Luo Shengmeng has no feelings today

"The final winner of the first Akutagawa Award is—"

The standing microphone in front of him dutifully amplified Ryunosuke Akutagawa's deep and calm voice to the audience, and everyone held their breath, waiting for the final answer to be revealed.

"Ichiyo Higuchi."

Akutagawa chanted clearly:

"The winning entry is "Winter Nights."

Boom!

The lights immediately converged on the candidates' seats.

The beautiful woman in a white dress and blond hair shawl stared blankly at the front, she didn't seem to react, she thought she was immersed in fantasy, until the host invited her to the stage with a passionate tone, and there was a wave of applause around her, She managed to regain her senses, and instantly shed tears of joy.

She stood up in a hurry, her legs were still shaking, until she met the eyes of Mr. Akutagawa, she finally came out of a trance, quickly wiped away her tears, mustered up her courage, and quickly walked up to the awarding platform with bright eyes .

"Good job, Higuchi."

Ryunosuke Akutagawa softened his expression a little, and showed a little smile, then stretched out his hand gently, patted Higuchi's shoulder lightly, and praised calmly: "A very good work."

...! ! !

A shoulder pat from Mr. Akutagawa!

A smile from Mr. Akutagawa!

Compliments from Mr. Akutagawa! !

boom--

A bar of blood in Higuchi emptied out, his cheeks were flushed instantly, and even the top of his exaggerated head was about to smoke.

But soon, a basin of cold water extinguished Higuchi Ichiyo's excitement in public.

"After this time is over, I will make a suggestion to the next meeting and the publishing house that you will no longer be the next editor." Akutagawa continued.

Higuchi Ichiyo's expression froze, his joy froze, replaced by a shock like a thunderbolt, and a trace of panic flashed in his eyes.

But before she tried to struggle to ask the reason, the young man in gray kimono explained again:

"Your talents don't stop there. Being able to write such words at your age is quite a remarkable thing... If you don't waste too much time on your subordinates, your achievements should be even higher now."

"Use your talents and talents to the fullest, Higuchi."

Akutagawa moved his hand to the head of the blond woman in front of him, and raised his eyebrows in the blank expression of the other party.

It was a very, very gentle smile, but enough to make everyone who admired Akutagawa Ryunosuke's heart turbulent smile.

"I look forward to your future achievements."

Higuchi Ichiyo: Oh huh...!

"Yes, Akutagawa-sensei!!"

All reason and calmness disappeared without a trace. The blond woman burst into tears with excitement, shouted loudly, and then bowed violently, "I will continue to work hard, and I will definitely not disappoint this award!!"

In a daze, he made a promise.

Since then, Ichiyo Higuchi's editorial position directly under Akutagawa has been withdrawn, although the publishing house stated that if she is willing to continue to serve, it will reassign several writers to her.

Higuchi flatly refused.

With just a word from Akutagawa Ryunosuke, she resigned without hesitation, and officially became a full-time writer with the idea of ​​"I must be worthy of this award and the expectations of Mr. Akutagawa Ryunosuke". .

Higuchi Ichiyo really did not disappoint Akutagawa's expectations.

In the future, starting from the Akutagawa Award, Ichiyo Higuchi has created extremely outstanding works that have been praised by most people in more than a year. Resonance, the strong lyrical color quietly penetrated into the soul, among which the novel "Childhood Sweetheart" published in the later period was even praised by many literary masters as the most beautiful love.

Higuchi Ichiyo has climbed from the editor of Akutagawa Ryunosuke to become a well-known contemporary female writer. The amazing speed makes people have to praise her talent.

Higuchi Ichiyo’s Miraculous Fourteen Months——During this short period of fourteen months, she created several works of astonishing quality, as if all the inspiration had burst out. Four months later, she successfully joined the Cultural Association and became a judge for the next Akutagawa Award.

[Definitely don't put this award to shame! ]

[I want to get out of my own achievements, and then be upright, and have the qualifications to stand beside Akutagawa-sensei. ]

Just as this woman promised, the miracle writer who is obsessed with Akutagawa Ryunosuke does exactly that.

……

The moment the award was announced, the phone in Osamu Dazai's hand made a crackling sound.

From the moment he fell from the cloud leading to heaven to hell, his whole body was unbearably cold.

How could he not get the Akutagawa Award?

How could he not have won the Akutagawa Award?

His works are obviously praised by many readers, even Mr. Sato praised him. His words should have attracted the attention of Mr. Akutagawa. They are so similar. They hate the world and hide their true nature, but they are still in this world. survived.

