back to innocence

Liang Qing only found out about Fei Yizhen's illness in the morning. He originally wanted to leave Fei Yizhen some time and space to make his own decision after saying those words that day.

Unexpectedly, Fei Yi was really sick.

He skipped work temporarily and came to visit Fei Yizhen. When he arrived at the ward, he happened to see Chen Xueyan going out to buy some breakfast, so he said hello and entered the ward.

In the ward, Fei Yi was really lying down and sleeping, but he was put on an IV early in the morning.Hearing voices, he opened his eyes in a daze, saw Liang Qing, and said, "You're here."

Liang Qing said, "Why are you... sick,"

Fei Yizhen said, "I'm short-tempered, and I can't pass this test in my heart."

Liang Qing was puzzled.

Fei Yizhen smiled with a pale face, and said: "Ah Qing, I've thought about it seriously. The thing before was that you won, and I couldn't watch you get arrested, so I don't need to call the police... Bring it up. Anyway...you win."

Liang Qing said with a gloomy expression: "I don't want to compete with you to win or lose, and I don't... want to force you."

Fei Yizhen continued: "Although I don't plan to call the police, regarding Fan Xiyu's matter... I plan to find another authoritative psychiatrist and give her a new diagnosis."

Liang Qing suddenly raised his head and looked at him with deep eyes.

Fei Yizhen said: "I hope you can tell me which hospital Fan Xiyu went to, but even if you don't tell me, my dad has promised to lend me someone if necessary. But Ah Qing, I hope you can tell me yourself. "

Liang Qing suppressed his anger, and said in a low voice: "Why do you have to be entangled in this matter!? What happened to Fan Xiyu was her own fault. If she didn't provoke me, I wouldn't do anything to her. I just fought back in self-defense That's all."

Fei Yizhen asked: "So, I wanted to ask you a question before, although I haven't been able to find an opportunity. Ah Qing, what did Fan Xiyu do that required you to make such a 'self-defense counterattack'?"

Liang Qing froze for a moment, then turned his head away, as if refusing to answer.

"Ah Ching, I've always been scared. You told me everything when you were young, but since you started acting and doing internships in the company, we spend less time together, and you have changed a lot. You are developing in a good direction, because you have never shown trouble or distress in front of me, I thought it was because you had the guidance of Aunt Xue and the uncles in the company, so you didn't think too much." Fei Yizhen smiled , showing a lonely meaning, "In fact, I was wrong. You didn't tell me because you didn't trust me."

This sentence was really too cruel, Liang Qing immediately opened his mouth to defend: "I don't distrust you!"

"Then, why do you never tell me what's on your mind, never tell me the things that bother you? I don't know what she did about Fan Xiyu, but it must be something that makes you unhappy. .Why didn't you tell me in the first place?"

Liang Qing was silent for a long while before saying, "I just don't want...to make you feel uncomfortable."

"I'm even more uncomfortable now." It's really rare for Fei Yi to speak in such a cold tone, "About what happened before and what may happen in the future—Ah Qing, how does it feel to control other people's fate?"

Liang Qing was taken aback.

"I'm very scared, because Ah Qing, you are heading towards a path that I can't understand at all. You have no worries or worries about letting Fan Xiyu go to a mental hospital, but things like walking in the gaps of legal principles are addictive. I am very Afraid that one day you're going to be a murderer - and I can't stop you because you don't tell me anything."

Liang Qing said dryly, "I will not become a murderer."

Fei Yizhen said, "What else?"

Liang Qing kept silent.

Fei Yizhen said: "You don't plan to say, you won't hide anything from me, right?"

Liang Qing replied, "I don't want to lie to you."

"You lack the most basic trust in me, Ah Qing." Sitting on the hospital bed, Fei Yizhen said with some disappointment, "You don't believe me, you don't believe that I can help you share your troubles and solve problems. I don't know if you are You don’t trust that I will stand in your position and think about you, or you don’t believe that I have the ability to help you share the problem, but in short, you lack trust in me.”

Liang Qing finally stopped keeping silent for a while, and said: "I didn't mean to look down on you, I just think that Yizhen is kind-hearted, and I don't want you to see some messy things and make you feel uncomfortable. Besides, I can handle many things by myself. solved."

Fei Yizhen had a handsome face, and asked in a cold voice: "Do you really think that you have solved the problem? You still feel that you have done nothing wrong, right?"

Liang Qing stared at him sharply, and said darkly, "You still think it's my fault."

Fei Yi really didn't want to quarrel with him, so he stopped talking for a while, and then said: "I remember a long time ago, probably when I was in elementary school, the Chinese teacher told us a story about retribution for grievances. Said There are two farmers living next to each other, one accidentally stepped on the other's crops, the other killed the other's chickens, and the other killed the dog in turn... In the end, it finally became a family that killed the children. Enemy, from now on there will be no balance between generations."

