Divorce!I want to feed you.

When he was about to be discharged from the hospital, Qiu Ye didn’t hear the doctor’s orders, but was pushed back into the ward by Jing Shan and asked him to pack his things. During the whole process, he was like a machine with some problems, and the managers and maintainers did everything for him .

"Mr. Qiu Ye, congratulations on being discharged from the hospital and wishing you good health."

The nurse in charge of her came in to help, but Qiu Ye said that she didn't need to trouble her, and she had already taken care of everything.

"Thank you very much, Miss Tamura has taken care of you during this time."

After sincerely thanking him, Qiu also put the tidy things up neatly, because Jing Shan said that he would come and move with him in a while.Although there were not many things, he did not allow Qiu Ye to leave alone.For such an unreasonable request, Qiu Ye still complied with him.

"Where, I should do it. But after you leave the hospital, don't stress too much. Eat a light and healthy diet. I don't want to see you here again!"

Qiu also couldn't imagine what kind of expression the nurse surnamed Tamura had when he was eavesdropping that day, and the cold voice had a completely different enthusiasm now.

"Well, I will."

Soon, after Jingshan came back, the two took the elevator downstairs together.There is soothing classical music playing in the car, driving on the road.

It's only been a week since they came back, and the two of them were standing at the door of the apartment at the same time, but Qiu Ye felt unreal as if they had passed away.He raised his head and looked at the 6th and 7th floors, but he couldn't move for a while.

He has accepted the fact that he needs to separate, and after confessing, the guilt that has tortured him for a long time in his heart has become less frivolous, but has formed a substance and fell to the bottom of his heart.Although he thought he would not be very sad now that Jingshan was by his side, but when he thought that he had to be separated from Muma after nearly two years together, he always felt endless regret in his heart.

It was no longer as hot as yesterday, and the tumbling clouds in the sky seemed to rain in the next second, urging Qiuye to go in quickly, Jingshan put everything at the elevator door.

"Tonight, what should we do?"

Jingshan asked a very realistic question, which made Qiu Ye speechless.As a betrayer who voluntarily admitted, he had already expressed his agreement to break up with Muma, but they were still husband and wife. If he didn't sign the agreement for a day, he would have nowhere to go except this house.He didn't want to spend the night at Jingshan's house before his relationship with Muma was completely over.

"Of course I'm going back, why not?"

Jingshan had a gloomy expression on his face, but Qiu Yequan pretended not to see it.The walls of the elevator reflected his bad face, and his silence was even more terrifying.Up to the sixth floor, standing at the door of Qiu Ye's house, Jing Shan couldn't help but speak out.

"Can't you live with me these few days?"

The hand that twisted the key still hesitated, and then Qiu Ye opened the door and responded to him with a smile.

"Is this necessary? There is nothing wrong with my family, and it's fine."

The room was a little dark, I don't know why Muma drew the curtains so tightly, the whole living room was so dark that I couldn't see anything clearly.Qiu also took off his shoes, took something from Jingshan's hand, and turned on the light.

"But……"

"It's really rare! As a person who lives by intuition, there is still a day of hesitation!"

After being discharged from the hospital, the haze in my heart has lessened a lot, so Qiu Ye has an imperceptible smile all the way.

But when he turned around and looked into the room, he always felt that something was wrong.The basic layout and furniture arrangement have not changed, but something is missing.what is it?There are still dried roses in the vase on the dining table, which Muma often bought for herself.The kitchen is always spotlessly clean, and the utensils are placed in a convenient location.There was nothing on the sofa and coffee table in the living room, and the area around the balcony was the same as before Shuya was hospitalized.

But the magazines that Muma had ordered all day long were gone, and only his shoes were left in the shoe rack at the entrance.There also seemed to be something missing in the bathroom, and Qiuya tightly held the doorknob and closed the door gently.

"It turns out that my worries are a little unnecessary."

Jing Shan followed him unhurriedly, accompanying him around his home.Seeing that the solid-colored quilt was no longer on the bed in the master bedroom, there was nothing left in the closet.Qiu also realized that Muma had already taken everything away.

Without speaking, Qiu also closed the closet door again, and then picked up the paper on the bed.Muma's name was clearly signed on it.

"Are you sad? Qiu Ye."

