back to innocence

Because Fan Xiyu stood there in shock and refused to move, Fei Yizhen walked over and told her softly about the next inspection and the results that could be achieved.

Fan Xiyu heard from him that if the test result was good, she could be allowed to go home under the guarantee of her guardian, and she only needed to come back for regular checkups, showing an expression of disbelief.

She asked, "Really,"

Fei Yi really affirmed, "Really."

Fan Xiyu wanted to believe it, but he couldn't believe it. Fei Yizhen had no relationship with her, and Liang Qing was the closest person. How could he come to help her for no reason? By the way...he must have known what happened before , What tortured and vicious idea came to harm her!

Thinking of this, Fan Xiyu became anxious and took a few steps back, trying to avoid Fei Yizhen's sight.

She thought: Will he kill me! ?Will he sneak me somewhere and kill me! ?

Seeing that she was so scared, Fei Yizhen suddenly whispered, "I'm sorry on his behalf."

He said these words in a low voice, almost no one heard them except Fan Xiyu.After hearing this, Fan Xiyu showed an expression of disbelief, and then suddenly covered her mouth.

Since her accident, no one felt sorry for her, felt that she was innocent, and felt that she was not wrong.Although she also knew that she had indeed lied, that she had indeed threatened others, and that she had really thought badly, but she had already suffered far more than the punishment she should have suffered for the mistakes she made.

At that time, threatening Liang Qing was just a distraction, she always thought that she was just using Liang Qing to make a scandal, and thought that Liang Qing was really stingy, anyway, it wasn't the first time he had a scandal with someone.She really liked Liang Qing a little bit, so she thought maybe she could lead Liang Qing back to the right path with a little effort.

She knew what she was doing was bad, but she never felt that she was really doing it wrong.People don't kill the world for themselves, who let Liang Qing be caught by her?In fact, she didn't think about whether she really wanted to spread the matter if Liang Qing refused.

But the words that are exported can no longer be taken back.

She has a bad personality and is not kind. She often quarrels with her parents and even says some very harsh words to them.She loves to show off and doesn't like to be considerate of others. She has always been self-centered, so when she finally encountered misfortune, even her parents just lamented how she became like this, and did not believe her innocence.

People live in this world, where is there any right or wrong?After all, this is nothing more than a world of the jungle.No matter what method I used, in short, I climbed up and was the winner.

The first time I tried to squeeze my friend out of the school's evening performance, I can't remember the pride and guilt at that time.But she knew that since then, she felt less and less guilty about doing "wrong" things.

Once a person's bottom line is broken, it will continue to be broken.

There was a girl in my class in high school with a typical "baozi" personality. She would never refuse any requests from others, so many people would take advantage of her or push some troublesome things to her. , she also agreed with a smile, and then did things seriously by herself while others were playing and being lazy.

Fan Xiyu did the same thing, and made fun of her for being a fool.In fact, most of the class secretly laughed at her for being an idiot.

Later, once someone went too far, a girl suddenly appeared in the class to protect the girl and scolded her, and several people also ran out to speak for the girl.

At that time, she felt that those people were too hypocritical.Among those who speak for girls, there are some who once pushed girls to do what they should do, but now they come out to pretend to be good people, which is really disgusting.

A "Madonna", a group of "hypocrites".

At that time, Fan Xiyu was very satisfied with herself.A girl is cowardly, stupid, and not self-reliant, so she deserves to be a loser, but she, Fan Xiyu, never lets herself suffer, so she will be a winner.

But no one has ever told her, what should she do if she becomes a loser one day?

When a girl is being bullied, someone is willing to stand up for her, but when Fan Xiyu is in trouble, no one is willing to extend a hand.

Only then did Fan Xiyu realize that she thought she was the winner, but she was too self-confident.

So when Fan Xiyu heard Fei Yizhen's sorry, tears suddenly fell down uncontrollably.

But are there really such stupid people in this world?

Obviously from the very beginning, she really had bad intentions towards Fei Yi, and even wanted to reveal his sexuality and ruin him—so Fan Xiyu couldn't help but think that maybe the other party didn't know everything.

She comforted herself in such a self-deceiving way, and then followed Fei Yizhen to have a checkup.

During the break in the middle of the inspection, Fan Xiyu asked Fei Yizhen hesitantly: "You know... I'm normal, I'm not crazy at all!"

Fei Yizhen responded vaguely.

Fan Xiyu asked scoldingly: "You know what happened, right!?"

"I probably know everything."

Fan Xiyu grabbed Fei Yizhen's arm very hard, and begged: "You will help me rehabilitate me? You will help me expose that lunatic, right!?"

Fei Yizhen looked at her silently for a while, then lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, but I can't do it."

Fan Xiyu increased his strength to grab him, and asked, "Didn't you come to help me!?"