Liang Qing asked disapprovingly, "Then?"

"It was just a grievance between two crops. How did it turn into a feud against the son? Now that I think about it, the person involved probably thought that I was just taking revenge. Ah Qing, you said that Fan Xiyu came to provoke you by herself, but you didn't say that she did it." What, I don't make any more guesses, just ask, is what she did really wrong enough to be so severe that she was sent to a mental hospital for forced isolation when she was mentally normal!?"

Liang Qing was silent.

"Farmers take revenge on each other and kill the neighbor's son, but they think it is revenge, so they don't think they have done anything wrong. But if there is nothing wrong, how can they lose their loved ones because of two crops ?Actually, that is not called revenge, nor is it called excessive self-defense. Because of inappropriate remarks, they were human flesh searched and even humiliated in reality...and finally committed suicide. Killers think they are punishing crimes, and the public thinks they are advocating justice, but can they really represent justice?"

Liang Qing pondered for a long time before saying: "Well, I admit that although Fan Xiyu is annoying, it's not to the point of being unforgivable. So what? I've done everything."

"So, tell me which hospital she's in. I'll help you with the rest."

Liang Qing replied: "No!"

"why?"

Liang Qing said very firmly: "I won't let you see her. Because you don't know how disgusting she is!"

Fei Yi really suppressed his impatience, and said word by word: "I think I've made this matter clear enough. It has nothing to do with her personality, but that she shouldn't be subjected to such a thing at all. treat."

Then Liang Qing suddenly raised the volume, grabbed Fei Yizhen and shouted angrily: "If I say no, I won't! I won't let you spoil her—this kind of girl, even if you try to save her, she won't treat her You are grateful! Don't be stupid!?"

Fei Yizhen grabbed Liang Qing's wrist with his right hand that was not hanging, and said, "I don't need to be grateful either. I just want to undo the damage."

Liang Qing roared: "What do you know!? Why did I spend so much effort? I don't know why you—"

Fei Yizhen stared at him closely, and continued, "For me?"

Liang Qing choked for a moment.

Fei Yizhen asked again: "Is there something about me?"

Liang Qing turned his head and said nothing.

Fei Yizhen asked again forcefully: "Liang Qing, please speak clearly!"

After a while, Liang Qing said, "She knows about us, and she uses this to threaten me to be my girlfriend, otherwise she will tell the story and let the school and everyone know about it."

"Our business... You mean - wait a minute, I don't understand, if she knows, why does she still want to be your girlfriend?" Fei Yi was really confused.

Liang Qing sneered, "That's why I said he was a lunatic - I just wanted her to shut up."

Fei Yi really felt that he could neither understand Fan Xiyu nor Liang Qing: "Then, for this reason, you want to get her into that kind of place?"

Liang Qing replied: "It just happens to prevent future troubles. Anyway, what she says in the future, others will only think that she is talking nonsense and slandering me. Isn't it a very clever way? And I really didn't do anything except scare her outside."

However, Fei Yi's heart seemed to be turned upside down.

Fei Yizhen asked Liang Qing, "Are you afraid?"

Liang Qing didn't understand: "What are you afraid of?"

"The fact that you are with me is known by everyone."

Liang Qing denied it, and said: "...No. I just don't want you to be chased and insulted, or to encounter bad things. Just like this time, you suddenly fell ill, so it has nothing to do with it!?"

Fei Yizhen suddenly replied seriously: "I have never been afraid of being exposed. Probably a long time ago, I have already prepared for it. One day everyone will know about it and do it well. Be prepared to face condemnation and incomprehension from all..."

Liang Qing looked at each other in astonishment.

Fei Yizhen's attitude was not like a joke at all, and he said: "I never thought of hiding this matter for the rest of my life, otherwise I would not agree to be with you—for me, when I decide to be with a man When I fell in love, I was already prepared for all possible storms. After that, I was prepared for everything that I might encounter after I knew my sexual orientation, but it was when you gave me I made up my mind on the day of the ring. I thought you were also prepared, but, Liang Qing, are you really ready to be with me?"

Liang Qing didn't answer.He didn't think that Fei Yi really thought this way, and he really never thought about this issue—although he himself was not afraid of being discovered after all this, but it was true...

……He did not want.

His current company is booming. He thought about living with Fei Yizhen in the future, but he never thought that one day he would be able to make their affairs public.Considering the attack and resistance that the two may encounter is one aspect, if there is a possibility of revealing the truth, Liang Qing has long been prepared to refuse to admit it, otherwise Fei Yizhen will definitely not be able to bear the criticism of public opinion.

