Luo Shengmeng has no feelings today

In mid-July, the shortlist for the Akutagawa Award was officially announced.

There are five people in total, Osamu Dazai, Sakunosuke Oda, and Ichiyo Higuchi are all included.

It was said to the outside world to ensure the fairness of the selection (mainly because Akutagawa was unwilling), Mr. Akutagawa did not participate in any round of selection, nor asked about any matters, but only appeared at the award ceremony, and the selection process of shortlisted works was to allow reporters The public live broadcast was conducted under the discussion of the teachers, so the reason why each work was selected was clearly announced.

Each of the eleven judges recommends one article, and then they gather together. Each teacher excludes the works recommended by himself, selects five from other candidates, and then gives reasons respectively. After discussing and evaluating, the judges finally select five works that are recognized by the judges as the best. Excellent article.

The moment it was announced, all the people who were paying attention to the winners of this literary award all turned their attention to the five shortlisted writers.

Their works were already very popular during the submission period, and being selected as a finalist also pushed this popularity further, and even increased the sales of their works a lot.

But that's just the beginning.

There is only one winner of the Akutagawa Prize.

It is really difficult to choose one of these five excellent works. No wonder the shortlist was announced in mid-July, and the winner will not be officially announced until August. During this time, the debate among the judges has continued For dozens of days, the approval and criticism of each work were displayed in every aspect, but if we want to say that the most controversial work is undoubtedly Dazai Osamu's work.

Those who appreciate it especially appreciate it, and those who don't like it also dislike it very much.

Mr. Kawabata, a senior in the literary world among the judges, expressed his opinion: "According to my own personal opinion, Mr. Dazai's current life is shrouded in an unpleasant cloud of depression, which prevents the author's talents from being brought into full play. I am quite sorry."[1]

The remarks of every judge of the Akutagawa Award will be announced through the media. Of course, Mr. Kawabata’s evaluation of Dazai is also the same.

Mr. Sato, who is also a judge, appreciates Dazai's works very much. He selected one of Dazai's articles to praise[2]. Therefore, Dazai, who was nervously watching the award selection, reacted immediately.

He wrote a letter to Mr. Sato without hesitation, expressing his gratitude for the other party's recognition.

"Dazai, what are you doing?"

detective agency.

Kunikida walked past with the document in his arms, glanced at the colleague who was sitting next to the seat and was writing straight, raised his eyebrows, and took a step forward to ask.

"The nominations for the Akutagawa Prize are over, right? Are you still writing novels?"

In order to maximize the possibility of being shortlisted, during the submission period, Osamu Dazai spent almost all his free time on creation, racing against time to think about the new work. His diligence and seriousness stunned the entire detective agency.

Especially after they saw Osamu Dazai's works, an indescribable shock filled their hearts.

If I had to describe it, it would probably be:

... Dazai really has a talent for literature! ?

No way, Osamu Dazai's appearance in front of them usually has nothing to do with literary temperament. Before reading his works, most people in the detective agency did not think he could go well. At that time, according to their assumptions: it was reasonable for Oda Sakunosuke to be shortlisted, so it was really an accident that Dazai Osamu was shortlisted.

Then when Dazai's novel was successfully published in an authoritative literary magazine, it completely refreshed their views.

Although this guy behaved unscrupulously, such a thing as literary talent is really indescribable.

That kind of extreme thought, like a quietly burning flame, hits the heart more violently than a wave.

It was a destructive beauty similar to Dazai himself.

Even Kunikida, who was not optimistic about Dazai at first, couldn't help but admire him.

This guy... is not just a simple suicidal maniac.

The world in his eyes is just like his words.

Words are like hearts.

"I'm writing a letter."

Hearing this, Dazai raised his head and looked at Kunikida with a smile: "A letter to Mr. Sato."

"For Mr. Sato?" As a judge of the Akutagawa Award, Mr. Sato is naturally well-known in the literary world. To be precise, the judges of the Akutagawa Award are all the most outstanding teachers in the literary world.

With Dazai's tacit consent, Kunikida leaned over to take a look.

This is a letter of thanks, written for Mr. Sato's compliment on his work.

The wording is obviously extremely humble, but the combination of the whole sentence reveals a full of passion. The words are full of confidence, but at the same time, various kinds of anxiety and anxiety are contradictoryly mixed [3].

"Ms. Sato admires my work, and I will beg him to take care of me no matter what."

Osamu Dazai had the usual bright smile on his face, but his iris-colored eyes were full of uneasiness about the announcement of the Akutagawa Award results, he almost gritted his teeth and muttered: "That bastard Kawabata actually used such cruel words to evaluate my work , A cruel villain who doesn't know how to appreciate! Damn...!"

