Return to the Road of God

After leaving his son's room, Father Ye said to his wife, "My son's illness is dead."

Mother Ye was shocked: "What? Did you die?"

Father Ye was very firm: "Yes."

Ye's mother went mad and said: "Dr. Rui is such an excellent talent. If you don't let Xiao Yu go to treat his illness, why would you watch him become crazy? And Dr. Rui said that the future treatment will be free! No money! Such a good opportunity , but you said you're dead? What the hell are you thinking!"

Father Ye said angrily: "Didn't you see Xiao Yu's appearance today! Do you know how painful he is!"

Mother Ye retorted: "It's also for his own good..."

Father Ye said with an angry face: "It's better for him now! You are so selfish, you are simply inhuman!"

Ye's mother shouted: "Ye Chengfeng, tell me clearly! What do you mean I am inhuman? Ye Yufan is also my son! How can I be selfish and inhuman?"

Father Ye: "You asked him to be the best in everything since he was a child. He studied hard, and he didn't have any happiness that a normal child should have! He did so much to satisfy your personal vanity. I think his son will change. You forced me to do this!"

"Ye Chengfeng! You are the one who is sick!" Mother Ye cried at her husband's accusation, and she shouted, "Is it my own pride that my son is outstanding? Don't you feel happy every time your son is praised and honored? Now that something goes wrong, they put all the responsibility on me! I’ll leave my words here today, and my son will have to be cured if he doesn’t get cured!”

Father Ye: "If you insist on doing this, let's get a divorce! I'll take my son with me!"

divorce?Mother Ye's eyes widened. They have been husband and wife for 20 years, and the family has been happy for more than ten years. At this moment, the pillow person who has always been tolerant actually proposes a divorce?

Father Ye said again: "Even if the son becomes crazy, he is still my son, and I will be responsible for him for the rest of his life!"

During these days, Ye Yufan's strange illness has cast a huge shadow on this family.Any spark could cause a huge dispute. The couple roared hysterically, said the worst things in their hearts, and accused each other, but they were actually venting their fear and pressure.

"Do you know what it means that my son's case was submitted to the seminar? That is to announce to the whole country that our son is sick! Those doctors are all talking to themselves, under the guise of Xiaoyu, but in fact they are all for they themselves!"

Father Ye turned to his wife and said sadly: "But I am a father! In front of Xiao Yu, I am not a professor, a doctor, or a scientist! I don't want any development in the discipline of Lao Shizi, I just want my son to be good now. Yes! Do you know how much Chinese society cannot tolerate an abnormal person? Do you know how powerful public opinion is? As long as his case is recorded in the history of mental illness today, he will be a psychopath for the rest of his life! Even if he recovers one day I will be stabbed in the spine for the rest of my life!"

Mother Ye was already sitting on the sofa, weeping uncontrollably.Ye Yufan has become like this, doesn't she have any idea at all?of course not!After Dr. Zhong pointed out the potential problems of their family's tutoring, Mother Ye blamed herself for countless times and couldn't sleep for several nights, but what's the use?

They still watched helplessly as their son became more and more unfamiliar, powerless.

Ye Yufan lay on the bed with his eyes closed, the sound of his parents' fierce quarrel passed through the wall, the door, and the quilt, reaching his ears.

He heard his parents say they were going to get a divorce, he heard them say that he would become crazy, he heard them say that he would never be able to go to school again, and he would no longer be able to enjoy the joy of making friends unscrupulously...

Why is this so……

God, I have never done anything bad in the past ten years, and I have taken a few more No.1 exams at most. Why did I let this kind of bad luck happen to me...

Ye Yufan thought desperately, his eye sockets ached, and the tears still flowed out uncontrollably.

The next day, Ye Yufan fell ill again, his body temperature soared to [-] degrees, accompanied by vomiting, headache, and coma. The words "don't see a psychiatrist" show how painful the previous few hypnosis experiences were for him.

