like drinking ice

I was stunned.

"Why did you say that all of a sudden?" I asked her with a smile. I was afraid that her attitude would be misunderstood as a joke, so I reached out and touched the top of her head: "Did something happen?"

She shook her head.

"You are not happy here, are you?" She looked at me with tears in her eyes: "Come with me, my grandpa likes me very much, if you get engaged to me, Zheng Ao dare not do anything to you ..."

Regardless of whether her grandfather would allow an unknown person to marry his granddaughter, my principles do not allow me to use a little girl's future as a springboard in order to escape.

"You are too young," I explained to her, "You don't know what marriage means. You will meet someone who really likes you in the future, and you like him too. Only when two people have love can they get married. This must It's the only reason you get married, and nothing else."

"But I like you." She looked into my eyes and said, although her voice was not loud, and there were even tears in her eyes, but she had the unique indomitable spirit of this age.

I didn't know how to answer for a moment.

"Come with me," she begged again: "I know you don't like me, it's okay, you can find someone you like, but don't stay here, Zheng Ao treats you too badly! He is The worst person I've ever met, he's going to marry Susu, why should he lock you up..."

Even she could tell.

"Listen, Wang Xian, I know you're sincerely doing it for my own good." I saw a servant looking over here with something, and pulled Wang Xian away, knowing that we had to finish talking as soon as possible, and I didn't care about my tone: "But this is impossible. First of all, you are still too young. You can only make choices for your own life when you grow up. Remember, you are a good girl, and you will meet true love. Second, you The method is not feasible, and you should stop thinking about it. But don't worry, I won't stay here for too long, I will find a way to get out..."

I speak very fast, I don't know if Wang Xian can listen or not, but we are running out of time, the housekeeper has already walked out of the house, I think someone must have reported to him.

I grabbed Wang Xian's arm.

"Listen, if you really want me to go out, just do me a favor. Go to Guan Ying, you know? Go to Zheng Ao's grandma and tell her. Xu Lang asked her: Do you want to be Empress Lu? As long as you Just bring this sentence, don't worry about me, I'm fine."

Wang Xian obviously also saw the butler walking towards this side.

"Let's go." I let go of her hand.

She glanced at me again, and said in a crying voice, "Xu Lang."

I waved to her: "Goodbye."

The butler has come over.

"Mr. Xu." He still looked very respectful, with his hands folded in front of him, and he was dressed in a neat suit.

"Steward Yan." I looked at Wang Xian who was walking towards the door step by step.

"About the guest's question, I just talked to my husband on the phone." The butler said unhurriedly: "Sir, if it is an ordinary guest in the future, there is no need to report, and if it is a special guest like Miss Wang Xian, you need to Call him first."

I turned my head and glanced at the butler.

The butler looked upright and didn't speak.

I went back to my room, changed into a high-necked dress, and sat there until the evening.

Zheng Ao came back at night.

He has relatively good healing ability, the wound on his face seems to have been smeared with medicine, it is not obvious, but a red mark can be seen faintly, from the brow bone to the cheek, it is not known whether the eyes are injured.

He acted nonchalantly and asked me to drink soup, saying that the snow was melting for the past two days and it was very cold outside, so he asked me to keep warm.

"Have you chosen Ye Susu's dress?" I asked him.

He scooped up the soup for me with lowered eyes, without speaking.

"Zheng Ao, I thought you locked me up out of selfishness," I said to him, "Thinking about it now, you probably knew that you treated me very badly at that time, and I wouldn't want to be with you. So Lock me up and prevent me from contacting others, so that I can only get along with you. Do you think you are so smart?"

Zheng Ao glanced at me.

"That's the only way, isn't it?"

"You know it very well, don't you?" I refuted him: "The simplest truth in this world is that if you treat someone well, he will treat you well. It is you who decided to find another way."

He put down the bowl.

"If I learned how to love someone, would you stay?"

His eyes were so sincere, almost sad, that I almost believed him.

But I can't lie to myself anymore.

"Zheng Ao, you never need to learn love. If you really love someone, you will consciously treat him well." You will not marry others, you will not care about whether your efforts are rewarded, and you will not think about shutting him down. Get up and don't let others have the opportunity to treat him well, so that it won't reflect how bad you are to him.

He didn't speak.But I know, his eyes say, he's been good to me.

But he is Zheng Ao, who was born in the expectation of countless people. Since he was born, everyone and everything around him are telling him and teaching him: You are Zheng Ao, you deserve the best in the world You have the best looks and the smartest brain, so you can also have the most proud attitude and the most difficult temper.You don't need to be nice to anyone, you don't need to love anyone, because the world loves you.

