Abnormal

Since the traffic visibility is still very low, artificial rainfall can not improve the slightest improvement, the government has not lifted the smog warning order.This is great, everyone has not been home for nearly two weeks, complaining and suffering, but fortunately the school has a bathroom where you can take a shower, otherwise everyone would be smelly.

Gao Tong will intentionally avoid the bathing time of most of his classmates. He is afraid of embarrassment—not because he is afraid of being naked, but because he has a bad relationship with his classmates, so he will consciously avoid all group activities.Not to mention taking a shower.

Recently, even the self-study has been cancelled, and the teacher directly left homework for them to come back to check when the time comes.When Gao Tong returned to the dormitory after dinner, he found that there was no one there. Then he remembered that they said they would meet in the library to study last night, and they should be there by now.

He hasn't showered for a week, his hair is greasy and dirty, and he has a sour smell all over his body. Now he can't drag it anymore. It just so happens that other students are in the library, so they probably won't meet each other in the bathroom at this time...

Gao Tong debated whether to do homework first or take a bath first, but in the end he couldn't take it anymore, feeling that if he didn't wash his hair, he would get lice, so he packed up, took towels and toiletries, and went to the bathroom.

There were a lot of people in the bathhouse, so Gao Tong quickly took off his clothes and went in.The smog was lingering outside, but it was the same scene inside. The water mist evaporated, and people's faces and limbs were hidden in the clouds of steam, which gave Gao Tong a little sense of security.He walked through the crowd and finally found an empty shower head, and hurried to wash it.

When the hot water rushes straight down, the fatigue of the week is finally swept away.Gao Tong let out a long sigh of relief, turned around and was about to squeeze some shampoo, when he glanced at the door and entered a few people from the corner of his eye——

The height of these people has caught up with the basketball team, and they even have to lower their heads slightly when entering the door to avoid being scratched.A tall person may not be enough to attract attention, but a group is enough to attract people's attention.However, among these few people, there is one person who stands out the most.His figure is well-proportioned, with broad shoulders, narrow waist and long legs. His tall body is covered with a smooth and muscular texture, and his...

Gao Tong hurriedly turned around, with his face almost buried in his shoulders, he grabbed a handful of shampoo and began to wash his hair.

——Bai, Bai Xiuwen.

The other party has such a gentle and beautiful face, how could there be such, such a hideous and terrifying size?

He was wearing glasses in the shower, and although there was a layer of fog floating on it, he could still see clearly.As the opponent walked, the crotch part also swayed slightly - it was too big, the people next to him were like shells compared to him, let me go, how could it be so big...

Gao Tong complained wildly in his heart for a while, and after swallowing a few mouthfuls of saliva, he felt his face was astonishingly hot. Seeing that his entire neck and shoulders were burnt pink, he thought again, there are really too many people in this bathhouse, and it is too hot.

The other party should be coming to this compartment, which is on the left side of Gao Tong. Seeing that he was getting closer and closer, he hurriedly turned his back to the outside, took the body lotion and wiped it on his body in a disorderly manner. .

Simply because the other party probably didn't notice him, he sighed slowly when he heard the footsteps disappearing behind him.

Unexpectedly, after a while, the students in his class entered the bathhouse one by one. He even saw Zhang Yuanlong, and the other party seemed to see him too.Although there was no reaction, Gao Tong still felt uncomfortable. There happened to be a vacant seat in the opposite cubicle, and Gao Tong took the toiletries there to wash as soon as he figured it out.

The condition of the cubicle is not bad, there is a frosted glass to block it, and there is a plastic chair, so Gao Tong finally feels relieved.He covered the chair with a plastic film and sat to rest. He rushed for too long just now, which caused him to feel a little dizzy with low blood pressure.

However, he did not expect such a break to pass the whole afternoon.

Gao Tong was awakened by a slight sound. When he woke up, his eyes were full of gold stars and his head was buzzing. He shook his head vigorously, only then realized that he had fallen asleep on that stool.

The skin is blistered and wrinkled.

