like drinking ice

The fire in my heart rose up.

Obviously there is nothing shameful, but when you are really suspected and questioned, you will still be so angry that your blood will burn because of this attitude.My face seemed to be burned, my lips were trembling, but I was too angry to say a word.

But this attitude misunderstood Zheng Ao.

He sneered coldly.

"Even if you don't like me anymore," his eyes were full of sarcasm, "you don't need to be so hungry, do you?"

I heard the sound of the string snapping in my head.By the time I realized that he was uselessly grabbing my arm, my hand had already swung out.

With a "snap", his face was completely turned away, the hair that was neatly pinned behind the ear fell down and covered the left face, and clear fingerprints gradually appeared on the fair cheek.

I looked at my hands in disbelief.

I am not a person who will strike first. The education I have received since I was a child is that I must never hit people with my hands.Even in the chaotic situation last time, I endured it until I saw that the situation could not be stopped, but this time, I was so violent because of his words.

I thought he would grab my hand hard.

But he just took my arm and didn't mean to imprison me at all.I waved my hand and typed it out.

Zheng Ao turned his face away.

There were bright things in his eyes, like flames and ice edges, and he even smiled self-deprecatingly, he said: "Look, Xiao Lang, between us, we should fight directly. "

The moment he stood up, I instinctively stepped back.

But his speed was so fast that before I could turn around, my arm was caught.He grabbed my arm and dragged it in his direction, grabbed my right hand that was about to be pushed away, and pushed it to the top of my head, twisted my wrists with his left hand, clasped my chin with his right hand, pressed his whole body over, and pushed me Press it on the wall where the landscape scroll is hung.

His face came closer.

He kissed me.

His kiss was as hot as a flame, not like a kiss at all, but like a plunder, confirming his own possession.But for me who kissed for the first time, it was still an extremely violent shock, and my whole soul seemed to be emptied.My eyes are wide open but I can't see anything clearly, I can't find a gap to breathe, it feels like every trace of oxygen in my lungs has been taken away, I feel groggy as if my lips were gnawed, he was a little too hard up.

I thought he would at least give me a break.

But his hands got inside my clothes.

His whole body seemed to be burning hot, even the breath he sprayed on my collarbone was hot and heavy, of course it might be because my skin was too cold, the shirt seemed to be torn open, and a button shot out, he seemed Bite me, on my chest or somewhere, I suddenly felt a tingling in my heart, and my whole body bounced like a dying fish.

"Don't..." I began to push him violently: "Don't do this, Zheng Ao! Don't bite me..."

He seemed to be smiling, but also seemed to be angry.Because he was still stubbornly biting all the way down, my pants were quickly pulled down, I felt cold in my lower body, and instinctively wanted to curl up, but the next moment, his head was buried between my legs.

I heard my scream and grabbed his hair.

But he didn't bite down.

I can't tell if he's licking or sucking, I'm struggling all over, but I don't have any strength, my whole body is floating like a cloud, I don't know there is such a thing in the world, it's as comfortable as lying on soft cotton However, it makes you feel ashamed instinctively, tears are about to fall.

When I finally climbed to the top, I think I should cry.Because in the haze, he has been kissing my face carefully, comforting me and telling me not to cry.

I slapped him, thinking he would be angry and hit me, but he seemed to adopt a somewhat different way of punishment. Although I felt that my heart was hanging all the time, I didn't feel any pain, and he kept kissing me, Forehead, eyes, cheeks, corners of lips, occasionally, as if they were exploring something, they kissed my lips and stuck their tongues in.

I was a little sleepy, he probably knew, and carried me to bed.

I heard a rustling sound, and he said with a smile, "Xiao Lang, don't sleep..." When I opened my eyes, I saw him standing in front of the window, with his upper body bare. He has beautiful muscular lines and a narrow waist. His shoulders were broad, and the light shone on his body, as if coated with honey. He was lowering his head to untie his belt.

"...Are you going to bed..." I heard my voice a little hoarse: "Where is my pajamas?"

All the clothes on my body were taken off, and I quickly rolled myself up with the quilt. Although it was nothing for a man not to wear his upper body, my underwear disappeared at some point.

Zheng Ao has covered me.

He leaned over me, his waist was strong, he was still wearing trousers, and his back was very nice, like a bow ready to shoot.He was so close to me that the heat from his body seemed to spread to me, and some hair fell down and touched my cheek.I looked into his eyes, the emotions in his dark amber eyes were obscure, he seemed to have a lot to say to me, but he just bowed his head and kissed me.

