Return to the Road of God

After being discharged from the hospital, Ye Yufan recuperated at home for two days before returning to school.

The classmates were very concerned about him, and asked him if he was in good health, Ye Yufan smiled and did not answer.The body is fine, but what about the spirit?Even Dr. Zhong and Dr. Rui didn't diagnose his problem, and he really couldn't say that he was "healed".

For 15 years, the body and soul that he is most familiar with have become strange to him now.

His parents told him that a psychiatrist had diagnosed him with "split personality", "schizophrenia" and "two people in the body at the same time".Ye Yufan himself also checked on the Internet, and analyzed based on those statements, and felt that the terms "split personality" and "two people" were very close to his situation.

However, there is one more thing that doesn't make sense!If the person who was sleepwalking, overeating and painting was "Xia Xiaochuan", then it can be seen that what Xia Xiaochuan wanted to do had nothing to do with Ye Yufan, so how to explain the beating incident?

Ye Yufan really didn't have any self-awareness when he beat Zhang Lixing, but "Xia Xiaochuan" had no reason to beat him for him, because he had nothing to do with Li Shihan at all.

Recalling his behavior afterwards, Ye Yufan only felt as if he had been possessed by a demon.Although he was jealous that Li Shihan was playing with other boys, he was not so excited that he would do it.Could it be that my emotions can affect Xia Xiaochuan?Or did Xia Xiaochuan's personality affect him in reverse?

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"Hey, hello," the sudden voice in his ear brought back Ye Yufan's thoughts, and Yang Kai pouted towards the podium, "The teacher is calling you."

Ye Yufan hurriedly stood up. The physics teacher was angry. Ever since the bell rang, the student had been distracted. Just now he was asked to answer the question but was completely ignored!

Even if he has good grades... Could it be that students with good grades are also very focused when they are distracted!

The physics teacher remembered the student drawing pictures on the answer sheet again, he was so depressed!

After class, Yang Kai asked curiously, "Why were you in a daze just now, did you hear the teacher calling so loudly?"

Ye Yufan thought for a while and said, "I'm looking for myself."

"..." Looking, looking for myself, damn it, I'm still looking for Godot!

During the break between classes, Ye Yufan was sitting in his seat in a daze, when suddenly there was a strange movement in the class, a classmate called him: "Ye Yufan, a girl is looking for you!"

"Ah, it's her!" Yang Kai touched Ye Yufan's arm with his elbow, looking excited, "Is that the girl you like?"

Ye Yufan was taken aback, got up and walked out, all the students in the class opened their eyes with gossiping expressions on their faces.

Li Shihan stood alone outside Ye Yufan's classroom. Seeing the curious eyes of many people, she was so nervous that she didn't dare to raise her head. Because of the incident last time, her relationship with Ye Yufan became very awkward.

Under everyone's gaze, Ye Yufan walked in front of him unhurriedly.He was wearing a pair of white sneakers, and the loose school uniform trousers looked very slim on him, "Are you looking for me?" He asked lightly.

There were two blushes on Li Shihan's face, "I, I heard that you are sick." She grabbed her fingers, sweating from nervousness.

"Yes." Ye Yufan was only half an arm's length away from her.

He's lost a lot of weight, and may weigh less than some tall girls now, but he doesn't feel weak at all.He stood upright, with slender legs, and one hand was loosely inserted in his trouser pocket. He didn't say anything other than the word "um".

"Are you feeling better now?" Li Shihan is a very introverted girl, this time she took the initiative to find Ye Yufan, I don't know how much courage she took.

Ye Yufan said "hmm" again, and then looked at her quietly, with a hint of inquiry in his eyes.

"I, I just came to ask..." Li Shihan didn't know what Ye Yufan was thinking, she thought Ye Yufan liked her, everyone said so, and before... Li Shihan thought of him beating Zhang Lixing, and her heart beat again After a while, she finally shifted her gaze to Ye Yufan's face, wanting to see the other's expression now.