Osamu Dazai thought: I respect Mr. Akutagawa more than anyone else, this award should be mine!

This wayward man stared at Akutagawa-sensei who was smiling at Higuchi Ichiyo on the awarding platform, stared at Akutagawa-sensei's hand on Higuchi Ichiyo's shoulder, and a vicious emotion called jealousy burned his heart .

Putting so much effort into doing one thing, but the taste of failure in the end is enough to make Osamu Dazai, a winner in life who has almost never lost, lose his soul.

He... obviously made an appointment with Mr. Akutagawa.

Osamu Dazai would hold the Akutagawa Award in front of the other party, and then ask the other party to reconsider the proposal.

He must not miss this award.

but--

Literature is such a wonderful thing.

Whether it can impress the readers, whether it can impress the judges, whether it can be recognized by the world... This greatly determines the value of literature.

Not bad enough.

It just happened to meet a better opponent.

Their talents are all first-class and good.

But compared to Osamu Dazai, who became a monk halfway, Ichiyo Higuchi, who has studied hard for many years, is obviously better.

The black-haired, kite-eyed man lowered his face slightly, and a shadow enveloped his vision.

Osamu Dazai left his seat in disappointment and silence.

In the next few days, he didn't go to work, and he didn't even go to Akutagawa Ryunosuke, and the house was empty, and the close friends and colleagues who came to visit because of worry couldn't find anyone.

He just nestled in the rented room, took out the manuscript paper, and with cold eyes and thick dark circles, he wrote the letter in silence.

[To Mr. Kawabata.

Regarding the fact that you slandered my work during the selection of the Akutagawa Award, let's save each other those stupid lies! ]*1

During the selection period, Mr. Kawabata’s criticism has been hated to the present Osamu Dazai willfully attributed the reason for his failure to the opponent. In terms of yin and yang, Osamu Dazai has never lost. s work.

In the end, he even wrote down his anger and murderous intent without hesitation:

[I am burning with anger like a flame, sleepless day and night, is your elegant life of raising beautiful birds and enjoying beautiful dances so amazing?You bastard who doesn't know the suffering of the world, wantonly taking away the hope of others, I want to kill you, you vicious thug! ]*2

Thousands of words are eloquent.

The ex-mafia cadres who had blood on their hands angrily called others "vicious thugs". After reading this letter, the port mafia people will probably have expressions that are indescribable, as if they have seen a ghost.

——However, Zhong Yuanzhong will definitely happily open a bottle of red wine to celebrate Dazai Osamu's defeat. It's not a day or two that the two of them disagree with each other.

This open letter was posted in a media magazine. It was too radical. It was an accusation from a newcomer writer to an old-timer in the literary world. If it was a regular literary magazine publishing house, it would definitely not adopt it, but Osamu Dazai is quite smart. He contributed to the popular media, and the media didn't care about whether they were extreme or not. What they needed was popularity, and nothing could be more interesting than the accusations made by the Akutagawa Award candidates against the Akutagawa Award judges.

When this open letter was published, it immediately swept the entire Japanese literary world and became a topic of conversation among literary lovers. I have to say that Dazai's speech skills are indeed very good, even if he is a rascal, he can speak beautifully.

It's irritating and funny.

Kawabata-sensei was about to die of anger.

He didn't know the acquaintance relationship between Dazai Osamu and Akutagawa Ryunosuke, and even when he exchanged letters with Mr. Akutagawa one day, he couldn't help but write this matter into it.

[I don’t know the heights of the sky and the earth is rude, you don’t even have an opinion, Akutagawa-sensei, what right does that scoundrel Dazai have to say that!I am fair and just, and I respect the opinions of all the teachers. The winner of the Akutagawa Award was decided by everyone. Dazai completely attributed the reason for his failure to me. ]

Ryunosuke Akutagawa: ...

Akutagawa Ryunosuke sighed.

After the Akutagawa Awards, Ryunosuke Akutagawa went back to live in the old house in Yokohama for a while.

The main reason is to accompany Natsume Soseki who is staying alone in the old house in Yokohama.

Although they pay living expenses to each other every month, and exchange letters every month, but it is rare to come back, Akutagawa Ryunosuke still wants to get together with the only family member who lives alone.

Natsume Soseki is currently the only one who knows about Akutagawa Ryunosuke's experience and goals.

Although Edogawa Ranpo deduced a lot of facts, but since Akutagawa moved, he has never seen him again. In terms of understanding, he is far inferior to Sanhuamao Kinnosuke.

