Years of Intoxication

In the afternoon, the helicopter landed on the small island. This was the first time I saw outsiders in so many days.

He could leave here soon, but he didn't feel much easier.

Song Juhan's strength never retreats, he is not free wherever he goes, where can he hide, and why should he hide.

Sitting on the helicopter, Song Juhan took his hand: "You have never been in a helicopter, have you? It will shake a little, don't be afraid."

"I'm not afraid." He Gu was very calm.

Song Juhan didn't let go of his hand, but wrapped it with two hands, playing with his fingers.

He Gu smoked a few times but didn't come back, and finally couldn't help it: "I want to go to the bathroom."

Song Juhan chuckled: "Do you think there is room for a toilet here?"

He Gu said it habitually, and it was a bit embarrassing at this time.

Song Juhan grabbed his hand and put it to his lips, kissed him lightly, and looked at He Gu with affection and longing that even he himself could not imagine.

Helicopter took them to Cannes, and they changed to civil aviation.

As soon as he boarded the plane, He Gu found out that Song Juhan had booked the entire first-class cabin. The thought of spending ten hours with Song Juhan in this unavoidable place gave him headaches.

The stewardess pulled the curtain and isolated the two of them in a small cabin space.

Song Juhan stepped over the handrail and leaned on He Gu's shoulder.

Why ignored him and looked down at the book.

"What are you looking at?"

"Science."

"Can I sing to you?"

"..." He Gu wanted to refuse, but the words stopped when he reached his mouth. He had a special obsession with Song Juhan singing to him, as if it was a very precious thing, and he was not willing to push it away.

Maybe it's because his first time began in the afternoon when Song Juhan sang to him. What he cared about was not the first time, but the sweet moment when he thought he was loved. fondest memory.

Song Juhan sang softly in his ear, the singing voice was still lazy and magnetic, which made people enchanted.

When He Gu read the book, he unconsciously lost his mind, and was distracted by the singing.

After singing a song, Song Juhan leaned against his ear and said softly: "I want to sing to you every day."

He reason lowered his head and did not speak.

Song Juhan kissed his neck: "Shall I chase you again? This time I'm serious. I will give you everything I didn't give you in those seven years."

He Gu said calmly: "If you just can't stand being rejected, I can try to explain it to you."

"It's not that I can't stand being rejected, I just can't stand you not being by my side." I can't stand that you don't belong to me, and I can't stand your eyes looking at others.

"Okay, this kind of conversation has to be repeated eight times a day, aren't you tired?" He Gu closed the book, "Song Juhan, I have said it many times, I will not look back, and don't waste time on me, I will talk to you in the future." I don’t want to say it anymore, it’s up to you.”

Song Juhan held his hand: "Okay, don't tell me, I'll show you."

Why are you silent.

Song Juhan said to himself: "I recently started to participate in commercial performances again. Although many people still scold me, it's okay. I'm still popular. It's just that after going through this incident, I found out whether it's popular or not. , I don’t care about it for a long time. When I entered the show business circle, I just thought that I sang so well and wrote so well that everyone should listen to it. Now I have won the award I want to win, and I want to stand on the stage. I have already stood up, and what I want to do seems to have come true. The rest is just to write a better song, but to write a better song, you don’t need to be popular, and you don’t need everyone to like it. I."

He Gu listened quietly, this was the first time he heard Song Juhan talk about his career with him, it was indeed very fresh.

Song Juhan gently squeezed his fingers, kneading the plump fingertips: "Because not everyone can understand my song, not everyone likes to listen to it, and not everyone, I want them to listen to it. It’s been a long, long time since I can’t find the passion and impulse I had when I simply wanted to sing for others, and any performance is just about money.” As he spoke, he unconsciously fell into memories, “ Do you remember that afternoon when we first started dating? At that time, I really wanted to sing to you, you have such a good brain, you must remember."

He Gu's heart tightened, and he secretly pursed his lips.

"You have been looking at me, your eyes are very bright, and you are very intoxicated. After the singing, I asked you to give your opinion. Most people pretend to make a few comments, but you are too honest. You can't say anything except that it sounds good, but I I'm very happy." Song Juhan whispered against He Gu's ear, "Actually, I didn't intend to take you to bed so soon, but I really wanted to make you mine that day..."

He Gu stood up suddenly: "I'm going to the bathroom."

Song Juhan took his hand, looked up at him, his gaze was as bright as a star: "It's been so many years, the only person who makes me want to sing to him is still only you."

He Gu didn't speak, he pushed his hand away, turned around and walked to the bathroom.

After inserting the latch, He Gu took a deep breath and looked at himself in the mirror with deep eyes.

