Xingchuan

Such Ling Yi is very embarrassing.

He leaned against the wall to stand firm, his cheeks and neck were completely devoid of blood, and the corners of his mouth were even more tense, as if a tendon was tearing hard.But his expression was still as stubborn and stubborn as before, as if he was asking for an answer, with the kind of determination not to give up until he reached his goal.

The former Ling Yi is back.Just like when he asked Li Xingchuan when he would accept him back then, now he still writes this love frankly on his face, regardless of who wins or loses.

"Xingchuan, I'm sorry for what happened back then." He lowered his hands and clenched them into fists, "But I'm serious about you, and I never thought of playing tricks on you."

Not before, not now.

"Seriously..." Hearing these three words, Li Xingchuan's arm muscles tightened, and the gray and cold tone on his face returned.The relationship that has been inseparable for many days has accumulated to this point, and it has reached the verge of explosion.

He straightened up to leave, but Ling Yi held him back: "You don't believe me?"

"Why should I believe it?"

The sky was getting dark, and there was no light in the corner.

Ling Yi forcefully confronted him face to face: "If you don't believe me, why do you come to see me every day, why are you so nervous about me?"

Li Xingchuan's breath pressed against Ling Yi's face.He is magnanimous, but it is the matter of feelings, and he is always competing with his self-esteem.The injury five years ago was really serious, and it took a lot of work just to recover, and he was not sure if he could handle it again.

He was silent.

"I'm asking you!" Ling Yi's voice suddenly turned up, rarely excited, "Why are you nervous about me, why do you get so angry when someone hugs me?"

Just like when I saw the news, I was so sad that I couldn't help but want to ask questions.

The air was deathly still.

After a while, Ling Yi inhaled lightly: "I know why, Li Xingchuan."

It was the first time I called this name so solemnly.

"Because you want to forget me but you can't do it, no matter how hard you try, can't you?" He raised his finger and poked his wound hard, "Because I don't listen to you here, no matter how I order myself not to think about it , ordered myself to forget about this person, but I still couldn’t do it, right?”

Li Xingchuan pushed him away, but his arm was firmly held by him.

"Guess how I know." With red eyes fixed on the face in front of me, "Because I'm like you, I can't forget it even if I want to. No matter how many days or years have passed, I just can't do it. You can't forget it, can you?"

Because of the extreme forbearance and suppression, the voice was so hoarse that the original timbre could not be heard.

"When I think that you are still in this world, I feel that I have to meet again no matter what, even if you are already with other people, it doesn't matter. I don't even dare to die until the day we meet again, isn't that true?"

Li Xingchuan was stiff all over, standing motionless in the dark like a sculpture.

"Speak!" Ling Yi pushed him to shake slightly, "Why don't you speak? Are you still remembering me, or can't let go of the past, do you want to hear me say I'm sorry? Well, I'm sorry, Li Xingchuan, I'm sorry If you want to hear me, just say it once. Sorry, sorry, is that enough? I can say it again if it’s not enough, right—”

The trembling lips were tightly blocked.

Li Xingchuan turned his head to kiss him, pressed his hands on his left and right ears, and let out hot breath.Ling Yi couldn't even stand still, and he clenched his fists with five fingers to push his shoulder desperately, but he remained motionless.

It's not like that, it's not like that.Ling Yi's nerves were burning, and she bit her teeth suddenly——

Instant bloody taste.

He pushed Li Xingchuan away with all his strength, and his pale fingertips were extremely forceful: "What do you mean, what do you think in your heart, tell me!" The emotion was so strong that he could no longer suppress it, his voice trembled because of the ruthlessness, and his breath became more and more breathless Quickly, "Say it, say you still hate me, say you just can't let me go, say you—"

The conversation was cut off abruptly, and he suddenly bent down and opened his mouth violently to breathe.

In just a few seconds, his face was flushed red, the veins on his forehead were painfully pulled, and the two arms supporting his knees were able to hold back his trembling.

"What's the matter, are you uncomfortable?" Li Xingchuan's expression changed.

Ling Yi panted until the blue veins on his forehead protruded, and he had no time to answer his voice, and the skin on the back of his neck was as white as ice.Li Xingchuan quickly hugged him onto the bed, and hurriedly reached out to ring the bell.

In less than half a minute, the doctors and nurses arrived, and Cheng Kaiji suddenly pushed him: "Get out of the way!" Then the bed curtain was pulled tight.

After a thrilling examination and oxygen inhalation, everyone was in a mess.Fortunately, I am fine, but my mood fluctuates too much, and I need to rest well so as not to be stimulated any more.

It was already nine o'clock at night when things stabilized, and Ling Yi fell asleep, lacking energy and unwillingness to continue asking for an answer.

Li Xingchuan stayed by the bed for an hour.

