Years of Intoxication

Singapore?

He Gu was stunned for a moment: "Mr. Gu, are you going to Singapore?" He had been to Singapore on a business trip with his boss, and he had a good impression of that place, clean and peaceful, with a high level of civilization, and most of the people could speak Chinese.

GuQingPei nodded: "I want to change the environment, Wang Jin still has property in Singapore, I can go over and help him take care of it, you should have nothing to miss here, right? Do you want to go with me? The treatment will definitely satisfy you .”

He Gu silently rubbed his hands.

"You can think about it, think about it, and contact me at any time."

"When does Mr. Gu plan to go?"

GuQingPei took a sip of his wine, with some sadness and frustration on his expression, "Hurry up."

He Gu guessed that the reason why Gu QingPei gave up working hard in Beijing for ten years must have something to do with Yuan LiJiang.He suddenly remembered what GuQingPei had said to him on the phone on the day of the accident, which probably meant that he shouldn't experience a relationship crisis at this age.

But this kind of thing has nothing to do with age, it's up to people to choose.

Now GuQingPei's change, combined with what he said at the beginning, is very embarrassing.

This topic made the atmosphere too heavy, GuQingPei lightly changed the topic, talked about He Gu's trip to Europe, and joked: "Overseas is so open, you have been visiting for so long, have you ever had an affair?"

It was just an unintentional joke, but He Gu was stunned.

GuQingPei raised his eyebrows: "Is there really?"

He Gu smiled: "I met a very nice boy." Zhou Heyi's enthusiastic smile appeared in his mind.

"Not bad, why, you impress me, which country are you from?"

"Dutch Chinese."

"Do you have a photo?"

He Gu hesitated for a moment, turned on the phone and found Zhou Heyi's photo, and handed it to GuQingPei.

GuQingPei smiled and said: "Yo, handsome boy, he looks so cute."

He why nodded.

"Will he come to China?"

Why did he shake his head again.

"It's pretty good." GuQingPei twitched the corner of his mouth lightly, "Do you know why, I think this is the best way. Carpe diem, get together and leave, everyone is happy, don't talk about feelings, it's all nonsense." He Turning his face away and looking out the window, his handsome profile was coated with a dim light, his curled eyelashes trembled slightly, and his eyes were deep, as if he was carrying the loneliness of half the world.

"Yeah..." He Gu lowered his head, smiled wryly, "I just figured it out a little late."

Saying goodbye to GuQingPei, He Gu drove home slowly, on the way, he thought a lot, but still couldn't make up his mind.

If he really wanted to leave, his mother would definitely want him to go to Shanghai, but he...he had no idea where he wanted to go.He has always been a very decisive person, but he hesitated on this matter.

When he got home, he found a familiar car downstairs.He parked the car and walked over calmly.

The car door opened, and Feng Zheng walked out.

The two hadn't seen each other for half a year, and now they were standing opposite each other, it really seemed like a lifetime away.

He Gu nodded: "How did you find it?"

"It's not difficult to know where you live. The address you filled out in my dad's employee file is here." Feng Zheng lowered his head and kicked the stones under his feet with his shiny leather shoes that seemed to be spotless. "It's just that I took the liberty to come here because I was afraid you would be angry."

"I won't be angry." He Gu said generously, "Come up and sit down?" Time has passed, and he has been able to face Feng Zheng calmly.

Feng Zheng raised his head, his eyes were full of surprise and joy.

He Gu went upstairs, and Feng Zheng quickly followed.

After entering the room, He Gu said: "Sit down, what do you want to drink? Tea... Oh, it's so late, you can't sleep even if you drink tea or coffee, let me pour you some water."

Feng Zheng was startled: "You still remember."

"Remember, you are very sensitive to these."

Feng Zheng followed He Gu's back with deep eyes.

He Gu poured two glasses of water and put them in front of Feng Zheng: "Why did you come to me suddenly?"

"I've been looking for you for a long time. Your phone was exposed on the Internet... Well, since then, the phone has been turned off. I wanted to find you at the time, but I thought you must be in a bad mood. You probably don't want to see me. When the news heat passes, I still can't find you, I checked and found out that you have gone abroad..." Feng Zheng frowned and looked at He Gu, "Tell me the truth, are you okay?"

