inexplicably.

Standing in front of Qianshang's house, for the first time Qianshang Weiai felt that a simple movement and smile in the past would be so difficult.Looking up at the sky, it was already gray. The whole family was here at this time. What right did she have to put on such a stinky face.

She took a deep breath, opened the door, and smiled: "I'm back." Bending down to the three people sitting in the living room, she was too respectful.

"Hey, you're back. Come, come quickly." Asakami Weiyi greeted her in a good mood.

The expressions on the parents' faces also seemed to be very happy.Is something good happening?That's good, at least no one will pay attention to her low air pressure.

After changing her shoes, she still smiled brightly: "What is so happy?"

"Your sister received the test invitation from the Tokyo Supreme Court today. Of course she will be very happy after waiting so long." Mother said to her with a smile on her face as she chewed a sip of coffee.

Asakami Yui nodded, and it was obvious that her sister was very happy.In this case...there would be no extra things for her.

She also received the invitation for the final mock test, which means that she and her sister will be rivals...

"Hey, what are you thinking?" Sensing her strangeness, Asakami Weiyi couldn't help asking with concern.She didn't know whether she had read it wrong or something else, she felt that Ai Ai's face was very bad.

"It's okay." She looked up in a daze, and met her sister's worried eyes. For a moment, she still felt that she couldn't ignore her sister.The injury caused by her sister... She knew it was an unintentional mistake.It's just... the evidence in her stomach kept her in the deepest part of her heart, and she didn't have the rationality to pretend that nothing happened.

"Since Ai and Ai are back, let's go out for dinner." Asakami's family, currently the highest decision-maker, Qiangami Zezhi made a suggestion.

"Really? That's great." As soon as the suggestion came out, it won the welcome of the two Asakami family members.

Only Qiangami Yui, she really has no reason to be happy, and she doesn't want to go to the dinner party: "Father, if mother has nothing else, I want to go back to the room. As for the dinner party, you go." Bending down and saluting, she Withdraw from the picture of their harmony and harmony.

"Ai Ai..." The mother's voice sounded slightly behind her.But in the end, she was allowed to go back into the shelter.It's always like this. When she encounters something she doesn't want to face, choosing to escape is the most direct and only way for her.

"What's the matter?" Seeing Asakana's troubled look, Asami Zezhi couldn't help asking.

"Ze Zhi...do you think we are too negligent about Ai Ai?" I kept thinking of the scene I saw that day.Ai Ai's expression at that time was like... no soul.

Asakami Zezhi couldn't help being stunned, he had never thought about this question before.

"Really?" Muttering, Asakami Zezhi looked at the closed door of his little daughter, recalling what happened many years ago, and fell into memory.

Ai Ai is hating, right?Never forgiven.Bitterness spread on her lips, Asakami Weiyi clenched the invitation letter in her hand.

What hate, what jealousy, it doesn't matter.Being so embarrassed, she is now qualified to compete with her sister or anyone for that distant position.It's just that Yui Asakami never knew about it.She will never hate her.

On the desk, the invitation letter illuminated by the moonlight seemed so far away, beyond reach.

Relying on the moonlight, she stretched out her hand to cover her still flat stomach.There is a small thing in this...it is really small, she didn't notice it at first, but it was able to live in such a narrow place for nearly two months.

In the quiet night, the sound of its heartbeat and breathing seemed to be heard by her at this moment.Inexplicably feel at ease, inexplicably feel happy.I never thought that there was a small life growing in my body, and I was gestating it bit by bit.What a wonderful thing that is.It's just, aren't children born with love and full of expectations?She has no way to give her expectations and love.Its father is not a person worthy of being loved, nor is he qualified to love it.

Faced with the choice between the goal and the child, she hesitated and suffered, unable to make the rational choice in the past.

In the end it was that important, she couldn't confirm it even more.

Time is running out, and she has no time to wait for the day when she can think clearly.Is it cruel to kill the child with your own hands...for the purpose, for the fleeting opportunity given by Patriarch Atobe to kill your own flesh and blood...or...to be an ordinary mother?

At the age of 17, it was never the time to think about these questions, but she was sad and had to decide this difficult question prematurely.

Gently rubbing her lower abdomen, her palm seemed to be able to sense the beating life.It seemed to be talking to itself, begging mother not to let it go.

However, she could only say sorry.

She didn't know whether to keep it or not.Because it's just a liability.

Closing her eyes, she decided to have a good night's rest. Whether she escaped or deceived herself, just this night, it was as if she had never seen Ninja Yushi in her life, and never let him stay in her body. next life.

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Children's shoes...you must listen to what Wanzi said...we can't rush...take your time