Divorce!I want to feed you.

I often stay up late, and I have recently gotten used to getting up early.Not because of anything else, but because of the need to care for the sick.Waking up early every day, I need to pack up my things and go home, boil the sticky rice paste, and then pack it up and send it to the hospital, sometimes twice, sometimes three times.But sooner or later, you will definitely need to toss and go home.

It has never been my style to do such troublesome things.People who have always advocated efficient and quick work are always prone to lack of patience in the face of troublesome things.But fortunately, he was discharged from the hospital before his endurance ran out.

Even Tao Zi has never been taken care of by me before, but Qiu Ye has broken the precedent.

Speaking of Qiu Ye, objectively speaking, he is a troublesome spirit.I have never seen such an ordinary man who is disgusting. He looks like an ordinary social person, but he is actually quite selfish.Although I am not qualified to say this matter from my standpoint, in fact he is like this.Ordinary and hypocritical, and sometimes greedy.

But now, I can't do without this worthless fool.In other words, I do not allow him to leave me, which is the correct way to say it.

I've never made particularly good friends, and when I realize that the world's intentions are evil, I no longer want to be close to anyone.I still remember when I was in college, when a very important friend turned my face behind my back and described me with disdain, "Isn't it because of his dead father that I have achieved my current achievements", my heart seems to be fell to the bottom of the lake.I didn't talk to him again, even if we used to talk about everything, there was no more.

So after that, I chose to abandon the surname "Yujing" and changed my name to Jingshan. I hope that one day, when others mention the design of a certain building, they will not be called "the son of Master Yujing" by other people. An existence shrouded in shadow.That's not what I want.

After that, day by day, year by year, I got used to not having deep relationships with people, and my life was very self-contained.Some of the girlfriends I have dated really love me, but they always let it go because of their temper and personality.More and more used to a person, used to loneliness.Until I met Qiu Ye.

The first time I heard him crying, I thought there was a robber downstairs.After I went downstairs and stood at the door of his house, I didn't care anymore when I heard the voice of the hostess inside.My personal affairs have nothing to do with me.And the third time, when he stuck his head and upper body out of the window, I couldn't see his expression, but that posture made me suspect that he was going to commit suicide.

What a nuisance!My well-designed apartment has a dead body lying around.I wanted to open my mouth and call him back, but how could a suicidal person be scolded by me like that?If it stimulates him, he may also have a rebellious mentality and just jump down like that.

So I poured some water, and then I was "fortunate" to see him crying.

The way grown men cry is nothing but useless and disgusting. I have never felt anything else.He was clearly a man, but he would hide in the passage and curl up into a ball, his shoulders shrugged, his eyes were red and his brows were frowning, it was so ugly that he wanted to go up and beat him up.

Why is autumn special?After thinking about it for a long time after I saw his crying expression for the first time, the final conclusion is that that face has the desire to let me know that I want to touch it.So after chatting with him, in just one sentence, I told the answer that I couldn't find in my heart.

I loved him so much, and then loved him so much that I almost lost myself, without any dignity at all.

How unbearable the "third party" is to others, it is three times the burden to me.And Qiu also didn't want me to be the third party, but I couldn't just sit idly by his misfortune, all because of the unwillingness and pain in my heart.So I love him, so much that I didn't even think that one day I would fall into this situation.

I don't like rainy days, because when Taozi died, it was raining, and the vision at night was so bad, so even the light rain made me extremely bored.

When I am stressed, I want to smoke, and when I am upset, I also want to smoke.But Qiu also banned me from smoking, and even imposed compulsory confiscation. I really didn't expect him to be so tough.

There were as many people at the station as ever, and the hot and humid crowd made people uncomfortable.So it's better to stand outside with a wide view.

Has he completed the formalities now?I can't help thinking wildly.Seeing that he is not seen in the traffic of people passing by, standing here early in the morning is really quite tormented.

I thought I would have to wait until at least eleven o'clock, but after I checked the time a few times, I just put down the wrist wearing the wristwatch showing [-]:[-], when I saw Qiu Ye running over in a hurry from a distance.

"How long have you been waiting? I'm sorry I had some trouble going through the formalities."

"Oh? What's the trouble?"

Seeing his panting appearance and his messy hair, I tried my best to pretend not to care, but I still couldn't help asking.

"It's okay, it's just that there was an accident on the road and there was a traffic jam. Have you been waiting for a long time?"

