Turns Out I'm Crazy

There is a mirror in front of Chen Qianqing.

The person in the mirror looked at him with a smile, waved to him, and opened his mouth to him.The man had a handsome face, wearing a white pajamas, and his hair was slightly long, messily scattered on his shoulders.

A voice came from far to near, the voice was soft, elegant, and soft, like the singing of an angel in a fairy tale.All this looked so beautiful, until Chen Qianqing touched the cold mirror surface with her fingers.

The moment his fingertips touched the mirror, the clean and bright mirror began to shatter piece by piece, and thick red blood with a fishy smell flowed out from the cracks.

In the mirror, he showed a bright smile to Chen Qianqing. His skin was chapped inch by inch, but his eyes were as bright as stars. He said to Chen Qianqing, "My death is the best revenge for you."

Chen Qianqing woke up from the nightmare.

It was exactly three o'clock in the morning, and Lu Zhengfei was sleeping beside him, sleeping soundly with his eyes closed.

Chen Qianqing wiped the cold sweat off her forehead with her hand, stared at Zhong not far away and sighed softly.

There are some things that have not been revealed, but have become heart problems.

Since returning to school, Chen Qianqing has never had a good night's sleep.It was the same today, he covered his eyes with his arms, with a somewhat dazed look on his face.

At dawn, Lu Zhengfei realized that Chen Qianqing hadn't slept all night.

He knew that Chen Qianqing didn't sleep well, but he didn't expect that Chen Qianqing had reached the point where she couldn't sleep almost every night.

Just two days ago, on the recommendation of Xu Shaoren, Lu Zhengfei found a professional psychotherapy institution abroad, and the plane ticket to go abroad was set for this afternoon.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, haven't you slept yet?"

Chen Qianqing's pale face was covered with dark circles, and he said: "Well, I had a nightmare."

Lu Zhengfei said: "What did you dream about?"

Chen Qianqing said: "I dreamed about Chen Qianqing, saying that he hated me."—He just said this secret that should have been kept for a lifetime in a nonchalant and indifferent manner.

Lu Zhengfei's reaction was a little strange. He didn't ask why Chen Qianqing said such words, but comforted him: "No one will hate you, Qianqing, for the afternoon ticket, do you want to sleep a little longer?"

Chen Qianqing sat up and shook her head.

Seeing this, Lu Zhengfei didn't persuade him any more, so he went out and brought back a glass of milk, and handed it to Chen Qianqing: "Drink some, it's hot."

Chen Qianqing took it and drank the milk slowly.

Most people cannot tolerate insomnia.The feeling of lying on the bed, already exhausted to the extreme, but closing the eyes, full of fragmented pictures and harsh sounds, makes people go crazy.Whether it's one day or two days, even the iron man will have a mental breakdown after a long time.Chen Qianqing is not an iron man, he has endured until now and has tried his best.

She only slept for a few 10 minutes a day, and would still be troubled by nightmares during these 10 minutes. Chen Qianqing's mental state continued to decline.Lu Zhengfei saw it and was anxious. After asking Xu Shaoren, he put sleeping pills in Chen Qianqing's milk.

Chen Qianqing would not take the initiative to use sleeping pills. In his opinion, he deserved the torture he suffered.Chen Qianqing also suffered from depression back then, I'm afraid he was in such pain back then.

Chen Qianqing didn't need it, but Lu Zhengfei didn't want Chen Qianqing to torture himself. He watched Chen Qianqing drink the milk, then slowly closed his eyes, and his breathing became even.

Lu Zhengfei hadn't seen Chen Qianqing's peaceful expression for a long time.

Recently, Chen Qianqing seems to have grown thorns suddenly, her words and expressions are full of inviolable arrogance and indifference, and there are even many complex expressions in the eyes looking at him.

At first Lu Zhengfei thought it was Chen Qianqing who had figured it out, but later found that Chen Qianqing not only didn't figure it out, but it got worse.And life and death do not want to go to the hospital to see.

Lu Zhengfei stretched out his fingers, slowly touched Chen Qianqing's forehead, and then slid down his forehead little by little, over the lips that were not beautiful but bloodless, and over the slightly protruding Adam's apple on the slender neck , sliding across the tight collarbone, and then gently placed the palm of Chen Qianqing's chest.

The ups and downs of the beating heart let people know that the haggard man in front of him was still alive. Lu Zhengfei looked at Chen Qianqing obsessively, lowered his head, and gave Chen Qianqing a kiss as light as a feather.

Chen Qianqing remained motionless, like the cursed Sleeping Beauty in a fairy tale.

Lu Zhengfei stopped with a kiss, and then got up and went to the study to get a laptop, sat on the chair beside Chen Qianqing's bed, and started to deal with a mountain of business affairs.

Chen Qianqing, who fell asleep with the help of sleeping pills, was still troubled by dreams. He felt that he was lying on a big bed, and his whole body was in pain, especially the eyes, which made his head dizzy due to the pain.

A woman's voice sounded, somewhat familiar, but she couldn't remember who it was for a moment, she said: "What can be cured, Lu Zhengfei can't go anywhere just because his little heart is blind, what did he do? What else can I not understand?"