"I'm fine now." He Gu took a sip of water, "Look, after the news heat is over, no one will talk about me anymore, everything is as usual."

"But you left Nanchuang."

"Well, yes, I don't want to embarrass them." He Gu smiled, "Nanchuang is also interesting enough, and gave me a large bonus."

"Why, you sacrificed too much for this relationship."

He Gu shrugged, the words that sounded like needles before could be heard calmly now: "So I'm awake now."

"Great." Feng Zheng said happily, "I knew this day would come."

He Gu nodded: "I know too."

"What's your plan next?"

"I haven't figured it out yet."

"Come here." Feng Zheng said seriously.

He Gu chuckled: "Everyone thought it was difficult for me to find a job, but I didn't expect that I was quite in demand."

Feng Zheng rested his elbows on his thighs, crossed his slender fingers, and stared at He Gu: "Why, is someone poaching you? No matter how much annual salary he offers you, I will double it."

"It's not about the money. I don't think we're suitable for working together." Leaving aside the embarrassment between him and Feng Zheng, if Song Juhan knew about it and didn't know what to do, it would be a headache to think about it.

Feng Zheng sighed, his expression very disappointed.

He Gu also felt uncomfortable: "I don't mean anything else, it's just that too many things happened..."

"I understand." Feng Zheng showed a bleak smile, "Why, I understand, you don't want to see me, and you don't want to get in touch with me again. Live... I always think about what would happen to us if there was no Song Juhan, we were so in tune back then, we were such good friends, if there was no Song Juhan, would we be very happy."

He reason lowered his head and did not speak.

"After I came back to see you, I couldn't hold back this kind of thinking. Especially seeing that Song Juhan didn't cherish you at all, I regretted not staying by your side at that time. Maybe everything will be different."

"Feng Zheng, the matter between me and Song Juhan is not your fault. Although you have concealed the most important thing from me, which is unacceptable to me, I have let go of it now, and you don't have to blame yourself."

"But I can't let it go." Feng Zheng took a deep breath, with hidden pain in his eyes, "I always miss you, miss us, I seldom regret anything in my life, only you, I have a lot I regret many things."

Why don't you know what to say.He also regrets many things, but when he thinks about it carefully, he thinks that there is a choice, sometimes there may be no choice, and regret can change anything.

Feng Zheng looked at He Gu affectionately: "I've thought about it for a long time. I don't want to regret today after a few years, and spend the rest of my life regretting every decision I made or didn't make in the past. So, why." He solemnly said Say, "Give me a chance, I like you and I want to be with you."

Why are you stunned.He thought that Feng Zheng came to him to reminisce about the past out of concern, but he never expected that Feng Zheng would suddenly confess his love to him.

In his impression, Feng Zheng has always been indifferent, cold and hot. He couldn't figure out what Feng Zheng was thinking, but he didn't feel that Feng Zheng liked him. What's more, it might be the obsession with him back then. Bar.He pondered for a moment: "Feng Zheng, I don't think you like me, you just don't want to lose to Song Juhan."

Feng Zheng frowned: "Why, do you think I'm as naive as Song Juhan? Maybe I had such an idea back then, but now, you just simply attract me. You are better, better, and more attractive than at that time I admit that Song Juhan made me very reconciled, but I am not reconciled, not because I lost to him, but because I failed to protect you and possess you."

He Gu's body couldn't help retreating until his back touched the back of the sofa. He shook his head, feeling a little confused: "Feng Zheng, to be honest, I can't accept you. There are too many things between us...I can't forget s things."

Feng Zheng smiled wryly: "Why, you are so ruthless that you don't even want to be polite?"

"Sorry, but I think the clearer the better, the better."

"You're right, I appreciate even this about you." Feng Zheng shook his head and smiled slightly, "You haven't changed at all, even Song Juhan hasn't changed you, that's great."

"You are wrong, Song Juhan has changed me too much."

"No, you left him now, 'you' will come back."

He Gu was stunned, did "he" come back?

"Why, turn the page on Song Juhan, it's time to start a new chapter in your life."