Marriage should be a big event for a person, so it should be relative to divorce.Qiu Ye in front of him deliberately pretended to be relaxed. After he had just completed the divorce formalities in person, he hurried over with a smile on his face, which was quite uncoordinated.

"No, it's not long since I came here."

After tidying his hair and looking at the bag in his hand, I couldn't help suspecting that he was going to travel for a month.That size is almost the same as the last time he went on a business trip.But there should be medicine that must be taken in it.

"Let's go, I've already bought a ticket."

Qiu also took away the umbrella that was meaningless to him, and there were darker rain stains on his coat. Obviously the doctor told him to keep warm and not to do strenuous activities. This guy... oh yes, the doctor's orders Tell me, he didn't hear.

Thinking of this, I grabbed the bag in his hand, but it was not as heavy as I imagined.

"First, you can no longer run, strenuous exercise is prohibited. Second, take back that disgusting smirk on your face. Third, close the zipper for me."

Qiu Ye showed a look of embarrassment, and while holding the umbrella, he obediently pulled the zipper to the collarbone, and then tried to take the bag back, but I grabbed it.

"I'll get it."

Shuya didn't speak any more, and then kept her head down.Although I no longer grabbed his arm, my eyes followed him closely until the train departed.

"Miss Muma, how are you?"

For some reason, that woman came to mind first, so I wanted to ask Shuya.

"It's okay, much better than me."

He turned his head and looked out the window, his face expressionless, but his words revealed a sense of powerlessness.

"Oh? She might be happy about going to France for further study, so she won't have time to be as sad as you are."

I also looked at the blurry scenery like him, and stated everything I knew in a relaxed tone.But Qiuya didn't know, so after hearing what I said, he looked at me with a little surprise.

"Further study? I haven't heard her say it."

"How could she tell you that. Who would say to their husband, 'I'm going to France with the woman I love, so I'm divorcing you'?"

"what?!"

His face was full of shock, sitting next to me like a fool who was completely kept in the dark, his tired eyes were quite wide at the moment.

"That's all I said, don't worry too much."

I still don't know whether I should explain to him, this poor man doesn't know anything, once I tell him, I don't know if he will fall into chaos or develop hatred towards me.How can I explain it so that he doesn't hate me, but relies on me more...

"Oh……"

He bowed his head in silence, maybe he was feeling sad as Muma's husband, but he didn't know anything about her.But I'm pretty fascinated by it, like this.

"Miss Muma didn't tell you that she suffered from long-term violence since she was a child?"

His fingers that had been twisted in boredom suddenly stopped, and he raised his head again with a rather confused expression.

"what……"

I adjusted my sitting posture, put the arm that was leaning on him on his shoulder, and then approached him who was somewhat restrained, and whispered in his ear.

"She told me that when she was a teenager, her biological father had excessive confinement and violence against her. Ah~ no wonder Miss Muma can't fall in love with you, and I don't know who to say is unfortunate haha ..."

I told this rather expensive news in a relaxed tone, and then Qiu also seemed to be petrified and remained motionless.It is impossible to interpret whether he is regretful, ashamed, or annoyed now.He has always been like this, as long as he is silent, it will become complicated.

"Why do you know everything..."

After a long time, Shuya seems to have adjusted himself, holding my fingers on his shoulder with his right hand, where there is a low temperature, and the palm is as humid as the weather.

"Are you curious? Qiu Ye."

She deliberately leaned next to his ear and kissed his ear while talking.Those white and soft ears always fascinate me, and I can't stop.Most of the time, instead of looking at his face, I look at his ears.

"Don't be like this...there are people here..."

He protested in a low voice, and looked at the passengers next to him modestly. They were a mother and a child. The young mother hugged the child in the same posture as us. Only the seven or eight-year-old child slept soundly.

"Then I'll tell you when you want to know."

I followed his wishes and withdrew my arms, put my hands back in my pockets, and waited for the stop.At first I didn't want to care what he was doing, after all, he had nothing to do here, but he took out a magazine from his bag and read it carefully, after turning a few pages, it caught my attention.

"What are you looking at?"

As if taking revenge on me, he closed the book, pressed the cover with his fingers, and asked me with no expression.

"Are you curious, Zhe."

When I heard him call me Zhe for the first time, it is no exaggeration to say that I really wanted to put him on the ground and possess him immediately.Why is his voice so beautiful?In his soft and light tone, every call he made carried a warm magic that melted my cold heart.

He stopped looking at him, looked to the other side deliberately, and sighed.