Song Juhan's flirting skills have been honed from countless people since he was a teenager, and he has to keep [-] points sober.

Maybe Song Juhan really wants to treat him seriously this time, at least he thinks so now, but it is impossible for him to trust this person anymore.

With such a long future, he won't take Song Juhan's whim seriously.

He can firmly pretend to be passionate for seven years, and he can also firmly walk away from Song Juhan's life step by step.He only needs to bury his love for someone in the bottom of his heart from a distance, and then live a free and easy life, that's enough, he will never drag himself into the bottomless pit again.

After adjusting his emotions, Hegu returned to the cabin.

Song Juhan's eyes followed him all the way until he sat on the seat.

He Gu glanced at him, then continued to pick up the book to read.

Song Juhan pressed his big hand on the page: "Is this book prettier than mine?"

"It looks good." He Gu pushed his hand away, "The plane has been flying for so long, I always have to find something to do."

"Then talk to me."

"We...have nothing to talk about." With very different backgrounds, lives and circles, they don't have much in common. He has a boring personality, and Song Juhan usually comes to him, not for chatting.

"Of course, we have been together for seven years, how could we have nothing to talk about."

"We have been together for seven years, and most of the time you came to me was just to have sex." He Gu didn't raise his head, "What are we talking about? Are you talking about bed skills?"

Song Juhan's face was a little ugly: "I went to you because I like staying with you..." The more he spoke, the lower his voice.

"Well, I believe it." Song Juhan should really like to sleep with him, at least the two of them are very compatible in this respect.

"But it doesn't mean we don't have a common language. I know everything about you."

"for example?"

"Your family, your career, your social circle."

He Gu smiled: "Really, what is the reason for my parents' discord? What is my position in Nanchuang? Who are the friends I usually contact?"

Song Juhan was stunned.

He Gu shook his head: "I am qualified to say, 'I know everything about you', but you have never been interested in my affairs, so you don't ask, even if I mention it, you can't remember."

Anxiety flashed in Song Juhan's eyes: "I will remember, from now on, I will remember everything you say."

"Why bother." He Gu turned his head and looked at him, "You are not such a person, but now you force yourself to accommodate me, please me, and force yourself not to sleep with others, are you uncomfortable? Juhan, I I know how painful it is to change yourself for others, because I have experienced it, so I advise you not to do it. Just be yourself, and I will be myself, so that everyone will be happy."

Song Juhan gritted his teeth: "Do you fucking understand people's words? I want you. Everything else is secondary. Don't reason with me in a serious way, let me give up. I, Song Juhan, have never flinched in my life. But." He was fed up with He Gu calmly and rationally analyzing all kinds of things between them, as if his feelings could be quantified, measured, and manipulated, and he had become completely unlike himself for some reason beyond his control. Feeling regretful, why do you have to advise him to "get back from the wrong way"?What the fuck is that.

Why do you take him for something?

He Gu shrugged and stopped talking.

Song Juhan stared at He Gu for a long time, but finally lowered his head powerlessly, his dim eyes were full of sadness and disappointment.

Why is he so close to him, but he can't hug him heartily.

He wondered why the one who smiled at him, was kind to him, and looked at him with a focus that seemed unique in the world.Thinking about it, I was going crazy.

How could he have lost that kind of why.

Back home, it was still broad daylight, He Gu slept on the plane, but was still tired.

After getting off the plane, he was directly stuffed into Song Juhan's car. He insisted on going home, but Song Juhan was reluctant, but obviously he had other things to do and couldn't take care of him for the time being, so he said, "You can go home, but The mobile phone must be unblocked 24 hours a day, don’t forget that all your documents are with me, don’t run around.”

He Gu said coldly: "Song Juhan, I didn't break the law, why did I run away, don't force people too much."

"That's not what I meant." Song Juhan turned his head and kissed him lightly, "I feel so uncomfortable during the time you left, I'm afraid you will leave quietly again, where do you want to go, at least let me know , at least let me find it."

Why don't you turn your face away.

Song Juhan's eyes darkened, he squeezed his chin, turned his head forcibly, and kissed those soft lips heavily.

He Gu pushed him hard: "Do you still want to be bitten again?"

Song Juhan touched the still warm lips with his fingertips: "I will go find you."

The driver sent He Gu downstairs, and He Gu was glad that he had brought the key with him when he was taken away by Song Juhan, otherwise he would have nothing on him, wouldn't he even be able to enter the house.

He went upstairs, opened the door, and returned to the home he had been away for three months, as if it had been a lifetime.

What happened in the past three months completely changed something inside him. He dare not say that he has completely escaped from the shadow of Song Juhan. After all, it was seven years of bloody footprints step by step, but he can already face it and can Resisted.

