Turns Out I'm Crazy

Lu Zhengfei never dreamed that the scene where he and Chen Qianqing were eating cake in the courtyard was the last meeting between him and Chen Qianqing in the past few years.

During the three years of parting, the clearest image in Lu Zhengfei's mind was Chen Qianqing sitting on a swing, looking ahead silently, cherry blossom petals falling from the tree, some fell on Chen Qianqing's hair, he stretched out his hand, pinched Take a piece, and then gently blow it away.

Some things, when you thought it would never happen, it still develops quietly according to the established track.

Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang did not die on the way to see Chen Qianqing, but on the way to see Chen Qianqing off.Lu Zhengfei was not imprisoned by his family for forcibly coming out of the closet, but he was still imprisoned for three years because of the exposure of his affair with Chen Qianqing.

Chen Qianqing was sitting by the window of the house, watching Lu Zhengfei get into the car sent by Huang Yuping, and then Han Huaiyun's voice sounded behind him, he said: "Mr. Chen, hello, I am Han Huaiyun."

Chen Qianqing turned her head and looked at Han Huaiyun: "OK."

What the real Chen Qianqing did back then, Chen Qianqing is very clear, because he investigated all the things Chen Qianqing did three years later.

To put it bluntly, the real Chen Qianqing thought about living the life of an ordinary person.Get a good job, get a girlfriend, have a baby, and grow old.

Han Huaiyun said: "Do you agree with my proposal?"

Chen Qianqing said, "I agree."

Han Huaiyun's condition to Chen Qianqing was similar to what he talked about when he came to Chen Qianqing. In a nutshell, he would give Chen Qianqing a sum of money, arrange a psychological treatment institution for him, and even go through the admission procedures abroad.

Chen Qianqing was wearing a white sweater and slowly stirred the coffee in front of him with a spoon in his hand. He said, "I want to go back to China."

Han Huaiyun has no reason to disagree.What Lu Zhengfei did was too obvious. His family would never tolerate what he did. Playing with men and falling in love with men are two completely different concepts.

Knowing that Han Huaiyun would agree, Chen Qianqing casually glanced at the courtyard outside the window, where the sun was shining brightly and the spring was just right.

The next day, Chen Qianqing returned home.

For Chen Qianqing now, the most terrifying thing is that he has no goals.He didn't understand what he wanted to do at all, or even the meaning of his rebirth-of course, if suffering pain was a meaning.

Han Huaiyun represented Lu Chongqian's will, so he generously gave Chen Qianqing a large sum of money, which was more than what they agreed on at the beginning.

Han Huaiyun even apologized to Chen Qianqing for Lu Chongqian.Chen Qianqing listened and listened, until Han Huaiyun finished explaining the matter and was about to leave, he asked Chen Qianqing: "Don't you care what happened to Lu Zhengfei?"

Chen Qianqing raised her eyes and looked over, still silent.

Sometimes silence is an answer, Han Huaiyun sighed: "He was broken by his father yesterday."

Chen Qianqing said: "You should go."

Han Huaiyun stopped talking and turned to leave. He was now completely convinced that Chen Qianqing didn't like Lu Zhengfei anymore.

Chen Qianqing sat in the room for a long time, until he felt a dull pain in his bones, so he changed his position.

If this body was not his own, he might have chosen to die long ago.

No matter how painful, no matter how desperate, the sun still rises as usual, and life is still how to live.

Chen Qianqing didn't contact anyone after returning to China, and just found a job as a clerk in a company.With the money Han Huaiyun gave him, as long as he doesn't squander it, this life is enough, but he also knows his mental state. If he is bored alone for a long time, he is really not sure if he will die at home like this one day .

Without a college degree, Chen Qianqing found a job similar to that of a receptionist. The salary was not high, but it was quite easy.

He didn't go back to city a or city b, but just bought the fastest train ticket and went to a completely strange city.

Han Huaiyun arranged psychological treatment for Chen Qianqing once a week. Chen Qianqing went there once, and never went again.Because he couldn't confess his true thoughts to the psychiatrist, he could only remain silent. Facing the psychiatrist's inquiries and kind conversations, he just sat there without saying a word.

During her work in City D, Chen Qianqing met Wang Wulin several times.

The first time, Chen Qianqing didn't pay much attention to it, but in the next few encounters, Chen Qianqing realized that he really couldn't escape such things as fate.

It was purely a coincidence that Wang Wulin came to City D.His younger sister Wang Wuxiao fell in love with a man - she said she was in love, but it was more like she couldn't ask for it. The man was from D City, so Wang Wulin often went to D City to arrest people, but unexpectedly, he met Chen Qianqing several times.

Wang Wulin has retired and started to accept family affairs. At first, he wondered if Chen Qianqing deliberately designed the encounter, but when he found that Chen Qianqing often pretended not to see him or walked around him, he felt that Chen Qianqing probably had a relationship with him. He doubted too much...

Since it is not a conspiracy, it is fate.Wang Wulin knew about Lu Zhengfei's messes, so he felt a little sympathy for Chen Qianqing.