"Not that curious..."

"Puff ha ha..."

Shu also covered her mouth with her hands, and then laughed.He seemed quite happy, but he didn't dare to make a sound because he was worried about the sleeping child, and his voice was a bit depressed.

"I was reading a fashion magazine. It was given to me by Muma. Since I didn't have an umbrella, she lent me this one to keep out the rain."

"Then why did you buy an umbrella later?"

"Isn't that because the magazine is too small to cover it?"

He explained a little reproachfully.

"Why did you get wet when you came over even though you had an umbrella?"

"That is……"

I don't know how he wants to explain it, but when I stared at him, he suddenly started to dodge, and his face with a faint smile returned to his unique melancholy.

I didn't expect him to answer because I thought it would be troublesome.After all, he still felt sorry for Miss Muma, so he held an umbrella and used the rainy day to punish himself and me at the same time.

"Akiya, do you like Osaka?"

The rain outside the window had stopped, and the high-speed train passed through the regional weather. After the cloudy weather, the sun began to leak through the gaps in the thick clouds.

"Uh... I don't know. The memories of the last time I went to Osaka included drinking too much and working. Except for the day I went out with you, I almost stayed alone in the hotel."

After reading a few pages of the book, he seemed a little sleepy, rubbing his eyes and leaning back on the chair wearily.I held his hand casually, and Qiuya seemed to be taken aback, but then he was relieved and let me hold his hand.

"Then shall we live there tonight?"

I just said casually that I originally planned to take him home, because my mother is still in the hospital, so there is no one there.

"That……"

Qiu Ye showed some embarrassment, her brows were wrinkled on her slightly flushed cheeks, and the corner of her lower lip was being bitten between her teeth.

"Well, let's live there tonight."

This sentence seemed to hit a certain point in me, and the hand that was holding him was instantly clenched!

He said "we", maybe that's why.In the days when we were with him before this, he may have said the word "we", but today it is so different.

I own him, not quite yet, but when I realize it, I suddenly have a pleasant illusion of a volcano erupting in my chest.

"Qiuya..."

Maybe my eyes are a little strange at the moment.When the mother next to me was secretly looking at me, she deliberately hid the child from her side. When he found that I was looking at her, she nodded apologetically, and then forced a smile.And I just nodded and stopped looking at her.

"what happened?"

Qiu Ye looked suspicious, as if he was waiting for me to say something.

"It's okay, does your stomach still hurt?"

Still holding him will make my heart feel more at ease. After I put my arms across his shoulders again, the long journey began to become bearable.

"It doesn't hurt anymore. But you, you seem a little impatient, don't you like riding in a car?"

This selfish man was able to observe my expression one day, which really surprised me.

"Long distances are annoying, so I seldom go back to Osaka, even on the anniversary of my father's death."

Qiu also couldn't understand this explanation. He straightened his back and looked at me seriously.

"Then why did you go back last time?"

Finally I waited until he asked the question a second time.

"You're so drunk, I have to pick you up."

He deliberately didn't look at him, and only stared at the row of seats in front of him.

"You ran to Osaka in Saitama because... just because I drank too much?! Didn't you think that I have colleagues to take care of me? Why did you come here on purpose!"

Qiu also kept her voice low, but her pitch had already increased.I don't know what my behavior means to him, maybe it will surprise him and find it troublesome, but that's not my consideration.

"do not ask me."

Sighing deeply, the long-distance car ride syndrome that gave me a headache began to attack, and I was irritated one after another.

"You always say I'm an idiot, but I think you're..."

He lowered his head and didn't dare to ask me any more, he just grumbled and complained, and then pretended to continue reading, but that expression looked like he was about to cry.

I tilted my head and got close to his ear, whispering what I couldn't help but want to say.

"You troublesome person, you made me go from Saitama to Osaka to help you clean up the mess more than once! From now on, even if my stomach recovers, stop drinking for me! If you drink until you vomit, I will throw you into the ditch! besides……"

I stretched out my other hand to hold his chin, and slowly stroked my lips with my thumb, watching him start to tremble before continuing with satisfaction.

"I don't feel ashamed to hug you in a princess hug position on the street, but when you're drunk, hugging my leg and begging me coquettishly, you're so, so, ashamed..."

"Oh, by the way, why did you hug me and cry? Do you know how disgusting it is to have a runny nose and smell like alcohol? Did you think you were dreaming at that time, so you spoke so nonchalantly?"