Natsume Soseki and Akutagawa Ryunosuke were sitting under the eaves of the courtyard of the old house in Yokohama. Tea and snacks were placed between them. The birdsong was melodious and the sun was shining brightly.

Mr. Natsume warmly congratulated Ryunosuke Akutagawa for finally finding the coordinates of the world he wanted to go to.

"Although the ability control is not very good, there are errors, so far I am still trying to adjust... But the location has been determined, and it is only a matter of time before I go back."

"I really... thank you very much for your help. Without the coordinate device you brought me, I would probably still be wandering in despair in various different worlds."

They communicated calmly. Natsume Soseki knew about Akutagawa's crossing for a long time, so Akutagawa Ryunosuke did not hide it from him. He told the other party that the coordinate device was born in Mr. R's world, and asked curiously about this Who was the man when the machine was handed over to the previous user, Erfang.

Natsume Soseki thought for a while after being surprised, and replied: "I don't know either, but Erfang-kun said...he was a foreign man who looked a little dangerous, and he just said this to me, and later that man never It has never appeared, and I am not the person involved, so I don't know much about it."

"No matter who it is, I am extremely grateful."

Natsume changed the subject:

"Speaking of which, Dazai didn't look for you again, did he?"

Akutagawa shook his head.

"That's good." Natsume Soseki nodded in satisfaction. He still remembered that a few months ago, Dazai said that he would win the Akutagawa Award, and then asked their family's Ryunosuke to reconsider the proposal—that willful stinky Boy, I don't even see if I can take good care of Ryunosuke. He, Kanenosuke, will never allow unreliable guys to try to abduct his family's children.

"I went to the detective agency and his house to look for him, but I couldn't find anyone." Akutagawa said calmly, "He probably doesn't want to see me. Missing this award seems to be a big blow to him."

He even wrote a letter and published it in the media, openly challenging Mr. Kawabata.

...As expected of Osamu Dazai.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke wanted to comfort the other party, but the other party refused to show up at all.

"Having said that, Dazai's literature... although extreme, is actually quite shocking. Before I read it, I never thought that Dazai could write such words."

Akutagawa looked up at the sky, holding tea in his hand, and spoke for a while.

Natsume-san looked at him.

"As he said, he will write out his heart, and then resonate with me... Dazai has already done this kind of thing. When I first saw Dazai's works, I understood... There is indeed a relationship between us. There are indeed very similarities.”

Whether it is suppressing nature, or forcing yourself to face this extremely boring world.

They are in the same hell, the only difference is that Akutagawa Ryunosuke regards Mr. R as his own rope, while Dazai Osamu regards Akutagawa Ryunosuke as his own rope.

Mr. R is a special existence that changed him from a heartless dog to a human being.

And Akutagawa Ryunosuke is an existence that Osamu Dazai regards as the same kind and spiritual sustenance.

In terms of being overly dependent on one person - they're pretty much the same.

Akutagawa let out a breath, was silent again for a while, and said seriously with dark eyes:

"...I still want to find Dazai."

If it were him... If he failed to fulfill his promise to Mr. R, he would probably despise himself to the point of committing suicide.

Dazai's dependence on him is too similar.

——Too much like my dependence on Mr. R.

Therefore, it cannot be ignored.

Natsume Sotoshi also sighed in pain: "Go do what you want, Ryunosuke, although I really don't want you to get in touch with that guy Dazai, if it brings you down, I have nowhere to cry."

"No, Kanonosuke."

Ryunosuke said: "I am not the kind of child who is easily influenced."

"What's more... as an older person, you have to take on more responsibilities."

The author has something to say: *1*2: Three historical facts including adaptation.

I wrote it before, but some people may have skipped it: Sangen Dazai has fought for the Akutagawa Award three times, and he will be given three chances here.

So I thought about it, and I still didn’t give it to him for the first time (sorry, I just want to read his four-meter-long letter /bushi/ Dazai’s works are too sad, I feel that the first session is not suitable_(:з」∠)_ )

The remaining Odasaku and Higuchi Ichiyo... I wanted to throw the dice, but the information on Odasaku is so f*ckingly hard to find, and I don’t know much about Odasaku’s literature, so I finally chose the more famous one Miss Yiye has a good foundation and high talent. The life experience of Miss Yiye three times is as short and astonishing as fireworks. The miraculous fourteenth month touched me instantly. She deserves to be a woman on the price of [-] yen. Miss Zhang's work, childhood sweetheart is really good-looking.