Abnormal

"Come on, open your mouth, ah—"

Gao Qiu sat kneeling on the edge of the bed, holding a thermos bowl in his little hand, blew on the porridge in the spoon, and fed his father a mouthful in a decent manner.

It has been a few days since the operation ended, and my father's health has gradually improved a lot.Although he couldn't get out of bed yet, his energy was up. At this moment, the man was eating porridge with his mouth open, looking at his little daughter with a smile in his eyes.

The father and daughter enjoyed themselves happily, while the woman on the side watched quietly.She thought to herself that when the time came to go home, she would have to go to the temple to pay homage—there was such a big change a year ago, thanks to the blessing of the Buddha, the old man was dragged back from the gate of hell.

Her son is also really competitive. He probably saved a lot of money working outside. Not only did he pay for the medical expenses, but he was also promoted to a single ward, where he was taken care of by the best doctors and nurses.The single ward is much better than those shared by multiple people, with sufficient heating and a large window, which fills the room with warm and bright sunlight, making the room very bright.

She plans to find a good marriage for her son by the way. A mother has to worry about this. It's 24 and [-], and she hasn't found a partner yet. If she speaks out, she will be laughed at by the neighbors.She knows her son best. Although she can't say a few words all day long, she is actually a steady and down-to-earth person, and she is easily shy on the inside. It seems that she is devoted to girls and has a very good temperament.

"Mom, where did brother go?"

The youngest daughter's voice like a silver bell pulled her out of her imagination, and the woman pointed out with a smile from the corner of her eyes, "Go talk to the doctor, don't bother your brother, he said it's business."

"I want to play with my brother." Gao Qiu pouted and put the bowl on the shelf beside him, "When can we go home?"

The woman thought for a while: "Your brother seems to be going to ask this. I'll ask him later when he comes in."

As soon as the words fell, the door was opened, accompanied by the young man's soft voice: "Well, thank you doctor." Gao Qiu rushed forward: "Brother!"

Why.Gao Tong turned around, bent down and answered her softly, Dad finished eating?

Gao Qiu: "Hey, I finished feeding and didn't spill anything."

Gao Tong laughed, touched his sister's hair, turned to his mother and said, "The doctor said that we were not advised to go home a year ago. The postoperative observation will take about a week to see if there is anything else."

The woman nodded and sighed.Gao Qiu also sighed like a grown-up: "I want to go home for the New Year and eat roasted chicken legs and dumplings."

Gao Tong looked down at her, and said warmly, "Brother will buy it for you."

He picked Gao Qiu up, walked to the chair beside the hospital bed and sat down, looked at the man on the bed, and said, "Dad, let's go home after two days. You should recuperate here first. I'll invite you this time." I won’t go back to Nanjing, I can spend a lot of time with you.”

The father on the hospital bed opened and closed his lips several times, and his skin seemed to be chapped. In the end, he didn't speak, but just stretched out a withered and yellow hand.

Gao Tong was also speechless, holding it tightly.The two hands are closely connected, and the same blood flows in their bodies. This grip seems to be passing on something.

……

Two days passed like this, and finally the New Year's Eve was ushered in.

Gao Tong set off a few firecrackers at the door of his house to ward off bad luck, and then went to the hospital by car.There are firecrackers everywhere along the way, and red lanterns are hung on the store plaques, which is quite lively and festive.The hospital was not so exaggerated, but there was also a lucky charm hanging on the gate, and several young nurses who came to work wore red padded jackets.

When Gao Tong entered the ward, he found that his parents were already having breakfast.After asking, I found out that the canteen of the hospital specially made it. There are dumplings stuffed with leeks, eggs, pork and celery, hot porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork, and tofu mixed with green onions. It is served with big bone soup, which is very nourishing.Gao Tong tasted a few, and found that the taste was not bad, but when he ate it, he suddenly remembered the crab roe soup dumpling that he ate in Shanghai for half a month. dripping into the mouth...

These things happened only a few days ago, but now it seems like a lifetime ago.Gao Tong stared blankly at the light spots projected by the sun, and sighed helplessly.

He turned on the computer and began to submit resumes.

Although his father's illness has come to an end, his hard days are yet to come.Now I owe a lot of debt, and there is nothing left in my hand. If I don't find a job, the whole family will wait for the northwest wind.