It's just that I don't forgive him anymore.

How could he love someone?The posture of love is so low, but he is held in such a high position. Unless he himself is willing to fall into the dust, no one can teach him.

I won't wait.

We are dead end.

Spring is coming.

All kinds of flowers are blooming, the weather is getting warmer, and all the plants are sprouting. After a few sunny days, the last bit of snow on the eaves has melted away. The housekeeper directs the servants to take out all kinds of winter clothes and utensils to dry , the whole yard is like a sea of ​​luxury, glossy sables, dazzling white fox legs, black foxes, all kinds of exquisite small gold utensils, and a complete set of cloisonne tea sets in winter. It is said that many of these things are from Guan Ying. Dowry and later collection, it seems that the taste of the Guan family is indeed very problematic.

I moved a chair and sat in the cloister to bask in the sun. The cashmere sweater was so warm that I fell asleep.

I haven't seen a new guest for a long time.

It is said that the date of engagement with Ye's family has been fixed, the seventeenth of March in the lunar calendar, and there are still two weeks left. Although they are entertaining guests at the hotel, the elders will come to Zheng's house, and Ye Susu will also come to kowtow to Guan Ying.

Engagement is a big event, at least I have never heard of any of these people's families who regretted their marriage after getting engaged.Ning Yue's uncle, it is said that he has a girlfriend from Shanghai, who is so affectionate, and is married to someone from the Ye family, and now they are playing their own way.It is said that he even gave birth to a child outside, but he doesn't know how the woman studying abroad with him follows him without a name, how he feels, and how the child will deal with himself when he grows up.

But maybe they are used to it.

Zheng Ao and I have not spoken for a long time.

I don't know if it's because of a mood problem or a cold. I've been feeling a little lethargic these days, and I don't seem to get enough sleep. It's almost noon when I wake up.Usually he is a little lazy and unwilling to move. He said three sentences to me and I didn’t bother to reply. Over time, he got used to it. When he was free, he would sit beside me, not talking, and bask in the sun with me for a while.

The day of the engagement drew nearer.

Sometimes Zheng Ao looked at me as if he had something to say, but he didn't say anything in the end.

He has his pride.

I have mine too.

Three days before the engagement, the custom-made clothes were delivered. He stood in front of the mirror and tried them on. The housekeeper looked at him with the expression of "Mr. has finally grown up", and I read a book on the bed.The suit fits really well, the lapel collar suit, the shoulders and back lines are very nice, his figure is slender, as long as his head is raised slightly, he looks proud and reserved.

Before going to bed, he asked me: "Xu Lang, don't you want me to get engaged to Ye Susu?"

I didn't answer him.

I know he is waiting for me to say a word, he wants me to say no, he wants me to respond to him, he is such a smart person, he has to learn from others in everything he does.

But true love has no reason at all.Back then, I loved him and treated him well, but I never asked him if he wanted it. This is what love is all about.

He will never learn in his life.

I was reading Lu Xun recently. The book talked about human nature, and said that slaves think that if the master originally wanted to beat you with fifty lashes, but now they only give you ten lashes for showing mercy, the slave is very grateful and thinks that this is a good master.

He himself was going to be engaged to Ye Susu, and now he hoped that I would stop him and give him a chance to show his true love. After that, I was so moved that the previous debts were cancelled, and even the few months he locked me up were treated as an episode.

It's a pity I can't be so generous.

Two nights before the engagement, the butler had already prepared everything and was furiously decorating it. Under his command, the servants shuttled like a school of fish. There were good things everywhere, and the kitchen was constantly being airlifted. The ingredients were brought in, and I also got a little bit of light. I drank a bowl of bird's nest porridge for breakfast, and I had the engagement banquet in advance.

It wasn't until I walked through the corridor to the study that I realized where the housekeeper was so motivated.

I met Guan Ying.

In half a year, she seems to have aged a lot, but even if the beauty is old, the skeleton is still there, and the sun is already shining outside, she is still wearing a dark blue coat, with fluffy black fur at the neckline, probably mink, and her hair is coiled up , There is a trace of silver in the bun.Spring has come, but she still has the chilling aura of winter all over her body.

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But the butler obviously didn't see this, and he still reported his wise plan to her very vigorously. After getting along with her these days, I think the butler is really a simple person. He only hopes that the Zheng family will be well and orderly. , It was fun, everyone was in harmony, during the New Year and holidays, he showed off all his skills, and he did it in a lively and beautiful way, satisfying the master and admiring the servants, that is the best.

But Guan Ying obviously has no intention of being a kind elder.

Her face was frozen, and when she saw me, her eyes finally lifted.

She gave a cold smile.

"Hello, Xu Lang."