Gao Tong yawned and planned to get up and go back to the dormitory.However, as soon as he stood up, he fell forward uncontrollably, with a 'bang', and his face fell on the door glass.He hissed in pain, rubbed his head helplessly, packed his things and left the compartment.Just after walking two steps, the door of the next compartment swung open.

Gao Tong glanced back subconsciously, paused, and wondered why the two men took a shower together.

One of the slightly taller boys swept him up and down, then turned his head and slammed the cubicle door shut.Gao Tong didn't understand what it meant, and somehow went out of the bathroom to the locker room.

It was only when he was changing clothes that he realized something was wrong.Just now he thought he was woken up by the sound of rushing water, but now that he thinks about it, it sounds like the sound of flesh hitting, but it was drowned out by the sound of water, what's going on?

Could it be beating someone? !

Gao Tong was startled, his expression became complicated, he didn't know whether to go back to save people or pretend he didn't see it.

After a long period of psychological struggle, Gao Tong still decided to go and see what was going on.There is no other reason, he has been treated like this before, and he can fully understand the despair and helplessness of the victim at that time.At that time, how much he longed for someone to come and save him, anyone would be fine.Then Bai Xiuwen came.

There was no one in the bathroom, Gao Tong walked to the cubicle, exhaled heavily, and knocked on the door.

It's not that he hasn't considered the consequences of doing so, it's nothing more than being beaten up, but it's nothing if he can save someone.What's more, he is not easy to provoke, he is also a man, he can...

He fantasizes about the great scene where he becomes a hero, and he bravely opens the door to stop the school violence and save the boy, just like Bai Xiuwen did back then.

The door opened.

The person who opened the door was not the tall man I saw just now, but the thin boy who had been hiding inside.When the other party looked at him, he was obviously disappointed, rolled his eyes and said, "Why?"

Gao Tong paused for a moment. He saw that the boy's eyes were red and his body was bruised and purple. This really confirmed his guess.However, he didn't know how to speak, so he just asked in a low voice, "You...do you need help?"

"What are you meddling in?" The boy replied angrily, "Go away."

Gao Tong was so fierce that he took a step back. At this time, the tall boy came back, saw him "tsk", frowned and said, "Who the hell are you? Get out!"

"..." Gao Tong looked at the two people at a loss, and finally said sorry and ran out.

He returned to the dormitory a little glumly, and saw that several other roommates were lying in bed. After entering the door, someone said, "Hurry up and clean up, and turn off the lights when you're done."

He didn't answer, took out the desk lamp and papers from the drawer, turned off the light and went to bed.However, just as he sat down, he suddenly heard Bai Xiuwen ask, "Where did you go?"

Gao Tong was stunned, and subconsciously replied: "Ah, I, that, I went to take a shower." He stumbled and was extremely nervous.For some reason, as soon as I heard the deep voice of the other party, I remembered the scene of seeing him in the bathhouse in the afternoon, and I couldn't organize the words.

The other party was silent for a while, then hummed lightly.

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After the second year of high school, the academic tasks are even more arduous.The dean attaches great importance to their class, and often visits the class for inspections and meetings, and often invites well-known alumni to give speeches to motivate them to study.

Gao Tong's grades improved a bit, but he found that his concentration had dropped dramatically—it was difficult for him to concentrate, whether it was in class or self-study; he couldn't get up early, and he couldn't stay up late. The old doctor in the hospital saw that the other party took some medicine for him, and only said that he should pay attention to rest and adjust his nerves.

In fact, Gao Tong also felt that there was something wrong with his body.Due to years of high tension, he often suffers from temple pain, and his hypotension is much more serious than before, but there is nothing to do about it. There is only one year left, and it will pass.

There was another thing that puzzled Gao Tong.Some time ago, he just felt that he and Bai Xiuwen were getting closer, and the other party returned to that indifferent and cold appearance. Although there was no difference on the surface, Gao Tong still felt a little strange.

After class this day, he ran to the toilet, but when he entered the toilet, someone grabbed the back of his neck by the collar, and he was punched unexpectedly——

"Are you fucking gay?" He heard an extremely familiar voice, it was Zhang Yuanlong, and the other party couldn't believe it: "Fuck, you are so fucking disgusting!"

