Do not love me

She was able to say so calmly and rationally that she might be pregnant, this is something Tezuka has always worried about.Is the person who bullies her the one she loves?I can't help but think this way, because I have never heard her talk.Did not hear her complaints.So I can't stop thinking about it.

Thick sourness and inexplicable jealousy hovered in Tezuka's heart for a long time.I don't know who I'm jealous of...

"Is it just ahead?" Yui Asakami's voice rang in his ears, pulling Tezuka back from his thoughts to reality.

Hearing this, Tezuka nodded, and slightly raised his eyes to look at the girl next to him who was quiet again.She's scared right?The fear is really as expected, the fear... I can't go back to the past.But why not tell that boy?Is it because you love that person badly?Or not at all?

Inexplicably, he actually hoped that the boy would not know.

"Is it here?" She stopped suddenly and didn't look back at him.He just looked at the dilapidated hospital in front of him with satisfaction.

Tezuka turned his eyes away from her, frowning and looked at the dilapidated hospital in front of him.This place is very unsafe, right?

"Let's change to another hospital." It was not a consultation, he just wanted to drag her away from this dilapidated and incomplete hospital as soon as possible.

"No, it's good." She was very satisfied, at least it was remote here, although it seemed unsafe, but it didn't matter.She just wanted to check it out.

Her insistence made Tezuka frown, but Yui Asakami didn't give him extra time to think about it.After walking a few steps forward, she turned her head and said to him, "Tezuka-kun, can you wait for me outside?" Of course, she didn't want him to accompany her in.

The frown became tighter and tighter, because she planned to exclude him.

"I'll go with you." Without any unnecessary explanation, he succinctly stated his decision.

"But..." Tezuka still wanted to refute something, but he didn't give her a chance. He walked into the gate first, and finally looked back at her to motion for her to follow.

Looking at the handsome figure, Qianshang Weiai silently clenched her fingers.

Fool, those weird eyes will hurt you.And how could she let him be treated like this?I don't want to owe more.

As a last resort, I followed Tezuka and walked in. There were not many people in the hospital, but people who passed by looked at me one after another.Such young men and women will come to such a remote hospital, who will guess what is going on?

"Tezuka..." Are you going out?These things that don't need you to bear are originally only for me.But before she could finish speaking, Tezuka interrupted her hastily as if she had exposed what she was going to say.

"Cough, I'll help you register, you wait for me here." Embarrassed Tezuka blushed slightly, facing the ambiguous atmosphere around him, he had to cough dryly, trying to resolve his discomfort.

Tezuka's thoughtfulness made Asakami Yui feel relieved but uncomfortable.Nodding stiffly, she could only sit on the chair obediently.

Amidst the discussions, the figure of the smear began to become blurred, and he stretched out his hand to support his stomach in a daze.If there really is a life here... what will she do next?Is it destroyed?Still stay.But in what name?

No one will accept its existence, will they?

So... is it... really going to kill it with your own hands?So cruel.This kind of self is really cruel.Actually came up with such an idea.Regardless of whether it exists by love or not, can't a mother easily snatch its life and death?

What are you thinking?Tezuka, who came back from the registration, had been watching her for a long time.It's always been that expression, and the hand is always in that position.I don't know what happened recently, he always involuntarily guessed her mind.As if afraid of her being hurt a little.

After hearing her say that she may be pregnant and needs to help himself, he often involuntarily worries and pays attention to her affairs.I was afraid that one day she would suddenly faint or something due to physical discomfort.In fact, it is redundant, and he knows all of this.But I still can't help worrying whether she will be sad or heartache?

Both of them were silent, and neither of them spoke to break the silence.She didn't get up mechanically until the nurse's call sounded.

"I'll go with you." Tezuka stopped her as she stepped away.

He thought, she should feel scared, right?No matter how strong a 17-year-old girl is, she will always be afraid when facing such a thing alone.

No more, enough is enough.She smiled back at him.It's really enough, he has done his best for a person who is so strange that he is just an acquaintance.What else do you want?Originally, I was already so selfish, I didn't want to bother him selfishly with such a small matter.What are the qualification requirements for me who has caused him a lot of trouble?

"Thank you...no need. Unless...you want to be its father." She said calmly to the unknown one in her stomach.As if it existed in this life.

