you may never have loved me

Time and space seemed to be stagnant for no reason, and the two were speechless.

Qu Lingxi seemed to see some pity for him on her boyfriend's face.He thought, although he had expected it long ago, it would hurt someone if it really came out of Gu Shen's mouth.

Qu Lingxi patted away Gu Shen's hand caressing his face, his long and straight eyelashes drooped like a crow's feathers, he pressed his white lips tightly, turned his face to one side, and his too long forehead The hair fell down disobediently, covering his beautiful eyebrows and eyes.

Gu Shen let go of his hand and put it behind his back.Relaxed, but aware of the deep sadness on Qu Lingxi's body, the unbearable emotions spread wantonly.

He clenched his fist again.

Gu Shen walked into the bedroom, and arranged Qu Lingxi's clothes and personal items in front of Qu Lingxi.Qu Lingxi didn't know what to think, just sat outside the door and watched him tidy up, a pair of big and charming peach blossom eyes fell on Gu Shen's face, nothingness without focus.

Qu Lingxi looked at him like looking at a hopeless iceberg, moved his lips, and muttered to himself: "Did you really never like me?"

Qu Lingxi was talking to herself, but Gu Shen answered.

He turned his head and glanced at Qu Lingxi expressionlessly, ignoring the complicated emotions in his heart, "Well, never."

Qu Lingxi was not reconciled, his eyes were empty, but he continued to ask: "When I kissed you, didn't you? When I hugged you, didn't you? And when we made/loved together, didn't you...?"

After speaking, his voice became weaker and weaker.

Gu Shen probably felt that Qu Lingxi's questions were too unpleasant to listen to, so he didn't reply immediately, but sorted them out quietly for a while.When he was going to the bathroom to collect his toiletries, Qu Lingxi suddenly grabbed his cuff.

It was the cuffs, he didn't dare to pull Gu Shen's hand, for fear of being torn apart by Gu Shen.

Gu Shen looked down at Qu Lingxi.

Qu Lingxi was unbearably looked at, and he lowered his head in low self-esteem.He never thought that he would be so shameless, for the sake of a man, he would abandon his self-esteem and fawn over him like a dog, and this man has said again and again that he has no love, no story, and no desire to continue.

Gu Shen still looked at Qu Lingxi intently.

The man is too handsome, with a sense of Su, he seems to fall in love with a dog when he looks at it.Qu Lingxi thinks that this is how her mind was deluded.

Qu Lingxi, who was looked at so cherishingly, lowered her head a little shyly.

Gu Shen continued the previous question, but the answer was different: "Yes."

Qu Lingxi raised her head and looked at Gu Shen eagerly, expecting the other party to say something nice.Unexpectedly, Gu Shen stabbed him in the heart again, Gu Shen said with almost cruel words: "You know, when a man is in bed, he will have an illusion similar to love."

"cherish, you're a great bedmate."

Qu Lingxi stared at him dumbfounded, the glass in her hand fell to the ground for no reason, and the glass shattered into pieces, as if it could cut through Qu Lingxi's tender feet at any time.

Gu Shen is not such a scumbag now.He hurriedly pressed Qu Lingxi, and said in a deep voice, "Don't move, I'll clean it up."

He quickly cleaned up the broken glass and repacked his luggage.Gu Shen didn't have a lot of luggage, and he didn't take any of the clothes that Qu Lingxi gave him, he only brought his own poor clothes and some daily necessities.

Qu Lingxi watched him do this, and the sparkle in his eyes slowly faded, "Actually, you can take these clothes away. I can't wear the size, do you want me to look hurt at the scene?"

Gu Shen froze his hands while arranging his luggage, and said without emotion: "I still took good care of those, and only wore one or two. You can sell them, or..."

Gu Shen paused, and said lightly: "Give it to your new boyfriend again."

Qu Lingxi was quite calm at first, but when he heard Gu Shen's words, he completely collapsed.This is really a symbol of never having loved him, and even helped him think about the next one.