At noon, several relatives came to the hospital to visit his father in turn, bringing a lot of fruits, melon seeds, cooked food such as chicken and duck, and also wrapped a few small red envelopes for Gao Qiu along the way.Gao Qiu took it seriously, bowed several times, wished the elders a happy new year and all the best, and even recited the blessings from one to ten.

The elders smiled and patted her head: "Study hard and strive like your brother."

In such a crowded place, Gao Tong was far less open-minded than his younger sister, he just stood aside awkwardly, nodding in response to what the elders said.When asking him about his job, whether he is in a relationship, etc., he simply said "it's okay" and perfunctory.

How can he be competitive, a failure and downcast like a waste, his past life experience is just an illusion created by his self-esteem.

Everyone just came to see their relatives for a walk, and left after a short stay.Gao Tong sent them out, but when he came back, his sister secretly pulled them aside. The little girl took out those red envelopes from her sleeve and handed them to him carefully.

"Brother, I'll give you all the red envelopes." The small voice was immature and cute, waiting for his reply with full expectation.

Gao Tong moved his lips, took a look at the eye-catching red envelope, and moved his eyes to his sister's big sparkling eyes. He felt as if sand had gotten into his eyes and wanted to rub them.

In the end, he took the red envelope and choked up, "Okay."

In the evening, the sky is occupied by fireworks. Gorgeous, colorful and shining fireworks exploded over the county town, and then turned into meteors and fell down. The sky was decorated like colorful candy, which was very beautiful. dream.

Father wanted to go for a walk, so Gao Tong helped him step by step, got him into a wheelchair and wandered around the floors.After a while, they clamored to go downstairs again, but Gao Tong had no choice but to follow the elevator to the first floor.During the Chinese New Year, there were not many people in the hospital, only a few doctors and nurses on duty, and some patients who needed to be hospitalized for a long time. The whole building was quite quiet, and my father was quietly in a wheelchair, admiring the outside from the windows on different floors lively scene.

"Tong." After watching for a while, his father suddenly called his name.

Gao Tong was in a daze, and then realized: "What's wrong, Dad?"

"You said it's on different floors, and the scenery outside is also different."

"Ah, what?" Gao Tong paused before saying, "It should be, after all, the scenery you see is different from different angles."

"Life is like this. You walk through different floors and go through different years, even the same scenery will have different feelings."

"Actually, on the day when I got sick, I was still conscious when I was carried into the ambulance, but I couldn't say a word. It was dark in front of my eyes. Your mother's voice was chattering like a house bird. At that time, I had one foot I have already entered the temple of Hades, and my life for the past fifty years has passed like a revolving lantern. The clearest memory is actually when your mother just gave birth to you. Hey, a big fat boy, I thought in my heart, I finally I'm going to be a dad too..."

Gao Tong didn't quite understand, so he let out an eh.

"So I thought at the time, your mother, you and Qiuqiu must be waiting for me. As the pillar of the family, I can't just disappear, so now I'm alive and kicking..."

Gao Tongxin said, it must be the doctor's superb medical skills.But he was too embarrassed to reveal it, and just nodded with a smile.

"Son, you have been depressed since you were a child, and your parents have seen it. But we have no education, no education, and no idea how to communicate to relieve your pressure. After so many years, we feel guilty."

"Especially when you were in high school, you didn't talk when you went home every week, and you went back to the house after eating. We didn't dare to say anything to you because we were afraid of disturbing your emotions." The man in the wheelchair paused, Sighing: "Father knows that you have always regretted the things you didn't pass in the college entrance examination, but those are all in the past tense, don't we have a good life now? Son, Mom and Dad want you to know that you have always been in our hearts proud."

Gao Tong listened silently, he tightly gripped the handle of the wheelchair, the leather handle was soaked in a layer of sweat, and he couldn't even hold it.

"To be honest, there is so little communication between our father and son, so little that I, a father, don't even know my son very well. Tongtong, after all these years, tell me, do you have any hope in your heart?"

Gao Tong didn't say anything.

When he was young, he lacked the care and companionship of his parents and was isolated by his classmates. As a result, he has completely lost the ability to confide and talk about his life with others.He is restless, restless and in pain, unable to reconcile with himself and the world. Even now when his father simply asks him a word, his mind is empty and he doesn't know what to answer.

——Looking forward?

No.There is no long-term wish, he just hopes to survive every day visited by suffering, and live with it.But isn't that true of most people in this world?Even if you have a vision, it is of little use. Why worry about something that cannot be realized in a lifetime.

Seeing his son's silence, Gao Liqun also fell silent, and asked after a long time.

