red dust under the lamp

After Xie Yichen fell asleep, Ms. Xie called Ning Jue out.She stayed at home late into the night after a long absence, and the light beside the bed was a layer of dark yellow mist, illuminating two people with ulterior motives——Ning Jue came out, and fearlessly greeted the next questioning.

For example, when you come back now, what are your plans for our family?

For example, when you wanted to leave, did you use me to leave the orphanage?

Ning Jue imagined three thousand questions, and Ms. Xie only asked one: "We are also destined. You didn't come before, and now you are at my house. You have suffered a lot these years, right?"

One question is more powerful than a thousand.Moreover, this is not a problem.

Ning Jue crossed her arms and smiled pleasingly with lowered eyebrows: "It's okay, it's okay."

In fact, I want to say that I have suffered a lot, but this is all self-inflicted, and I can't say it in front of Ms. Xie.If she missed it, she admitted it, and had to put on a calm face, making up lies in her mind, waiting to perfunctory Ms. Xie.

She knew that Ms. Xie recognized her without any warning, even so - she still chose to volunteer to stay beside Xie Yichen.

She had guessed countless times about her reaction after being recognized by Ms. Xie—at this time, her body made a decision one step ahead of her brain. Xie Yichen blurted out his choice.

This option is 700 yuan from Tuxie's house?Or to take care of Xie Yichen's friendship?Or was it influenced by Ms. Xie?

Ning Jue couldn't tell the difference, so he had no choice but to accept his fate, suppress his reason, and act according to his instinct like a beast.

"What a coincidence, I didn't expect you to become our family's benefactor later."

"I happened to pass by too." Ning Jue perfunctory.

Suddenly the topic couldn't be opened, Ning Jue knew how to block a paragraph, but she was too young after all, Ms. Xie ticked it lightly, and the topic started again: "I said I saw you familiar when I was in Pingdu, are you Didn't you recognize me a long time ago, and dare not recognize me?"

"Nothing, it's just a coincidence, and I just want to see it too. You chose me before, and I don't know how to repay you. I was ungrateful once, and this time I was taken care of by you again..." Ning Jue slightly skipped the point , in front of her elders, she showed a shy and weak look, not as fierce as others.She put on a lady's painted skin in front of Ms. Xie, regardless of whether Ms. Xie knew what she was.

She was always ending the topic, as if she was playing badminton with the intention of smashing, but Ms. Xie still gave a light hook, and then threw the feather of the topic up, so that the two faced each other.

"To put it too politely, I am also very happy that you can come again. At that time, Xie Yichen wanted a younger sister..."

This is nonsense, Ning Jue could tell, but he just kept his gentle smile.

"...Now you come to my house again, for the 700 yuan salary, which is what you should get. Needless to say, you just treat this place as your own home."

"Thank you so much, how can I do it, I'm like..."

"Your kind? What kind are you?" Ms. Xie smiled, intending to continue the admonition of her elders.

Ning Jue suddenly picked up the quarrel: "I, I am not a good person. When I left, I knew what kind of person I was. The teachers are right, I have bad conduct... Can you give me 700 yuan when I was in Pingdu? One month, I also know that this is too much, I owe you. You don't need to say anything else, I was wrong when I left."

The sudden self-confession was unexpected. After Ning Jue finished speaking, her chest twitched, realizing that she had said the wrong thing.

Ms. Xie paused, and the smile on her face became very clear: "There's nothing wrong, I think you have a personality, but I didn't expect you to have such a personality. It caused a lot of trouble at that time...but it doesn't matter. I'll kill you this time Things...it's too hard to say, I can't think of so many things that would have happened if you hadn't left...where do you live now?"

Ning Jue was honest, confessed about Xu Liwen, confessed himself, and had all the addresses, motives and actions.

Ms. Xie supported her shoulders, kind and gentle. Ning Jue's whole body was stiff, as if a triangle was supported between the bones, allowing her to stand firmly enough without moving, and the various scenes in her mind were ever-changing.

Ms. Xie coaxed her to push her into the guest bedroom. She stayed here for the first time. She opened her eyes and heard what Aunt Shu and Ms. Xie said. Ms. Xie slept for a few hours and went out in the morning light. Jue's heartbeat was palpitated by the slight sound, and she opened her eyes to watch Ms. Xie drive away from the window——

She was hired without any demands.