"My life has indeed turned a page, but I...I can't love others anymore." He Gu smiled lightly, "Feng Zheng, don't waste time on me."

Feng Zheng shook his head and said seriously: "At the end of the day, it's just a relationship, and it's just a lovelorn. Are you thinking too seriously? Maybe in a year or so, you really don't care He is gone, you are not yet 30 years old, how do you know that you will not fall in love with others. "

He Gu laughed, and at the end of the laugh, his voice was a bit bitter: "I've always comforted myself like this, Feng Zheng, we do have a tacit understanding."

He always wanted himself to believe in these comforts, but he knew very well in his heart that these seven years were not just a relationship for him, and the result he got was not just a broken love.He has been completely hollowed out from the inside to the outside. If a person can still live after his heart dies, it is probably his current state.

He tried hard to find a little happiness, some work, a kind of existence value, so that he had reason to live, but he knew that he actually lost interest in everything, didn't care much about anything, even, he had no idea about the future. any expectations.

He just lives, trying to avoid pain to live.

Sometimes I think deeply about why he loves Song Juhan so much, and is unwilling to let go of his love until the seven years of suffering. Maybe it is because Song Juhan is the most dazzling and shining light in his gloomy and gray life. Bright light, Song Juhan has all the qualities he admires, has a wonderful life that is completely different from him, has ideals, talents, and an infinite future.

When he numbly went to school, studied, worked, and lived a decent life step by step, Song Juhan let him see how extraordinary life can be, and also gave his always indifferent heart a strong and surging passion. desire.That's right, it was the first time that he loved and wanted something so much, wanted to be close to it so much, and looked forward to their common future so eagerly.

It is not an exaggeration to say that Song Juhan has brightened his life, because liking, longing, and anticipation are so wonderful, so good that he feels that with these, he is a flesh-and-blood person who has the value of living, so He just couldn't let go.

However, Song Juhan was too bright and hot, what he was holding was a red-hot soldering iron, the pain was extreme, so he had to let go.

Just at that moment, he was equivalent to giving up the color of the whole world.

It's not just a relationship, and it's not just a lovelorn.

Fortunately, without color, he can still live, it's nothing more than boring, at least he doesn't have to experience the pain anymore.

Feng Zheng looked at the disappointment in his eyes and felt very uncomfortable: "No matter what, you can't sentence yourself to death. People like Song Juhan are not worth your life. I have done too many things that I regret. Once, I won't back down again. Why, let me chase you again."

He Gu sighed and shook his head: "Feng Zheng, I don't want to disappoint you, I..."

"Why." Feng Zheng said firmly, "This is my decision, I chose it myself, even if you let me down, it's not your fault."

"I may leave the capital."

Feng Zheng froze for a moment: "Where do you want to go?"

"It's not decided yet, but I want to live in a different environment and find a new job."

"Are you worried about Song Juhan pestering you?"

He Gu frowned and said, "How do you know..."

"I know that Song Juhan went to France." Feng Zheng said calmly, "I also know that he must be looking for you."

He Gu turned his face away and said unhappily, "Why can't he go to work." No one wants to be investigated, Song Juhan is enough to make people bored.

"Because he hates you."

He Gu turned to look at him.

"Did I guess right?" Feng Zheng smiled coldly, "I'm so glad to see Song Juhan is here today."

"You think too much, he just..."

"Why." Feng Zheng interrupted him again, "You have no idea how attractive you are. But you can no longer trust Song Juhan, he will never be single-minded to you, he will only bring you countless pain of."

"I know." No one knew Song Juhan better than him.

Feng Zheng couldn't help but smiled again, his eyes were a little dark, "Song Juhan, I expect him to suffer the consequences."

He Gu shook his head: "He won't last long."

"If you're worried about Song Juhan pestering you and you want to leave, then leave this matter to me and I'll go find Song He and Vanessa."

"Song Juhan doesn't listen to anyone, it's useless. And..." He Gu said firmly, "I'll settle my own affairs."

"Why, don't be so stubborn, I can..."

"Feng Zheng." He Gu looked at him seriously, "I will settle my own affairs."

Feng Zheng sighed lightly, and said with a wry smile: "Song Juhan didn't cherish a person like you, and he will regret it for the rest of his life."