"Have you got a girlfriend yet?"

Gao Tong scratched his head in embarrassment: "No."

"What?"

"...No one I like."

"..." Gao Liqun looked at his son for a while, and said, "You should exercise and tan yourself. A healthy wheat complexion like Dad's is very good."

Gao Tong glanced at his father, and said calmly: "...I will fight for it."

The two chatted all the way back to the high-rise ward. In the elevator, Gao Tong heard his father repeating the word "hope" again and again, and finally couldn't help saying that he wanted to be rich.

The man seemed to be held back for a moment, and just as he was about to say something, the elevator door swung open.Gao Tong chuckled and was about to push his father out, but he froze the moment he raised his head.

His face suddenly changed, and he looked paler under the cold incandescent light of the hospital.

He ushered in an unexpected guest.

"Yo, Gao Tong, I'm planning to look for you." The other party was carrying a bunch of New Year's goods in his hand, with a generous and natural smile on his face, he first greeted his father, then looked up at him, and said slowly: "Long time no see, old classmate."

It's Chen Peng.

The three words "old classmate" hit him in an instant with tens of thousands of thunderbolts after a long time.

Gao Tong swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva, his hands lost strength for a while, and he pushed the wheelchair forward, but the wheel seemed to be stuck in the gap in the middle of the elevator, and he couldn't push it up no matter how hard he pushed.

His lips were trembling, and he exerted more force nervously, almost shaking his father out.Chen Peng supported the elevator with one foot to prevent the door from closing suddenly, and said with a smile, "Take your time, do you need help?"

Gao Tong lowered his head and finally got the man out.His body was completely stiff, and he straightened his back like a puppet to push people forward, and his walking posture was particularly funny.

Chen Peng followed them, lowered his head slightly and said to his father, "Hello, Uncle, I am Gao Tong's high school classmate, and I was the life committee member at that time. My name is Chen Peng. This is the first time I have met you."

"Oh oh, hello."

"How is uncle's illness? Didn't our classmate buy some New Year's goods and some things like sea cucumber and abalone, ginseng and bird's nest, for you to make up for?"

Gao Tong stopped abruptly.

He turned his head to look at Chen Peng, and said with a cold expression: "My father's heart just recovered, so I can't eat this kind of food with a strong fishy smell. I'm sorry."

On the contrary, Gao Liqun smiled, waved his hands and said, "Oh, Tongtong, you can't take away the kindness of your classmate like this, no matter what, he is also kind..."

Chen Peng said, "Hello again, Uncle. I really didn't think so much here. I just thought about what would be good and brought it to you. Then we will change it to something lighter, haha."

Gao Tong gritted his teeth, and endured it without attacking.

He sent his father to the ward, and found that the room was also full of New Year's goods. His mother was picking and choosing with a beaming face. Seeing him and his father coming in, she hurriedly said, "Hey Tongtong, your classmate is here!"

Gao Tong replied, I know.

He looked around, the anger in his heart became more and more uncontrollable, and he only whispered: "Mom, I will go out and come back later." The moment he went out, he turned around and saw the excitement on his face. With the satisfied mother, she said bitterly: "Those New Year's goods, please don't move..."

The woman didn't know what happened, but she listened to her son and obediently withdrew her hand.

When Gao Tong went out, he saw Chen Peng waiting outside.

"Chen Peng." He looked directly at the other party and took a deep breath: "What are you doing here?"

"Today's class reunion, don't you forget?"

Gao Tong clenched his fist and let it go.He tried his best to reply in a steady voice: "Before, didn't I just say that I couldn't let go."

"Didn't you say it depends on the situation at that time." Chen Peng looked him up and down: "And we heard that uncle was sick, so we specially bought some supplements together. If you think these are not suitable, you can change them to other things at that time. Now I see that uncle is recovering well, so come and have a meal with us."

"No, I'm going to have a New Year's Eve dinner with my family today, and my parents have to take care of it, so it's not convenient for me to go out." Gao Tong flatly refused, and said coldly: "And we don't need these new year's goods, you can take them away, thank you is you."

"..." With an unbelievable expression on Chen Peng's face, he frowned and said, "Gao Tong, there is something wrong with you. Just give away all this stuff and let me take it back?"

"Otherwise. Where did you get the news of my father's illness?" Gao Tong said calmly.

Chen Peng was at a loss for words for a moment, and before he could say anything, Gao Tong yelled back, "Not only this class reunion, but also every gathering and group activity in the future, don't call me. I don't know you well."