Fei Yizhen said: "I am replacing Liang Qing to make some remedies for this matter. Because I don't want to cause irreparable damage because of his impulsiveness. He is not a bad person, but he is impulsive and a little ignorant. I hope you can forgive him."

Fan Xiyu screamed: "I forgive him!? Who will forgive me!? Do you know what happened to me!? You are all bastards! Pervert! I hate you!"

Her hand clenched Fei Yizhen's arm tightly, with a lot of strength, and she was extremely emotional.

Fei Yizhen said: "Don't get excited...you will leave a bad impression on the doctor if you are so emotional now."

Fan Xiyu was startled, and she really calmed down a lot, stopped crying and cursing, let go of Fei Yizhen's arms and hugged her shoulders.

Fei Yizhen said: "I know that he has done too much in this matter, and I will try my best to compensate you. But no matter what, please forgive Ah Qing, he is not a bad person."

Fan Xiyu finally understood that Fei Yi really wouldn't expose Liang Qing for herself, and hugged herself in disappointment, thinking that now everything about her is in the hands of the other party, so what if she doesn't want to?So she could only bow her head and answer softly: "Yes."

But, she thought, even if I go out from here, will I still be the same as before?Can I still go to school?Can I still become a household name and a big star?

Do I have a future?

After finishing all the inspections, Fan Xiyu had to wait for a while before reaching a conclusion.Fei Yi really didn't want her to go back to a ward full of mental patients, so he took her to the hotel where they stayed temporarily, accompanied by police officers.

The police officer went to check in, Fei Yizhen took Fan Xiyu to his room first and sat down.

After Fei Yizhen arranged for her to sit down, she went to make tea.Fan Xiyu returned to a normal environment for the first time after a long time, and felt that his arms were trembling excitedly and nervously.

Then she saw the fruit plate on the coffee table...

...and the paring knife above.

She glanced at Fei Yizhen - he was still waiting for the electric teapot to boil, the back of his neck was white and long, with an indescribable beauty.

A thought suddenly popped up in Fan Xiyu's mind.

She remembered the smile Liang Qing showed to Fei Yizhen, and also the expression when Fei Yizhen bowed his head to her and said "he's not a bad guy" - she didn't realize until this moment that for Liang Qing, Fei Yizhen must be a very important existence.

She picked up the fruit knife on the table like a ghost.

She thought: I have no future. Even if I go out, I will become a lunatic in the eyes of others. He is still unwilling to help me rehabilitate... Instead of this, I might as well kill him and let Liang Qing suffer.

She thought: I'm going to kill him!

Holding a fruit knife, she walked up behind Fei Yizhen step by step with bare feet.

Then, holding the handle of the knife with both hands, he raised it up.

As long as this stabbing continues, all the pain, resentment, and unwillingness may disappear.

Fan Xiyu closed his eyes and clenched the handle of the knife with trembling hands.

Time seemed to stand still.

After a while, Fan Xiyu heard Fei Yizhen's voice and said, "Put it down. Aren't you tired from holding it like this?"

Fan Xiyu opened his eyes and hurriedly tried to hide the knife, but Fei Yizhen nimbly took the back of the knife from his hand and put it on the bar next to him.

Fei Yizhen poured hot water, made hot cocoa, dragged Fan Xiyu back to the sofa, and then put the cup in front of her, as if nothing happened, and Fan Xiyu didn't point the knife at him.

Fan Xiyu didn't know what he was doing, so he sat on the sofa in a daze.

She wrung her hands together and explained, "I'm not...I'm not..."

Fei Yizhen smiled reassuringly, and said softly: "I know, you won't stab."

After hearing this, Fan Xiyu cried again, and said, "I hate you! I hate you! I want to kill you! I want to kill you! I...I don't really... want to kill you."

Her emotions were chaotic and her words were inconsistent.

His hot cocoa was brought in front of Fan Xiyu and asked her to hold it in her hand.

After taking a few sips of the hot drink, Fan Xiyu finally calmed down, and his sobbing became much quieter.

Fei Yizhen silently watched her drink the cocoa one sip, swallowed tears, and then gently patted her on the back to soothe her emotions.

After a while, Fan Xiyu asked hoarsely, "Aren't you afraid?"

Fei Yizhen asked: "What did you say just now?"

"I... I might stab it..."

"You won't stab." Fei Yizhen sighed and said, "Because you are not a bad person."

This is the second time he has said the phrase "not a bad guy".

Fan Xiyu asked: "Why!?"

She wasn't even that sure she wouldn't stab herself.

At that moment, maybe it was just because she was afraid of seeing blood and the consequences she would suffer after the stabbing, maybe it was just... because she still had to rely on Fei Yizhen, so she couldn't stab in the end.

Fei Yizhen sighed.