The curtains in the room are tightly drawn. If you deliberately ignore the smell of disinfectant, you will have the feeling of returning to the rental house when you close your eyes.

At ten o'clock, he was politely asked to leave by the nurse.

Back home, Xie Siyun was lying on the sofa in the living room without even turning on the light.

He walked over and lifted the man up.

Xie Siyun was half-drunk, noticed his expression and the wound on his lips after a low murmur, and sat cross-legged beside him rather gloatingly.

"Fucked up?"

There is half a pack of cigarettes left on the coffee table.

Li Xingchuan took out one, threw the cigarette case back on Si Yun, and silently opened the lighter cover.

The flame flickered on and off between his fingers, Xie Siyun bit the cigarette and leaned over, took a puff before slowly saying: "I knew you couldn't handle it, so I made a special trip here to wait for you, you really won't give Dad any surprises."

Li Xingchuan was not in the mood to joke.

After the smoke, the faces of the two people became more and more blurred.

Xie Siyun leaned back, raised his head, and ignored the ashes on his face, "I can't help it, I'll explain it to you in two days, if Ling Yi can't believe it, can others not trust me?"

Li Xingchuan lowered his head and looked at Huo Huo: "He can't trust you the most."

"That's not my problem. If you can't even trust me, it can only mean that Ling Yi cares too much about you. It doesn't matter if it's me or someone else."

Cigarette has been clamped in the hand did not smoke.Li Xingchuan asked in a low voice, "Does he care about me?"

Care about why you go.

Xie Siyun distanced himself a little, and was very serious, "I don't know why he left, but I know he cared about you very much back then."

Paused: "As for now, it's up to you to ask yourself."

Li Xingchuan didn't express his opinion.

Xie Siyun got up and glanced at him, then strode into the master bedroom with a cigarette in his mouth.He opened the closet door with both hands, squatted down and lifted the hem of the layered windbreaker, then pulled out a cardboard box from the corner, and dragged it back to the living room.

The bottom of the box grinds all the way on the floor, scratching the eardrums.After arriving in front of Li Xingchuan, he tossed his hand, and the things inside made a lot of noise.

"You've been hiding these broken paintings for so many years, and they're all yellow? Li Xingchuan, the paintings are for people to see, not for you to hide in the cabinet to get moldy!"

"If you still treat me as a friend, then listen to me, show these paintings to Ling Yi, and tell him that you Li Xingchuan picked up these paintings at the expense of digging out the trash for him, and tell him that you were sick for half a month because of him. He drank too much and called his name all night, had a fever and had to go to the rented house to wait for him, sold his motorcycle to raise his travel expenses, and after three or five years, he still suffered from insomnia because of him, and even his own mother You can break up. You tell him all these things, admit that you love him so much, and ask him if he wants to be with you again, is it difficult?"

The canvases have been reframed one by one, and because they are carefully kept, there are no defects except for the slightly dark color.Like the dusty feelings, after the baptism of the wind and frost years, there is an extra tortuous and moving one.

Xie Siyun was still yelling: "Li Xingchuan, what's so great about you, your dignity is worth money and Ling Yi's dignity is not? Why can't you put down your dignity to find him when he keeps coming to you again and again! He refuses to start over with you, so what? Will you, Li Xingchuan, lose a piece of meat or die if you are rejected once?"

After venting, he fell sideways on the sofa, "If you don't listen to me this time, I won't care about you anymore if you regret it."

Then get confused.

Li Xingchuan reached out and pulled out the cigarette butt between Siyun's fingers, and put it in the ashtray.After a while of silence, he put the box in the corner, blowing away the soot that accidentally fell on the painting, and then went to the balcony to smoke in silence.

In the thick night, accompanied by several sleepless lights.

The smoke spiraled up slowly, and many memories flooded into my mind without permission.The things that I thought I had forgotten, those entanglements, those side-by-side struggles, reckless promises, mixed with the smell of cigarettes and the coldness of the night, all turned into that thin figure on the hospital bed.

Five years have passed in a flash, and no one will believe me if I say there is no resentment.

The more Ling Yi didn't take the initiative to explain, the more Li Xingchuan cared about leaving without saying goodbye.Back then when he was a college student, it was the first time he understood what it was like to truly love someone, and this sincerity was trampled to pieces by the other person.

For three whole days, Li Xingchuan did not contact Ling Yi again.

Three days later he drove out with the box of paintings in the trunk.

It was noon, but the sky was a bit gloomy, with dense clouds.The car was parked closest to the inpatient department. He looked up at the fourth floor before taking the box and locking the car to go upstairs.

Get out of the elevator and pass by the toll hall, where there is a long queue of people, and several self-service payment machines are lined up in the corner.After walking a few steps, he stopped again, turned around and came to the machine, inserted the card to check the balance in the hospital account.