Gao Tong covered his nose and felt a handful of bright red blood.This punch directly made his eyes stare, and he only replied in a low voice: "...what..."

Another punch came.

This hit directly hit his lower abdomen, and Gao Tong retched directly.He has been feeling unwell for the past few days, so he drank a bowl of porridge in the morning, and vomited it all up, dripping onto Zhang Yuanlong's sneakers.

"Sure enough, what you said at the beginning is right. You are a fucking rabbit and a bitch. No wonder you can't get hard when watching AV. You are not a normal person!" Zhang Yuanlong felt disgusted, and he spat on Gao Tong's face with a bah , "Chen Peng, what did the kid in the next class say?"

The glasses were pulled off directly, Gao Tong barely raised his head, his eyelashes were covered with coughed up tears, his head was covered with sweat, and his nose was bleeding all over.

Standing opposite him, Chen Peng looked at him with a gloomy expression, walked in front of him a few times, and finally said: "Tell me about you, who is not good for you, but why did you choose Brother Bo? That's the kind of thing you should know, you know?"

"I didn't... cough, cough cough... ah!" He was directly kicked to the ground, and his hair was pulled up suddenly.

"Help, help... Please, please..." It was so painful that he couldn't help but let out a broken cry for help.However, when the people in other classes saw how the bullies Chen Peng and Zhang Yuanlong dared to come forward, they all sneaked out after going to the toilet.

"Did you see Brother Bai in the bathhouse once?" The other party pinched his face and asked him.

"I just saw him, I didn't do anything else..."

"What the hell were you doing in the bathroom all afternoon?"

"..." Gao Tong panted heavily and painfully, he squeezed out words bit by bit: "I accidentally fell asleep..."

Zhang Yuanlong and Chen Peng looked at each other, and Chen Peng said coldly: "What the hell are you making up? Brother Bai has been so good to you, and even protected you so much, you just repay him like this? Are you disgusting?"

"No……"

He knelt on the spot trembling, trembling and twitching.He didn't know what to say to convince the other party, he didn't have any thoughts about Bai Xiuwen, he just longed to be an ordinary friend with that person.

He knew he was wrong, he didn't dare to try to be friends with that god again, he didn't know why things would develop like this...

Immediately afterwards, countless fists and feet landed on his body, like a torrential rain, and heart-piercing pain descended.He couldn't even resist, so he curled up to cover his head and abdomen.

—The school bell rang.

Several people scolded him viciously, and kicked him before leaving.

Gao Tong almost lost consciousness, and after an unknown period of time, he slowly got up by touching the ground covered in black mud.

At this time, the toilet door suddenly opened.Gao Tong was so frightened that he leaned to the side, thinking that someone came back and wanted to beat him up.But it wasn't. Someone should just come in to wash his hands. He heard the sound of running water, and then the faucet was turned off, and the water dripped down slowly, tick-tock.

Gao Tong stood up, supported the wall and walked out little by little. He didn't see the person who just came in until he was near the door of the toilet.The man was tall and slender, his profile was shrouded in shadow, and he was slowly wiping his hands with a paper towel.

Gao Tong was stunned on the spot suddenly, his heart stopped and his body became stiff.

The other party turned around and looked at him with a sinking face.

"Need paper?"

Gao Tong looked at the other party, took a few steps back as if shivering, and then shook his head.

"I didn't expect the beating to be so bad." Bai Xiuwen chuckled, he threw the wiped tissue into the trash can, his expression normal: "Then I'm going to class first, do you want to ask for a leave?"

He said lightly, then turned around and grabbed the doorknob.The door creaked open.

At this time, there was a faint cry from behind him, Gao Tong whispered his name, Bai Xiuwen.

Bai Xiuwen looked at him expressionlessly.

"I don't. I'm really not gay..." Gao Tong said awkwardly, he supported the cold wall of the toilet, trembling under the other's gaze, "That day, that day was because..."