Ning Jue was in a peaceful mood when he was cleaning the garbage with a broom on the street, so much so that he didn’t get angry when he saw the hangover drunkards kicking the cardboard boxes in groups on the ground, watching a group of people crooked. After walking away, the broom smoothed the wrinkles in her heart, and the sprinkler came rumblingly. She avoided the roadside and squatted by the flower bed. After the day's work was over, she changed her clothes and went to a department store. A few pure black elastic threads were stretched with the arms to test the elasticity, rolled together and stretched as they walked.

Xie Yichen asked about the purpose of these things, and Ning Jue said: "Now it is not impossible to make you a pair of alloy skeletons, aluminum is fine, once you take down the old umbrella, the skeleton can urge you to move - but you stand Unsteady, so I thought of a stupid way to let you walk around, and it’s also very humane, and if you get angry, you will suddenly have strength under your feet, it’s the same as that time, isn’t it better?”

She was talking with a smile, but Xie Yichen became more sensitive: "Why am I angry? What are you going to do?"

"How do I know when you are angry?" Ning Jue pretended to be relaxed, and suddenly took out her lady's painted skin and put it on, but it looked harmless to humans and animals, which made Xie Yichen feel more and more that Ning Jue's street habits had emerged , lowered his face slightly to show his majesty.

"Please don't do things that make me angry."

"If I get angry even when I stand up, then I can't help it." Ning Jue cut the long elastic thread into several pieces with scissors, gestured on his arms and legs, then turned to look at Xie Yichen, as if thinking think.

Xie Yichen was a little angry at this moment: "Are you going to tie me up?"

"Yes, I can't think of any other way. You have already been handed over to me." Ning Jue's speech seemed to be a villain. It knocked her down like turning a valve.

"How tall are you?" Ning Jue measured her height with an elastic thread, and Xie Yichen said helplessly that it was about 1.6 meters four, with an error of about three or four centimeters. She should be a little taller. This is very early data.

"It's very tall, it's a bit difficult...I'll think about it again." Ning Jue measured herself with an elastic thread and found four and a half. She was a little shorter.

Seeing her busy, Xie Yichen inexplicably understood her thoughts: "You don't mean to tie me up with you, do you?"

Elastic threads were scattered all over the floor, Ning Jue rubbed her face and nodded.

"How did it work?"

"The stupid way is also the way-look at you now, you get up in the morning to get a massage, go to acupuncture from time to time, and go out for a walk every day, think about it carefully anyway, you don't expect any of them to be useful, why do I tie you and me together? Can't do it? I'm still tired."

Although Ning Jue said so, his smile was sincere, and he wanted to convince Xie Yichen.

Xie Yichen's wheelchair was pulled to his side, Xie Yichen moved himself up, reached for the elastic thread in her hand with great difficulty, took it for a closer look, and looked at Ning Jue: "Then you tied me up and moved with me? You will fall yourself."

"It's just over half an hour. I've seen other people rebuild and walk by themselves. Since you don't have any intuition, I'll take you for a walk, just in case." Ning Jue answered the wrong question, thought for a while, Still got up, holding the elastic thread to be tied together in his hand, Xie Yichen shook his head: "Don't even think about it, if you do, I have to step on your feet."

"What? You still want to step on me? No, I thought about it. Did you see the parallel bars in the park? I tied you and me back to back, and tied a safety rope to the parallel bars so that I could stand firmly and not hinder You, I'm going backwards, you keep your balance as much as possible - the safety rope has to be bought separately, if there is no other way for the time being, you can try it."

"It's too strange." Xie Yichen said.

"What's weird, the posture is a bit ugly. You see dogs on the street mating with dogs, and the posture is even more ugly. I didn't see them and thought it was strange." Ning Jue smiled softly, as if a little mocking , but seeing her expression was not there, she was always contradictory, Xie Yichen felt even more strange when he was said, and shook his head.

"It doesn't matter, it's not really shameful to go to the parallel bars below. I also have a table and cabinet at home, so it's good to be able to stabilize it a little... In fact, the most suitable one is this copper leopard, which is heavy and big, and the other side is tied to the door. You walk up and down the porch, very safe."

Xie Yichen paused for a while, then smiled bitterly: "It's better than amputation, I believe in your solution."

"Why do you trust me? I'm just messing around with a salary of 700 yuan." Ning Jue smiled more sincerely this time. Speaking of it, "Your aunt seems to recognize me, what should I do?"

