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Zheng Ao didn't come back to sleep at night, he probably knew that I didn't want to sleep with him anymore.

I was tired and didn't suffer from insomnia, but I couldn't sleep well all the time. I felt cold and had a fragmented dream all night. When I woke up the next morning, it was still dark and the wind was blowing outside the window, so cold that I didn't want to get up.

I put on my clothes and got up slowly by myself. It was so dark in the room, but a lot of lights were already on outside.Zheng Ao has always been pampered, he cannot see a little light when he sleeps, and Zheng's family is also used to him.The servants shuttled back and forth in the dining room to arrange the tables and chairs, and put the cut flowers in the vases, each of them moved lightly like a cat.It was still dark outside the door, and there was a light on the porch, so I thought it was still early.

Seeing me, the butler was taken aback, "Morning, Mr. Xu."

Having learned what lies behind his respectful attitude, I nodded at him.

"Mr. Xu isn't going to sleep anymore?" He asked me speculatively: "Mr.'s breakfast is still being prepared, I'll ask the kitchen to prepare two."

"Where did Zheng Ao sleep last night?" I asked him.

His attitude was very calm: "Mr. sleeps in the study."

I turned my head and saw that the plum vase that was broken last night had disappeared. There was a pot of narcissus with dewdrops on the buds. The servants were laying out the breakfast. .

I've never hated this place so much.

If I had been imprisoned for ten or twenty years, they would probably look like this nonchalantly, calling me Mr. Xu respectfully.Even after Ye Susu entered the door, they were still like this, keeping their eyes on their noses, their noses, their noses and their hearts, like robots without any thoughts at all.This place looks so comfortable and warm, but it is a cage, everyone here is the jailer Zheng Ao prepared for me.

I turned around: "Call me out after he leaves."

In the morning, I found a Chinese translation of Feynman and read it in my study. I only drank a bowl of soup for breakfast. I don’t know if it was because of the cold, but I always felt a little uncomfortable in my stomach.

I came out to see it because I heard voices outside.

The first thing I heard was the butler's voice. His tone was very respectful, but it was obvious that there was a very firm refusal attitude in the respect: "...Even if Mr. Wang comes, this study is not allowed to enter."

"There is no important information in this study." Wang Xian's voice was already trembling with anger, "I know Xu Lang is in there. What right do you have to lock him up? He's not your prisoner!"

Her personality is still a little too soft, she doesn't have the inherent arrogance unique to her background, and she can't do such extraordinary things as ignoring and rampaging.If it was Ye Susu, let alone being trembling with anger from a housekeeper, I'm afraid the housekeeper would have a heart attack from being frightened by her first.Among other things, the kick that kicked open the study door was very chivalrous.

I pushed the door, but the housekeeper didn't lock it.

As soon as Wang Xian saw me, she ran over. It was so cold outside, but she still wore the same way as yesterday. She changed into a winter dress, dark blue, with a shirt collar, and her hair was curled and tied up with something, very youthful. a feeling of.

The housekeeper clasped his hands together and nodded to me with a very subtle attitude: "Mr. Xu, it's cold outside. Before you leave, Mr. told you not to catch cold. You should rest in the study. Call me if you need something."

"You mean I can't even leave the study now?" I asked him back.

My father is a very gentle person. The atmosphere of the Li family is no better than that of the Zheng family. There are more people. Li Zhurong’s father’s generation alone has three or four houses, and there is a lot of intrigue. Although Li Zhurong moved out to live, the servants are all Li. Brought out of the house, sometimes the face is very ugly.My dad never cared about them, it was Li Zhurong who dealt with them severely after he found out.

I can't be as calm as him.

Maybe I don't have that kind of gentleness and calmness in my bones, or maybe it's because I have been gentle, but I don't have someone like Li Zhurong to back me up, so I can only be the villain myself.But it's good to think about it this way, as Li Zhurong, I can protect more people like my dad.

For example, Wang Xian.

The housekeeper probably didn't expect me to be so tit-for-tat, and his attitude was a little bit hard to change: "I just think it's better for Mr. Xu to read in his room with peace of mind in this kind of weather."

"It's not up to you to decide who I can see or not." I was too lazy to play Tai Chi with him: "If you are in a hurry and want to recommend yourself to be my prison boss, let Zheng Ao come and tell me in person. Otherwise, feel at ease Do your own thing!"

Perhaps my words were too harsh. The butler looked insulted, his lips trembled, and he was speechless for a long time. Finally, he said "I'm going to see the snacks prepared in the kitchen..." and staggered away.

In fact, I don't want to reprimand an old man like this, especially when he thought I broke up with Zheng Ao and stuffed me with some taxi money in my pocket.

But this is the way the world is, not all tit-for-tat confrontations have deep hatred behind them, and there are not so many who can tell right from wrong at a glance.More, it is a conflict of helpless positions, a confrontation of values ​​that each feels reasonable.

Maybe in the eyes of the housekeeper, I am just a college student who just graduated, and I am still an adopted son who is not valued. By myself, I may never be able to live a luxurious life like this. Men and men are inherently shady Fuck, Zheng Ao's ability to accommodate me and support me like this is already a blessing I have cultivated in several lifetimes, and I still make trouble behind Zheng Ao's back. He has the obligation to stand up and stop me, and he is good to everyone.