Looking at Qiu Ye who was sitting blankly on the bed, Jing Shan stood aside deeply worried.

"Yes... I feel sorry for her. In the nearly two years we've been together, I don't seem to be doing as well as I thought. I thought it would be good if I fulfilled my responsibilities, but that's the biggest failure, right? , I failed to make her fall in love with me. What a complete failure hehe..."

He covered his face with his hands, but there were no tears in his hands.Qiu also doesn't know why tears are gradually decreasing recently. He thought he was an emotional person, but tears can at least make him feel that he is still alive.But why is it so numb now...

So emotions will be held in my heart, as uncomfortable as my stomach has been knotted during that time.This is really bad, Qiu Ye thought so, he was choking with sobs but he didn't cry because he was not breathing well.He was just struggling in pain, soberly accepting the fact that Muma had left.

"Do you enjoy this pain? If you do, I won't say anything today."

Jing Shan's voice was also low and weak, and he wanted to tell Qiu Ye the truth, but now is not the time.This man needs to digest slowly and accept reality a little bit.

Now facing the real parting, even though Muma never had love for Qiu, Qiu didn't think so.Although it was his self-righteous love, it was unbearable for a short period of time if the things he held on to spiritually were broken.

The eye circles were a little red, Qiu also picked up the pen that had been prepared by the side, thought for a while, and finally wrote his name on it.It wasn't until this moment that Jing Shan's heart fell to the ground. He didn't know what to grasp with his faintly trembling hands, and finally had no choice but to grasp the doorknob.

"I will apply for annual leave with my boss in a while, and I will pass this to Muma tomorrow. When do you want to go back to Osaka?"

Qiu also calmed down, then raised his head to glance at Jingshan and spoke slowly.

"Then tomorrow, I want to see Taozi. Also, my mother doesn't want to leave the old house in Osaka, so I need someone to take care of her full-time. There are a lot of things, and it may take two days to finish, is it convenient?"

"Almost. Then at noon tomorrow, I will buy a ticket and wait for you at the station after finishing."

Jing Shan stopped talking, just looked at Qiu Ye.How much worry did he have in his heart, the other party didn't understand anything.

"Would you like to celebrate?"

"celebrate?"

"Yes, to celebrate that I finally got you, you are finally free, and at the same time celebrate for Miss Muma, although it is impossible for her to participate."

The first two reasons are still understandable, but to celebrate Muma, what should we celebrate?Celebrating her finally leaving a man she didn't love?

"I'm not in the mood to celebrate, and I'm tired. By the way, where's the model?"

Suddenly remembering the architectural model that had to be pasted up as a souvenir, Qiuya carefully placed the signed paper on the coffee table outside, and then expressed his desire to see that thing.

"At my house. Go there?"

Qiu also nodded, and the two went upstairs along the familiar staircase passage.

There was no change in Jingshan's room, except that the model was placed on top of a tall bookcase, and traces of transparent glue could be vaguely seen at the seams that had been glued.

"You really don't live here? Is it okay to sleep alone?"

Although Jingshan didn't laugh when he said this, Qiu could feel that he was mocking her.

"Who is not used to sleeping alone?"

At this height, I couldn't reach it, so Qiu also sat aside as if giving up, while Jingshan was busy making dinner on his own.I didn't expect it to take so long. I was supposed to go through the discharge procedures in the morning, but Qiu also had to check again, so it was almost five o'clock now.

"I'm going to buy vegetables, what do you want to eat?"

After taking the wallet, Jing Shan looked at Qiu Ye who was lazily leaning on the sofa, and asked for his opinion.

"Lamb chops, don't you know how to cook other things..."

Jing Shan opened his mouth in embarrassment, then sighed.

"The stomach is just right, so let's eat something easy to digest."

Half an hour after Jingshan went out, Qiu also unknowingly leaned on the cushion and fell asleep.

He had a long dream, and the scenes in the dream seemed real.He was wearing a white tuxedo and had champagne in a glass.Her face was very sour, but Muma next to her was still able to maintain her smile and spirit, which made me admire.He dreamed that Muma asked him to wait, and she said she would get milk for him.He dreamed that Muma was holding his arm to go shopping, and his arm was held by Muma in an orange dress, walking in the crowd together.He dreamed that Muma was holding a popsicle and wearing that light green dress...

