Xingchuan

"Come and help me!"

Cheng Kaiji who heard the shout froze for a moment, then hurriedly turned back following the sound.

Oops.

"Give way, please make way."

The quarrel was so excited just now, they completely forgot about Ling Yi who had been late to catch up.

Something must have happened.

He ran back as fast as he could.But before he ran far, someone ran past him and left him behind in an instant.

"Step aside!"

The distance from the charging hall to the ward is only tens of meters away, Li Xingchuan's face is like black iron, and his heart beats faster than ever!

Looking away from the crowd, Ling Yi curled up sideways on the cold floor, his face was whiter than the wall, his brows were frowned in pain, and his consciousness was blurred.There were a few passers-by standing around, wanting to help but not daring to do it. Doctors and nurses were also rushing here from the opposite side.

"Ling Yi!"

Li Xingchuan ran over, and while calling his name, passed his hands through his neck and knees, and hugged him horizontally in the blink of an eye.

"Ling Yi, Ling Yi!"

It was too light, and the person in my arms didn't weigh at all, as if it would turn into a wisp of ashes and float away at any moment.With his heart beating wildly, all the sounds around him disappeared, only the weak breathing remained, piercing his ears like a needle, pulling his nervous heartbeat every time.

Anxiously carrying him back to the ward, the doctors and nurses arrived one after another immediately and blasted him out of the room.

"Go out and wait! Don't get in the way of our rescue."

All kinds of cold instruments were quickly pushed to the side of the hospital bed, the rollers slid across the floor firmly, and the steel tray rattled against the instruments, stimulating the already fragile peripheral nerves.

Li Xingchuan stood guard outside the door, with his elbows propped on his knees, and the veins in his hands hanging between his knees were exposed.

These hands have held guns, snatched knives, climbed ropes, and handed over poison.There has never been a time like this time, I was so scared that I couldn't control my movements, and I tried desperately to grab something but couldn't hold it.

The corridor was surprisingly quiet, so quiet that people panicked.

After sitting on pins and needles for a while, Li Xingchuan suddenly stood up!After walking back and forth in the corridor for a few times, he turned around abruptly, propped his hands on the window sill, and held the metal slide above with his ten fingers, and he didn't even notice the bleeding from his fingertips.

Ling Yi has been in prison.

Three years.

When did it happen, after they separated?

Many mysteries that I didn't want to think about and couldn't figure out in the past began to be slowly blown away by the wind, revealing the cruel truth behind the thick fog.

Be sure to find out what's going on as soon as possible.

Li Xingchuan took out his mobile phone and wanted to contact his acquaintances in the procuratorate to help find out what happened back then, but the moment the screen lit up, he saw a missed call and an unread voice message.

During the time when he was fighting with Cheng Kaiji, Ling Yi seemed to be so uncomfortable that he couldn't walk, maybe leaning on the wall, maybe propping up a chair, and made a difficult call to him.

No one picked up.

Then another voice was sent.

He breathed very slowly, his chest hurt like a sharp knife, and he finally opened it after a long while.

Weak panting, breathless voice.

"Xingchuan, why don't you go now, I still have something to tell you."

He suddenly turned off the phone.But the indelible echoes in my mind are all reprimands and lingering at him.

After standing there for an unknown amount of time, Cheng Kaiji, who had finished saving people, came over and told him that it would take two hours for Ling Yi to wake up.

"I'll go see him!"

"Wait." Cheng Kaiji stretched out his hand to stop him, "I'll show you something first."

The sky was overcast and the corridor was dark.

The two came to Cheng's office.

The key opened the drawer, Cheng Kaiji pulled out a notebook from the bottom shelf, and threw it over, "The thing I want to show you is on top." Then he sat on the swivel chair, rubbed his face vigorously, and stopped looking at Li Xingchuan.

The door was not closed, and there were footsteps passing by outside from time to time, and there were faint cries of children.

Li Xingchuan picked it up.

The notebook is quite old, and the corners are folded up. The title page has Cheng Kaiji's name on it.But the handwriting on each subsequent page is different, and the number of words is also more or less.

They are all messages, thanks, and emotions from patients to him.When turning two-thirds of the way, the fingers suddenly stopped.

A short sentence, written in the center of a page.The handwriting is very naive, and the attitude seems to be correct, but the strokes are so shallow that there is no strength at all.

"Thank you, Dr. Cheng, I think I will live a good life."

There is no signature, let alone a date.

These are not Ling Yi's words, but Li Xingchuan just has an intuition that this is what Ling Yi wrote.