A total of 55 yuan was deposited in two times before, surgery plus hospitalization, rehabilitation care, and today there are 28 yuan left.

He added another 20 in.

Just like before, he doesn't talk much, but he is always willing to do his best to take care of Ling Yi's life.It's just that Ling Yi is very independent. In the past, he would rather work than spend his money. I'm afraid it's the same today.So he directly deposited the money into this card, and all the hospital expenses were debited from the card.

Holding a cardboard box full of paintings in this kind of place, it's hard not to attract attention.Someone on the road looked inside curiously, and asked, "Did you buy this painting to decorate the ward?"

Li Xingchuan recalled the day when he picked up the painting and took a taxi back to the dormitory. The youngest asked him the same question.

"Second brother, did you buy these paintings to decorate our dormitory?"

At that time, Li Xingchuan ignored him, just put the box under Xie Siyun's table, and said to him: "When the third child comes back, tell him that the painting belongs to me, and ask him to keep it for me. I will come back to pick it up later, and there will be one picture missing. Will not work."

The youngest grinned: "I see, this was drawn by Ling Yi."

Everyone could see that he was only nervous about Ling Yi.Ai Wu Ji Wu is also concerned about Ling Yi's works.Maybe he still thinks in his heart that Ling Yi will become famous and start a family in the future, become some kind of international master, and occupy a place in the world of talented people.

Forget it, I'm too lazy to laugh at him, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

As we got closer to the ward, a little laughter blew away the memories.Li Xingchuan collected his attention, hugged the box tightly and walked over.

Probably because the sunlight is not good enough, so the lights in the room are turned on in broad daylight.Ling Yi turned her back to the door, with her hands cut behind her back, and she was leaning slightly to watch something.

Although he couldn't see his face, he could feel that he was smiling because the fingers behind him were gently moving each other.

The nerves that had been tensed all the way relaxed, and Li Xingchuan wanted to go in.

In the next second, he heard him shouting, "Doctor Cheng, come and see."

The footsteps stopped.

Cheng Kaiji walked out from a blind spot, all his attention was on Ling Yi.He also bent down, with a gentle side face, "What are you looking at?"

"Look at this one." Ling Yi's voice was very shallow, floating in the air, and floated to the door, "It seems to like this light very much, and it swam over as soon as I turned on the light."

"Really, I'll try." Cheng Kaiji turned a light switch repeatedly with a half-smile.

The small aquarium in front of the two of them was bright and dark, dark and bright again.

He didn't stop pulling it a few times, Ling Yi let out a "hey" and patted the back of his hand, "Don't toss them."

The action is not out of bounds, but it is extraordinarily dazzling.

Head to head, talking, but there was a series of bangs from the door.

Turning around, I saw the cardboard box thrown down by someone.

"Where did you get the painting?" Cheng Kaiji asked.

It's all my own, how can I not recognize it.

Ling Yi was stunned for a moment, and immediately walked over quickly, chasing after him in a hurry: "Xingchuan—"

From a distance, I saw a tall figure in a dark coat.

"Xingchuan!"

He tried his best to catch up, but his physical condition was too poor, and he began to hold his heart and pant for breath after a short distance.Cheng Kaiji came from behind, passed him and strode forward to chase him, and finally stopped him in the toll hall.

"Li Xingchuan!"

The moment he turned around, Li Xingchuan received a solid punch in the face.

The crowd exclaimed.

The blow came unexpectedly, Li Xingchuan was unprepared, and his head was thrown to one side.But after all, he was from a military camp, and after seeing who the attacker was, he immediately raised his arms to fight back——

"Do you know that he has been waiting for you these days?"

The fist stopped in mid-air.

In front of many onlookers around, Cheng Kaiji asked in a deep voice: "What do you mean by coming and leaving!"

His whole body was full of anger, and the gentle man was sometimes pushed into a hurry.

Li Xingchuan suppressed the fire, his face livid: "I warn you, don't mind our business." Otherwise, even Ling Yi's attending doctor would not be polite anymore.

"If I were Ling Yi, I would never choose you. You have no feelings for him at all."

As soon as the voice fell off the collar, someone grabbed it tightly: "You said you don't care about our business, what do you know?"

Cheng Kaiji's face became more and more purple, and his chest was heavy and he was panting.

After staring at him coldly for a while, Li Xingchuan let go of his right hand.

When I turned around, I heard behind me say: "At least I know that Ling Yi has been in prison."

The footsteps suddenly stopped!

"He has been in prison, not for one or two months, but for three years." Cheng Kaiji paused every word, "And his hand was beaten so badly that he couldn't hold a pen. Back then, I—"

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly heard someone not far away urgently calling for help: "Doctor, doctor! Come here! Someone has fainted here!"

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