Without even thinking about it, Qu Lingxi threw an ornament on him, and said hysterically: "I don't have a boyfriend! What a shitty boyfriend! I've only had you from before to now. Others don't know, don't you, a bitch, know?! "

Gu Shen snorted and looked down.It was the gift box that Qu Lingxi gave him the watch in the first place.The watch is with him, and the gift box is with Qu Lingxi.

Gu Shen stood up, he was too tall, too like a oppressive black cloud, covering the light above Qu Lingxi's head.

On his left is the packed suitcase. For a whole year, the thickness of the suitcase is only [-] inches. The time of the year has been ruthlessly compressed here, and Qu Lingxi is ridiculed all the time. It seems that there is only one person in this love affair. , seriously from beginning to end.

Some people are passers-by after all.They said they lived together, but when they first came here, they didn't even bring much personal stuff.Come unencumbered and leave unencumbered.It didn't even take more than half an hour to pack all the luggage. It was really well-intentioned and prepared for a rainy day.

It seems that Gu Shen didn't plan to stay with him for a long time.

Qu Ling thought to herself.

Gu Shen took two steps, opened the door, "I'm leaving."

Qu Lingxi did not respond.

Gu took a deep breath and opened the door of the apartment. Qu Lingxi suddenly turned her back and said, "Where is the watch I gave you? Why don't you return it to me?"

Gu Shen said, "Whatever is given to me is mine."

Everything was returned to him, except for this watch, just like when Gu Shen knew that Gu's mother urgently needed the operation fee, he didn't pawn it.Because I can't bear it.

That line is "Cherish".Gu Shen thought about it, and kept this one and only thought, and waited until his twilight years, when he was lonely in this life, with only this watch and lettering to accompany him, this life was not in vain.I hope Cherish can return to the country that belongs to him at that time, with a group of children and three generations under one roof.

Qu Lingxi laughed so hard that tears came out: "I gave you the clothes too? Why didn't you stay? You're not too poor. That watch is worth a lot, so I want to keep it for myself."

Gu Shen tightened his hand holding the doorknob, and gradually twisted out his ferocious veins.

He wanted to loudly defend Qu Lingxi, but he didn't, he wanted to cherish it.

After all, I didn't have the courage to speak back.

Gu Shen just turned his head, with an indifferent expression on his face, he said flatly: "If you're going to think that way, then think about it."

The light in Qu Lingxi's eyes was completely extinguished.

His flower-like appearance suddenly turned a little bleak, he picked up any articles on the bedding, and threw them on Gu Shen as if venting his anger.

He cried, "Gu Shen, give it back to me...give it back to me..."

Accompanied by the sound of closing the door coldly.

Qu Lingxi's voice weakened, and the crying was accompanied by hiccups.Give it back, give it back.This is Qu Lingxi's constant yelling, but what will be given to him?

that watch?

of course not.

At the moment when Qu Lingxi cried and passed out, she finally understood that what he really wanted to ask Gu Shen was just a childish heart that he temporarily kept with Gu Shen.

Once, innocent and intact, she was entrusted to Gu Shen, but she was easily rejected by the other party.

Qu Lingxi cried all night. What he didn't know was that his ex-boyfriend was also sitting at the cold door with his back against his apartment, and sat quietly all night.After he fell asleep, Gu Shen wrapped his scarf tightly, pulled the suitcase and left here alone in the deep dew.

Within a month after the breakup, eat, sleep, and go to class.

From outsiders' point of view, Qu Lingxi's state is as usual, and nothing has changed.Only he himself knows that the emotion of happiness seems to never come back.

From time to time, he let go of his mind, and from time to time he was sad and couldn't restrain himself. Whenever someone asked him if he was not feeling well, Qu Lingxi just smiled and didn't speak.

On the other hand, Gu Shen's life was not satisfactory.

He rejected the chaebol's daughter's confession, and was locked up by his father for more than a month.Deprive him of his mobile phone, freeze his bank card number, and the scope of control is only within the mansion.

Gu Shen didn't expect that this lady would confess his love to him, all he did was help her carry her bag, drive her car, etc. as an attendant and driver.The chaebol's daughter wanted to talk to him, but Gu Shen just changed the subject lightly, and the two ended the conversation stiffly.

That day, after shopping in the street, Qianjin found a private house shop to rest.