Two days later, when he woke up and saw his parents by the bedside, his first words were actually to ask: "Am I dying?"

Mother Ye burst into tears instantly.

Every mental treatment is a torture for Ye Yufan, and the pain of this kind of torture far exceeds the limit that his spirit can bear. What's more, those ambiguous diagnoses and unknown hypnosis make people wonder whether the treatment is right. Ye Yufan's illness was relieved or worsened.

But now, the reality in front of them is clearly the latter, and the health blow caused by mental stress is devastating.

At this moment, Mother Ye thought about it.What could be more important than the life of a son?As long as Ye Yufan is still alive, no matter what he becomes, he will still be her own son!

They won't push him anymore, and at this moment, they accept the arrangement of fate.

On the eve of leaving, Rui Beinian received a call from an old friend.

Zhong Yueren sighed on the phone and said, "They don't want to be treated anymore."

"How could it be!" Rui Beinian was very depressed. Since he started practicing, any patient he has dealt with has a nearly perfect history of present illness.But at this time, he was most interested by an intractable disease, and was about to make a radical move, when the patient suddenly said that he was dying!

This is definitely a nirvana for Rui Beinian who has obsessive-compulsive disorder. At that moment, he suddenly had the ridiculous idea of ​​"begging the patient to let him treat him"!

"Mr. Ye's attitude is very firm." Zhong Yueren said again.

Rui Beinian: "Help me keep an eye on this child, and try to persuade them not to give up treatment. I'll go back and finish my work in City B, and I will ask for leave for half a year to come to Ningcheng! Also..."

Zhong Yueren: "What?"

Rui Beinian suddenly thought of "Xia Xiaochuan", and he temporarily used these three words to represent that person's name.Originally, I wanted to ask Zhong Yueren to help find out about a person named Xia Xiaochuan who died in 1984. This person might be a painter, but he felt that this was too weird, so he should go back and discuss it with some friends in the industry. Besides.

So he said: "It's nothing, just leave it at that, and contact me in time if there is any situation."

During Ye Yufan's hospitalization, he had trouble sleeping and eating because he repeatedly worried that he would "die".Ye's father and Ye's mother thought about it for a while, and felt that it would be better to tell him about Ye Yufan's condition if this continues.

After learning that he was only mentally ill, Ye Yufan seemed very calm. He heard his parents' quarrel that night, and he also knew that he was not normal during these days.

But when he heard his father say "There are two people in his body", Ye Yufan was still startled.

"Two people?" Ye Yufan confirmed again.

"That's right, that's what Dr. Rui said," Father Ye said while peeling an apple, "That man's name was Xia Xiaochuan, and he died in the year you were born. I don't know how it happened to you..."

Ye Yufan frowned, Xia Xiaochuan?Why does this name feel so familiar?

"Don't think about it too much, just take care of your body now." Father Ye handed the peeled apple to Ye Yufan, "Come, eat."

Ye Yufan took it blankly, and just as he brought it to his mouth, his hand stopped suddenly.

Xia Xiaochuan!Why did these three words pop up in my mind when I heard this name?It's like telling someone "My name is Ye Yufan", Ye Yufan in my mind is Ye Yufan, not Ye Yufan or Ye Yufan!

Ye Yufan took a bite of the apple, and the next second, his thoughts became even more strange. He actually thought that Xia Xiaochuan was himself, and this was just another name of himself...

"Dad, are you afraid?" Ye Yufan asked as if talking to himself, "If it is true that there are two people in my body, would you be afraid?"