It wasn't until Qiu Ye vaguely heard Jing Shan's voice calling him, and felt someone touch his shoulder, that he slowly opened his eyes, and then propped up his body little by little.

"Eat, get up and wash your hands."

What is the relationship between this person and yourself?Qiu also thought and thought, before signing the divorce papers, it must have been the existence that made him feel distressed.He is like a lunatic, desperately wanting to own himself, and his obsession is so strong that it is scary.The emotion called love lasted to the end.

But now, he should be the one with whom he can spend every cold night.Although Jingshan is a difficult man to deal with, he is quite dependable.

"...What did you do? Why does it smell so delicious."

I got up and planned to wash my hands, but there were only two bowls of porridge on the coffee table next to the sofa.It just looks so simple, even vegetarian, but tastes so tempting.Unable to resist the temptation of the aroma, Qiu Ye's stomach grunted abnormally.

"Let's talk about it after eating. It smells good. What if it's poisonous?"

"Isn't that like you said, we both died for love?"

After making a joke, Shuya headed towards the bathroom.

The mirror in front of him is very big, and Qiu in it is extremely thin. His originally good-looking face is now a little sunken. Although he maintains the habit of shaving and his chin is very clean, his hair has not been repaired for a long time like Jingshan.So he looked a bit slovenly, with a sickly look on his still pale face, and Qiu also began to doubt Jingshan's taste.

How could he fall in love with himself like this... Maybe this is the problem of the century for him.

After drying his hands, Shuya sat aside and began to eat.But after a few mouthfuls, Qiu Ye found that Jing Shan was only looking at himself, and the bowl had been put aside.

"what happened?"

"There are rice grains on the face."

After finishing speaking, Jing Shan stretched out a finger to wipe the corner of his lips, and then naturally stuffed the finger into his mouth.This series of actions made Qiu Ye a little bit dumbfounded, because it was still here, the same person, even the same actions, and they had just met at that time.

"How many times are you going to use this little trick on me?"

As if laughing at Jingshan, Qiu Ye half-provocatively looked back with tender eyes.

"I didn't last time, but this time I really did. I just wanted to touch your face at that time."

"Is that so? Then you really have a way. This action really scared me at the beginning. I was still thinking, let a man wipe the sauce on my face, and he ate it. It's like the plot of "hehe..."

"Then do you know what I was thinking at the time?"

With straight and piercing eyes, Qiu also put the bowl aside, then thought for a while, and replied quite formally that he didn't know.

"At that time, I really wanted to see you crying, because when you sat on the steps, I felt that you were very pitiful, and my whole heart was pulled together by your crying face. So I really wanted to bully you and cry, that is I didn't expect you to have so many opportunities to cry later."

"Ah... What a good man, what's so good about crying, you really don't have good taste. I'm so sorry! I want to—go—home—"

Qiu also leaned back like a child in a mood, and then fell to one side, pretending to be sad, waiting for Jingshan to say something to laugh at her childishness or something.But Jingshan was silent.

"what happened to you?"

Qiu Ye asked carefully, and looked at Jing Shan as if he was thinking about the philosophy of life, with a dignified face.

"...I'm thinking about what to do. In the future, when you say you want to go home, you want to come back to me instead of saying this in front of me."

Jing Shan's back was facing the floor-to-ceiling windows, and his figure was plunged into the darkness.Just like that evening in Osaka, the setting sun does not stop at all like a cold-blooded train.

After eating dinner in silence, Qiu also stood at the door of Jingshan's house on the seventh floor, and he didn't allow Jingshan to see him out.

"You are waiting for me at the station at noon tomorrow, and I will contact you after I finish."

Jingshan couldn't tell if there was any reluctance in Qiu Ye's eyes. They had been together every night for the past week, and now he might be the only one who feels lonely.

"I'll be there sooner, good night."

No matter how reluctant he is, he must give Qiu Ye time to be alone.Jing Shan said good night as if he didn't care, and then Qiu Ye nodded and said good night, then turned and walked towards the door that had never been closed.

A naive idea came to Jing Shan's mind, he hoped that he would close the door and open it again immediately, it would be a brand new day.