There was no sound of pages turning for a long while.

Cheng Kaiji turned his head, took a look, and said indifferently: "This is written by him with his left hand, you can recognize it."

Li Xingchuan frowned: "You healed his hand back then?"

"No, I'm not an orthopedic doctor."

"Then what does he mean by this sentence?"

The room suddenly fell silent.

The corridor was also silent, almost empty.

Cheng Kaiji turned his head and looked out the window, as if he didn't want to say anything.It took a long time before he turned back, his eyes fell on the opened page, and his chest sank slowly.

"When he came to the emergency room in the middle of the night, I was also on duty that night. I didn't pay attention at first. When I went out to buy coffee, I saw him sitting outside in handcuffs, accompanied by the police, so I took a second look. About 5 minutes before and after, buy He still hasn't left after coffee."

"We are the counterpart hospital of Linjiang No. [-] Prison. There are inmates seeking medical treatment every once in a while. You know the kind of people they have committed crimes. They usually tuck their handcuffs in their sleeves and try not to attract attention. People pay attention. But Ling Yi is different from them."

Speaking of this, he paused, and changed into a solemn tone.

"From the time I left to the time I came back, Ling Yi kept her head down, her eyes staring down, her wrists were rubbing against the handcuffs, and her movements were very slow. At that time, I was thinking that the right hand was the one that wrapped the gauze, and of course it was the right hand that hurt. Why did he do it? Move your left wrist."

Haven't figured it out yet, someone has already guessed what it is.

Li Xingchuan's forehead tensed.

Cheng Kaiji looked at him from bottom to top: "Later I understood, he wanted to commit suicide."

Just a few words, loud and clear.

The dank wind came in through the crack of the window, and Li Xingchuan shivered all over his body.

"He wanted to commit suicide, but the handcuffs couldn't cut the veins in his wrists, so he was thinking about what to do. I was still young at the time, and I was more enthusiastic about treating diseases and saving lives than I am now, so I told the two policemen and called him to my place of duty. The police stood guard at the door with the door open."

"We only talked for less than a quarter of an hour. He didn't tell me how he hurt his hand. He only said that he likes to paint, but he might not be able to paint in the future. He felt very hopeless."

"It's hard for others to help him with this kind of thing. I just enlightened a few words. Thinking about it now, I was at best a listener. But before he left, he still wrote this line, which made me feel relieved. He said He still has someone he has to meet, and he will live on until then."

Having said that, Cheng Kaiji took off his glasses, lowered his head and pinched the base of his nose, feeling very tired.

"Who knew that he was injured so badly again this time. I thought he was doing better, but I didn't expect..."

I didn't finish my sentence because I couldn't bear it.

The snow is pressing down on the branches, although they are not covered with mud.

Ling Yi just wanted to live a good life.

The rain in the morning endured to the limit, and it finally started pattering down, and slowly slid across the window like tears.

Li Xingchuan was silent for a while, then walked out of the office in a daze.He almost knocked over a nurse in the corridor. Seeing his appearance, the other party was so frightened that he kept asking him if he was not feeling well, and why his face looked like he had a serious illness.

He waved his hand and left alone.

I wanted to smoke at first, but when I went downstairs, I found that it was raining, and within a few minutes I was completely soaked.His lips were purple, his hands and feet were stiff, and he didn't know whether it was due to the cold or something else.

He looked like a lost soul, dripping from his hair.The acquaintances sent the investigation results as quickly as possible, and the details would take time, but it was confirmed that there was indeed a person named Ling Yi among the inmates who served in prison in those years.

After reading the message, the phone couldn't be used anyway, and he threw it to pieces immediately.

Walking to the black bench, he slumped down as if exhausted, bowed his body to support his knees, and let the rain hit his back.

The wind can tear off his proud skin, but the rain can't wash away the debts of many years.He always thought that he was riddled with wounds, but in fact, the one who was truly riddled with wounds could only live to this day by clenching his teeth all the time.

This sitting is two hours.

Ling Yi was still awake when she returned to the ward.

Doctors and nurses came in and out, with chaotic footsteps, but he was quiet and pale on the hospital bed.Li Xingchuan was covered in water, he didn't dare to get close, but stood far away.

The silence of this moment is breathless.

He was always suspicious that Ling Yi wouldn't be able to wake up, and the more he watched, the more his heart sank, and he almost sent himself into the eighteenth level of hell.

Seeing him like this, the nurse passing by took a breath, frowned and brought a towel, "Punish yourself or who? This is a hospital. How many people can't do it if they want to live an extra day? You still have to risk your own health." joke."

