Turns Out I'm Crazy

On the second day after arriving in Country Z, Lu Zhengfei arranged for Chen Qianqing to have a comprehensive psychological examination.

Facing the psychiatrist and some professional tests, Chen Qianqing was very cooperative.

As an accompanying family member, Lu Zhengfei was also asked some questions about Chen Qianqing.

According to Xu Shaoren's observation of Chen Qianqing and some situations Lu Zhengfei described to him, Xu Shaoren guessed that Chen Qianqing should not be the master of this body.But in general, split personality is accompanied by a series of sequelae such as amnesia.In Lu Zhengfei's description, Chen Qianqing did not have this situation.

After the results of the diagnosis came out, Xu Shaoren made a mistake in his guess. Chen Qianqing did not have a split personality, but a depressive disorder—commonly known as depression.

Depression can be said to be a relatively common disease that appears in everyone's sights. The cause of depression is still unclear, but when depression is severe, hallucinations, delusions and other symptoms that appeared in Chen Qianqing will indeed appear. situation.

Chen Qianqing accepted the result calmly.

He had already noticed that his mental state was not right, but he had been suppressing it all the time. It was not until the deaths of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang that his symptoms broke out completely, so that he could not control his behavior and thoughts at all.

The doctor prescribed some common medicines for Lu Zhengfei, and then gave some suggestions about Chen Qianqing.

For many people who don't understand, depression is more like a disease acquired for the sake of being fashionable. From the perspective of normal people, there are so many things to be sad about. As long as you are positive, you will always come out.

In fact, this is not the case at all. Only people who suffer from depression understand how hopeless it is.It's as if all your joy, all the things that can bring you happiness, are gone, your positive, positive emotions are all sucked in by something like a black hole, and these emotions are still leaving you body of.

Fortunately, unfortunately, the diagnosis showed that Chen Qianqing, who was suffering from depression, had no tendency to self-harm.At least in the test and the questioning of Lu Zhengfei, this did not happen.

The current diagnosis given by the doctor is moderate depression, hallucinations, auditory hallucinations, accompanied by insomnia, and medication and psychotherapy can be given.

But psychiatric drugs are usually dependent. Chen Qianqing asked about the side effects and asked Lu Zhengfei that he would not take medicine, but only receive psychological treatment.

Lu Zhengfei wanted to persuade Chen Qianqing, but seeing his stubborn gaze, he fell silent again.

The two of them had a terrifying tacit understanding in some aspects. Lu Zhengfei found that sometimes a look from Chen Qianqing could let him understand what the person in front of him was thinking.

Lu Zhengfei wanted to persuade him, but he couldn't say anything. In the end, Chen Qianqing reached out and patted Lu Zhengfei's shoulder: "Don't worry, I know my own body."

Lu Zhengfei looked at Chen Qianqing and finally agreed. The most important reason why he agreed was that Chen Qianqing had no tendency to commit suicide at present. He also knew that some drugs would cause dependence and even burden on the body after use, so he thought about it several times. Under the circumstances, he agreed to Chen Qianqing's proposal.

The streets of Country Z are very clean, Chen Qianqing and Lu Zhengfei walked towards home one after the other.

After setting the time for psychological treatment, Lu Zhengfei took Chen Qianqing to a restaurant for dinner, then he asked the driver to drive the car back, and walked home with Chen Qianqing.

This villa in Country Z was a gift from Lu Zhengfei's mother for his 12th birthday. In his previous life, the real Chen Qianqing also lived here.

But then a fire broke out and the villa was burnt down.The real Chen Qianqing lost those beautiful eyes that fascinated Lu Zhengfei because of the fire.

The surrounding scenery was familiar. With the arrival of early spring, the trees began to sprout new buds. Chen Qianqing walked forward, and suddenly turned around and reached out to Lu Zhengfei who was following him.

Lu Zhengfei was taken aback for a moment, and then took Chen Qianqing's hand.This is a pair of hands belonging to a piano player. The fingers are long and slender, and the touch is soft and delicate. When you touch it, you can tell that the owner of the hands has not done heavy work. The only fly in the ointment is that the temperature of the hands is a bit cold.

Chen Qianqing turned her head and continued to walk forward. His hands were held by Lu Zhengfei, as if he had returned to a certain point in time, and the person behind him was naturally not Lu Zhengfei.

Lu Zhengfei, who was held by Chen Qianqing, was a little ecstatic. He held Chen Qianqing's hand tightly, as if holding a kite string.I am afraid that if I use too much force, the kite will fall from the sky, and I am afraid that if I hold it too lightly, the kite will fly higher and higher until it disappears without a trace.

Chen Qianqing said: "Lu Zhengfei, you like Chen Qianqing, right?"

Lu Zhengfei replied: "If your name was not Chen Qianqing, I would like you too." The voice that answered this question was young, cheerful, full of hope that had never been extinguished.

Chen Qianqing smiled: "Then do you like me now, or me before?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "I like them all."