After Gao Tong finished speaking, he smiled slightly.He suddenly felt very relaxed, and his heart, which had been tugged up from the beginning just now, finally fell down.He said, "Do you want me to send you away?"

He saw that Chen Peng gritted his teeth fiercely, with a violent expression on his face, but he didn't attack.

"Gao Tong, are you really not coming?" He squinted his eyes to observe Gao Tong's expression, with a look of superiority: "Brother Bai will come to this party. You will not forget that you treated him... ..."

A sense of vomiting surged up.

Gao Tong almost forgot what to say, he even felt a large handful of salt water poured into his ears, gurgling, the water rushed down his ears, and was about to rise again and again in his stomach.

"I'll count to three." He reluctantly said, "Three counts...if you don't leave here, I'll ask the security to chase you away."

He could hardly see Chen Peng clearly, he only saw that the other party seemed to be pointing at him and said something, and finally left with his hands.

Gao Tong stood there for a while, until the distorted and oppressive feeling slowly dissipated, then turned and returned to the ward.As soon as I went back, I heard my mother ask: "Why do you look so bad?"

Gao Tong waved his hands, sat on the chair, covered his mouth with his hands folded.

He was still nauseous.

"Then these New Year's goods..."

He heard his mother ask cautiously.Gao Tong raised his eyes, his eye sockets were bloodshot, and his face was flushed with a light blush, "Let's put it there first, and I'll trouble someone to send it back later."

After resting for a while, Gao Tong planned to ask the restaurant to deliver the New Year's Eve dinner ordered a few days ago, so he went to the window to make a phone call.The other side of the restaurant was extremely lively and noisy, Gao Tong raised his voice a little to explain clearly.During this period, it seemed that someone knocked on the door, but when his mother opened the door, he didn't care.

After putting down the phone, Gao Tong let out a sigh of relief, and while talking about the restaurant saying it would be delivered in an hour, he turned his head and then froze.

"you……"

Chen Peng was sitting by the bed, glanced at him but ignored him, and said to his parents: "Uncle and aunt, I'm back again, hahaha!"

"Come on, sit here!" The woman was putting away the clothes that had been left aside, and said earnestly: "Oh, our ward has not been cleaned up, it's a mess, you can just make it up and sit here. Classmate, eat How about some bananas and oranges?"

Gao Tong was stunned in place.

"No, no, no, auntie, I'm here to discuss something with you today." Chen Peng glanced at him with a half-smile, and said, "Today we have a high school reunion, and everyone misses Gao Tong a lot. Let me borrow Gao Tong from you for a while, go to have some food and then meet with the classmates. Gao Tong also wants to go, I am afraid that you will not agree..."

Gao Tong grabbed the phone so hard that his fingertips were slightly white.He didn't expect Chen Peng to make a comeback with such shameless reasons, so that he was going to attend a class reunion over and over again, so what?

"No problem, no problem!" The woman quickly replied: "Tongtong, you go, I was wondering why you were so unhappy just now, so you wanted to go to the class reunion. Don't worry, let's go here There is nothing you need to take care of, just eat more and have fun."

The father responded from the side: "Yes, attend more parties and make more friends..."

Chen Peng came over, "Yes, have fun with us, we are old classmates, we haven't seen each other for so many years, everyone misses you very much."

He put his arm around Gao Tong's shoulder from behind, and said affectionately as if he was acquainted with a friend.

At that moment, Gao Tong only felt that he could not speak, he avoided the other party nervously as if he had touched a piece of iron, and said in a low voice, I will not go.

--I dont go.don't go.

"Oh, what's there to be embarrassed about." Chen Peng smiled, and he spread his hands helplessly at Gao Tong's parents: "Gao Tong High School is like this, I don't feel embarrassed about doing anything, and I don't like to talk..."

"Yeah, we're also worried about this." The woman put away her clothes, and sat aside and looked at them with relief: "It's really kind of you classmates, you can still remember my family Tongtong now. Tongtong is This kind of personality is so boring that he doesn't even chat with us, you should take him with you, let him be more lively and cheerful, and talk more."

The man spoke up: "Yes, only people of your age have common topics to talk about, and we all have a generation gap..."

Gao Tong repeated, "I won't go."

He stood where he was, leaning against the radiator, his thin and frail body seemed to be shaking.He faltered and opened his mouth, lowered his eyebrows and eyes, unable to speak.