"I have no choice but to place my hope on Mr. Sato, who appreciates me. This is related to the major events in my life..."

"You are too persistent." Kunikida didn't know why, and sighed helplessly: "Writing to the judges before the selection results come out, isn't it considered a favor?"

"I don't care."

Osamu Dazai snorted and turned his head: "Kunikida, this is human beings. There is no real fairness in this world. Faced with unfavorable situations, of course you have to fight for opportunities by yourself. This is the wisdom of adults!"

"Ok?"

Oda Sakunosuke just came back from the outside, he tilted his head, "What wisdom?"

"nothing--"

Osamu Dazai threw himself on the table, his kite-colored eyes staring at his best friend seriously, he raised a hand and waved like a child: "Oda Saku! Even if the opponent is you, I will not let go of Akutagawa Sho of!!"

"Ah, let's work together."

Odasaku nodded calmly, and then thought about it again, "However, now that the shortlisted works have been determined, the only thing left is the selection. We can't interfere with anything now, we can only let nature take its course."

Odasaku said very relieved.

He's probably the most relaxed one.

Although he also wants to get the Akutagawa Award, he is not too persistent. After all, he has already benefited a lot during the Akutagawa Award submission period, especially after his work was successfully shortlisted. It can be said that he has become a recognized outstanding newcomer writer, which has made him very happy.

Even if he can't win the award in the end, he has no complaints.

Therefore, he naturally does not have the exaggerated sense of attachment like Dazai.

Osamu Dazai puffed up his cheeks and stared at his best friend for a long while, then turned his head and continued writing letters with a whimper.

The judges' discussions were in full swing, and the four candidates except Sakunosuke Oda were anxiously waiting for the result. Higuchi Ichiyo had already placed the photo of Mr. Akutagawa in front of his bed, and he seemed to pray to her most admired person every day. The teacher begged.

August comes in a blink of an eye.

The announcement and award ceremony of the Akutagawa Award was held in the center of Yokohama. In addition to the broadcast by major media, a very small number of lucky ones were qualified to watch it live. Readers and fans from all over the world surrounded the award ceremony for three floors. On the third floor, many people have books in their hands - more than [-]% of them are holding the first collection "Rashomon" by Akutagawa Ryunosuke, and the remaining three floors are holding other novels published by Akutagawa Ryunosuke , and many of them also brought articles by new writers they supported, looking forward to the appearance of their longed-for Akutagawa teacher and the announcement of the first Akutagawa Award winner.

Only a few photos of Akutagawa Ryunosuke have been released. The young, handsome, reticent and sickly young man with a unique temperament undoubtedly satisfies the fans' imagination of this great writer. The man with both looks and talent is naturally very attractive. People fall in love, and literature lovers become fanatical, not inferior to some groupies.

"God, this is the request of my life!"

Osamu Dazai's nervous hands were sweating, he muttered to himself: "Please give me the Akutagawa Prize! Give me my hope!"

"God, this is the request of my life!"

On the other side, Higuchi Kazuyo said the same thing, her already tense legs were trembling, the blond woman dressed up for this important day: she wore a beautiful white dress, shoulder-hanging hair She loosened it up, put on light makeup, and was more capable than before, a bit more feminine. Even so, she was still so nervous that she couldn't help herself. She clasped her hands on her chest and murmured:

"Ms. Akutagawa's compliment...Ms. Akutagawa's smile...the award set up in the name of Mr. Akutagawa, oh...I want it so much, I swear with my life that I will not disappoint this award, so, God, please favor me! I will Be a great writer!"

Oda Sakunosuke also changed into formal clothes. Unlike other candidates, he waited for the announcement of the awards very calmly.

Backstage.

Kikuchi Hiroshi personally went to pick him up, and Akutagawa Ryunosuke, who was wearing a gray kimono and a black feather on his shoulders, sat down calmly in the lounge.

"Long time no see, Akutagawa-sensei."

As soon as I entered, the other teachers greeted me,

There are more or less connections between the masters of the literary world, even Ryunosuke Akutagawa who rarely goes out, and with the connection of Kan Kikuchi, the ink connection between Akutagawa Ryunosuke and the judges and teachers present is not the same. few.

In this era of advanced technology and convenient communication, there are probably not many people who are obsessed with communicating with pen and ink. It just so happens that they, a group of writers who pay special attention to art and form, still retain this habit, although many of them like to use electronic They exchanged emails, but they didn't have any opinions on actual letters, and even after knowing that Akutagawa Ryunosuke preferred handwriting, they would cooperate and reply in the same way.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke does not meet many other writers.