At this moment, I don't even want to blink, for fear of missing even a slight change in his expression.

Qiu Ye's lips were trembling, her palms were clenched as hard as if they were about to break them, and the shoulders in my arms trembled.

"I have troubled me so much, when are you going to pay it back? Qiu Ye? Do you want me to get it back by myself or do you take the initiative to express gratitude? Or do you owe me all your life?"

The uncontrollable excitement in my throat made my blood surge, and my brain began to feel slightly dizzy from the anxiety and happiness. At this moment, I really experienced the pleasure of revenge against him!

How much do I love him?If love could have a scale like a thermometer, it must have exploded a long time ago.But I hate him just as much, so much that I want to be entangled with him for the rest of my life.

Use that long time to love him, protect him, and give him.Then hate him, squeeze him, deprive him.For me, the most extreme emotions are nothing more than these two, so I want to give him all, and dedicate all my emotions one by one, like a sacrifice.

"……I'm ready."

Qiu Ye finally raised his head, his firm gaze was completely different from the hesitant Qiu Ye yesterday, and at this moment he was answering me with the consciousness of voluntarily sacrificing himself.

"Ready for what?"

An unexplained fluster was faintly happening, and I even used some force to lift his chin with my fingers.I looked at myself reflected in his pupils, that little shadow was so clear as the sun's rays shone on my face.

But instead of blinking, he stared at me and said firmly.

"Then what are you waiting for me to prepare?"

I always think that Qiu Ye is actually a simple-minded and selfish fool, but every time he fights against me, I have no room to fight back.So at this moment, facing his gaze, I don't know what to say at all.

"I don't need to wait."

I shook his chin vigorously, and under his relentless gaze, I raised my head and closed my eyes to pretend to rest.

"That's right...that's right..."

Qiu also slowly collapsed himself into a ball like a deflated ball. I secretly looked at his expression at the moment from the corner of my eye.He seemed to be smiling, and secretly put my hand still around his shoulder to his mouth and took a bite.

"You're a weirdo."

He described me like the first time he met me, and when I recall the urge to see his crying face, I don't have to keep distance from him anymore and I can hug him anytime, anywhere.

But I wouldn't do that, because Cho also doesn't like being too close to me in front of a crowd, and while it's fine with me, it bothers him.So now I just rest my head lightly on his shoulder, and use sleepiness to endure the irritability of this long journey.

It was raining when we set off, but it was also raining in Osaka.I was a little annoyed that I didn't read the weather forecast, but Qiu also has umbrellas, and taxis are easy to take, so I don't really care.But the mother and son next to her didn't seem to expect it to rain. With a troubled expression on her face, when she took off her clothes and put them on for the child, Qiu, who was carrying a bag, handed over the umbrella.

"Is this for you to use?"

The woman on the opposite side seemed a little surprised, she didn't reach out to take the umbrella, while the child next to her was looking at Qiuya with a gentle face with wide eyes.

"I'm sorry, but the two of you only have one umbrella, right? This..."

She seemed a little jealous of me, but Qiu didn't care.

"Don't say that, we are fine, you can use it! And the place we are going is very close to here."

The woman took the umbrella hesitantly, and then bowed down with the child to thank before leaving.Looking at the rain outside, I calculated where I could get a taxi.

"Just walk in the rain, okay?"

More than two hours ago, I beat him up because the rain got on his top.Right now, he just rushed into the light rain so directly, I don't know if he saw my face, but I thought it was ugly if I couldn't see it myself.

"Finally it's your turn to be doused, haha!"

It's like a neuropathy!So happy to be drenched in the rain?Is there something wrong with your brain?

"what are you talking about!"

I stood in a sheltered place and watched him giggle alone, not knowing what he was going to do.But I didn't expect him to run over and drag me. Not long after I ran into the rain curtain, my face was covered with water drops like his.

"Do you still remember when you watered my head? Today I finally pay you back! I have to pay you more in the future! So it is you who have to prepare! Zhe!"

He looked excited, like waltzing in the rain, holding my hand and not letting go, walking fast and slow, turning a blind eye to the passing taxis, and only looking at me.

There was rain running down his cheeks and I didn't know if he was crying, I just doubted it.But my vision was blurred, and I didn't understand what he meant until I felt the warmth of the rain on my skin.

What Qiu also wants to express is the same as me. Although he talks about repaying, he feels it all the time with his clinging hands. This is something special to him, the giving of love.