However, when he had already made plans for the future, Fei Yizhen said such words.

After Fei Yizhen asked the question, seeing that Liang Qing didn't answer for a long time, he sighed and said, "If you can't bear it, Ah Qing, then let's break up."

Liang Qing was stunned for a moment, and asked, "What did you say!?"

"The impact of this incident obviously puts more pressure on you than I do. After all, you are an actor. But if because of this, you have to hide this incident regardless of everything, even if it hurts others, Liang Qing... I don't want!"

"Just because of Fan Xiyu, you are going to break up with me!?" Liang Qing was very angry.

"It's not for this matter, but I don't want you to commit crimes and hurt others because of our affairs, you know!?" Fei Yizhen grabbed Liang Qing's arm and said through gritted teeth, "What you are doing now seems to be Solved the problem, but in fact it is drinking poison to quench thirst. If someone finds out one day, it will be ruined. Liang Qing, I..." He swallowed the phrase 'reborn back', and only continued, " It's not to see your reputation ruined."

"That's just because you're too fragile!"

Fei Yizhen shook his head and said: "If you want others to know, you have to do nothing about it. In short, I will solve Fan Xiyu's matter. Please think carefully about my words."

Liang Qing said: "I won't think about this kind of thing. Stop making trouble! Who would agree to such a sudden proposal of breaking up?"

Fei Yizhen sighed, and said: "Even if we broke up, I will still be by your side as a friend, until one day you get a girlfriend, or you no longer need to use such means to protect yourself. It’s just that before that, we communicated in the mode of ordinary friends, and didn’t make too intimate moves—this is also for your own good.”

Liang Qing said angrily: "I said it's impossible."

Fei Yizhen didn't speak any more.

Liang Qing shouted: "Fei Yizhen, who cares about you making such a sacrifice!? Wake up, don't make such self-righteous decisions under the banner of my good - I won't do what you want!"

Fei Yizhen gritted his teeth, and after a while, he finally couldn't bear it anymore, reached out and directly pulled out the hanging needle on the back of his hand, then grabbed Liang Qing suddenly, and shouted: "Liang Qing, who is it that thinks it's right and reckless!? You said it was to protect me, but did you discuss it with me before doing such a hurtful and self-harming thing!? This is not your business alone, whether I know it or not, you do it I was already involved in it. What right do you have to be angry!? The person who should be angry is obviously me! You let yourself destroy a girl's future in the name of 'maintaining our relationship', have you ever asked My opinion and thoughts!? I dreamed that you were imprisoned in a prison-like place surrounded by hot lava—do you know how I feel!?”

He was so angry that every time he said a word, he stretched out his fist and punched Liang Qing——Fei Yi is really a weak scholar, his fists are naturally not threatening, but under his anger, his potential exploded, and Liang Qing was beaten. He was stunned and reached out to try to grab his wrist, but he couldn't catch it.

During the scuffle, Fei Yizhen had already pushed Liang Qing to the ground.He was extremely angry, although he still had the rationality to find places on people's bodies that were fleshy and not easy to get hurt, but he was too emotional, and Liang Qing didn't want to hurt him, so he was so entangled that he couldn't get out.

When the nurse walked in following the sound, what she saw was the scene of the two wrestling into a ball.

"So, what exactly happened?" Chen Xueyan stared helplessly at the two little ghosts who had played together since childhood and had hardly blushed.

But Fei Yizhen and Liang Qing turned their heads in one direction with cold faces, and refused to answer this question.

After Fei Yizhen recovered from his illness, he soon got the news of Fan Xiyu's hospital.

No matter how Liang Qing objected, he still left home while the other party was busy, and went to the place where the hospital was.

Fan Xiyu has been in this hospital for almost a week, and her parents only come to visit her once a week.Every time she cried and begged to leave the hospital, her mother comforted her in embarrassment, and then told her to listen to the doctor's words and treat her well so that she could go out as soon as possible.

Even she felt sick.

Fan Xiyu felt very desolate, but she didn't dare to make a fuss anymore - in the last hospital, when she made a fuss for the first time, she was directly suppressed and sedated.The short visiting time that was allowed to meet with his parents was wasted in a coma, and when he woke up, he was alone among the many mental patients.

She curled up on the hospital bed, her tears wet the entire pillow cover, but she didn't dare to whimper, for fear of waking up the other women in the same room.