Later, Chen Qianqing figured it out, since she couldn't resist fate, then enjoy it.

When Wang Wulin was in City D, he would invite Chen Qianqing to drink tea.

Chen Qianqing had nothing to do anyway, so she accompanied Wang Wulin to bask in the sun and eat typical dishes.Wang Wulin didn't talk much, and Chen Qianqing didn't talk much, so the two of them would often sit for an afternoon without saying a word.

Wang Wulin admired Chen Qianqing very much. He felt that without Lu Zhengfei, Chen Qianqing probably wouldn't be in the situation he is today.Someone who is smart and quiet is always more popular than someone who is dumb and loud.

As a result, one day, Wang Wulin suddenly called Chen Qianqing, and he said, "Chen Qianqing, be careful recently."

Chen Qianqing: "Huh?"

Wang Wulin said: "Lu Zhengfei escaped from home, he should come looking for you."

Chen Qianqing was stunned for a moment: "He escaped? How did he escape?" When he confronted his family head-on, his father arranged for two security guards to follow him, guarding the door even when going to the bathroom, escape?Think beautifully.

Wang Wulin said, "I don't know about that."

Chen Qianqing hung up the phone, and after thinking about it, she realized that there was only one way for Lu Zhengfei to escape - that is to give in.In fact, Lu Zhengfei and Lu Zhongqian had the same personality. They were terribly stubborn. When they faced each other, neither of them could compromise—until Lu Zhengfei became smarter.

It's not halfway through this time, how did Lu Zhengfei realize it? The butterfly effect that Chen Qianqing feels is completely inexplicable.

Not long after Wang Wulin hung up the phone, Han Huaiyun, whom he hadn't contacted for a long time, called, and he said, "Mr. Chen, hello, I'm Han Huaiyun."

Still the old-fashioned opening remarks, Chen Qianqing said: "Is there something wrong?"

Han Huaiyun said: "Mr. Lu may come back to see you soon, if you see him, can you call me?"

Chen Qianqing said: "Don't you plan to send someone to follow me?"

Han Huaiyun laughed and said, "Mr. Chen, everyone is a law-abiding citizen."

Chen Qianqing also smiled, and after hanging up the phone, he walked into the kitchen.

The fish has just been bought, and its mouth is still opening and closing.Chen Qianqing skillfully cut open the fish, removed the scales and gills, chopped them into chunks, and marinated them with salt and chili.

The vegetables are pak choi, remove the rotten leaves and put them in boiling water to prepare the soup.

A person's life is very simple, Chen Qianqing feels that he can live a good life, although, he feels more and more that his soul is drifting to an unknown place.

It's been a full year since leaving Lu Zhengfei, and it's been another summer. Chen Qianqing has gotten used to living alone, and she's used to it, looking at the face in the mirror that should be familiar, but is becoming more and more unfamiliar.

Some people may ask, why do you feel strange about the face that grows on your body?Chen Qianqing himself didn't know, all he knew was that he couldn't remember the real Chen Qianqing's expression at first.On his face, there was only indifference and calmness left, and there was nothing that could attract him.

So for Lu Zhengfei, does he still love this person?

After Chen Qianqing finished his dinner, it began to rain heavily in City D. While cleaning up the dishes, he listened to the rumbling thunder outside the window, feeling quite comfortable.

After washing the dishes and watching TV for a while, Chen Qianqing went to bed and got ready for sleep.

Insomnia is still bothering Chen Qianqing, but compared with before, he can only sleep for ten minutes a day. Now he can sleep for two or three hours.

The bedside lamp was left on, and the small bedroom was filled with orange light.

Chen Qianqing stared at the ceiling above her head, and began to recall what clothes the strangers he met today wore and what they said.

Time passed bit by bit, and the mobile phone on the bedside suddenly rang.

Chen Qianqing picked it up and looked at it. It was an unfamiliar number.

It seems that the moment you see the number, you already know who it is.

Chen Qianqing picked it up, as expected, it was the voice of the fugitive, he was panting, he seemed very tired, he said: "Qianqing, Qianqing..."

Chen Qianqing listened quietly.

The voice of the fugitive was trembling, and he said, "Qianqing, I escaped, and I'm just downstairs from you, can you come down and see me?"

A thunder suddenly exploded.

Chen Qianqing said: "I'm already asleep."

The fugitive said, "Come and see me, okay? I'm right by the window... Qianqing..."

Chen Qianqing said: "It's thundering, I'll hang up first."

Then, he hung up the phone and turned off the phone.

The pouring rain seemed to crush the whole world, Chen Qianqing slowly sat up from the bed, walked to the window, and looked out the window silently.

He lives on the third floor. At this time, a person is standing in the open space downstairs without an umbrella, like a wet chicken.

Chen Qianqing picked up the phone again, turned it on, and sent a text message to Han Huaiyun: He is downstairs at my house.

After sending out, he turned around and went back to the house, and lay back on the bed.