"Did she say anything?" Xie Yichen's expression was still calm.

"I didn't say anything, just asked me if I was doing well..." After Ning Jue finished speaking, she suddenly realized that she seemed to be fighting for favor, showing off or provoking, so naive as to die, she smiled self-deprecatingly and shook her head. He supported Xie Yichen's soft and somewhat cold legs and pressed them a few times.

But Xie Yichen brushed off her hand, and pressed his right hand on top of her head: "It would be fine if you didn't leave...she wouldn't be so sad."

"what?"

"There is no hope for a lifetime, and I am not her child, no matter how far away I am. She wants to have a child of her own—even if she doesn't dance, it will be better than now."

What Xie Yichen said seemed to be sour, but from the look on his face, he was determined and sincere. Xie Yichen thought about the future for his aunt from the bottom of his heart, and then it seemed that Ning Jue really seemed to be a regretful aunt. Daughter, took out her elder sister's posture and stroked it again, then shook her head, thinking of something: "Do you remember your mother?"

Ning Jue was still in a daze, but Xie Yichen lowered his eyes: "I remember, I have been thinking about her, although our life is very ordinary—"

She suddenly straightened her back, as if a nameless fire suddenly burst into her heart, the flames scorched her shoulder blades, like a leopard hunting, the wheelchair couldn't support her emotions, and she groaned/groaned, she was eager to explain something, Zhang When he opened his mouth, his eyes jumped out to rebut first, and his mouth finally caught up with the team, slowly, calmly, and unquestionably ridiculed himself: "I am a money-seeking thing... I have been with my aunt for a long time, and after a long time , I even forgot what my mother looked like. When I was dancing, I always thought that my aunt must have entrusted some kind of spirit to the girl she was going to adopt... I kept hypnotizing myself and pretending that I was my aunt's daughter! "

"I am a dependent... an outsider! I have always regretted it, I have always... always thought, if only I hadn't been adopted by my aunt, then she would adopt you, and my aunt would devote herself to nurturing you... You go to dance, or do something Other things are fine, I... in the village, at this age, I should have been betrothed by an adult, and then - I am still me, I am not Xie Yichen... But now I have forgotten what my original surname is... I will return If you don't go, my aunt has no hope, and even you are rejected by me—"

She clenched the armrest in vain, sighed with a dull expression, and when she was about to say something more, Ning Jue suddenly yawned.

Xie Yichen froze, suddenly felt the embarrassment of having his mind cut open.

Ning Jue sat on the ground with her knees hugged, braided the elastic ropes together, lowered her head, her hair was scattered on her shoulders, she bowed her head and weaved for a long time before raising her head: "Huh? Are you finished?"

Xie Yichen had already turned his back, and the wheelchair moved towards the door little by little like an old man walking slowly.

"Why did you start thinking about this? Is it sick? Don't you only think about dancing? Why have you started thinking about your mother recently? I want to too, but my mother has been seducing men from morning to night, and I also I haven't seen her for a few times, and I have forgotten what she looks like, and I don't know how to answer your words. I don't think it has anything to do with it? You just can't dance. It has nothing to do with whether you are at your aunt's house. I don't even have a home. , No, I still live more actively than you. Dancing in Pingdu, in Haijing, it’s the same everywhere. You dance with the white lady, not Lin Daiyu.

Ning Jue seemed to be very troubled. She leaned on her knee and looked in Xie Yichen's direction for a while, ruminated on her own words, was amused by herself, and laughed a few times.

"If you continue to doubt like this, I think I'm the white lady. Isn't your white lady the one who only wants to become a fairy? I only want to be a bitch. What does it matter where I live and who I hang out with? "Ning Jue was joking, but it was very rare for Xie Yichen to explain it sincerely.

Xie Yichen was shocked, and turned to look at Ning Jue.

On the blurred image of the White Lady, she suddenly stood side by side with Ning Jue. Over the years, they suddenly became pale, with blurred boundaries. From a distance, they looked like fakes of the White Lady.

Xie Yichen's paleness was covered with a layer of rosy powder, and she suddenly came alive, and suddenly saw the door with all the mysteries that she had seen in her childhood open towards her, and she once again glimpsed the secrets of the sky, the immortals on the top of the cloud, and the wind was like The car was like a horse, and she suddenly came alive, as if leaving the wheelchair and walking among the clouds, the look in her eyes brightened and brightened.