He got stuck at this point, and he didn't know what to say.

Why?Who will believe him?

Was it the two boys who said he was gay that day?He even said that he had thoughts about Bai Xiuwen?

Gao Tong closed his mouth again, breathing helplessly and weakly.

Then he saw a slight smile on the other party's face, and said indifferently: "You still have to be more careful in the future. Although I don't care much about this kind of thing, it will inevitably feel a little disgusting." After a pause, he continued: "You don't need to return that dress to me, just throw it away."

Then without waiting for Gao Tong's reply, he turned and went out.

The door closed with a bang, and Gao Tong's ears also made a loud roar.It was as if someone had inserted scissors straight into his ear, sinking down with the vortex of the cochlea.

He washed his face silently, wiped off the black mud bit by bit, and returned to the dormitory.He packed his things, asked for leave for the first time, and got on the bus back to the county on Monday morning.When his parents saw him come back with a bruised nose, a swollen face and a wound all over, they asked what was going on in amazement and distress, but Gao Tong was just silent—an infinite, endless silence.

He took a shower and went back to his room. He looked at the three-good student certificates all over the wall for a long time, staring blankly and in a daze until the sun was setting and he finally fell into a deep dream.

Suddenly, he heard someone calling his name, Tongtong, Tongtong.He smelled the tempting aroma of the food again, and heard his mother gently calling him up for dinner, and we will go pick up Qiuqiu together later...

So contented, happy to wake up.

Huangliang dreamed.He looked around his surroundings.The white area is the hospital.Gao Tong was stunned and wiped his face indiscriminately, it was all wet.

What happened afterwards?

What happened later is not worth mentioning, it is mostly due to the circumstances in the world, it is inevitable that there will be ups and downs, and he is only to blame for his own bad luck.After that, he never said a word to Bai Xiuwen, maybe this way he could not make the other party feel disgusted, but later on Bai Xiuwen seldom lived in the school, and the two of them had very little chance to contact each other.

Gao Tong's grades plummeted. Teachers and deans of various subjects talked to him, but to no avail. In the end, he failed the college entrance examination. Regardless of his parents' objections, he insisted on choosing a place far away from his hometown.

It's just that he never started a new life.He wanders in the past, in the nightmares of the past, step by step, walks through every corner of life, lives lonely and selfishly, casually and radically, and gradually steps into the sea of ​​mediocrity.

He also had great ideals and teenage dreams, but now, when he wakes up from the dream, his fantasies shattered into bits and pieces of glass.

People usually think that life is long.It was only when I looked back at the past that I suddenly realized that it was probably such a flash of effort, how many years have passed by.

Gao Tong stood up unsteadily and walked out of the lounge. He saw his mother and sister falling asleep on the bench.Just then, the lights in the operating room went out, the door was suddenly opened, and a doctor in a white coat came out.

"Gao Liqun's family members, right?" The doctor seemed very tired, with blue-gray circles around his eyes.Even so, he said seriously and patiently: "The operation was successful. Now the patient is resting."

The tears could no longer be stopped, Gao Tong's lips trembled a few times, and he knelt down to the other party with a plop.He frantically kowtowed a few times, thump, thud—"Thank you, thank you doctor! Thank you..."

After so many years, he still doesn't know how to express his gratitude. The gratitude of a person like him is too light and humble, but this is the only thing he has.

The sound of kowtowing woke up the sleeping women and girls in an instant. After learning about the situation, the women and children also knelt down together, banging on the clean floor tiles of the hospital.They cried until their noses and tears came out, and they kept saying thank God.

Gao Tong hugged his mother and sister tightly together.His gaze penetrated the glass door of the operating room where life and death were decided. At that moment, it seemed that he had traveled through time and space again, and returned to the enthusiastic and blooming boyhood.

In the vast time and space, it seemed that a solemn and simple voice was torturing him.

——"What is the thing you regret the most? How does this matter affect your next life?"

some.some……

Amidst the great malice of the world, in the grand human world, until now, the only thing he has figured out is:

He simply, should not exist.