Next, it's time for him to think about his future life.

He called his mother and said that he had returned to China and he could go with Susu when the time came. His mother was very happy and asked how he was doing.

All he could say was good.

After hanging up the phone, he called GuQingPei again.

He listened anxiously to the beeping sound, and was very nervous the moment he connected.

"Why, have you returned to your country?" GuQingPei's voice sounded very peaceful.

He Gu secretly breathed a sigh of relief: "Mr. Gu, I'm back, how are you?"

"Oh, I switched to a friend's company, it's okay." GuQingPei obviously avoided the important ones.

Why do you know that GuQingPei's situation will not be very good, after all those photos have been spread throughout the business circle, and offended Yuan Lijiang, there is almost no foothold in the capital, but GuQingPei is not so easy to defeat, hear He seems to be okay now, and he is relieved a lot.He said: "That's good, when will you have time to meet?"

GuQingPei paused: "Tonight is fine, I also want to chat with you."

"Okay, see you tonight."

He Gu packed up, wrote an email to the housekeeper in Paris, asking him to send his luggage back, and then wrote another email to Zhou Heyi.

In the letter, he apologized to Zhou Heyi and thanked him for his company during this time. He deliberately said his words very politely, just to alienate the relationship between them.

During this period of time, he often thinks of this enthusiastic and cheerful young man, and the warmth and wonderful experience brought to him during that time, even though it was just an affair during the journey, it also has a special meaning to him, just like, It seems to symbolize his farewell to the past and the era called "Song Juhan".

If he had never met Song Juhan, he might have liked someone like Zhou Heyi, who lived a simple and happy life, but he had exhausted all his ability to love, and there was nothing left to share with others.

After tidying up, He Gu drove to find GuQingPei.

The two of them still made an appointment at the quiet small bar that they often went to. As soon as he entered the room, GuQingPei was still sitting on the sofa in the corner, as if nothing had changed, but GuQingPei's obviously darkened eyebrows and eyes had already been told. a lot of.

He Gu sighed in his heart, he didn't know when he would see that high-spirited GuQingPei again, he admired, admired and liked that GuQingPei.

"Why." GuQingPei smiled and waved at him.

"Mr. Gu, long time no see." He Gu sat down opposite him, pretending to be relaxed, "You look pretty good."

GuQingPei smiled: "Ah, there is no shortage of food and clothing, if you think about it, it's nothing."

"As expected of Mr. Gu." He Gu really admired his calmness.

"What about you? How did you play in Europe, but you're all tanned."

He Gu smiled and said, "I traveled to many countries, and I was really tired after playing, so I came back."

"If you go out for too long, you will find out. It's better to stay at home."

"Indeed." He Gu nodded, "You said on the phone that you went to a friend's company?"

"Well, Qingda Real Estate."

"Oh? Wang Jin's company." Qingda Real Estate is quite famous in the industry, and He Gu has also dealt with him. He is very happy for Gu Qingpei, "That's very good, Mr. Gu is worthy of being Mr. Gu."

GuQingPei smiled lightly: "Actually, I wanted to start a business, but the situation is not right now. It just so happens that Wang Jin needs my help with something, so I went there. It's pretty good, let's settle down for a while before we talk about it."

"This is the best." He Gu raised his glass, "Congratulations, Mr. Gu."

"Thank you." GuQingPei raised his glass, "I saw that you were born again, so this glass of wine is a toast to both of us."

"To both of us."

The two drank it down.

He Gu looked at GuQingPei's tired eyes: "Mr. Gu is very busy with work, so pay attention to your body."

"Don't worry, the work intensity is a little bit higher now, and I will work harder instead."

He Gu paused: "How are you and... Yuan Yang?"

GuQingPei froze for a moment, then smiled nonchalantly, "It's over."

He Gu nodded: "Alright."

"A young master who was born with a golden spoon in his mouth, how can he understand the hardships of others." GuQingPei shook his head, "There are too many hurdles between us that we can't overcome, and we still share the light."

"I understand." He couldn't understand more.

"It's easy..." GuQingPei murmured in a low voice, not knowing who he was talking to.

He Gu looked at GuQingPei's dazed expression, feeling very uncomfortable.

GuQingPei quickly returned to his usual look, he shook his glass lightly: "Why, what are your plans for next?"

"I haven't made up my mind yet, but I plan to leave the capital." It's hard for him to find a job he likes here, and he doesn't want to be in a place too close to Song Juhan.Especially after going out for a while, he found that he could overcome the fear of entering an unfamiliar environment, so maybe it was really time for him to try.

"Leave?" GuQingPei looked directly at him, "Then, do you want to go to Singapore with me?"