"At first, I was afraid. I thought it was too unimaginable. How could another person appear in a person's body? Besides, it's still a dead... Cough, isn't that a ghost. The night your mother and I just heard this statement , I was so scared that I couldn’t sleep.” Father Ye smiled and continued, “But I’m not afraid now. If I say I’m afraid, it’s because people’s hearts are at work. Why are people afraid of ghosts? Is it because ghosts are scary? What do ghosts look like? Ghosts also change after death. According to this theory, ghosts should look the same as when they were alive. As the saying goes, "There are ghosts in my heart", which means that people have done bad things and are afraid of ghosts. Come to him to settle accounts, the ghost is the 'retribution' or 'evil result' imagined by him. Your mother and I have never done anything evil, why are we afraid of ghosts? Then again, we don't believe in ghosts and gods , If it wasn't about you, I wouldn't have analyzed these things. As long as you get your mind right, you won't be afraid of anything, no matter how you change, you will always be our son."

Ye Yufan was stunned when he heard that, his father was right, he was their son after all.

However, I am afraid that I will never be as good as before. With such a strange disease, not only will he not be able to be the pride of his parents, but it may even become their shame and burden.Thinking of this, Ye Yufan felt sad and annoyed, and even hated himself a little.

He lay on the hospital bed, in a daze for a long time.His memory seems to be not as good as before, and there is often confusion between what he has done and what he remembers.

On the last day of Ye Yufan's hospitalization, his classmates organized to visit him together.

Ye's father and Ye's mother happened to be going to work today. When they came, Ye Yufan was leaning on the hospital bed and reading a book. His lower body was covered under the quilt, and his upper body was covered with a brown cashmere coat, which was the uniform light blue hospital uniform of the hospital. .

Since his illness, Ye Yufan has lost more than ten catties intermittently. He was originally a thin body, but now leaning on the bed, his body would be as thin as a piece of paper if it wasn't for the clothes.

"Why are you here?" He greeted them with a light smile, "There are so many people, there is no place for you to sit."

Seeing his classmates, Ye Yufan was very happy. When he straightened his body, the hospital gown on his chest slipped down, revealing the steeply sunken shoulder sockets, and the long and narrow collarbone seemed to burst out of his flesh.He put the book in his hand aside, and his outstretched wrist was so thin that it seemed that it could be broken.

"Hey, lie down! We can just stand up!" The girls who usually have a crush on Ye Yufan were almost forced to tears by this scene.

"Damn it! Why have you lost so much weight!" Yang Kai walked around the hospital bed and said, "What's wrong with you? Could it be cancer?"

Externally, the Ye family did not disclose Ye Yufan's real illness, and they would not take the risk of letting Ye Yufan break away from a normal life unless it was absolutely necessary.

As soon as Yang Kai finished speaking, some girls scolded him: "Bah, bah, bah, Yang Kai, you crow mouth!"

"That's right, you have cancer!" The crowd rose up and attacked, Ye Yufan laughed straight at the sight, "I'm fine, just a minor illness."

"Just pretend!" Yang Kai said again, covering his head without fear of death.

Another boy chimed in and said, "Don't be brave, can you lose so much weight all of a sudden with a minor illness? Then my mother won't have to worry about losing weight all day long!" He is the organizing committee member of the class, and he initiated this visit.

Ye Yufan had no choice but to confess, "It's autonomic dysfunction and immune system disorder caused by excessive mental stress."

"Wow!" the crowd shouted, "how did this happen?"

Yang Kai was speechless: "Are you under a lot of pressure?"...Who would believe it!

"Heh..." Looking at the astonished faces of the students, Ye Yufan's expression was still calm, as if he was not the one who was sick, but if someone pays close attention, he will find a trace of melancholy in his eyes.

The students chatted with Ye Yufan for a while, talking about a lot of interesting things that happened in school, but after all, they came for two sub-classes and returned to school soon.

Ye Yufan looked at the flowers and fruits on the bedside table. The winter afternoon sun slanted into the ward through the windows, casting bright shadows on the walls and bed rails.

Darkness and sunshine, noise and silence, the instant transformation forms such a sharp contrast.

Ye Yufan's gaze fell on a certain place in the sky blankly, and he suddenly had the urge to draw this scene and this mood.

Volume Two: Finding Yourself