extinguish the stars

The sky in winter is often gray, Jiang Qi drove back to the city to pick up Li Ergou, and the dead leaves in front of the car window were floating in the air.In the car mirror, he saw that his eyes were blue.The night before yesterday, he sat in the parking lot of the hospital until dawn, and he was still tossing and turning unable to sleep last night. In fact, he didn't think about anything, but his mind was tangled up.

Just as Jiang Qi got out of the elevator, he ran into a wrapped round little dumpling running towards him and pounced on his lap.

"Uncle~~" Gu Nian was about to go shopping with Aunt Qiao when he met him, obviously very pleasantly surprised.

"Baby?" Jiang Qi bent down and hugged Gu Nian. Children are always warm and trusting to him, which always softens his heart.

Gu Nian looked up at him in his arms, her big eyes fluttering, "Uncle, I haven't seen you for a few days!" The child frowned and complained, "And the dog, didn't you agree to come to my house as a guest? "

Jiang Qi hugged this little dumpling, it was soft and fragrant, it was really cute, "Uncle is busy with work these days."

Gu Nian thought about it seriously, "My father is like this too," the child suddenly became a little unhappy, "I haven't seen my father for a few days..."

There was no change on Jiang Qi's face, but his heart still sank.

"But Dad called just now, and he will be back tonight."

"Are you back tonight?" Jiang Qi was a little surprised. That person was so pale yesterday that he couldn't get out of bed, so he can be discharged from the hospital today?

"Yes, uncle, can you come to my house to play with the dog?" The kid invited him again.

Jiang Qi smiled at him, "Baby, I'm sorry, uncle can't go, because uncle is going to move out soon," he explained to the child gently, "Uncle is going home."

"Are you not coming back?"

"Not coming back."

The child looked at him quietly, no longer the joyful look just now.

When Jiang Qi took Li Ergou out, Gu Nian stood at the door of his house, didn't step forward and didn't speak, just watched quietly, even though Li Ergou jumped towards him happily, he didn't respond.

"Nian Nian," Jiang Qi closed the door, calling his name softly, "Take care of yourself and Dad, goodbye."

The child's eyes made him feel a sudden pain in his heart, he led Li Ergou slowly towards the elevator, when he was about to enter the elevator, he finally turned around and smiled softly, "Baby, goodbye means we will meet again next time. "

It was 01:30 in the afternoon when Gu Qinghan arrived home, he slowed down outside the door, trying to make his condition look better.He is a doctor himself, and he knows that his body should be recuperated in the hospital for a few more days, but Gu Nian called him yesterday, and every time the child said a few words, he would ask when his father would come back. You can also accompany Gu Nian when you come home from sick leave.

Aunt Qiao packed up the dinner plate, just when Gu Qinghan entered the door.Gu Nian was taking a nap, and both of them lowered their voices.

"You still don't look well," Aunt Qiao poured water for him worriedly. "Your child is simply tired. Apart from work, you've been thinking about it all these years. You can't bear it if you keep spinning around every day."

"It's okay, I'm used to it. I feel at ease just looking at Nian Nian." Gu Qinghan took the water glass with a smile, the ulcer in his stomach was actually still hurting, even though he was exhausted, he still couldn't eat anything, even took a sip Hot water will also cause pain before ironing the stomach wall.

After Aunt Qiao returned home, Gu Qinghan walked into the bedroom lightly, and saw the child lying on the fluffy quilt, sleeping soundly.He sat down beside him and rubbed his cold hands to warm them before gently stroking the child's soft cheeks.But the child seemed to have some sad dream, his little brows were frowned, and he hummed a few times unconsciously.

"Niannian..." Gu Qinghan called him in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

The child opened his eyes in a daze, and saw that the father he missed was actually in front of him, "Dad!" He shouted in surprise, got up and threw himself into Gu Qinghan's arms.

After all, Gu Qinghan was sick and weak, so Xiaotuanzi jumped on him like this, and almost fell on his back on the floor while holding him.

"Father... I miss you so much..." The kid who was still smiling just now felt aggrieved, and rubbed his little face into Gu Qinghan's pale and slender neck.

Gu Qinghan's heart softened, he gently stroked Gu Nian's back, giving the child a sense of security, "Daddy knows, and Daddy misses him too."

After all, Gu Nian is a very small baby, he relies on Gu Qinghan infinitely, trusts Gu Qinghan wholeheartedly.He is also very well-behaved, and gave Gu Qinghan all his love as a child.As for Gu Qinghan, who has lived up to now, he is actually a lonely person in this world, and his only hope is about to be exhausted.It seems that Gu Nian is relying on him, but in fact he knows very well in his heart that he is more dependent on Gu Nian, because this soft and warm baby makes him feel less hopeless and difficult.The two of them are two people who hug each other to keep warm in winter.

In the evening, Gu Qinghan was cooking in the kitchen wearing an apron, while Gu Nian was watching cartoons on the sofa with a baby bottle in his arms.Gu Qinghan was peeling potatoes when he suddenly heard a sigh behind him.He turned around and saw Gu Nian standing at the door holding a baby bottle, frowning like a little adult.

"What's the matter?" Gu Qinghan asked dumbfounded.

"Father, I will be very sad if you don't come home today." Gu Nian replied.

"Then you will be very happy when Dad comes back."

"No," Gu Nian shook his head, "It's not that sad anymore."

Gu Qinghan was a little surprised at the child's language expression ability, "Why?"

"Because uncle is gone, so is the dog," Gu Nian said aggrievedly, "Dad, uncle said he won't come back, why? I like uncle very much..."

With a flick of Gu Qinghan's wrist, the blade slashed across the index finger holding the potato, and there was a sharp pain immediately.

"Maybe there are people and things that my uncle doesn't like here," Gu Qinghan said in a low voice, and he calmly washed the bleeding wound clean without letting Gu Nian find out, "It's like Nian Nian thinks that the grandfather downstairs is a bit fierce, So every time I meet, I want to avoid the same thing.”

"...Grandpa is not fierce," Gu Nian didn't notice Gu Qinghan's tone suddenly dropped, "Grandpa gave me candy back last time."

"Father, is there someone who is cruel to uncle?" He asked again.

Gu Qinghan pulled a tissue and pressed it on the painful wound, smiled at Gu Nian, "Someone made uncle angry, and felt disgusted."

The child shook his head suspiciously, not quite understanding what Gu Qinghan said.

In the middle of the night, Gu Nian hugged his arm and slept soundly, but Gu Qinghan did not fall asleep from the beginning to the end.His consciousness is very clear.

He looked sideways out of the window, and there was no starlight on the hazy night sky. It seemed that something was pressing down darkly, causing his chest to feel tight and painful, and it was difficult to breathe.

Stomach pain is always due to emotional ups and downs, Gu Qinghan gently pulled out the arm that Gu Nian was holding, and pressed the sore spot impatiently.He may be really sad, even the pain is so sharp and turbulent, but after a while, he is covered in cold sweat.

Gu Qinghan stumbled out of bed, closed the door and hid in the bathroom, knelt down on the floor, the organs under his hands twitched and twitched into a hard ball, it was convulsions.He groaned in pain, and fearing to frighten Gu Nian in his drowsiness, he trembled all over, almost fainting.

But the pain in his heart seemed to make him more sad than the physical pain.Unspeakable, difficult to reveal, engulfing him into the dark abyss of hopelessness.