But the moment she and Ye Yufan looked into each other's eyes, Li Shihan involuntarily took a step back - Ye Yufan was observing her!

He hooked the corners of his mouth, half-smile, but his eyes looked like he was examining a complete stranger.Li Hanshi was a little uneasy, and then Ye Yufan stared at her and said, "He likes you very much."

"Huh?" Li Shihan was a little confused for a moment, "Who are you talking about?"

Ye Yufan looked down at his palm, his eyes were unpredictable, he raised his head again, and said to Li Shihan, "Go back."

It was rare for Li Shihan to come to care about Ye Yufan, but she was sprayed with fog. She left depressed, feeling that something had changed in Ye Yufan.

Ye Yufan returned to his seat and fell into deep thought again. The students admired him for his calm performance.

After about half an hour, the silent Ye Yufan was startled suddenly, his eyes filled with shock, bewilderment and confusion.The scene of him and Li Shihan talking face to face just now clearly appeared in his mind, and only then did he realize what he had done!

Just as he walked out of the classroom to meet Li Shihan, he lost himself again!

Ye Yufan regained his energy all of a sudden, why did he say that kind of thing?Who is influencing your behavior?Another personality of oneself?But that kind of "transient" change is definitely not the former, because "split personality" needs to appear under certain conditions, at a certain time, or under certain stimuli.

Ye Yufan recalled the beating incident again. He forced himself to recall the beating incident a day later, and he also used the scene of the incident as a stimulus.But this time the disappearing memory appeared naturally, and the time interval was relatively short!

This situation is like a person who just wakes up in the morning, washes his face and brushes his toothbrush before he wakes up, and when he is fully awake, he finds that he is already on his way to school.But the person who washed his face and brushed his teeth was definitely himself. After the habitual behavior happened, it was impossible for him to suspect that it was another person who did the thing just now!

That being the case, why would I say "he likes you very much"?When Li Shihan asked him "Who are you talking about", Ye Yufan could clearly feel his confusion at the time: Who am I talking about?Are you talking about myself?If it were me, even if I confessed, I only need to say "I like you very much", this is the normal way of expression!

The next second, Ye Yufan was even more puzzled, he read the complete thoughts he had when he asked Li Shihan to go back!

He said: "You go back." At the same time, what he thought was: "You are not my type, and his affection for you is limited to this."

How can it be so contradictory?One moment, he said he liked you in the third person, and the next moment he used No.1 to say that the other party is not the type he likes... No!Just now whether it was "he likes you very much" or "you are not my type", those were not what Ye Yufan said from his own standpoint, this situation is more like someone stood on his standpoint Say it for him!

Could it be that at that moment, I was not alone, but two? ! !

...this is really scary!

Ye Yufan was shocked by such an inference, he shook his head, in fact, what he is doing now, "splitting himself into two people for analysis" already seems very split and crazy!

However, when it came to his feelings for Li Shihan, Ye Yufan found that he didn't seem to like him as much as before.

On the one hand, he doesn't expect Li Shihan to fall in love with someone with mental problems, even if Li Shihan wants to, he won't allow it, he can't bear to lose face in front of his lover.This is exactly the character of a perfectionist. When he feels that he is not worthy of others, he will give up decisively without any illusions; on the other hand, what he said to Li Shihan unconsciously just now is actually He also drew the boundary between the two in a disguised form. He was a little frustrated, but his character did not allow himself to pull back to save the other party's favor.

... He didn't realize that his mood at the moment just corresponded to the phrase "his affection for you is limited to this".

It's like suddenly changing a person, the country has not changed, but the nature has changed, 15 years of memory, likes and dislikes in the past, all come to an end here.

The distraction in physics class was just a small episode of Ye Yufan's changes.After that day, he became more and more absent minded and in a daze, and his mind wandering expression in class had become a sight in Class A of Senior One.

The homeroom teacher even talked to him specifically because of this, but Ye Yufan actually started wandering around in front of the homeroom teacher!He has such guts, what can a mere teacher do against him?