She pretended to be unintentional and said: "Gu, why don't we be together. I like you very much. And you also want to stand firmly in T's position. Why don't we cooperate? What do you think?"

She thought it was a guaranteed deal, but Gu Shen quickly rejected him.

Gu Shen kept a distance from her: "I think we are just a business cooperation relationship."

This was a question the old man asked him, saying that if he wanted to join the company and raise a steady stream of treatment funds for Gu's mother, he had to prove his worth first.

The cooperation with the L chaebol is about to be completed, but the other party's little princess suddenly wants to come to B from country A to have fun and enjoy the cultural style of country B.

Qianjin smiled: "Is it because of your little girlfriend? I found out when I went shopping a few days ago. You don't leave your mobile phone. I don't see you looking at your mobile phone so often these two days. You must have disappointed your little girlfriend. It's okay. , whose family is not a lover and a wife running at both ends. What's more, things like feelings can't be done seriously, and you will regret it because you rejected me today. "

Gu Shen said calmly, "I can't agree to you because I'm gay by nature and don't respond to women."

Qianjin: "..."

Qian Jin didn't expect this reason at all, her face turned blue and purple, and finally poured a cup of cold coffee on top of Gu Shen's head, she said angrily: "Scumbag."

Then, wearing high heels, he walked out of the private shop angrily.

Gu Shen stroked his hair back, exposing his handsome and hostile facial features.Seeing this, a young male waiter came over immediately, "May I ask what you need?"

Gu Shen said, "Give me a tissue, thank you."

The waiter hastily handed him some tissues.

Gu Shen wiped the coffee stains on his face.The waiter hesitated to speak several times, but finally couldn't help but said: "Sir, I heard it a long time ago. That lady is discriminated against by her sexual orientation. It is normal for her to be rejected when she confesses. What is wrong with homosexuality? You are really innocent. "

Gu Shen left a generous tip on the table.

Looking at the scenery outside the window, he smiled and said, "That's not true, this is my retribution."

When Gu Shen felt that these were retributions again, it was at her mother's funeral.

At that time, he had not contacted Qu Lingxi for three full months.He didn't know if Qu Lingxi was doing well, but he was very bad.When Gu's mother was in the late stage of the hospital bed, she suffered from physical pain to emotional anxiety, tormenting the nurses, doctors, and his son around her all the time.

The woman's originally well-maintained face has long been eroded by the disease, leaving only a hollow frame, which is terrifying to anyone.

Gu's mother's favorite lily is placed in front of her tombstone. The photo shows Gu's mother's appearance, the girl's smile is like a flower, shining brightly.Gu Shen thought to himself, when she was a girl, would she know that she was going to experience such a failure in her life?

Probably do not know.

The old Gu Xinzhi met a scumbag, thinking that it was the destination of his life.

Leaning on crutches, the housekeeper patted Gu Shen's shoulder and sighed: "My condolences."

It rained lightly, and with the wind blowing onto Gu Shen's face, he heard someone crying, the sound of crying was very familiar.Gu Shen stared at the tombstone, unable to see any emotion, "Is he still not coming?"

The housekeeper said apologetically, "Master is busy."

Gu Shen didn't speak.

The butler felt a little helpless, "Master also invested a lot in Miss Gu."

"Yeah." Gu Shen said, "Pancreatic cancer has a poor prognosis. The chemotherapy and gene therapy after the surgery are roughly 1000 million B coins. I am very grateful to him. I will return the money to him."

There was no irony in these words, but the butler felt really guilty when he heard them.

A one-night couple with a hundred days of grace, if they don't recognize it, they will deny it. If it weren't for the destiny, the eldest wife's son was unfortunately killed in a traffic accident, and the whole company lacked an heir. Their master might really love this couple for the rest of his life. Regardless.

Gu Shen held up his umbrella and leaned a little towards the butler, he let out a breath, surrounded by a vast mist.

"Let's go."

The author has something to say: I regret it.Stop scolding Gu Shen, scold me if you want to.cry cry.

There is also Xiaoqu with a different personality from before.Now when he encounters this kind of thing, if he directly steps on his face and says he wants to dump it, it is also my personality to dump you first.