Then he was pulled up by a strong force. Chen Peng pulled his arm and said with a playful smile: "Then I will take Gao Tong away! I will send it back to you at that time!"

"All right, all right," his mother said. "Have fun! I'll take you downstairs!"

"Oh, don't worry about it, Auntie, we're leaving now." Chen Peng was so powerful that he took Gao Tong out while smiling.

Unexpectedly, when he got to the door, Gao Tong grabbed the edge of the door suddenly, as if he had gone crazy, he couldn't pull it away, and he still murmured not to go.

However, he was pulled out in the end. None of his parents noticed his strange behavior, and they only thought it was because their son was silent and shy, and embarrassed to attend the party.

"It's good to let my son practice and hang out with people more," Gao Liqun said in the ward, "He's just too bored."

"Yeah, I think his classmates are pretty good. It's been so many years and I still miss Tongtong."

"He didn't pass the college entrance examination at that time, probably that's why he was embarrassed to meet his classmates, haha, it will be fine in the future."

At this time, Chen Peng and Gao Tong took the elevator down to the first floor.

The two walked silently.Gao Tong's face was so pale that even the light blue blood vessels were exposed. He licked his dry lips several times, and when he was almost at the door, he finally whispered: "Come here."

Just stop here.As long as there is no intersection, he will forget all the past, just treat him as cowardly and cowardly, and the past should dissipate with the wind, so be it.

Chen Peng stopped in his tracks.

"Let me tell you the truth, no one has any malice. We all want to apologize to you." He looked at Gao Tong several times with scrutiny, and finally sighed, saying: "Why do you always react so strongly? ?”

Gao Tong murmured, "Why do I react so strongly?"

Looking at Chen Peng's face, he even wanted to laugh.

You are not the one who has fallen to this point, so what right do you have to question me?

He was silent for a while, and finally said: "I have never been a generous person. Talking to you calmly now is the biggest concession I can make. Don't make things difficult for me anymore."

Chen Peng said: "I've come here all the time, you can take a look first. It will really make you uncomfortable, so you can just leave."

Gao Tong shook his head, "I'm going back, I wish you all a good time."

With that said, he turned around and pressed the elevator button again.In an instant, his arm was tightly twisted by the other party, and the other party said: "Gao Tong, I want to talk and discuss, but you won't listen?"

"Let go of me!" Gao Tong roared, his whole body tensed up as if on guard, panting lightly.

At this time, the elevator opened, Gao Tong quickly pulled out his hand and ran in!

However, I personally have a much better physique than Gao Tong, who is weak and does not exercise all day long, not to mention that those tendons that Chen Peng's circle of friends have tanned are also trained with real guns.He grabbed Gao Tong's arm suddenly, and pulled him out with all his strength——

"Let go, let go..."

He could only utter a faint cry.

Gao Tong was dragged out of the hospital gate by Lianla. A black Bentley was parked at the gate. Chen Peng opened the door and pushed him in.

As soon as he got in, the car door was locked, and he couldn't open it no matter what. The other party got into the car and sat in front of him.Gao Tong couldn't bear it any longer, he gritted his teeth and roared angrily: "Is there something wrong with you--"

The other party laughed and didn't answer him.

Gao Tong's hand was firmly gripping the door, his nails scratched a few marks on the expensive car door, he was shaking convulsively, pulling the door handle over and over again.

"Drive." Chen Peng told the driver, and then cursed impatiently: "My uncle, please calm down, it's all here."

Gao Tong suddenly coughed several times, and the more forceful he coughed, his lungs were about to come out.He clutched the car seat tightly, but the plush cushion mat couldn't give him any warmth.

However, someone beside him suddenly handed a piece of paper.Gao Tong didn't notice that there was someone beside him, and was suddenly startled.

This is a slender hand with well-defined joints. There is a luxury watch on the wrist, and there is a somewhat familiar clear smell.

He looked up suddenly.

"--haven't seen you for a long time."

The man said softly.A pair of eyes as calm as water stared at him lightly.

Gao Tong still held the piece of paper in his hand and looked at the other party.

Such a look at each other seems to engulf him into the incomplete and distorted space-time tunnel, and he travels back to his boyhood in a flash.The ruthless years have separated endless regrets, remorse and pain... After going through reincarnation, I finally returned to the present.

Bo Xiuwen...

The car started slowly.The thick black sky is wrapped in the boundless night, like an impenetrable net, dotted with stars, sailing towards the endless distance.