So I can't explain it to him at all. In order to prevent him from affecting others, I can only use such a simple and rude method.

Fortunately, Wang Xian was not frightened.

She was so thinly dressed that I hastened to bring her into the room, and we sat talking before the fire.

I thought she wouldn't come here today, the little girl has a thin skin, she cried in front of me yesterday, and she was probably too embarrassed to see me for several days.

"Aren't you going to school today?" I asked her.

In fact, she should also study abroad in the future. Like Ye Susu, once the second semester of senior high school starts, she has already contacted which university to go to, and there is no need to go to the school.But Wang Xian probably likes to read, so she still goes to class as usual.

"I asked the teacher for leave." She lowered her head and said softly.

I saw that she didn't really want to talk, so I didn't ask any more questions. I showed her a book: "This collection of foreign stories is very interesting. It was probably translated by some master. It has a very special style."

She took it quietly and looked at it. Her hair is very soft, and she probably has a good temper. The two of us just sat and read for a while.

After reading a few stories, she raised her head to look at me, and suddenly asked, "Are you injured?"

"No." I was a little baffled: "What's wrong?"

She pursed her lips, then pointed to her neck: "You here..."

I touched my neck suspiciously, it didn't hurt or itch, there was no wound, and I was looking for something that could be used as a mirror. She had already lowered her head and opened her schoolbag, and silently handed over a mirror.

On the small round mirror, there was a large dark red mark on the right side of my neck, a bit bigger than a mosquito bite, with a bit of purple in it, it was called a bruise, and it was neither painful nor itchy. I studied it in front of the mirror for a long time. I pinched it with my fingernails, but found no clues.

"It's probably allergic purpura," I frowned, guessing, "But I don't seem to feel anything wrong..." However, at that moment, Zheng Ao suddenly flashed through my mind. Things done to me in the dining room.

I knew instantly what it was.

At that moment, my face was almost burning, I don't know if I was blushing, but a rush of heat rushed to my forehead, I just wanted to find a hole to drill down.

Wang Xian still looked at me calmly, her eyes were clear and black, open and clean.

"I," I stammered, then hurriedly returned the mirror to her, and blocked my neck with my hands uncontrollably: "I'll go back and ask the doctor of Zheng's family."

I don't know if it's because I'm a guilty conscience, but I always feel that Wang Xian has seen through it. In short, I don't dare to look at her anymore.

She finally stopped looking at me, put the mirror away, and continued to read her book.

I can't even read a single word.I just want to find a reason to leave quickly, find a high-necked dress to put on, hide in the room for a day, and don't even come out for lunch.As long as I think of just arguing with the housekeeper just now with this kind of thing all over my neck, I wish I could throw two things to vent.

I can only hope that the butler is a serious and conservative old man, and don't know what this is.

"Well," I sat for a while, I couldn't sit still anymore, and said to Wang Xian, "Do you have any homework to ask today?"

Wang Xian shook her head quietly, her attitude made me more and more confused.

"That's it for today," I accosted and stood up: "I still have something to do later, let's talk about it tomorrow, you can take this book home to read if you like it."

She stood up and silently put the book into her bag.

"I can't come over tomorrow," she said with her head down, "I want to accompany Susu to try on her engagement dress. It's a private order and it's already ready."

"Oh." My heart tightened.

She suddenly looked up.

"I heard that Zheng Ao is going to go there too," she said, "Tomorrow not only will we have to try on clothes, but we will also need to discuss the details of the engagement ceremony. The elders of the Ye family hope to hold it in the Zheng family."

"Oh, really." I tried my best to pretend nothing had happened.

She stopped talking, but stood still again.

It's not good for me to just walk like this, and I also stand and wait.The red roses are planted in the study, so red that they are so black that they match the color of the red sandalwood furniture very well, and the fragrance is strong and dark.The chime clock on the wall was ticking.

She suddenly asked: "Did Zheng Ao hit you yesterday?"

"No," I vaguely guessed, "Why do you ask that?"

"The news here spreads quickly," she said, "Our two families live close to each other, and the servants will pass on some news in private."

I wanted to laugh a little, but felt chills in my heart.I have always said that Zheng Ao was born and grew up in thorn bushes, but I have never personally understood what it means.Only now have a little experience.

"He didn't hit me, it was just a small dispute." I didn't want to worry her, so I explained to her: "Zheng Ao's character is a bit domineering, and it doesn't make sense. You can see that he locked me here. But He just locked me up and didn't abuse me, so you don't have to worry. After all, my dad and I are also members of the Li family..."

Wang Xian said "oh".

Having said everything clearly, she didn't ask any more questions. She put her schoolbag on her back and went out. I also took two books and prepared to go back and read them.

I sent her to the door as usual, and I couldn't send her any farther.The snow has melted, and beside the Zhengjia Road, there are precious saffron, light blue and deep red, blooming on the grass, very beautiful, she walks in front, carrying a schoolbag, I don’t know why, but I always feel a little sad from her back.

When approaching the door, she suddenly turned around.

There was no one around, so I didn't know what was going on, so I quickly took two steps to follow: "What's wrong."

She looked up at me, and I was surprised to find that her eyes were already full of tears. She opened her mouth, and the tears rolled down like broken beads.I was a little panicked, and quickly rummaged through the tissues in my pocket...

She cried and said to me, "Xu Lang, marry me."