"You know my white lady?"

"What is there to understand? A person is alive and becomes a fairy—" Ning Jue suddenly paused, and she saw Xie Yichen staggering towards her with a radiant expression while holding his wheelchair halfway——

Then slowly let go of the handrail and took the first step.

The trembling left foot stretched out. On that foot was wearing pale pink cotton slippers, white fluffy socks, and sky blue pajama pants with well-proportioned lace. It was close-up and slowed down in Ning Jue's eyes.

She gasped, almost forgot to breathe, and watched the miracle appear before her eyes again—this space, at this moment, a serene and peaceful atmosphere that Ning Jue had never felt before was like a palace that enveloped her. Worship miracles here, worship fate, and kneel under some rare obsession.

Just because she understands the white lady?She understands the bastard white lady, there are so many images of white lady in the world, how can she understand it by talking nonsense?Why did Xie Yichen stand up?For what?What in the brain is wired to the nerves in the spine?Connected the muscles of the two legs?It's hard to describe in words, hard to express with body, at this moment, she can only keep as still as she can, looking at Xie Yichen with trepidation.

Xie Yichen in front of Ning Jue became a mess of unsolvable questions.

Xie Yichen bent over slightly, her legs could not support her body, so she still took the second step.

The right foot moved with difficulty on the ground, and the friction force seemed to become infinite.

She seemed to be unable to lift it up, but she seemed to be lifting it with great force. It seemed extremely heavy on the ground, and she moved it with difficulty——

When Aunt Shu came back from the vegetable market, the key was inserted into the lock cylinder, and there was a rattling sound on the key chain.

Xie Yichen seemed to be startled, his legs trembled violently, as if he could no longer exert any strength to maintain a standing posture.

She fell down and landed on Ning Jue.

The divine and quiet atmosphere shattered, Xie Yichen trembled, staring at his legs, as if they were grafted from a distance, extremely strange.

Ning Jue reached for the phone, Xie Yichen shook his head suddenly: "Don't tell Auntie, I... I don't know how to stand up."

"It's very simple, because of me." Ning Jue pointed to herself.

Xie Yichen was stunned for a moment: "What... what?"

"I'm here, you can stand up, so even if I walk around with you on my back every day, it's more useful than others." Ning Jue picked up the elastic rope again, Xie Yichen didn't know what expression to make, so he could only calm down Smiling quietly, lowering his eyes: "Ning Jue."

"Ok?"

"Do you want to learn to dance?"

"Is it because I understand White Lady? Then why don't you let the writer who wrote the comment jump?" Ning Jue uttered malicious words again, but her voice became weaker, as if she was getting along with Ms. Xie, wearing a lady's dress mask.

Xie Yichen moved his fingers from his shoulders to between his eyebrows, put his cold fingers between Ning Jue's eyebrows, and probed the facial features with his fingertips. Ning Jue closed his eyes, and avoided her fingers with his head shaking slightly.

"You are like her." He concluded.

Ning Jue hummed, but before he could react, he picked up Xie Yichen and put him on the wheelchair, and greeted Aunt Shu.

Only then did he pick up the conversation: "Who is it like? The white lady? Have you seen her?"

"I've seen her, I've seen her in the mirror..."

These words are a bit narcissistic, as if there is no one in the world who is qualified except her, Xie Yichen, the white lady in her mind.But these words really hit Ning Jue's lungs, making her dazzled for a while.

She imagined the atmosphere of Xie Yichen standing in the mirror and communicating with her character, like a bystander watching a grand performance of herself.She didn't think it was ridiculous, she gradually agreed, and thought for a while: "How can you use me as your substitute? Just because you think I understand your white lady? No, I must say that I am Xu Xian? Everyone You have a long mouth, why don't you just say it casually?"

"It's not a substitute, it's the White Lady, or the White Lady—the only one!" Xie Yichen eagerly grabbed her cuff, almost pulling the collar of the clothes down.

"Oh, but I'm eighteen, how can I dance? My bones are hardened, and I worry about other things every day. I'm not as passionate as you. How can I have time? Then I will treat this as a pastime, You don't know what to think, I'm not you, I have thousands of white ladies in my heart, which is different from yours."

Ning Jue firmly refused, pinching Xie Yichen's thoughts to nothing.