The other man's voice was a little fuzzy, and he couldn't make out what he said.

Then, the woman laughed, and she said: "Lu Zhengfei also specially greeted me, ha, do you need him to say hello for this kind of thing?"

Then footsteps sounded, the door was pushed open, and the two walked away.

Chen Qianqing's body turned cold in an instant, as if he had been put into the freezer all of a sudden, the cold made him unable to speak a word, and what the woman said just now kept echoing in his ears.

This is not him... This is the experience of the real Chen Qianqing.

Chen Qianqing struggled to wake up, but his body was too heavy to control, so he could only continue to sink into the dream.

One of the important reasons why Chen Qianqing didn't dare to sleep was because he would keep dreaming.Those dreams that belonged to him and did not belong to him would flash like a revolving lantern, with a tyrannical gesture, allowing him to see clearly what he had done to him.

When Chen Qianqing woke up again, he and Lu Zhengfei were already in the car going to the airport.

Lu Zhengfei sat with him in the back seat, and he was held in Lu Zhengfei's arms with a blanket on his body.

Lu Zhengfei noticed that he woke up, and said, "Qianqing, are you awake?"

Chen Qianqing pursed her lips, and said, "What did you put in the milk?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "Sleeping pills... The doctor said that if you continue to suffer from insomnia, you will not be able to bear it."

Chen Qianqing lowered his head, his hair was still messy because he just woke up, he glanced at Lu Zhengfei, and finally said nothing.

Although he had many strange dreams, after waking up, he still felt a sense of relaxation in his tense body.

Lu Zhengfei took out the thermos and handed it to Chen Qianqing: "You can eat some of the porridge and side dishes cooked by Aunt Zhao."

Although Chen Qianqing had no appetite, he also knew that it was impossible not to eat. He slowly took over the porridge bucket, picked up the spoon, and started to drink the porridge.

The porridge was very viscous, with boiled dried shrimps and vegetables in it, and it was served with Aunt Zhao's very good side dishes. It was very appetizing. Chen Qianqing felt full after drinking a small amount.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, drink some more." Chen Qianqing shook her head.

Lu Zhengfei sighed, took the porridge bucket and put it aside.

Ten minutes later, the driver drove the car to the airport, and Lu Zhengfei and Chen Qianqing got out of the car.

Dozens of days have passed since the Spring Festival, and there has been no rain recently, and the temperature has begun to warm up.But Lu Zhengfei insisted on adding a back coat to Chen Qianqing. He thought about taking it off in an air-conditioned room, and wearing it when walking outside.

In the early hours of City A time, Lu Zhengfei and Chen Qianqing arrived at their destination, Country Z.

Most of Lu Zhengfei's Huang Yuping's forces are abroad, while Lu Zhengfei's father Lu Chonggan mainly focuses on domestic affairs. The marriage between the two of them is a bit like a business marriage - but fortunately, they love each other and their relationship is very strong. Shen, after getting married, there was no major disagreement.

Country Z can be said to be the place where Huang Yuping's family took root. Lu Zhengfei brought Chen Qianqing here, feeling a little worried.But Xu Shaoren had no choice but to tell him that a psychotherapy institution he knew and trusted very much was in country Z.

In terms of psychology, hospitals are not like ordinary hospitals, good or bad can be put on the bright side.Psychotherapy is such a mysterious thing, only for the sake of caution, once something goes wrong, it is almost irreversible.

Lu Zhengfei just remembered that when he was a teenager, a friend he knew suffered from depression and was sent by his parents to a certain institution abroad for treatment that was said to be very reliable. A year later, he seemed to be cured.As a result, on the day he returned to China, he directly stabbed his father to death.

It was later discovered after investigation that this person had been severely abused during treatment.

Lu Zhengfei would never want to see such a situation happen. He could not be with Chen Qianqing anytime and anywhere, so he could only try his best to choose the most reassuring one to ensure Chen Qianqing's healing effect.

Of course, the most important thing now is to fool his mother.

Fortunately, it was Chinese New Year during this time, so Huang Yuping and Lu Chonggan were both in the country, so they didn't pay much attention to him.But even so, Lu Zhengfei is not sure whether his parents know what he is doing.

Country Z was still very cold in February. Before getting off the plane, Lu Zhengfei wrapped Chen Qianqing tightly. He didn't allow Chen Qianqing to take off the coat until he saw the car that picked them up and boarded the car.

Chen Qianqing said: "How can I be so weak."

Lu Zhengfei took the opportunity to touch Chen Qianqing, and he said: "Look at you, your face is cold, and you don't wear thicker clothes."

Chen Qianqing glared at Lu Zhengfei. It was windy outside, and without a mask, anyone who came out of the airport would have a cold face.Doesn't he understand Lu Zhengfei's little trick?It's nothing more than finding an excuse to want tofu.

At this time, the driver asked in Z language: "Master Lu, where are you going?"

Lu Zhengfei also replied in Z dialect, "Go to the villa over there in Xiaoshu Community."