A person will always break his bottom line many times in his life.It is the first time to hurt others for their own benefit; the first time to take the life of others for their own benefit... Many people will easily make the former because of a momentary choice, but most of them may not get out of it in their whole life. This is one step behind.

"Because you're just an ordinary girl." He said, "You and Ah Qing are actually not bad people. You're just too young to understand, so it's inevitable that you did something wrong on the spur of the moment."

Fan Xiyu said: "You are younger than us." Then she said with tears, "But what should I do? Why can he not be punished for doing something wrong, but I have to suffer such a thing!? You tell me ah."

Fei Yizhen lowered his head, did not explain, and only whispered: "I'm sorry."

Fan Xiyu shouted angrily, "What's the use of being sorry!?"

Fei Yizhen said: "I will try my best to make up for you. Help you find a good school..."

"Who cares!?" Fan Xiyu interrupted him, and then she suddenly thought of something and said, "If you don't help me, I'll tell you about your relationship! I really will!"

Fei Yizhen was silent for a while, and then said: "Then you go ahead."

Fan Xiyu was stunned.

Fei Yizhen said: "Actually, even if you tell about this matter, it's empty talk. Ah Qing will be worried and scared, but I won't. I know that you don't have any evidence in hand. Even if you release the news, it will at most provoke some people." Reporters came to catch us. But they couldn't find any useful evidence."

He said with a smile: "Because we are just ordinary friends. I don't have any invisible relationship with him. Rumors are always rumors, and they will always be clarified."

Fan Xiyu looked puzzled, and said in disbelief: "How is it possible? But Liang Qingming—"

Fei Yizhen said: "I don't care what he told you, anyway, this is my attitude." Then he said to Fan Xiyu, "I'll help you arrange the school after the inspection results come out. Not much, except for this city, not many people will pay attention to this matter, and if someone asks about it in the future, they will be beaten to death and refuse to admit that it is me, so it should be possible to fool them."

Fan Xiyu walked around Fei Yizhen for several days before he figured out what Fei Yizhen meant.

What he said clearly meant: No matter what it was like before, from this moment on, he and I will be just ordinary friends. No matter what Fan Xiyu tells others, this will only be the only fact.

If it became like this, Fan Xiyu would be useless no matter what.

Liang Qing soon found out about Fan Xiyu, and he felt very angry, but Fei Yizhen was obviously more angry than him before, so he hesitated for a while, and still didn't go directly to argue with the other party.

He once tried to stop Fan Xiyu's discharge from the hospital, but it was unsuccessful, because Fei Yizhen obviously used some connections, and the discharge procedures were handled in accordance with the formal procedures, making it difficult for Liang Qing to intervene—in other words, his energy It's really not that big.

But after being investigated for a while, Liang Qing didn't know what agreement Fei Yizhen had reached with the other party. Fan Xiyu seemed quite peaceful during the time he was discharged from the hospital, and he didn't try to do anything unusual.

Liang Qing thought for a while, and decided not to take action against Fan Xiyu for the time being, so as not to anger Fei Yizhen again.

After Fan Xiyu was discharged from the hospital, neither Fei Yizhen nor Liang Qing mentioned the previous incident, as if they had returned to the situation before the Fan Xiyu incident.

Naturally, Liang Qing felt much more at ease, feeling that Fei Yizhen was no longer fussing over the previous matters, and soon started to make trouble again.

However, Fei Yizhen directly pressed his hand and said, "Ah Qing, I've said it before, don't do this kind of thing in the future."

Liang Qing was puzzled.

Fei Yizhen said in a low voice: "You are a public figure, pay attention to the influence."

Liang Qing said: "It's just you who think too much. Then I'll sleep at your house at night."

Fei Yizhen paused for a moment, and then said: "...you will try not to sleep in my house in the future."

"What do you mean?"

Fei Yizhen said in a flat tone: "You are getting more and more popular now, and you are getting older and older. I am afraid that the public's attention to you will only increase in the future. We are too close, and sooner or later people will find out that something is wrong. of."

Liang Qing frowned, and said: "In the end, you are still fussing about Fan Xiyu!"

Fei Yi was really depressed, and said word by word: "I don't want to tell you about Fan Xiyu. I just want to tell you that without Fan Xiyu, there will be others. As long as we maintain this relationship, sooner or later someone will find out. Yes. What are you going to do, Qing, if someone else finds out about this?"

"If anyone finds out, I'll fix it! I'll shut them up!"

Fei Yi really laughed: "I just don't want you to solve it. Can you make everyone in the world shut up?"

Liang Qing insisted: "Why not?"

Fei Yizhen said: "Then wait until you can silence everyone."

He didn't want to argue with Liang Qing more verbally, so he turned around and left.

Liang Qing chased after him and said, "Fei Yizhen, what the hell is going on with you! You are so weird!"

Fei Yizhen said: "Because I can't talk to you properly. You don't take what I say at all."