Although the psychiatric hospital she was in also had single rooms, there were many conditions for living in them.And because of the nature of her admission, she lived with five other women who were at risk of being aggressive but not very aggressive.These women have various ailments and cannot communicate. Most of the time, they are nervous, but they are very fierce and terrifying when they get sick. Therefore, in the ward where they live, the windows are all steel bar protective windows, and the door is made of iron. The door is unlocked with keys inside and outside, and there is no way to get out without a key.

But it is much better than when I was in the last hospital.

When I went to a hospital, a female patient in the same room went crazy because of her husband's affair and her own miscarriage. Fan Xiyu went crazy with her as soon as she appeared, and even came to attack her yelling to avenge her son.One day, Fan Xiyu was in the middle of her sleep and found herself being strangled, while the woman was standing beside her bed with a sinister smile.

She struggled desperately, and the screams alarmed the nurses, and she was finally transferred to the ward.But after that, even through the fence, Fan Xiyu felt that the woman was always spying on her and wanted to kill her.

But even after leaving that hospital, Fan Xiyu felt that he was slowly going crazy.

Her reaction became more and more sluggish, her emotions were in a state of tension for a long time, she always suffered from insomnia, and became suspicious.She gradually became unable to control her emotions, often involuntarily doing things she did not want to do subjectively.

She knew she was going to be driven crazy.

But she has nothing to do.

She thought about committing suicide, but the hospital has done a good job of defense in this regard. As long as the patients can touch it, there are no sharp objects.Even the eating spoons are wooden spoons with smooth edges.And Fan Xiyu himself was a person who cherished his life and was afraid of death, so he didn't dare to choose a more painful way of death.

Fan Xiyu was lying sideways on the bed, tears blurred his entire vision, begging over and over again: Dad, Mom, save me... who will save me...

Perhaps God also heard her cry for help and felt sorry for her. This morning, Fan Xiyu was unexpectedly woken up by a nurse, who told her that someone would come and take her for a complete examination and test to determine her mental state.

Fan Xiyu had never been so full of anticipation for a person's arrival like this. After she was released, she couldn't control her excitement and hurried forward, and then shed tears when she saw the police uniform and the black coat of the boy next to her.

But soon she couldn't even cry.

Because the face of the boy in black is so familiar.

Fan Xiyu involuntarily took a step back, then let out a scream, turned and ran.

Her sudden loss of control made the doctors and nurses a little unresponsive, and then they managed to forcefully suppress and catch her. The policeman said to Fei Yizhen with some embarrassment: "It doesn't look like the situation has improved."

Fei Yizhen sighed, somewhat guessing the reason for Fan Xiyu's sudden madness - probably because he thought he and Liang Qing were in the same group, so he was afraid that they would try to harm her again.

Sure enough, from a distance he heard Fan Xiyu shouting as he struggled: "Don't! Don't! Don't let him come! He'll kill me!"

The male nurse took a lot of effort to restrain her behavior, which made many people complain that Fan Xiyu was really crazy, and it was probably impossible to have any good results. It was a waste of other people's arrangements for her.

Fei Yizhen walked over, persuaded the nurse to let go of Fan Xiyu, and said to her, "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you. We'll check you up and send you home, okay?"

Fan Xiyu raised his head in disbelief.

Fei Yizhen heard her mutter softly, and it was not easy to vaguely distinguish the sentence "Don't believe it, they are in the same group".

Fei Yizhen said: "Really, I have no malicious intentions."

He stretched out his hand, wanting to pat Fan Xiyu's shoulder to appease her fear, but unexpectedly, Fan Xiyu was overly frightened, and suddenly scratched the back of Fei Yizhen's hand with his nails.

Fei Yizhen groaned.

There was a very long blood mark on the back of his hand, and the skin wrinkled and wrinkled, and many blood beads oozed out at once.Fan Xiyu's fingernails had been cut clean, but when her fingers brushed the back of Fei Yizhen's hand, she still left a terrible scar on Fei Yizhen. One can imagine how much effort she had put in.

When Fan Xiyu scratched Fei Yizhen, he let out a scream instead.

She looked at the people around her in horror, including the police, doctors, and nurses, and suddenly hugged her shoulders, lowered her head and began to tremble.

She thought: It's over, I screwed up again!Will I be locked up?I don't want to be sedated!What will he do to me! ?What should I do! ?

But I heard Fei Yizhen say: "I'm fine, don't worry about it."

He stretched out his hand again to pull Fan Xiyu's arm. It took Fan Xiyu a lot of patience to not shake off his hand with all his strength.But even so, the place where the arm was touched through the clothes was still hot and creepy.

Fei Yizhen said in a very gentle voice, "Don't be afraid, don't be nervous, I won't hurt you, I'm here to help you."

Fan Xiyu didn't dare to answer him, but seemed to lower her head, trying to avoid his touch and gaze.