The teacher in charge went to Ye's father again to complain: "He is always distracted in class, answers irrelevant questions, often fails to hand in homework, and yesterday he handed in blank papers for the unit exam. What's going on with him?"

After complaining, the class teacher asked concerned: "I haven't seen him interacting with that girl before. Is there something wrong with your family? Hey, I said, many students are not in good condition because their parents quarreled..."

"No, no, our family is fine," Father Ye said, "Ah, apart from what you just said, does Xiao Yu have any other strange behaviors?"

The homeroom teacher wondered what happened to Ye Yufan's father. Normal parents would pay great attention to those few things. After all, this is the best school in the city, and most of the students who can get admitted here are going to key universities and prestigious universities. Yes, but why does she feel that Father Ye is not worried about his son's problems at all?

"There is nothing else for the time being." The head teacher said.

"Did Ye Yufan disrupt the classroom discipline for no reason?" Father Ye asked.

"Well, it's okay, it's just that I was distracted in class, and the teachers of every subject responded to me."

"Oh," Father Ye suddenly said seriously, "The teachers didn't scold Ye Yufan, did they?"

The homeroom teacher was stunned. She felt that the tone of Father Ye's words just now seemed to be questioning her. She was a little angry: "Of course not! We only care about the children!"

Father Ye's tone immediately eased a lot: "Ah, I'm really sorry, if Xiao Yu has any problems, please contact me as soon as possible, and don't blame him, he has been under a lot of pressure recently, it may be that the rebellious period has arrived ...If he is distracted in class, you can pretend that he does not exist, as long as he stays in the classroom quietly, and as for handing in blank papers for the exam, I will communicate with him when he comes back."

The homeroom teacher was completely speechless. With such excellent parents, could she still expect Ye Yufan to obey the teacher's order?But the parents made it clear that they didn't care, and the teacher didn't have any position. It was indeed as Father Ye said, as long as Ye Yufan didn't affect others, everyone could turn a blind eye to it.

Sometimes the influence is not direct, but subtle.

Over time, Ye Yufan's unconventional "mind-wandering behavior" has been widely spread.

Some girls who have a crush on Ye Yufan feel that such a "male god" is very deep, handsome and full of personality.In a high school where recreational activities are scarce, the outstanding boys in the gossip school are the only hobbies for the girls, and they gather in a circle to discuss at recess...

"Do you feel that Ye Yufan has become very different since returning from illness!"

"Yes, yes! I think he has become more temperamental!"

"That's not true! He used to be very temperamental, but now his temperament is more attractive than before!"

"That's right! His eyes seem a little sad..."

"That's melancholy!"

"And he has lost a lot of weight, which is really distressing!"

"That's what makes it more appealing, isn't it? If you can fall in love with him, just looking at his eyes will melt you!" A girl made a gesture of hugging her face.

Several boys met and wanted to imitate Ye Yufan's mind-wandering to attract girls' attention, but they all imitated nondescriptly.Because not everyone can be as deep and melancholy as Ye Yufan when he is distracted, and has the halo of the protagonist. Who told him to be a famous person as soon as he entered school?

Some of the imitated boys looked like idiots when their minds were distracted, some looked wretched when their minds were distracted, and some were thrown chalk by the teacher when their minds were distracted, and they added a sentence: "Okay, don't learn to be distracted! You think you are Ye Yufan! You Do you have the capital to be distracted? Before you get distracted, you should take the whole grade 21 exam! Ah yes, that Ye Yufan has a [-]% correct answer rate!"...

According to a girl's words: "Ye Yufan is thinking about life if he is distracted, and other boys are stupid if they are distracted!"

In fact, Yang Kai wanted to complain after hearing this: "He is not thinking about life, he is looking for himself..."

He was crying, who knew the pain of "walking away from the God Emperor at the same table", talking to Ye Yufan nine times out of ten without getting a response!He can only talk to himself like a psychopath!