Li Xingchuan didn't answer because he saw bloodless fingertips moving in the light blue hospital gown.

After another 2 minutes, Ling Yi opened his eyes.

Wei Wei felt short of breath, but it was relieved.

The lights are too bright.

After getting used to it for a while, he saw a tall figure standing in front of the window, blocking the light and the rain, looking extremely embarrassed, with broad arms but still broad.

"Xingchuan?"

As soon as I opened my mouth, I found that my voice was completely hoarse, there was only breath in my throat, and my vocal cords seemed to be on strike.

But he was sure the person on the other side had heard it.

Li Xingchuan's body trembled imperceptibly, but he didn't move.

Seeing this, the nurse walked out silently, closed the door for them, and left the room to them in silence.

But there was still the sound of rain, and the tears hadn't run out.

There are no faces, only silhouettes.Ling Yi looked in that direction: "You didn't leave?"

After being tortured by this person and this feeling, he woke up without any resentment at all.

"Why don't you come here?"

Li Xingchuan lowered his head and leaned his back against the window: "I have water on my body, so leave me alone."

Ling Yi listened quietly, and said softly for a while, "So it's raining."

He thought that Li Xingchuan didn't leave because of the rain.

"What's wrong with me?"

"You fainted."

"It's okay."

Li Xingchuan was silent, and replied "It doesn't matter", and then slowly sat down against the wall, with his head hanging between his open knees, and his fingers inserted into the wet hair.

Ling Yi was stunned: "Xingchuan?"

"Don't worry about me," the voice came from under his knees, touching the ground, very deep, "I'll just take it easy."

Li Xingchuan clutched his hair tightly, the knuckles between the black hair were protruding and turning white.

The room was quiet on the surface, but there seemed to be thousands of words in the air, and the silent emotions were so thick that they surged.

After a long while, a suppressed voice slowly came out, as if someone's heart had been smashed, and the pain was so extreme that it was hard to speak.

Ling Yi could no longer remain silent.

"Xingchuan, are you crying?"

What's the matter?

"Is there something wrong with my illness? Don't worry, tell me, I'm fine." Instead, he comforted others, "My own body knows it, and Dr. Cheng told me that it might not be so easy to fully recover. , I am mentally prepared."

Li Xingchuan shook his head vigorously.The trousers were still dripping, and there were water stains around the leather shoes. It was hard to tell which was rain and which was tears.

"What's the matter?"

It took a long time to hear a response.

"Ling Yi, Cheng Kaiji is right, I am not worthy of your love." Li Xingchuan had never said such a thing.

Ling Yi was completely stunned: "What do you mean by that, what do you mean not worthy of my love?"

Does loving someone need others to judge whether it is worth it or not?

Li Xingchuan didn't answer.He hung his head, breathing heavily.After a while, he realized that Ling Yi hadn't made a sound for a long time, and suddenly became nervous.

Looking up, Ling Yi closed her eyes.

He hurriedly got up and walked over, just as he leaned over and called "Ling Yi", he was suddenly slapped across the face——

"Li Xingchuan, you bastard."

Ling Yi's eyes were red, and there was stubbornness in the hurt eyes, and the black pupils were shining brightly.

The slap was so light that it could be ignored, but Li Xingchuan turned his face away.Ling Yi suddenly turned her back and pulled the quilt over her shoulders: "You can go when the rain stops."

Together they are silent in time.

After a long time, the rain stopped.

The people behind them didn't move.

Ling Yi asked, "Why don't you leave yet?"

Li Xingchuan's voice was hoarse: "I will never leave again."

Ling Yi moved his shoulders, as if he wanted to say something, but finally fell silent.

That night Li Xingchuan slept on a plastic chair in the corridor.

His body was as hot as charcoal, but his mind was extremely clear.

For some reason, no one said no.The doctor didn't, the nurse didn't, and neither did Ling Yi.

The corridor was quiet, and everyone seemed to be exhausted. They tacitly decided to leave all their debts and cares in the rainy night, and wait for the dawn and the sun to shine again.

It was almost a night of insomnia, and he finally fell asleep when the dawn dawned.

In just two or three hours, footsteps began to sound around, and it was the nurses on the morning shift who were making preparations.Li Xingchuan slowly opened his eyes, and as soon as he moved, he found that there was an extra dry coat on his body.

The author says:

Pay attention to the author's column, so that you can receive reminders when you open a pit in the future.Another note: "The branches are low under the snow, although they are low, they will not stick to the mud." From Zhu Yuanzhang's "Snow Bamboo"