But if it's just an exchange of ideas, it's quite frequent.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke, who prefers literature, has seen the excellent works of all the teachers present, and of course he will respect them. He bowed slightly and replied calmly: "Long time no see, teachers, I have worked hard for you during this time."

"Where."

Teacher Sato replied: "I am actually happy. To be honest, I have never seen so many good seedlings emerge at the same time. So many excellent works always make me happy."

"However, the results we selected may not necessarily meet Akutagawa-sensei's ideas. Please forgive me for this."

"Where is this talking?" Akutagawa shook his head: "Everyone here is an outstanding senior, and your common judgment is of extremely high value, not to mention, literature is impossible to meet everyone's preferences, but only Only the literature that convinces the majority of people will be crowned with an outstanding name. Although the Akutagawa Award is crowned with the name of the next, it is only an award in the final analysis. It will be awarded to newcomers who have convinced the vast majority of teachers. Rather than being determined by my own thoughts, after all, I am also a human being, and it is inevitable that I will be biased because of emotions."

The black-haired and black-eyed youth said: "As I said at the beginning, I will never interfere with the selection. I am just presenting awards as guests, so please don't feel any burden."

……

The communication between the teachers is going on in the backstage lounge. It is rare for Mr. Akutagawa to come out once. Such opportunities for communication are rare.

When the specified time came, all the teachers went to the judges' seat under the arrangement of the organizer Hiroshi Kikuchi, and Ryunosuke Akutagawa followed in the footsteps of the staff and went to wait behind the awarding platform. Waiting for the host to start, the judges commented in turn After the candidates' works, Ryunosuke Akutagawa stepped forward to personally announce the winner of the first Akutagawa Award.

"Now, it's finally time for the much-anticipated announcement. The guests of the first Akutagawa Awards should be known to everyone. Presumably, many audience members came here from thousands of miles just to see the great teacher with their own eyes."

The host's tone was passionate. After the audience cheered, they quickly quieted down after being signaled. They all opened their eyes wide and looked expectantly at the entrance on the side of the awarding platform.

"Please give us the warmest applause to welcome Mr. Akutagawa Ryunosuke to announce the winners and present awards!"

As soon as the words fell, there was a wave of applause. At the same time, under the arrangement of the staff, holding the sealed letter in both hands, Ryunosuke Akutagawa calmly walked up the steps of the awarding platform.

The indifferent and handsome young man walked to the center without haste, his clogs slammed lightly, and a small wave was rolled up on the hem of the black feather weaving that was slightly tilted back. His complexion was pale, and after turning around, he looked at the dark and The eyes are calm and calm, making it difficult to guess the thoughts and thoughts, but because of this, it satisfies the readers' imagination of literary heroes.Just standing there, the young man's calm demeanor made people involuntarily hold their breath and admire him.

Every step forward, the opponent seems to be stepping on the reader's heart.

"Ms. Akutagawa—"

I don't know who cheered excitedly, and his voice broke.

As if a switch was pressed, the auditorium suddenly seemed to be dropped by a bomb, and it was like a fire.

"Ah, Akutagawa-sensei!"

"Ms. Akutagawa! I really like your writing!"

"Ms. Akutagawa Ryunosuke! Ah, I saw Akutagawa Ryunosuke-sensei with my own eyes!!"

There were endless screams, and those in the front row were so excited that they shed tears.

Reporters from major media also immediately adjusted the live broadcast cameras, and everyone's eyes followed Akutagawa's figure closely, for fear of missing a certain detail.

Unable to adapt to this situation, Akutagawa held back his inner emotions, maintained his usual calm expression, bowed slightly to the front, and did not respond to the readers who loved him.

He just tore open the envelope in his hand, followed by the projector, and took out the note with the final winner of the first Akutagawa Award.

He unfolded the letter paper and stared at the words on it.

offstage.

The five candidates waited anxiously for the verdict of fate.

The author has something to say: Because it is a fan fiction with exaggerated colors, I couldn't find the Akutagawa Award process, so it's all private (don't bring it into reality.)

Mark [1][2][3], historical references.

The Kawabata-sensei and Sato-sensei in the article are Kawabata Yasunari-san and Sato Haruo-san who were quoted three times (because they are the most involved with Dazai, and the judges are all private except for the two of them and Kikuchi Hiroshi), but because they are afraid of being slapped in the face by Fumino (such as These two teachers don’t write books anymore!), so they didn’t write their full names.