Tezuka was silent, not because of what she said 'unless, you want to be its father. ’ but because of her indifference.She said it so indifferently, as if she really wanted it to exist.He didn't like her taking it for granted, it made him think it was because she loved that boy deeply.

Taking advantage of his silence, Qiangami Weiai followed the nurse into the doctor's office.

Let her take care of these things alone.Unveil the final veil with my own hands, whether it is joy or sorrow.After all, you have to bear it yourself, why bother to make trouble for others.

After a long time, after waiting for a long time, a rare crack appeared on Tezuka's face.He didn't know what was going on, and was eager to reveal the answer.Want to know if it's sadness or joy?If the guess is correct... what should she do as a girl?

Forgive him for being so unfounded, things like that will be revealed soon.God didn't give her a chance to prepare, everything was so sudden, how could she accept such darkness?

"Tezuka-kun, let's go." After a long time, her faint and soft voice finally sounded above her head.

finished?He raised his head suddenly, wanting to ask clearly.But her eyes were so misty that she couldn't see a trace of focus.Now she must not want to be questioned, right?Her expression had already told him the answer.don't ask.Just wait until she wants to say it.

There was unanimous silence until they left the hospital gate.

The moment he stepped out of the hospital, the silent air suddenly became cloudy.Looking up, the road we came from has not changed.But her life changed completely because of it.There are too many things, she should be mentally prepared to accept them.

Her eye sockets were full of soreness, she closed her eyes, she really didn't have the courage to pretend anymore, and she didn't have the ability to restrain those tears anymore.

Tears slowly rolled down her face as she closed her eyes... Her chest hurt so badly that she couldn't breathe... She had no strength left, no strength to support her body, even the strength to lift her feet was taken away.

Weeping wantonly, she squatted on the ground clutching her chest.

God, are you being unfair?Is it too partial... Why should she spend her whole life to make up for a stupid mistake?

But what's wrong with her?She didn't fall in love with anyone, didn't want to do crazy things for anyone, she just worried about one person.Are you going to be punished like this that doesn't belong to you?

Why?Why use an unnecessary life to be bound?

"Asaka..." Finally pretending not to come?Still crying.

Bending down, he hugged her into his warm embrace.Let her unstoppable tears wet her shirt.

Sobbing, sobbing, as if exhausting all his strength, to vent the grievances accumulated in his body for more than ten years.She beat her heart beating wildly, beat Tezuka's solid chest, because it hurt so much, so she wanted to hurt more, once the pain was over, there would be no more pain.

Tired, taking on all the mistakes that don't belong to me, so tired that I look like a walking dead with cramps.

"Tezuka-kun... Am I too bad in my previous life? That's why I have to... endure this in this life...Because of other people's mistakes, I have to give up more than ten years of hard work, because I have to be hurt because of love that doesn't belong to me. Until death..." Choking hard, wantonly, crying frantically.She...wanted to tell this young man that all the faults were not caused by herself, but she had to bear it herself...wanted to tell this young man that she was innocent, and wanted this young man to know that she was only changed because of the unfairness of God. Such.

"No, you're a good guy. I know that."

He doesn't talk much.But she understood everything.She knew that he said that he was a good person in his previous life, and he knew that she was a good person.

It's just... Tezuka-kun... She also knows that it's just because you are a good person and comfort her.Because, she herself doesn't know whether she has a past life or not, and what the past life was like.

"But God treats me so badly..." The odds are so small, isn't it?When I was not mentally prepared, just when I was trying to achieve some results...Suddenly, an unannounced person appeared.ruin her life.

Is it too surly?God had been rough with her, and she had to accept it.

Her chin rested on Tezuka's shoulder, tears were already soaking her face, she finally stopped being agitated and became too quiet.Like a doll that is too quiet to breathe.

"Asami..." Her sudden silence made him panic.

I didn't want to answer, my voice was so hoarse that I couldn't say a word at all.Involvement generally closes eyes.Tears have dried up, and the blood in my heart has dried up.The wound seemed to stand still and congeal.It doesn't hurt anymore, but it doesn't heal anymore.

Tezuka was stunned, his heart beating hurriedly.

Hastily confirmed, fortunately, she was just too tired, too tired, and fell asleep.The dark circles under her eyes are still hanging on her face, she must have been suffering from insomnia recently.Tezuka carefully picked up her small body.

On the bus, he took her head that was about to droop down and put it on his shoulder.Such a poor girl, he couldn't bear to see her bump into each other again.

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