I tilted my head and he kissed my cheek.

"Zheng Ao, I..." I reached out and pushed him.

Consciousness gradually came back, and I knew what we were doing.

He was kissing my neck, and I pushed my hands on his shoulders, probably because I just woke up, my hands were a little weak.His skin is smooth, his muscles are like a leopard, and he looks dangerous.

The quilt was lifted, and while he was kissing me, he spread my legs apart, and his whole body was squeezed between my legs, and I could smell him.

I am very familiar with the smell of hormones.

After his one-night stands, after strange men and women leave, when I wake him up for breakfast.

"Let go of me, Zheng Ao." I struggled, he didn't seem to realize the seriousness of the problem, he was still lifting my waist, I was shrinking back, he dragged me back, squeezed my waist into the Between my legs, the skin is close to each other, and I can clearly feel the bulge of his lower body.

I protested violently.

"Don't touch me!" I dragged my wrist back vigorously, and my whole body struggled to retreat. I heard my voice, and I was almost screaming. Like a dying animal, I tried hard to escape, I seemed Kicking him, I almost lost my mind, flailing my arms to drive him away, my fingers seem to have caught his face, I touched the warm liquid.

He snorted, but he still grabbed my wrist and pressed me down with his own weight. There are many grappling techniques that can cause damage. hand.

"Xiao Lang, don't be afraid..." He whispered in my ear, it seemed to be a little painful, and it seemed to be my illusion: "Don't be afraid of me, I won't do anything to you, you will hurt yourself, Relax, Xiao Lang..."

I gradually calmed down, maybe I was tired from struggling, I lay on the bed a little bit exhausted, with my face on the pillow, I didn't want to see his face.

He waited until I finally calmed down, then got up and wrapped me in a quilt, then stood on the ground with his back to me and put on his clothes.

He drew the curtains of the room, turned off the light, and then opened the door and walked out. I heard him call the butler to bring in the food. The butler screamed. I heard words like "hurt", and he said Tell the butler to shut up.

I curled up in the quilt, my body was still chilling.

I don't know what's wrong with me.It's just sex. Lawyer Su said that adults will have this need, which is separate from love.I know, I am also gradually understanding, I have even been persuading myself that this is a personal choice, Zheng Ao did not hurt anyone, this is his own attitude, and outsiders have no right to interfere.

But I hate this feeling.

I hate pure sex, physical catharsis, and what I hate most is that he treats me like his bedmates.When the feeling comes, everyone takes what they need, and after they have a good time, they spread out and put on their clothes, like an animal wearing human skin, and they are strangers again.

Sometimes, when he sleeps with me at night, I will also notice it, especially when he hugs me very tightly and always bumps into each other.

I thought it was a normal physiological reaction, like I sometimes do when I get up in the morning, and it will be fine after a while.

I didn't know he did the same to me.

I know he doesn't love me.I'm not even on the list of guys he'd want to sleep with, he's so good looking that bedmates are at least close to that level.

I thought he was dependent on me as a friend.

As a result, he also wanted to sleep with me, purely physical, without any emotion.

I feel sick.

It was still very early, and I was getting hungry. The butler brought in the food himself, without looking sideways. He would probably step on my shirt when he left.

How does he see me?

Is it the same as those bed partners I used to look at Zheng Ao?

it is ridiculous.

I always thought that they all knew that Zheng Ao was not interested in me, they were just used to my company, the so-called captivity now is nothing but domineering and selfish.

But look at the butler's unsurprised look, look at the speed at which he reported to Zheng Ao after he found Wang Xian leaning on me, and look at his attitude towards me.

Zheng Yan, him, Ye Susu, Li Xiu...

They probably thought that Zheng Ao and I had slept together long ago. Li Xiu asked Zheng Ao at the beginning, "Is this considered a concubine? Is this considered stealing?" This is really a true portrayal.

He is going to get engaged to Ye Susu soon, and he still wants to sleep with me.When he really got married, I was still locked up here. One day he got interested and slept with me.

Isn't this a concubine?

I started studying at the age of four, from the orphanage to Li's family. When I was young, my grandma taught me benevolence, righteousness, propriety, wisdom and trustworthiness according to the books left by my grandfather, saying that a man should be open and frank, not allowed to bully girls, and respect the old and love the young. , and later get married and start a business.

I ended up here

I didn't want to think about it any more, and wearily shrank into the quilt, covering my face with my palms.

I could smell the blood on my fingers and I knew he was bleeding.

He told me that there should have been a fight between us.

I think, between us, perhaps we cannot avoid bloodshed after all.