What a clever answer, Chen Qianqing turned her head and looked at Lu Zhengfei: "Why did you break my leg before, but now you are so nice to me?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "Because I was afraid, you left me." And now - I know you will not leave me.

The smile on Chen Qianqing's face faded, and he said, "Really."

Lu Zhengfei showed a helpless smile.

Chen Qianqing thought, if he hadn't fallen in love with that Chen Qianqing back then, would the ending of the two of them have been much better.

Cherry blossoms are planted in the courtyard of the villa.

At this time, pink flowers are blooming all over the branches, and occasionally a gust of wind blows, and the pink petals are scattered all over the ground. Coupled with the unique shape of the villa, it is like a castle in a dream.

After the fire broke out here, Chen Qianqing never lived here again. Although sometimes he would come to City Z, or even come to see this refurbished and better house, but he never lived here again. Didn't go in either.Because this house has captured his lover's eyes forever, leaving him with nightmare memories.

Lu Zhengfei went to open the door.

Chen Qianqing stood outside watching the cherry blossoms. There was a swing in the yard that had been made and was never used. After standing for a while, he sat there.

After a while, Lu Zhengfei came out of the room, holding two freshly baked lava cakes in his hand, he handed one to Chen Qianqing, and said, "The chef just baked it, try it."

Back then, Chen Qianqing didn't like sweets, so she didn't even eat it with Lu Zhengfei, but now, there were two people who both liked sweets sitting together.

Chen Qianqing took a spoonful of it with a spoon and stuffed it into his mouth.

Because it was just baked, as soon as the spoon was inserted, liquid chocolate flowed out, and the temperature of the entrance was still slightly hot, so Chen Qianqing swallowed the first bite.

Lu Zhengfei was also very happy to eat. He sat next to Chen Qianqing, lowered his head and took a bite, like a child who hasn't eaten candy for a long time, and the corners of his mouth were stained with black chocolate.

Chen Qianqing stared at Lu Zhengfei for a while, then lost his mind again.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, I may report to my mother tomorrow, and come back the day after tomorrow to accompany you to the hospital."

Chen Qianqing knew what Lu Zhengfei was going to do, and he even knew that Huang Yuping also knew about him at this moment.

Only this time, Lu Zhengfei could no longer find an excuse.

If it was just for fun, how could they send people from thousands of miles abroad for medical treatment? Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei with a little pity in his eyes - because Lu Zhengfei probably won't come back.

This may be the last time they see each other in the past few years.

The taste of chocolate was slightly bitter. Chen Qianqing wiped her mouth with a tissue after eating the cake.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Do you want to eat another one?"

Chen Qianqing shook her head.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Then I will eat another one."

Chen Qianqing laughed and said, "Let's eat." Anyway, we are about to part.

Lu Zhengfei picked up another one and ate it. This one had some white powdered sugar sprinkled on it, so it should taste sweeter.

Chen Qianqing leaned on the swing, slowly supported the ground with her feet and swayed. A piece of cherry blossom fell on the hair of Lu Zhengfei who was sitting beside him. Chen Qianqing reached out to take it off, and then gently blew it.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, are you in a good mood?"

Chen Qianqing narrowed her eyes and smiled: "Yes."

Lu Zhengfei said: "Do you like cakes? I'll ask him to make them tomorrow..."

Chen Qianqing didn't speak, but continued to smile.Did he want to tell Lu Zhengfei that because he knew they were going to separate, he felt extra happy?

Lu Zhengfei was still rambling: "Qianqing, do you want to study here?"

Chen Qianqing said: "No more."

Lu Zhengfei said: "It's fine if you don't go, the doctor said you need to communicate more with people, I'll help you find some suitable clubs..."

Chen Qianqing said: "I can't speak the language of country Z, how can I communicate with people?"

Lu Zhengfei was stunned, he didn't seem to have thought of this at all.

Chen Qianqing said: "Didn't you think about this when you brought me out?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "Then, then I'll help you find a teacher who speaks Z language, learn slowly, and you will eventually learn."

Chen Qianqing said: "No need." Of course he can speak the language of Country Z, but he didn't want to tell Lu Zhengfei that he could.

What else did Lu Zhengfei want to say: "Qianqing..."

Chen Qianqing got up directly, ignored Lu Zhengfei, and walked into the house. He had just gone up to the second floor and was about to enter the bedroom when his phone rang.

The words "Han Huaiyun" are displayed on it.

Chen Qianqing stared at the phone for a while, then picked up the phone, and said, "Hello, what's the matter?"

Han Huaiyun's voice was soft, and he said: "Mr. Chen? I'm Han Huaiyun. I want to chat with you tomorrow, can I?"

Of course Chen Qianqing agreed.

Han Huaiyun said: "Please don't tell Mr. Lu."

Chen Qianqing stared at Lu Zhengfei who was sitting on the swing in the courtyard from the window, and said, "No problem."