Liang Qing reached out and grabbed him, not letting him go, and said: "Fei Yizhen, do you want to have a little conscience!? If I don't take what you say to heart, then who is enough to take your affairs to heart? ? Ye Minghe?"

Fei Yizhen sighed and said, "I really think he respects me more than you."

Liang Qing sneered and said, "Then you want to be with him now?"

Fei Yizhen said angrily: "What nonsense are you talking about?" He turned around, took a deep breath, and asked Liang Qing word by word: "You said you took my words to heart, then I will ask You: If I tell you not to use those extreme methods of yours in the future, will you promise me?"

Liang Qing was taken aback for a moment, and then said: "Okay. I promise you. If you don't like it, I won't do it, okay?"

Fei Yizhen frowned, and snorted, "Are you trying to trick me into treating me like a child?"

He turned around and wanted to leave, but Liang Qing refused to let go, and said, "Then how can I tell you to believe it?"

Fei Yizhen was silent for a while, and then said: "I don't know, how can you listen to my words. Ah Qing, I don't want to see you in prison one day."

Liang Qing said firmly, "I won't. Yizhen, you have to trust me, I will become very strong, and I won't make myself so miserable."

Fei Yizhen frowned: Liang Qing did not say that he would not commit crimes.

When the two talked, they even had different concerns.

Fei Yizhen paused for a long time, and then asked: "I don't know, Ah Qing, is there anything in your heart that you absolutely cannot do?"

Liang Qing paused for a while, then said, "I won't hurt you."

He knew what Fei Yizhen was asking, but he finally gave such an answer.

Liang Qing really felt that, apart from hurting Fei Yizhen, there was nothing that he absolutely couldn't do.

In fact, every time you blacken a level, you are already hurting me.Fei Yi really thought about it.Worried that Liang Qing would one day turn into an appearance that even he couldn't recognize, and worried that he would end up in misfortune if he acted recklessly.

Liang Qing obviously didn't understand that it wasn't just the confrontation of swords that could be a kind of injury.

"Although I know that you probably don't believe in such things as oaths, but, Ah Qing, I want you to swear to me, this time, don't change the subject, don't change the concept secretly, you swear with me, if you If you did something outrageous, then let me, Fei Yizhen, suffer the retribution I deserve."

"I refuse!" Liang Qing replied loudly, "Fei Yizhen, you are out of your mind! What is an outrageous thing? Then if someone attacks me, can't I defend and counterattack?"

Fei Yizhen said: "There are many ways to defend and counterattack, why do you choose the way that hurts others and yourself the most? Liang Qing, I know you can clearly distinguish the difference between legitimate defense and hurting nature and reason, so don't change the subject."

Liang Qing grabbed Fei Yizhen's arms with a sneer, and said, "Fei Yizhen, Fei Shengren, how can you live such a righteous, awe-inspiring, pure and innocent life? Do you think you are living in a Utopia!? In this world , Moralists are either hypocrites, or they can only live in poverty. If a person wants to be successful, he will inevitably use some tricks. How many officials have you seen that do not accept gifts? The means on the table? I am just self-defense, since the other party has already provoked trouble, why should I care about the strength of the counterattack? I just want to teach her a lesson so that she will no longer have the ability to resist."

Fei Yizhen grabbed Liang Qing's arm, gritted his teeth and asked word by word: "Then can you guarantee that you will always be the winner?"

Liang Qing was stunned.

Fei Yizhen had a serious expression on his face and said in a stern tone: "You can say that you need to do whatever it takes to succeed, but can you be the winner forever? If one day you stumble, what else can you expect to use to defend yourself besides legal principles and morals?" you!?"

"Liang Qing, with the light and the same dust, the same dust still needs to be with the light... Where is your 'light'? Where is it?"

After a long time, Liang Qing stretched out his hand, pointed at Fei Yizhen's brow, and said, "My light, it's here."

Fei Yizhen grabbed his hand and said: "So, swear on me. Remember it in the future, no matter what you do, think before you do it, and it will be reported to me in the end."

Liang Qing said: "I can swear otherwise—"

"It's useless." Fei Yizhen gave him a pale smile, "I know you care about me the most, so swear by me. Only in this way will you really care about the content of the oath. Liang Qing, if you really If you want to keep your oath, you won't be afraid to take it."

Liang Qing asked, "What if I refuse?"

Fei Yizhen was silent for a while, then said, "I don't know."

But in his eyes, the water was shining.

Liang Qing has seen Fei Yizhen shed tears a few times since he was a child, every time he is like this, looking straight at people, his eyes are crystal clear, full of deep affection and sadness.Liang Qing retreated dejectedly, and said: "I swear, I, Liang Qing, will never do anything harmful to nature. If I do, everything will be retribution...retribution..."

Fei Yi really grasped his other wrist.

"...The retribution will be on Fei Yizhen."